I understand this is slightly dumb to do this over a text message, but it's something I feel like is the best way to bring it out. Take it out of the closest to showcase the beautiful mess of identity I am. As I'm pretty sure you are already pretty damn aware, I'm pansexual..well I mean like I think it is but it's like pansexual but I lean more heavily towards those who identify under the label she/her they/them. I don't know why it's just that I struggle to click in THAT way with you know b o i s anymore. I know, it's weird. But yeah it's important to say that. But that's the first thing I know oh my god there is more to this lovely little novel of a text. So I guess this is the page 596 Harry potter and the Half Blood Prince. The big kahuna plot twist of my existence. You know like the black hole scene in Interstellar. Yes I went there. And this is stalling even though this is over message. But yeah Since 2017 to be exact October 20th. I know right your damn birthday. I have identified under the pronouns of She/Her, but recently it's shifted from a full female identity to a They/Them She/Her. But yeah that's right you don't have a son and not really a daughter you have an ambiguous child. One other thing. I don't identify under "Blake"anymore. I will admit this name has been dead for me since 2017. I prefer to go under the name "Alyxandrah" yes I know not "Alexandra" yeah it's not like 1745. And also "Alyxandrah" is strongly preferred. I am most commonly referred to as Alyx by those who know. That explains my password doesn't it. But yeah this is a big part of me. My dysphoria is less about my physical appearance and more centered around the social and mental state. But that doesn't mean I like my masculinity in my appearance. My desires for appearance is something ambiguous. Neutral not masculine or feminine. The voice is something I don't mind due to me being aware I can't change it. I feel like the best way to describe this identity is as a demigirl, which isn't trans but isn't full non-binary for me. Demigirl is best described as  partial. Some days I'm more she/her others more they/them. So there is a definite slight fluidity in there. Another note of this is that the club is aware of this. These feelings are why I went, as a way to have being called the desired identification in person while I built up confidence to this moment. Dani/Jack and most people online I'm friends with are aware and respect this.