Oregairu Vol 12, Interlude 3

Oregairu V12 Interlude 3

Credit to goodguytelsa for translating this interlude.

===BEGIN INTERLUDE 3===
It’s a good thing that my tears stopped at that moment.

It really surprised me that they suddenly began to appear out of nowhere. I was a bit careless. Good thing I was able to fool him and cover that up well.

Good thing that I was able to hide it so quickly. Good thing that he left so quickly. Good thing that he didn’t come back to find me immediately.

He wouldn’t be able to move from there, if I started to cry, after all.

That’s why, it’s a good thing that my tears had stopped.

Good thing that I didn’t end up looking like a pitiful girl in front of him. He would help me again if he saw me that way. He is my hero after all.

If my friends had any troubles or worry, he would definitely go help them. He is my hero, after all.

He had always been my hero from the very beginning, after all.

He had already saved me before, after all.

It’s because my “one day” had already passed.

It’s because of that, he no longer needed to continue being my hero. I just wanted him to stay by my side.

It’s because I knew that he was my hero, that I’m fine with feeling hurt.

I couldn’t tell him ‘Don’t go’.

I couldn’t ask him ‘Why do you want to help her?’

I didn’t want to say to him ‘Please don’t be kind to her any more.’

I understand precisely what she was thinking and what she had in mind, and yet I couldn’t give up, or give in, or deny things like she did.

These are things that are so simple to do, yet I couldn’t do any of them.

I couldn’t just determine that ‘it’s all her fault; it’s all her to blame’.

I depend on her, just like how she depends on him, after all.

I am the one who pushed everything over to her, after all.

For that reason, I should be feeling fine by now. But why? My tears won’t stop.

It would’ve been nice, if my tears hadn’t stopped at that moment.

===END V12===