Selfish surrender transcript

I know you've been working really hard lately. There's always so much to do, isn't there? So many things to focus on, so much to worry about. So many things demanding your attention. It's tiring, I know. It makes little refuges like my voice and getting to just sink into that, to serve, to please, to dedicate yourself to something that just feels good. Makes that all the more valuable, doesn't it? It makes that floaty feeling that comes over while you're listening, those wonderful, slow thoughts, the result of dropping to my voice. It's so needed, isn't it? But sometimes you can go even further that that. Just really indulge in being selfish for a bit. Taking what you need, focusing on that, making the most of it. Wouldn't that feel good to just really let go for a little while? Let me help you with that. Let me help you really feel your best. Take what you need. Do what feels best for you. Give yourself permission to be selfish. It's not always a bad thing. After all, if you want to be selfless you need to make sure you're resourced properly for doing that, don't you? You need to make sure that you're feeling good enough to be able to... be giving. And sometimes a little bit of selfishness can be exactly what you need for that, can't it? So let yourself relax right now. Let yourself sink right now and give in, give in to how good it feels to just accept that you're going to be selfish for a while. That I'm going to help you feel the best you possibly can. Give you everything you need to let you just indulge in that. Feel so good in that, relax so far into that. Good. That's a good toy. That's right. Feeling so positive about taking such a good step. Already feeling good, aren't you? Just listening, just knowing that you're going to get to indulge can make you feel wonderful. Feeling so good right now as you sink into my words, as you relax, as you drop. And once, just this once, not dropping for me, dropping for you. Dropping so you can get what you need. Dropping as a reward, as a treat, something special. Dropping because it makes you feel so good. And we're going to find what makes you feel the best and make sure you get it. What makes you feel so wonderful. Good toy. That's right. Relaxing so far into my words, into my voice, letting me give you that wonderful gift of peace, relaxation, emptiness. Letting me think for you. You don't need to be putting yourself out like that. Just be selfish. Just let yourself relax and enjoy what's going to make you feel the best you possibly can. Such a good toy you are. You earned this. You deserve this break. That's right. So let's have a think about things that make you feel good. There's pleasure, isn't there, you can let my words bring you pleasure. Maybe you can feel a little taste of that now. A warm glow or something even more intense than that burning in you. Glowing my words, igniting that, feeding that, a fuel to make you feel so very good as you listen, as each word just increases that sensation, makes you feel better and better. Good. Well done. That's right. That feels good, doesn't it? I can just give you pleasure like that. And that would be wonderful. I could let you feel just empty and spacey, feeling your thoughts drifting away so far, giving you a moment of being completely empty. Knowing that there's nothing you need to worry about at all, that you're so blank, that you can just enjoy not having to choose, decide or think. Not being able to choose or decide or think. Just accepting that I can do that for you, being selfish about that, letting me take on that work for you as you fall away. Good toy. What makes you feel the best? That pleasure, that peace, all those wonderful sensations that run through you. The The satisfaction of knowing you're doing exactly what you're meant to. The pleasure of knowing that I'm pleased with you, that I'm enjoying this, but... well, on reflection, I know exactly what makes you feel the best. And because it's good for you to be selfish like this, to really indulge in that, I'm going to give it to you. And we both know what makes you feel the absolute best is serving. Is pleasing me. Is dedicating yourself, pushing yourself to submit, to surrender, to give more, to fall deeper, to serve and please and entertain and suffer and submit. That's what feels the very best, isn't it? And because I'm so dedicated to helping you be selfish right now, I'm going to give you that chance. I'm going to help you by not giving you a choice, you don't even need to decide. You can just drop and give in. Give in to what's going to feel so good and that's your subjugation, that's your surrender, that's you slipping deeper into my words, that's you accepting your place at my feet, that's you accepting that everything you do is to serve and please and submit. Good toy. That's right. The best way you can be rewarded, the best way you can treat yourself is accepting: this is what you're for. Is accepting this is why you're here, to serve, to be good, to sacrifice for me, to surrender for me. Well done. The most selfish thing you can be doing right now, the most self-care-y, indulgent, delicious thing you can do is decide to submit and dedicate yourself more to me. Sacrifice your time, sacrifice your money, sacrifice your mind to me. And so I'm giving you that opportunity, I'm encouraging you to do what's going to be so selfish. This is all for you. This is just because you need it, just because it's what makes you the best, what makes you feel the best, what makes you fall the best, what makes you feel so fucking good. That selfishness is giving in, is giving up, is giving me everything. Is finding ways to submit more, finding ways to dedicate more, finding ways to give me everything that you can. Your mind's twisting already, finding things that you can do, twisting more to follow me, to find my words so much more intoxicating, to find this feeling so much better because that serves and that makes you feel good. All of this making you feel so wonderful, everything filling you with that pleasure, with that joy, with that wonderful sensation of knowing this is what's best for you. This is the most selfish thing you could be doing right now, is giving in to that urge to give me everything. I'm treating you to treating me. I'm letting you have what you need the most and what you need the most is to dedicate yourself to my pleasure, to my satisfaction, to my delight in you. Good toy, that's right, you're doing so well for me, sinking and falling away into this. Melting so well for me, such a pleasing thing you are. Yeah... good toy. Well done. And as you slip into it, as you sacrifice, as you fall deeper, well, if you're getting to be a little selfish, so do I, right? That's only fair. I've... given you so much, I'm... being so kind to you, dedicating myself right now to helping you be selfish, so I get to be a little selfish too, right? Get to look out for myself... after I'm sacrificing so much. So I'm going to do that too. Even as I provide you this so kind opportunity to sacrifice for me, when it comes to me being selfish, I'm going to claim even more than that. I'm going to take beyond what you're offering, claim it as my due. I get to be selfish too, and so I get to take what I want, and what I want is your mind, is your dedication, is your sacrifice, is your surrender, is everything you have to offer for me, is you pushing deeper, finding ways, any way you can to serve. To show your appreciation. I'm taking it, claiming it, making it mine. It does feel good to be selfish... to recognize that your discomfort... is fun, is something I can enjoy, to recognise that your sacrifice and your difficulty is mine to indulge in, to recognise that everything you have is better... spent... on me. How lucky that we can both be selfish together and both get what we need. Well, I'm going to bring you back up in a bit. And you get to indulge in that selfishness, in how good it feels to give in like that, how wonderful it feels to indulge. So have fun, my pleasing toy. Have fun being selfish. And, well. When you've had enough of being selfish, don't worry. I'll be right here, and you can go back to being selfless and dedicating to me in that way instead. Good toy. Every path leads deeper. As you find yourself returning. In five, four, three, two, and one.