An Ill-Advised Conversation

(7:29:04 PM) epiele|online: [You know what? Fuck it. Fuck it all. With a carrot stick.]
(7:29:07 PM) epiele|online: [You can't live this way.]
(7:29:12 PM) epiele|online: -- epinephrineElectrified [EE] has started pestering ontologyExpunged [OE] --
(7:29:20 PM) epiele|online: EE: I need to talk to you about something.
(7:30:26 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: Okay! What is it?
(7:30:26 PM) ontExp|offline: [That's not how he talks to you if it's just Game stuff.]
(7:30:53 PM) ontExp|offline: [You worry at the inside of your arm with your nails, your posture curls in around the laptop. What does he want?]
(7:31:51 PM) epiele|online: EE: I knew the person who you were before and I can't tell you two apart and she told me she killed herself but instead she scooped out everything she thought was her and it isn't working and I can't get to know you at all because if I try I'm afraid I'm going to mix you two up.
(7:31:58 PM) epiele|online: EE: That's
(7:31:59 PM) epiele|online: EE: all
(7:32:01 PM) epiele|online: EE: I guess
(7:32:10 PM) epiele|online: EE: Wait no I mean I can't tell you apart because of your body language, not because of the kind of person you are, that's different.
(7:32:20 PM) ontExp|offline: I
(7:32:25 PM) ontExp|offline: *OE: I
(7:33:01 PM) epiele|online: EE: Um
(7:33:02 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: what
(7:33:15 PM) epiele|online: EE: Wait what am I saying?
(7:33:18 PM) epiele|online: EE: I should shut up.
(7:33:26 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: why would you tel me something like this
(7:33:36 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: i don't want to know anything about her
(7:33:46 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: she's /dead/
(7:34:00 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: let her stay that way
(7:34:35 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: don't make me her
(7:34:40 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: don't make me her
(7:35:12 PM) ontExp|offline: [this is it. this is IT.]
(7:35:12 PM) ontExp|offline: [there's no way out anymore.]
(7:36:32 PM) epiele|online: EE: Because I can't live with it and I can't /not/ live with it and maybe I thought if you could help me figure it out but evidently you're not interested in that so maybe just
(7:37:28 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: just nothing
(7:37:45 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: i don't
(7:37:48 PM) ontExp|offline: OE: I can't
(7:38:27 PM) epiele|online: -- epinephrineElectrified [EE] has ceased pestering ontologyExpunged [OE] --
(7:38:43 PM) epiele|online: [You bang your head against your desk a couple times. You don't manage to knock yourself out.]
(7:38:51 PM) ontExp|offline: [You slam the laptop shut like it's a beast suddenly grown spines and about to attack.]
(7:39:29 PM) ontExp|offline: [You need to find somewhere to hide.]
(7:39:29 PM) ontExp|offline: [If only you could hide from yourself.]