9.6.18

I've been pretty quiet recently and am having some struggles. Nothing major but, a lot of small stuff I suppose.

Things have gotten to the worse job-wise. I at least have a job. Two of em. But I make tips and only one of them is providing decent income. Which is fine. I am getting by and a little more, but the whole reason I got more than one job was to save up for a permanent living situation. So, basically I'm on the lookout for a replacement to bring back the sustainability to save more.

I was working 4 jobs. But it's been too much. We're going back to two. I have a friend who recently told me he'd hook me up with a good job, so I hope that will work.

Mentally, I'm in a good spot. I'm trying not to let this get to me, but it dampers my mood still. Relationship-wise, I'm still with the same person I was with before. I've done some therapy and have worked out my issues. And plan to stay with that person and stick with it. It's not all negative if I dont let myself get that way and focus on minute things that shouldn't matter. I will, going forward plan to not talk about my personal relationship, out of stream courtesy. I tend to focus on the negative and that's all my peers hear. So that's coming to a stop.

Stream-wise. Right now I'm working less. And I will try to stream but there are still no promises. Being a food server, I go home when business either slows done or it reaches the time of close. So, I could stream more at this point, but my mood is also on the down-side. So it's going to be an inconsistent maybe.

We'll see. I'm crossing my fingers on one of two prospective good paying jobs. And if it reaches a certain threshold of income, I'll likely go down to the one job.

Update as of 9/6 --

I essentially work 1 job now. This is fine and dandy but I have a few financial goals. Put 20%down on a home, buy a new used car, and build a decent robust savings amount.

Since I work 1 job, this is enough to live but not save a lot. I've applied to 50 or so night jobs with no luck so far. Just bad timing I suppose.

At the same time, I dont know if I want to be a waiter 14 hours a day again. I really love my job, but I can't give good service when I'm on the brink of exhaustion and that bothers me. I'm looking into teaching English online 3-4 hours a night. Its perfect because the pay isn't bad $20-30 an hour and it's like China time so its when I'm awake and I can do it from anywhere.

It's making me think about moving some place in the country that's really cheap to do it, but I dont know about that yet.

I would love to stream part time and make money from that, but that itself is just a gamble that is better left to those that do have much more time than I have.