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Courtney!

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I had this sensation of someone
taking my hand, guiding me...

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I looked up and I saw this light.

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The giant wall of light. Brighter...

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All of a sudden,
I was in a different place.

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Pure energy.

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I fail to find words that can describe
what I experienced.

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At that point,
I had that out-of-body experience.

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I remember a feeling
of being sucked backwards,

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like being pulled through water.

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I wasn't having thoughts of my own.

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Answers, messages coming through me.

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Colors were so vivid.
Colors I've never seen before.

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Then I was pushed
right back into my body.

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I could actually see my body from above,

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like it was lifeless.

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And I was floating up...

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Everything I thought was important was

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dwarfed by this sense of love.

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And I could feel this pull,

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a force trying to drag me down
this black tunnel.

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Where is it taking me?

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I don't know what's going on.

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I think I'm going crazy.

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I'm seeing things.

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Something I did.

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I'm sorry.

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Hello, Lauren.

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How are you feeling?

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You had a seizure tonight.

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You're at Trinity
Emmanuel Medical Center.

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Lauren,

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do you know that your heart stopped?

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You were gone for several minutes,

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but the trauma team brought you back.

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Do you remember any of that?

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If you felt anything,
if you saw anything?

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Did you lose someone, sweetheart?

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She's in here.

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We're taking you to Imaging.
You'll be okay.

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One for transfer in five.

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Ready? One, two, three.

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Transfer from Holy Cross.

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38-year-old construction
worker, fell off a beam.

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Persistent coma. GCS 6.

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I'll page the resident.

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Already done. I got this.

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- Which one of you is in charge here?
- It's my intake.

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Actually, I'm the one on duty.

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I got it. I got it. Thank you.

51
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Standard procedure for a GCS 6 admit

52
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calls for two large-bore IVs
and diazepam on standby.

53
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Seizure meds won't do any good.

54
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Whatever is wrong is
in his spinal column, not his brain.

55
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And what medical protocol
are you citing?

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The protocol of actually living
in the real world,

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where guys with crappy HMOs
go undiagnosed for spinal injuries.

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Actually, he's on seizure meds,

59
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which is the medical protocol
of reading his chart.

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Shit. No, no, no.

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- Shit.
- What is it?

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Respiratory failure.

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He might be hemorrhaging.

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Page Neurosurgery, call a code,
and get CT on standby.

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Students, clear the room.

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Hey. What is it? What's wrong?

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Did you know that
there's 12 pairs of nerves

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just within the cranial area?

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The oculomotor, the trochlear,
the glossopharyngeal, and...

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Nine others whose names
I cannot remember.

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I cannot absorb any more terminology.

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I have, like, a rash on my arm.
I can't sleep.

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You know, my mother invested

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her entire life savings
into my education.

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Come on.

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Come on, that's enough suffering
for one night.

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Let's get out of here. Yeah?

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It's cold.

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We used to be friends, right?

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- What is...
- Like, our first year,

81
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when we would sit together at lecture.
Remember?

82
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And we'd, like,
go running and get coffee.

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Hang out. Do stuff.

84
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We're still friends, though.

85
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No, we don't talk.

86
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We just work and compete.

87
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Who's the fastest to make
a diagnosis of Bell's palsy?

88
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Quick, what's the seven
side effects of Ativan?

89
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You know, just last week,
a second-year committed suicide.

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God, Court, you're gonna be
such a good doctor.

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Medicine just, like, comes easy to you.

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You know, I think there's a way that
we could spend more time together.

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- What do you mean?
- Well, I'm just wondering

94
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if you'd help me on this little, like,

95
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extracurricular project
I've been working on.

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We have neuro shelf exams
in, like, 10 days.

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I don't really feel like
I'm gonna make it.

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Oh, Once One Takes The Anatomy Final,
Very Good Vacations Are Heavenly.

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- What?
- It's a mnemonic phrase.

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You use it to remember
the 12 cranial nerves.

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- Yeah.
- Thank you.

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You're welcome.

103
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But, yeah,
I really would love your help.

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Maybe.

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Hey.

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What's in those?

107
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First one's Mountain Dew
laced with Adderall.

108
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Other's a chaser of espressos.

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- Together, it's a liquid heart attack.
- Hey, Jamie.

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Jesus.

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Hey.

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"Hey, Jamie. " Where were you last night?

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Your eyes are still dilated.

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25-year-old female, admitted last night.

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Complaining of numbness on left side,
nausea, vomiting.

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Anything of note from the physical exam?

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Sees the color red differently between
left and right eye, and oral ulcers.

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Sophia, what test should we run?

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A lumbar puncture,
then MRl of the brain.

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Fine, but reverse the order.
Images first, then procedure.

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Preliminary diagnosis, Brad.

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- Pituitary cyst?
- No.

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Jamie.

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Jackie.

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- Stroke?
- My God.

126
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You need to do better than this.

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All of you.

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What do you think the largest
age demographic is in our society today?

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You.

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Young adults in their 20s, which means

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that there are at least
1,000 people waiting

132
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to take your spot.

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And we are not in the business of
training country club doctors,

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nor do we waste our time
on students who think

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that they can skate by
doing the least work necessary.

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We are here to educate students
who push themselves,

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those who are capable
of making new discoveries

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and actually move the dial
on human knowledge.

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And for those of you who think
that's too much,

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then you should leave.

141
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And by that, I mean now.

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Marlo, if I were to tell you

143
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that the patient's family
background was Mediterranean,

144
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i.e., Greek or Turkish,
what would the diagnosis be?

145
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I don't think you'll find it
in your notebook.

146
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It's Behcet's disease.

147
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Thank you, Ray.

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Moving on.

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Why are you working this event?

150
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You're a trust-fund kid.
You sleep on a sailboat.

151
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Yeah, but there's this
really hot caterer

152
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I've been trying to meet.

153
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Look at all these stodgy
old docs with their white wine

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and their golf games.

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I don't think it's such a bad life.

156
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I don't know about you,

157
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but I'm certainly not gonna spend
the next 40 years doing prostate exams.

158
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No one pays their dues anymore.

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Our generation,
it's all about entrepreneurship.

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Yeah, so what are you gonna do?

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I'm going to LA.

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Look at this face.

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I'm gonna be the Anderson Cooper
of celebrity medicine.

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Okay.

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"Hi, Mom. It's my afternoon check-in. "

166
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That's funny. Cool. Okay.

167
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You know there's nothing
I can do about her right now.

168
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Did she really move here
just to keep tabs on you?

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Hey, come on, look.

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- My station is full.
- Okay.

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You're so behind.

172
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Okay, sir, got to give you
a testicular exam.

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- Should just take a minute.
- What? No.

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- Excuse the reach.
- Wait a minute.

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I don't enjoy it either.

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Just close your eyes and pretend
I'm the candy-stripe girl.

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What? Get, get the hell off of me!

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Hold on.

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- Candy-stripe girl.
- Get...

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- No, wait a minute.
- Stop! What are you doing?

181
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He doesn't need a testicular exam.

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He doesn't?

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Come near me again, and I'm killing you.

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You know, I think I got mixed up.

185
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It says here the resident wanted

186
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a neural test for that guy,
not a testicular exam.

187
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I can't imagine how I passed
the wrong information to you.

188
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Very funny.

189
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Ray can be a real dick sometimes.
You guys notice that?

190
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I think he's intriguing.

191
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Let's go, people. No lunch break today.

192
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Every bed in the unit is full,
and we got referrals waiting in the ER.

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Get moving on afternoon rounds.

194
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Excuse me.

195
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Do you have plans tonight?

196
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First-years are having a wingding.

197
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Dorm punch and a deejay,
but I'm not above it.

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I can't wait
for the anesthesia rotation.

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Those guys have access
to the best drugs.

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Looking for this?

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Hell yeah.

202
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I found it on my nightstand.

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See you later.

204
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These second-years have no tact,

205
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coming up to me like that
in front of my colleague.

206
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Yeah, we're colleagues, aren't we?

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I mean, we have fun together.

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Yeah, kinda.

209
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Do you want to have fun with me later?

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Courtney Holmes, I am mildly surprised

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to be having this conversation with you.

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But offer accepted.

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Midnight, basement, sub level C.

214
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You want to meet me in the basement?

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Sublevel C, underneath the old building.

216
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And take the service elevator,

217
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'cause it doesn't have
surveillance cameras.

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Yeah. Good idea.

219
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No.

220
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Jesus!

221
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You're late.

222
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What are we doing down here?

223
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Come on, we don't have much time.

224
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Okay, Courtney, what's going on?

225
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It's past midnight.
I should be studying.

226
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We're almost there, okay?

227
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What is all of this?

228
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They put this in five years ago.

229
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In case of a natural disaster,
loss of power.

230
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It's a fully functioning hospital,
and it never gets used.

231
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Court, what exactly are you up to?

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Two of you.

233
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Jamie, what are you doing here?

234
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She didn't tell me
about you either, okay?

235
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But, I'm open to a three-way.

236
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Shut up.

237
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What?

238
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I like it.

239
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Scanners, cameras, our choice of beds.

240
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- We can be as loud as we want.
- Courtney, what's going on?

241
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I asked for his help, too.
He probably misinterpreted.

242
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You mean we're not getting it on?

243
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Wait, what are you talking about?

244
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I've been searching
for the region of the brain

245
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that is responsible
for near-death experiences.

246
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And these are postmortem scans

247
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of patients that have died
in this hospital.

248
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Is there any circumstance under which

249
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- you'd have sex with me?
- God, stop.

250
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Look, if the brain
is just another organ,

251
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why doesn't it just go dark and shut off

252
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at the moment of death?

253
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You know, why the floating?

254
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Why the white light?

255
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Why the sense of well-being?

256
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I mean, what is that experience?

257
00:16:03,712 --> 00:16:07,131
Is it chemical, or is it something else?

258
00:16:07,216 --> 00:16:10,635
Can we map that process
the way we map a seizure?

259
00:16:12,471 --> 00:16:16,349
What if we could actually document
what happens to us after we die?

260
00:16:16,892 --> 00:16:18,142
What do you mean?

261
00:16:18,435 --> 00:16:20,186
Nothing happens. We're dead.

262
00:16:20,521 --> 00:16:22,230
What if we could prove otherwise?

263
00:16:22,898 --> 00:16:27,026
Can you imagine
the residency offers you would get?

264
00:16:27,403 --> 00:16:28,820
And forget about Dr. Oz.

265
00:16:28,904 --> 00:16:32,490
I mean, you would be the world's
first specialist in the afterlife.

266
00:16:33,117 --> 00:16:35,451
Okay, you got my attention.

267
00:16:36,078 --> 00:16:37,620
Come on. This isn't science.

268
00:16:37,746 --> 00:16:39,122
This is pseudoscience.

269
00:16:39,331 --> 00:16:41,874
Well, maybe. Maybe not.

270
00:16:41,959 --> 00:16:45,294
But the only way to find out
is to see for ourselves.

271
00:16:46,797 --> 00:16:48,840
So I would like you both
to stop my heart.

272
00:16:52,678 --> 00:16:54,220
Look, I'll be in the imaging scanner.

273
00:16:54,304 --> 00:16:57,640
It will take real-time pictures
of my brain's hemodynamic activity.

274
00:16:57,975 --> 00:17:00,143
You give it one minute,
and then you bring me back.

275
00:17:00,269 --> 00:17:01,352
Wait, you're serious?

276
00:17:01,812 --> 00:17:04,439
- Stop your heart?
- This is propofol.

277
00:17:04,565 --> 00:17:06,315
Fifty milligrams will knock me out.

278
00:17:06,400 --> 00:17:07,775
I'll be wrapped in a cooling blanket,

279
00:17:07,860 --> 00:17:10,653
bringing my core body temperature
down to 86 degrees.

280
00:17:10,738 --> 00:17:11,988
And once that happens,

281
00:17:12,072 --> 00:17:15,324
you administer a defibrillator shock
to stop my heart.

282
00:17:15,784 --> 00:17:16,951
Wait a sec.

283
00:17:17,578 --> 00:17:19,495
Look, I've signed a release.
It's in my bag.

284
00:17:19,580 --> 00:17:22,081
It absolves you both
of any responsibility.

285
00:17:22,291 --> 00:17:24,876
Courtney, think about what
you're saying right now.

286
00:17:24,960 --> 00:17:27,628
Hey. Look, if she's insane enough to
try it, who are we to stop her?

287
00:17:27,838 --> 00:17:31,215
Look, I'm young, okay?
I'm in excellent health.

288
00:17:31,550 --> 00:17:34,218
You're both trained in
emergency medicine.

289
00:17:34,344 --> 00:17:37,472
So reviving me should be
very straightforward.

290
00:17:38,182 --> 00:17:40,141
Look, it's 12:18 now.

291
00:17:40,225 --> 00:17:42,935
I've checked the schedules
for security down here

292
00:17:43,020 --> 00:17:45,521
and cleaning crews.

293
00:17:45,606 --> 00:17:49,108
We have about 45 minutes,
so we should probably get going.

294
00:17:49,401 --> 00:17:51,402
What? This is crazy.
No, count me out of this.

295
00:17:51,487 --> 00:17:53,780
I am not helping you kill yourself.

296
00:17:54,364 --> 00:17:57,241
Well, then you can stand by the door
and make sure nobody comes in.

297
00:18:03,290 --> 00:18:05,333
Okay, remember, there's a magnet
in the scanner,

298
00:18:05,417 --> 00:18:07,210
so no keys or metal in the room.

299
00:18:07,294 --> 00:18:09,087
Look, we've got it.

300
00:18:10,172 --> 00:18:12,256
Wait, Jamie,
what if you can't bring her back?

301
00:18:12,549 --> 00:18:14,759
Then we burn her body,
work out our alibi,

302
00:18:14,885 --> 00:18:16,385
and pretend like nothing happened.

303
00:18:16,470 --> 00:18:17,970
And make sure
that the scanner's recording,

304
00:18:18,055 --> 00:18:20,848
because if not,
then this whole exercise is pointless.

305
00:18:22,893 --> 00:18:24,185
We're good to go.

306
00:18:24,269 --> 00:18:26,687
Repeat back to me
the resuscitation procedure.

307
00:18:29,024 --> 00:18:32,610
As soon as you're dead,
I'll run the scanner.

308
00:18:32,736 --> 00:18:34,737
At 60 seconds,
I'll start pulling you out

309
00:18:34,863 --> 00:18:36,781
by switching to the heating blanket.

310
00:18:36,865 --> 00:18:40,284
When your core temp's back up
to 93 degrees, I'll start CPR.

311
00:18:40,410 --> 00:18:42,995
Crash cart is standing by
with the epi and the defib.

312
00:18:43,163 --> 00:18:46,207
Hello? Brain damage.
You'll get brain damage.

313
00:18:46,333 --> 00:18:47,750
Not if you resuscitate me in time.

314
00:18:48,043 --> 00:18:51,087
Brain cells can survive without oxygen
for at least four minutes.

315
00:18:51,213 --> 00:18:52,755
Okay.

316
00:18:52,840 --> 00:18:55,133
Now is the point
where you say it's all a joke.

317
00:19:05,185 --> 00:19:07,145
Okay, put the blanket on me.

318
00:19:09,106 --> 00:19:11,816
Jamie, look at her.
Come on, she's terrified.

319
00:19:12,693 --> 00:19:15,987
It's just my body's
natural survival instincts.

320
00:19:16,780 --> 00:19:20,741
I anticipated this.
I'm trying to block it out.

321
00:19:21,785 --> 00:19:23,953
Okay.

322
00:19:28,375 --> 00:19:29,917
And now I kill you.

323
00:19:30,002 --> 00:19:32,461
Come on, you'll both get expelled.
You'll go to prison.

324
00:19:32,588 --> 00:19:34,130
Only if you blab about it.

325
00:19:36,049 --> 00:19:38,926
Okay. We're really doing this.

326
00:19:47,895 --> 00:19:49,562
See you later.

327
00:19:57,529 --> 00:19:59,197
She's out.

328
00:19:59,448 --> 00:20:01,282
Body temp's dropping.

329
00:20:01,825 --> 00:20:04,577
Okay, look, Jamie,
we can stop right here, okay?

330
00:20:04,786 --> 00:20:06,120
She sleeps it off, wakes up,

331
00:20:06,246 --> 00:20:07,997
and we just pretend that
we followed through with it.

332
00:20:10,751 --> 00:20:12,793
If you can't handle this,
then look away.

333
00:20:13,545 --> 00:20:15,463
Fine. Yeah, Jamie, I'll just leave!

334
00:20:15,672 --> 00:20:18,007
- Charging 200.
- Come on! This is wrong!

335
00:20:18,133 --> 00:20:19,675
- Weren't you leaving?
- You're murdering somebody!

336
00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:22,428
Yeah, I probably
should've stayed in tonight.

337
00:20:32,314 --> 00:20:34,273
Clear!

338
00:20:42,741 --> 00:20:44,492
Oh, my God.

339
00:20:46,870 --> 00:20:49,080
- She's...
- Dead.

340
00:20:50,207 --> 00:20:51,540
I think.

341
00:20:54,211 --> 00:20:56,420
Counting off 60 seconds.

342
00:21:00,968 --> 00:21:02,760
Do you see any brain activity?

343
00:21:04,179 --> 00:21:05,846
I mean, something's going on,
I'm not really sure what.

344
00:21:05,931 --> 00:21:07,556
It's recording, isn't it?

345
00:21:08,433 --> 00:21:10,893
Yeah. Yeah.

346
00:21:58,108 --> 00:22:01,277
- Fifty-one, 52...
- Fifty-three...

347
00:22:01,570 --> 00:22:06,365
Fifty-four, 55, 56, 57,

348
00:22:06,742 --> 00:22:09,827
fifty-eight, 59,

349
00:22:09,911 --> 00:22:11,579
- sixty seconds.
- Get her out.

350
00:22:13,165 --> 00:22:15,166
Okay. Okay. Okay.

351
00:22:16,293 --> 00:22:17,293
Blanket's warming.

352
00:22:17,419 --> 00:22:19,712
- What's her temp need to get to again?
- Doesn't matter. Hurry up.

353
00:22:19,796 --> 00:22:21,422
Calm down.

354
00:22:24,092 --> 00:22:25,384
- Charge 200.
- Wait!

355
00:22:25,510 --> 00:22:27,303
Clear!

356
00:22:34,102 --> 00:22:35,102
It's not working.

357
00:22:35,228 --> 00:22:36,437
Of course it isn't.

358
00:22:36,521 --> 00:22:38,272
Paddles are useless
without a heart rhythm.

359
00:22:38,357 --> 00:22:39,398
Didn't you listen to her?

360
00:22:39,483 --> 00:22:40,941
Yeah, I was gonna
write down all the steps...

361
00:22:41,068 --> 00:22:42,443
Move! Just move.

362
00:22:43,737 --> 00:22:45,279
Move!

363
00:22:53,080 --> 00:22:55,581
Did we order an MRl on... Hey.

364
00:23:01,838 --> 00:23:03,339
- Wait, what are you doing?
- I...

365
00:23:03,423 --> 00:23:05,216
No, she needs an epi.

366
00:23:06,468 --> 00:23:08,677
IV, you moron. God, it's already set up.

367
00:23:09,388 --> 00:23:10,763
Just push the drug
into the goddamn arm!

368
00:23:10,847 --> 00:23:12,223
Calm down! I got this.

369
00:23:34,162 --> 00:23:36,080
God.

370
00:23:54,433 --> 00:23:55,975
It's not working. Try something else!

371
00:23:56,059 --> 00:23:57,476
There is nothing else.

372
00:23:58,687 --> 00:24:00,104
Well, I...

373
00:24:00,605 --> 00:24:01,772
What the fuck?

374
00:24:01,857 --> 00:24:02,857
It was an experiment.

375
00:24:02,941 --> 00:24:04,650
She had us stop her heart,
and we can't get her back.

376
00:24:04,734 --> 00:24:06,777
- How long has she been out?
- I don't know, a couple of minutes.

377
00:24:06,862 --> 00:24:08,112
Look, I say we try the paddles.

378
00:24:08,196 --> 00:24:10,197
No, no! Wait! Put them down.

379
00:24:11,575 --> 00:24:13,325
I... Stop, stop.

380
00:24:14,578 --> 00:24:16,620
Take over for Sophia
on the chest compressions.

381
00:24:16,705 --> 00:24:19,331
Do them much harder,
get on top of her if it helps.

382
00:24:20,542 --> 00:24:23,794
Sophia, put that cooling blanket on.
She's too warm.

383
00:24:24,212 --> 00:24:27,131
Then charge the defib
all the way to 360 and stand by.

384
00:24:27,299 --> 00:24:28,883
As soon as Jamie and I
get you a heartbeat,

385
00:24:28,967 --> 00:24:30,968
however fluttering,
you put those paddles on her

386
00:24:31,052 --> 00:24:32,470
and give her full power.

387
00:24:32,554 --> 00:24:34,180
The blanket. Come on.

388
00:24:35,682 --> 00:24:37,641
Got to push a lot more epi
than what you've been doing.

389
00:24:41,354 --> 00:24:43,147
Don't stop. Don't stop. Keep going.

390
00:24:44,191 --> 00:24:45,357
All right.

391
00:24:45,650 --> 00:24:46,942
Come on, Courtney.

392
00:24:47,027 --> 00:24:48,277
She's hypoxic.

393
00:24:48,403 --> 00:24:49,820
We need to intubate.

394
00:24:51,781 --> 00:24:53,449
All right? Go!

395
00:25:18,266 --> 00:25:19,558
Let's get it off.

396
00:25:31,780 --> 00:25:32,947
Help me.

397
00:25:54,928 --> 00:25:56,845
BVM.

398
00:26:02,310 --> 00:26:03,811
All right.

399
00:26:12,362 --> 00:26:13,904
Go, go, go, go.

400
00:26:15,490 --> 00:26:16,991
Clear!

401
00:26:27,669 --> 00:26:29,378
Courtney, can you hear me?

402
00:26:29,879 --> 00:26:31,255
You're crazy, you know that?

403
00:26:31,631 --> 00:26:33,882
- You called Ray?
- Were you getting it done?

404
00:26:38,263 --> 00:26:39,805
Does somebody want to fill me in here?

405
00:26:42,684 --> 00:26:44,893
It happened very gently.

406
00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:49,023
Like, almost like an untethering.

407
00:26:49,316 --> 00:26:51,775
And I floated to the ceiling.

408
00:26:51,901 --> 00:26:56,322
I could see my body.
I could see Sophia and Jamie.

409
00:26:57,532 --> 00:27:01,285
And then I could see
the roof of the hospital.

410
00:27:02,746 --> 00:27:04,413
And I've never been up there.

411
00:27:05,624 --> 00:27:07,583
How do you explain that?

412
00:27:07,667 --> 00:27:10,044
I can't explain it.

413
00:27:10,879 --> 00:27:12,421
Are you mad at us?

414
00:27:13,006 --> 00:27:14,923
I don't know what to think

415
00:27:15,258 --> 00:27:17,843
other than you're all pretty stupid.

416
00:27:18,928 --> 00:27:20,929
She's lucky to be alive.

417
00:27:21,598 --> 00:27:23,223
She's alive because of you.

418
00:27:24,184 --> 00:27:26,101
What else happened?

419
00:27:27,312 --> 00:27:28,979
Did you see a white light?

420
00:27:30,106 --> 00:27:32,608
I wouldn't call it that. It was...

421
00:27:34,653 --> 00:27:37,571
It was more like...

422
00:27:38,490 --> 00:27:40,449
Pure energy.

423
00:27:43,912 --> 00:27:47,498
And honestly,
it was kind of sexual, actually.

424
00:27:48,625 --> 00:27:50,334
It was kind of sexual.

425
00:27:51,294 --> 00:27:52,461
Guys, playback's ready.

426
00:27:55,840 --> 00:27:57,424
Hey. Check this out.

427
00:27:58,927 --> 00:28:01,428
Okay, look. We're counting up
from zero at the moment of death.

428
00:28:01,554 --> 00:28:03,055
Cognitive activity has ceased.

429
00:28:03,181 --> 00:28:06,642
Your heart stopped.
No breathing, no pulse.

430
00:28:07,352 --> 00:28:10,729
We're 15 seconds in, and there.

431
00:28:13,108 --> 00:28:14,400
Look at that.

432
00:28:14,526 --> 00:28:17,986
Like a bolt of lightning
in your prefrontal cortex.

433
00:28:18,446 --> 00:28:21,073
We might just be witnessing
the afterlife, people.

434
00:28:21,199 --> 00:28:22,408
Okay.

435
00:28:22,534 --> 00:28:24,243
Who knows what we're looking at?

436
00:28:24,369 --> 00:28:25,577
We're not radiologists.

437
00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:28,455
I mean, it could just be
residual electricity.

438
00:28:28,790 --> 00:28:30,708
- You know, synapses shutting down.
- Okay, we're moving on.

439
00:28:30,834 --> 00:28:33,669
So, you've been dead
almost 40 seconds now,

440
00:28:33,795 --> 00:28:36,213
and look.

441
00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:39,133
This area lights up, the hippocampus.

442
00:28:39,259 --> 00:28:41,719
- That's not the hippocampus.
- Of course it is.

443
00:28:42,178 --> 00:28:44,680
That is the ventral tegmental area.

444
00:28:44,764 --> 00:28:45,889
It's the oldest part of the brain,

445
00:28:45,974 --> 00:28:48,475
governs thirst, hunger, love.

446
00:28:48,727 --> 00:28:50,936
Okay, doctors,
I'm glad you're having fun.

447
00:28:51,062 --> 00:28:52,396
Got to get out of here.

448
00:28:52,480 --> 00:28:53,564
Hey, Ray, come on.

449
00:28:53,648 --> 00:28:54,982
Hey, no. Just let him go.

450
00:28:57,569 --> 00:29:00,028
It's over. Her brain's just dark now.

451
00:29:01,072 --> 00:29:02,698
- No.
- Look at that.

452
00:29:02,949 --> 00:29:04,575
Wait. Amygdala.

453
00:29:05,285 --> 00:29:06,577
That's the amygdala. Rage.

454
00:29:06,828 --> 00:29:08,454
Stress. Emotional memory.

455
00:29:09,873 --> 00:29:11,206
Whatever you were seeing,

456
00:29:11,332 --> 00:29:13,584
this is just before we pulled you out.

457
00:29:21,301 --> 00:29:22,593
Is she okay?

458
00:29:22,677 --> 00:29:24,636
She's been sitting there
for, like, 10 minutes.

459
00:29:24,721 --> 00:29:26,430
- Really?
- Yeah.

460
00:29:27,098 --> 00:29:29,266
What do you think she's doing out there?

461
00:29:29,642 --> 00:29:32,060
I hope she doesn't try to fly.

462
00:29:33,438 --> 00:29:35,481
If there were brain chemicals released,

463
00:29:35,857 --> 00:29:38,025
the aftereffects could still be
in her bloodstream.

464
00:29:38,735 --> 00:29:40,569
I took LSD once.

465
00:29:41,237 --> 00:29:43,030
I stayed awake for three days.

466
00:29:43,448 --> 00:29:44,865
Shit.

467
00:29:45,909 --> 00:29:47,284
I'm gonna go check on her.

468
00:29:49,496 --> 00:29:50,954
Let's leave.

469
00:29:53,833 --> 00:29:55,501
That's high.

470
00:29:56,044 --> 00:29:57,294
Hey.

471
00:29:58,004 --> 00:29:59,671
Are you okay?

472
00:30:00,048 --> 00:30:01,840
I'm gonna bake some bread.

473
00:30:09,599 --> 00:30:10,933
What's with the bread?

474
00:30:11,392 --> 00:30:14,520
Courtney baked it.
Six loaves, last night.

475
00:30:14,979 --> 00:30:16,688
She remembered her grandmother's recipe.

476
00:30:17,023 --> 00:30:18,941
Also, she ran 12 miles.

477
00:30:19,484 --> 00:30:21,360
- Twelve miles?
- Let's begin.

478
00:30:22,612 --> 00:30:24,780
We've been ramping up Michael Evergreen
with meds for ten hours,

479
00:30:24,906 --> 00:30:26,740
and his epilepsy
hasn't gotten any better.

480
00:30:26,825 --> 00:30:28,158
Now he's developed a skin rash.

481
00:30:28,284 --> 00:30:30,536
It's a mystery.
The meds should be working.

482
00:30:31,162 --> 00:30:32,287
Carbamazepine?

483
00:30:34,666 --> 00:30:35,666
What?

484
00:30:35,750 --> 00:30:38,418
Carbamazepine has an 11% chance
of reacting negatively

485
00:30:38,503 --> 00:30:40,045
with lamotrigine,
which is the other drug

486
00:30:40,129 --> 00:30:42,005
- that Michael's on.
- Seriously?

487
00:30:44,217 --> 00:30:45,676
Good catch, Courtney.

488
00:30:46,010 --> 00:30:47,427
Sophia, next case.

489
00:30:48,763 --> 00:30:51,849
Adele Gunther. 44 years old.
Admitted with mild confusion.

490
00:30:52,392 --> 00:30:55,018
Says her sister's an impostor,
she doesn't recognize her.

491
00:30:55,186 --> 00:30:57,437
No history of trauma.
Too young for dementia.

492
00:30:57,522 --> 00:30:58,856
We're gonna send it out
to Psychiatry for...

493
00:30:58,940 --> 00:30:59,982
It's Capgras syndrome.

494
00:31:02,777 --> 00:31:05,153
- Go on.
- Capgras is an impairment

495
00:31:05,238 --> 00:31:07,281
of the brain's
facial recognition center.

496
00:31:07,490 --> 00:31:09,199
And a very rare diagnosis.

497
00:31:09,784 --> 00:31:12,411
V. S. Ramachandran, in his book,
Phantoms of the Brain,

498
00:31:12,620 --> 00:31:16,373
links frontal cortex dichotomies,
like this, to Capgras.

499
00:31:17,375 --> 00:31:18,876
That's not on this year's syllabus.

500
00:31:20,420 --> 00:31:22,337
Optional reading in my first year.

501
00:31:23,506 --> 00:31:25,757
Well, that's more like it.

502
00:31:42,191 --> 00:31:44,067
My sister loved this piece.

503
00:31:45,570 --> 00:31:48,280
Drug warnings for carbamazepine
run 20 pages long.

504
00:31:48,406 --> 00:31:50,699
How could she possibly
recall a detail like that?

505
00:31:50,783 --> 00:31:53,702
How is she playing the piano again,
after 12 years?

506
00:31:54,203 --> 00:31:55,871
She's not playing that well.

507
00:31:56,789 --> 00:31:58,790
It's like her brain's been rewired,

508
00:31:59,042 --> 00:32:01,460
accessing everything she's ever learned.

509
00:32:01,753 --> 00:32:03,629
I don't care what happened to her.

510
00:32:03,755 --> 00:32:06,089
This experiment needs to end right now.

511
00:32:06,174 --> 00:32:09,551
I'm not gonna risk everything
for a morbid fascination you guys have.

512
00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:13,555
You think you're all medical pioneers?

513
00:32:13,681 --> 00:32:16,808
You're just a bunch of
rich kids screwing around,

514
00:32:16,893 --> 00:32:19,102
before you become wealthy specialists

515
00:32:19,187 --> 00:32:23,065
with your Ivy League bumper stickers
on your Mercedes.

516
00:32:23,483 --> 00:32:24,858
I was with you until the end.

517
00:32:24,984 --> 00:32:27,736
No one puts bumper stickers
on a Mercedes.

518
00:32:37,580 --> 00:32:39,998
I think we're way past
parlor tricks here.

519
00:32:40,375 --> 00:32:42,209
That does it. I'm going next.

520
00:32:42,502 --> 00:32:44,127
- Okay.
- Tonight. I am.

521
00:32:44,253 --> 00:32:45,921
And you're all gonna be there.

522
00:32:50,259 --> 00:32:52,135
It's a good day to die.

523
00:34:53,925 --> 00:34:55,926
No! No!

524
00:35:08,439 --> 00:35:10,065
Jesus Christ.

525
00:35:36,592 --> 00:35:38,009
Is that what I looked like?

526
00:35:38,094 --> 00:35:39,928
Yep. Exactly like that.

527
00:35:42,140 --> 00:35:44,349
- I knew you'd show up.
- How long has he been under?

528
00:35:45,101 --> 00:35:46,601
Forty-five seconds.

529
00:35:46,686 --> 00:35:49,729
I thought you'd had it
with all this foolishness.

530
00:35:50,106 --> 00:35:51,606
Jamie asked me to be here.

531
00:35:53,025 --> 00:35:54,651
He wanted me to pull him out.

532
00:36:17,258 --> 00:36:19,384
- Pause compressions.
- One, two, three...

533
00:36:19,468 --> 00:36:21,219
- Still no heartbeat.
- Pushing epi.

534
00:36:21,345 --> 00:36:23,930
- Come on, Jamie, wake up.
- He can't hear you.

535
00:36:24,682 --> 00:36:26,183
Sophia, get ready to intubate.

536
00:36:26,267 --> 00:36:28,393
Okay. I've never done this before,

537
00:36:28,477 --> 00:36:29,811
- so just give me a second...
- Just do it!

538
00:36:29,937 --> 00:36:31,897
Ray, relax. There's no need to panic.

539
00:36:32,315 --> 00:36:34,024
Let's give the epi a second to work.

540
00:37:04,597 --> 00:37:07,557
Jamie...

541
00:37:08,601 --> 00:37:10,352
Clear!

542
00:37:12,146 --> 00:37:13,521
Take it out, take it out.

543
00:37:16,275 --> 00:37:18,109
Hey...

544
00:37:19,946 --> 00:37:21,696
Jamie, Jamie, Jamie.

545
00:37:23,574 --> 00:37:25,450
I need a drink.

546
00:37:25,534 --> 00:37:27,535
Shots, shots, shots!

547
00:37:28,204 --> 00:37:29,955
Yeah, come on.

548
00:37:30,039 --> 00:37:32,499
- Cheers!
- Cheers!

549
00:37:47,890 --> 00:37:50,183
What do you guys think about
taking this wall down?

550
00:37:50,268 --> 00:37:52,769
- No, no, no.
- I've always wanted a loft.

551
00:38:27,054 --> 00:38:28,555
It's hailing! Courtney!

552
00:38:28,639 --> 00:38:29,931
What?

553
00:38:41,027 --> 00:38:42,360
Watch it.

554
00:38:45,323 --> 00:38:46,489
This is crazy.

555
00:38:46,574 --> 00:38:48,575
It's like they're
on the same wavelength.

556
00:38:49,618 --> 00:38:52,829
We should bottle flatlining,
sell it as a club drug.

557
00:38:52,997 --> 00:38:54,956
Here. Use this.

558
00:38:57,918 --> 00:38:59,461
- Hey, no, no.
- No, no, no.

559
00:39:02,673 --> 00:39:04,341
Oh, my God.

560
00:39:06,260 --> 00:39:09,054
This has been
the strangest night of my life.

561
00:39:09,221 --> 00:39:10,597
You going next, Ray?

562
00:39:10,723 --> 00:39:12,724
What, flatlining? No way.

563
00:39:13,267 --> 00:39:14,809
I'd bring you back out.

564
00:39:15,144 --> 00:39:16,686
Maybe.

565
00:39:17,229 --> 00:39:19,522
You have to admit, I was pretty good
with that defibrillator.

566
00:39:19,940 --> 00:39:21,274
You were okay.

567
00:39:22,401 --> 00:39:25,653
Would it kill you to admit that
I might be just as good a doctor as you?

568
00:39:25,780 --> 00:39:27,072
I never said you were not.

569
00:39:27,323 --> 00:39:29,157
Hey, Marlo, your brother's here.

570
00:39:30,993 --> 00:39:33,161
You have no more experience
than the rest of us.

571
00:39:33,287 --> 00:39:34,746
I do.

572
00:39:34,830 --> 00:39:36,748
I was a firefighter in Houston.

573
00:39:37,833 --> 00:39:39,417
Almost six years.

574
00:39:41,087 --> 00:39:42,879
I'm going next.

575
00:39:44,632 --> 00:39:46,508
It was super fun.

576
00:39:47,510 --> 00:39:51,513
I was all-powerful.
I had the whole city to myself.

577
00:39:52,932 --> 00:39:54,724
It's weird, isn't it?

578
00:39:56,977 --> 00:40:00,230
I thought there'd be
more people, like...

579
00:40:00,731 --> 00:40:02,524
Aren't you supposed to see...

580
00:40:02,608 --> 00:40:04,401
Family members who've died, or...

581
00:40:06,612 --> 00:40:10,615
Maybe there's no one there
because it wasn't really our time.

582
00:40:13,786 --> 00:40:15,370
Was it all fun?

583
00:40:17,206 --> 00:40:18,373
What do you mean?

584
00:40:19,542 --> 00:40:23,461
I don't... I mean, like,
was there anything disturbing or...

585
00:40:25,923 --> 00:40:27,757
Not really.

586
00:40:28,467 --> 00:40:29,926
Why?

587
00:40:34,557 --> 00:40:35,682
Nothing.

588
00:40:50,072 --> 00:40:51,739
She's stabilizing.

589
00:40:52,074 --> 00:40:53,366
I don't understand,
the data shows her starting

590
00:40:53,492 --> 00:40:55,660
into a massive seizure,
and then it just went away.

591
00:40:56,203 --> 00:40:57,912
I gave her Ativan.

592
00:40:58,330 --> 00:40:59,914
On whose authority?

593
00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:03,918
I'm sorry. I'll get approval next time.

594
00:41:04,962 --> 00:41:06,379
You saved her life.

595
00:41:11,927 --> 00:41:13,261
Yes, I did.

596
00:41:15,514 --> 00:41:16,723
I'm Jesus.

597
00:41:17,308 --> 00:41:19,851
Everyone I touch today, I'm gonna heal.

598
00:41:19,977 --> 00:41:23,813
You know, it's funny,
because you and Courtney both flat...

599
00:41:27,443 --> 00:41:28,735
You both flatlined,

600
00:41:28,819 --> 00:41:31,279
yet Courtney is focused on the past,

601
00:41:31,822 --> 00:41:33,406
memories, recipes.

602
00:41:33,574 --> 00:41:38,036
Whereas you, you're focused on
the present, using your intuition.

603
00:41:38,162 --> 00:41:40,538
What does that have in common
with Courtney?

604
00:41:41,540 --> 00:41:43,208
Sophia, Marlo, you're needed in the ICU.

605
00:41:44,376 --> 00:41:46,002
It's an awakening.

606
00:41:47,671 --> 00:41:49,047
See you later, Jesus.

607
00:41:52,218 --> 00:41:54,385
- An awakening?
- Yeah.

608
00:42:15,658 --> 00:42:16,950
You here for the abortion?

609
00:42:19,745 --> 00:42:21,579
Should Ernesto La Paz get morphine?

610
00:42:29,463 --> 00:42:30,755
I'll check with the resident.

611
00:42:39,640 --> 00:42:41,474
Sophia? Where are you going?

612
00:42:42,142 --> 00:42:43,309
It's 11:30 at night.

613
00:42:43,394 --> 00:42:45,436
You're not on call,
and you don't have anything scheduled.

614
00:42:45,521 --> 00:42:47,146
No, I'm going to the library.

615
00:42:47,273 --> 00:42:48,439
I'm just gonna do some more studying.

616
00:42:48,566 --> 00:42:49,566
No, no, no, no.

617
00:42:49,650 --> 00:42:51,901
I'm making tea,
and we're gonna start reviewing

618
00:42:51,986 --> 00:42:53,736
all of the terminology
for the nervous system.

619
00:42:55,030 --> 00:42:56,322
- But I...
- Now.

620
00:43:00,786 --> 00:43:01,786
Okay.

621
00:43:02,204 --> 00:43:03,329
Where's Sophia?

622
00:43:03,414 --> 00:43:05,498
We need to start. It's already 12:15.

623
00:43:05,583 --> 00:43:07,250
This isn't gonna hurt, is it?

624
00:43:07,334 --> 00:43:09,210
The anesthesia will take care of that.

625
00:43:10,004 --> 00:43:11,045
Three minutes.

626
00:43:11,130 --> 00:43:12,589
Well, Jamie only did two.

627
00:43:12,673 --> 00:43:13,673
What can I say?

628
00:43:13,882 --> 00:43:14,882
I'm competitive.

629
00:43:15,676 --> 00:43:17,010
After my three minutes are done,

630
00:43:17,094 --> 00:43:19,596
these are the interventions I want,
in their specific order.

631
00:43:20,180 --> 00:43:22,432
If I don't come out right away,
I want you to intubate me.

632
00:43:22,600 --> 00:43:24,350
Force the oxygen, okay?

633
00:43:24,435 --> 00:43:26,477
Hey, I'm gonna bring you out of it.

634
00:43:27,313 --> 00:43:29,522
Relax. Enjoy the experience.

635
00:43:30,608 --> 00:43:31,816
Okay, okay.

636
00:43:34,612 --> 00:43:35,903
Infusion's flowing.

637
00:43:38,198 --> 00:43:40,575
She's out. Body temp's 94.

638
00:43:40,659 --> 00:43:42,160
Charging 200.

639
00:43:56,550 --> 00:43:57,675
Clear.

640
00:44:06,769 --> 00:44:07,894
Asystole.

641
00:44:56,318 --> 00:44:58,486
38-year-old male,
stung in the face by a jellyfish.

642
00:44:58,612 --> 00:45:00,071
...by a jellyfish.

643
00:45:04,660 --> 00:45:06,285
That's it. Let's get her out.

644
00:45:10,124 --> 00:45:11,124
Epi in.

645
00:45:12,042 --> 00:45:13,626
- Defib!
- Charge to 200.

646
00:45:13,877 --> 00:45:15,002
Clear.

647
00:45:25,556 --> 00:45:27,390
- No pulse.
- Damn it, we just had it.

648
00:45:27,516 --> 00:45:28,558
Juice her again.

649
00:45:40,863 --> 00:45:43,990
I'm gonna push an epi and sodium bicarb.

650
00:45:49,580 --> 00:45:51,247
Defib. She's not stabilizing.

651
00:45:51,790 --> 00:45:53,040
Charge 300.

652
00:45:53,125 --> 00:45:54,959
Clear. Come on.

653
00:45:57,004 --> 00:45:58,129
No pulse.

654
00:45:58,422 --> 00:46:00,465
This is not working. I need to intubate.

655
00:46:03,051 --> 00:46:04,719
Hey, hey, hey. Hey, hey.

656
00:46:04,803 --> 00:46:06,137
Calm down. I got this.

657
00:46:12,311 --> 00:46:13,978
360. Clear.

658
00:46:14,354 --> 00:46:15,521
Please.

659
00:46:29,745 --> 00:46:30,995
She's back.

660
00:46:46,094 --> 00:46:47,678
You good? You're all right.

661
00:46:47,763 --> 00:46:49,555
- Yeah.
- There you go.

662
00:46:50,224 --> 00:46:52,183
We're safe. No one ever comes up here.

663
00:46:53,769 --> 00:46:55,686
- It's so beautiful.
- Isn't it?

664
00:46:56,063 --> 00:46:57,313
Her temp's low.

665
00:46:57,773 --> 00:46:59,023
Pulse still racing.

666
00:46:59,650 --> 00:47:01,400
Well, I think three minutes is too long.

667
00:47:01,485 --> 00:47:03,236
Look, she had a bad trip, it happens.

668
00:47:03,403 --> 00:47:04,529
What, you're an expert?

669
00:47:05,364 --> 00:47:06,948
Yeah, more than you.

670
00:47:07,449 --> 00:47:09,367
- Is she okay?
- Where have you been?

671
00:47:09,576 --> 00:47:11,452
- Marlo is fine.
- Yeah, I'll be okay.

672
00:47:11,787 --> 00:47:13,079
I'm going next. Right now.

673
00:47:13,747 --> 00:47:15,164
- Right now?
- Why not?

674
00:47:15,541 --> 00:47:17,875
The cleaning crew is gonna be
down there in like 20 minutes.

675
00:47:18,252 --> 00:47:19,877
- Okay.
- No, we've gone too far.

676
00:47:20,170 --> 00:47:21,212
No more flatlining.

677
00:47:21,338 --> 00:47:23,297
Okay, so you three get to
expand your consciousness

678
00:47:23,382 --> 00:47:25,383
and get academic advantage, but I don't?

679
00:47:25,467 --> 00:47:26,467
Advantage.

680
00:47:26,552 --> 00:47:27,927
You think this makes you better, Sophia?

681
00:47:28,053 --> 00:47:29,136
This makes you dead.

682
00:47:29,346 --> 00:47:30,596
You have much more sense than that.

683
00:47:30,681 --> 00:47:34,141
Ray, if this bothers you so much,
then just walk away.

684
00:47:34,226 --> 00:47:36,269
- Well, maybe I should.
- You're not going anywhere.

685
00:47:36,353 --> 00:47:38,312
You're in this as deep as
the rest of us.

686
00:47:38,397 --> 00:47:41,899
Okay, look,
I don't care how dangerous this is.

687
00:47:42,025 --> 00:47:43,484
I need this more than any of you guys.

688
00:47:44,278 --> 00:47:47,363
Ray, it's her decision.
Just like it was each of ours.

689
00:47:47,739 --> 00:47:51,325
If Sophia wants to do this,
then we're doing it tonight.

690
00:47:53,662 --> 00:47:55,204
Just don't stay in too long.

691
00:48:16,685 --> 00:48:20,354
A B-plus on a biology exam
is not acceptable.

692
00:48:20,439 --> 00:48:21,606
Not acceptable.

693
00:48:21,690 --> 00:48:24,066
That will not get you into
a top-10 medical school.

694
00:48:34,870 --> 00:48:36,120
Someone's coming down the elevator.

695
00:48:36,204 --> 00:48:37,246
- What?
- Get her out.

696
00:48:38,165 --> 00:48:39,332
Come on, come on, come on.

697
00:48:40,125 --> 00:48:41,375
Let's go. Let's go!

698
00:48:42,669 --> 00:48:43,794
Pushing an amp of epi.

699
00:48:45,047 --> 00:48:46,297
Where the hell are you going?

700
00:48:48,800 --> 00:48:50,176
Start compressions.

701
00:48:50,719 --> 00:48:52,094
Please, God, bring her back.

702
00:48:52,554 --> 00:48:53,638
Good thinking, Doctor.

703
00:48:53,722 --> 00:48:54,972
I'm sure that's gonna help.

704
00:48:55,390 --> 00:48:56,390
Epi in.

705
00:49:08,320 --> 00:49:09,487
Pause compressions.

706
00:49:09,613 --> 00:49:10,696
Clear.

707
00:49:18,747 --> 00:49:19,747
Irina.

708
00:49:19,873 --> 00:49:24,335
You are not the only kid
that is out there trying to get in.

709
00:49:35,931 --> 00:49:37,056
Shit.

710
00:49:47,776 --> 00:49:49,318
One, two, three.

711
00:49:49,403 --> 00:49:51,320
- V-tach.
- Charging 360.

712
00:50:05,711 --> 00:50:06,877
Clear.

713
00:50:13,260 --> 00:50:15,177
We got her, we got her.
Let's go, let's go. Come on.

714
00:50:16,138 --> 00:50:17,555
We're gonna get you out of here.

715
00:50:17,931 --> 00:50:18,931
You're gonna be okay.

716
00:50:19,307 --> 00:50:21,517
- Come on, you'll be okay. Come here.
- Come on.

717
00:50:21,601 --> 00:50:23,269
- Come on!
- I got her, I got her.

718
00:50:24,813 --> 00:50:25,938
- My jacket, my jacket.
- Got it.

719
00:50:26,023 --> 00:50:27,106
Go, go.

720
00:50:31,862 --> 00:50:32,862
Okay. To the right.

721
00:50:33,447 --> 00:50:34,447
It's open. Just get in.

722
00:50:35,949 --> 00:50:37,616
- Okay.
- Okay, okay.

723
00:50:45,625 --> 00:50:46,917
Should you really be driving?

724
00:50:50,714 --> 00:50:51,797
Wait!

725
00:50:53,383 --> 00:50:54,383
Shit!

726
00:50:56,553 --> 00:50:58,220
You asshole! You left us.

727
00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:00,347
- Are you okay?
- The hell I did.

728
00:51:00,432 --> 00:51:02,767
- I saved your asses.
- Let's go!

729
00:51:02,851 --> 00:51:04,226
- Here they come!
- Hold it right there!

730
00:51:04,311 --> 00:51:05,478
We got to get out of here!

731
00:51:06,438 --> 00:51:07,438
Hold on!

732
00:51:07,898 --> 00:51:09,023
We're going too fast!

733
00:51:11,276 --> 00:51:12,276
Oh, my God.

734
00:51:12,611 --> 00:51:13,694
- Shit!
- Car!

735
00:51:13,779 --> 00:51:14,820
God!

736
00:51:16,782 --> 00:51:18,074
Watch out!

737
00:51:20,327 --> 00:51:21,494
Oh, my God!

738
00:51:24,122 --> 00:51:25,289
It's not funny.

739
00:51:28,752 --> 00:51:29,919
Here we go.

740
00:51:41,431 --> 00:51:42,681
Where are we going?

741
00:51:53,485 --> 00:51:54,485
Hell yeah.

742
00:53:02,137 --> 00:53:03,179
Courtney!

743
00:54:19,631 --> 00:54:20,798
Come.

744
00:54:21,549 --> 00:54:23,384
Look, I don't know
if it's the experience

745
00:54:23,468 --> 00:54:24,551
of dying and coming back again,

746
00:54:24,636 --> 00:54:27,137
but I have got a really
intense craving right now.

747
00:54:28,515 --> 00:54:30,099
For what, gelato?

748
00:54:31,101 --> 00:54:32,268
No.

749
00:54:36,356 --> 00:54:38,482
Oh, my God, this is crazy!

750
00:54:41,945 --> 00:54:43,028
Sophia.

751
00:54:43,905 --> 00:54:45,322
Sophia, open this door!

752
00:54:46,866 --> 00:54:48,659
I think there's someone at the door.

753
00:54:49,119 --> 00:54:50,661
- Sophia!
- I don't care.

754
00:54:51,496 --> 00:54:52,496
Don't stop.

755
00:54:52,622 --> 00:54:54,456
Sophia, I need you to open this door.

756
00:54:56,334 --> 00:54:57,543
Sophia!

757
00:55:00,338 --> 00:55:02,423
It's nice to meet you, Mrs. Manning.

758
00:55:08,513 --> 00:55:10,597
How dare you bring someone
back to my apartment.

759
00:55:10,682 --> 00:55:11,932
I'm moving out.

760
00:55:13,143 --> 00:55:14,935
- What did you say?
- I'm finding my own place.

761
00:55:15,603 --> 00:55:16,603
You will do no such thing.

762
00:55:16,730 --> 00:55:18,564
See, it doesn't matter
what you say, Mom.

763
00:55:19,190 --> 00:55:22,234
Whatever threats you make.
I'm 25 years old.

764
00:55:22,319 --> 00:55:24,153
Succeed or fail...

765
00:55:24,821 --> 00:55:26,322
I'm doing it on my own.

766
00:55:27,782 --> 00:55:29,116
Good night.

767
00:55:43,882 --> 00:55:45,090
All right.

768
00:55:47,510 --> 00:55:49,053
Good night.

769
00:55:50,221 --> 00:55:51,472
How are you getting home?

770
00:55:51,890 --> 00:55:53,515
There's a metro stop nearby.

771
00:55:55,352 --> 00:55:57,394
Look, there's something
I need to tell you.

772
00:56:00,231 --> 00:56:01,607
It's important.

773
00:56:08,323 --> 00:56:09,656
So, you gonna tell me or what?

774
00:56:09,741 --> 00:56:10,783
I killed someone.

775
00:56:12,118 --> 00:56:13,160
What?

776
00:56:15,330 --> 00:56:16,914
It was two months ago.

777
00:56:16,998 --> 00:56:18,957
It was my ER rotation.

778
00:56:20,752 --> 00:56:22,544
The patient's name was Cyrus Gudgeon.

779
00:56:22,629 --> 00:56:24,588
He was admitted for a jellyfish sting.

780
00:56:25,382 --> 00:56:28,384
Cyrus Gudgeon. Yeah, I remember.
He got stung in the face.

781
00:56:29,219 --> 00:56:30,260
Died of shock, right?

782
00:56:30,345 --> 00:56:33,514
No, he died because
of a mistake that I made.

783
00:56:34,099 --> 00:56:36,100
I gave him epi and Benadryl.

784
00:56:36,351 --> 00:56:38,352
But those two drugs don't cross-react.

785
00:56:38,436 --> 00:56:40,187
He had metoprolol in his system.

786
00:56:40,647 --> 00:56:42,356
He basically suffocated to death.

787
00:56:43,942 --> 00:56:47,069
I'd been on duty for, like, 36 hours,

788
00:56:47,153 --> 00:56:49,863
and I must have screwed up
and forgotten to ask him

789
00:56:49,948 --> 00:56:51,990
if he was taking any medications.

790
00:56:53,326 --> 00:56:56,578
He would be alive right now
if it wasn't for my mistake.

791
00:56:56,996 --> 00:56:58,288
Why are you telling me this?

792
00:56:58,415 --> 00:56:59,832
Because I saw him.

793
00:57:01,167 --> 00:57:02,876
Cyrus. I saw him in my flatline.

794
00:57:03,211 --> 00:57:04,878
And it must mean something, right?

795
00:57:05,255 --> 00:57:07,548
Hey, mistakes happen to everybody.

796
00:57:07,674 --> 00:57:10,509
Yeah, but I work so hard
every single day.

797
00:57:10,885 --> 00:57:12,886
- I do the right thing.
- I'm sure you do.

798
00:57:12,971 --> 00:57:14,805
- I'm not a bad person.
- No, you're not.

799
00:57:14,889 --> 00:57:16,265
I'm not a bad person. I...

800
00:57:16,349 --> 00:57:18,642
- Everything's gonna be fine, Marlo.
- No, I'm scared.

801
00:57:19,727 --> 00:57:21,353
I'm scared.

802
00:57:33,032 --> 00:57:34,450
Wait, wait, wait.

803
00:57:34,784 --> 00:57:36,743
You... You can't just...

804
00:57:38,204 --> 00:57:39,413
I'm... I'm sorry.

805
00:57:39,497 --> 00:57:40,581
Yeah, what am I doing with you?

806
00:57:40,665 --> 00:57:43,125
- I got to go right now. I'm sorry. No...
- No. No, no, no, wait.

807
00:58:08,568 --> 00:58:10,235
- Damn, you have so many.
- Just...

808
00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:11,570
Okay, okay.

809
00:58:11,654 --> 00:58:12,946
I got it, I got it.

810
00:59:15,051 --> 00:59:16,176
Courtney!

811
00:59:33,653 --> 00:59:34,695
Help!

812
00:59:35,572 --> 00:59:37,281
Help! Tessa!

813
00:59:37,949 --> 00:59:38,949
Tessa!

814
00:59:43,538 --> 00:59:44,580
Help!

815
00:59:46,416 --> 00:59:47,457
My sister!

816
00:59:47,542 --> 00:59:49,084
Help!

817
00:59:49,836 --> 00:59:51,253
My sister!

818
00:59:51,838 --> 00:59:53,171
- My sister.
- Come on.

819
00:59:53,256 --> 00:59:54,631
No! My sister!

820
00:59:54,716 --> 00:59:57,843
Tessa! My... Tessa!

821
00:59:57,927 --> 00:59:59,344
No!

822
01:00:07,270 --> 01:00:11,273
I hope this doesn't become awkward.

823
01:00:13,568 --> 01:00:14,776
Too late.

824
01:00:15,820 --> 01:00:18,614
I can't imagine
what you must think of me.

825
01:00:19,324 --> 01:00:20,407
Why?

826
01:00:21,034 --> 01:00:23,201
Well, first I tell you
that I'm responsible

827
01:00:23,286 --> 01:00:24,995
for the death of a patient,

828
01:00:25,079 --> 01:00:28,081
and then I go and totally attack you.

829
01:00:28,166 --> 01:00:31,001
I mean, seriously, what...

830
01:00:32,378 --> 01:00:33,962
What do you see in me?

831
01:00:35,632 --> 01:00:37,257
You're really hot.

832
01:00:39,844 --> 01:00:41,261
Shut up.

833
01:00:47,060 --> 01:00:48,602
I got to go.

834
01:00:48,686 --> 01:00:49,728
Yeah.

835
01:00:51,397 --> 01:00:52,814
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

836
01:00:58,738 --> 01:01:01,365
It was four months into our first year.

837
01:01:01,449 --> 01:01:03,533
You were assisting at the oncology ward.

838
01:01:03,618 --> 01:01:07,788
A breast cancer patient was there
for her first round of chemo.

839
01:01:07,872 --> 01:01:12,084
She was anxious and scared,
but you sat down and calmed her

840
01:01:12,168 --> 01:01:15,170
by asking about her kids, her job.

841
01:01:15,254 --> 01:01:17,089
You were so kind.

842
01:01:17,173 --> 01:01:19,716
You didn't think anyone was watching,

843
01:01:19,801 --> 01:01:23,553
but I was watching you through the door.

844
01:01:24,555 --> 01:01:27,307
Three hours later, I stopped by,

845
01:01:29,185 --> 01:01:32,896
and you were there
checking on her again.

846
01:01:34,899 --> 01:01:37,651
That's what I see in you.

847
01:03:24,884 --> 01:03:26,468
Jamie?

848
01:03:26,552 --> 01:03:29,554
Courtney? What's going on?

849
01:03:29,639 --> 01:03:31,223
I saw my sister.

850
01:03:32,350 --> 01:03:33,767
What?

851
01:03:33,851 --> 01:03:35,519
At the waterfront.

852
01:03:36,437 --> 01:03:37,813
It was her.

853
01:03:38,356 --> 01:03:40,398
I saw my dead sister.

854
01:03:40,483 --> 01:03:42,192
Where... Where are you?

855
01:03:42,276 --> 01:03:44,319
I'm home.

856
01:03:44,403 --> 01:03:46,071
I don't understand what's happening.

857
01:03:46,155 --> 01:03:47,531
Stay there.

858
01:03:47,615 --> 01:03:48,990
I'm coming over.

859
01:05:29,300 --> 01:05:32,928
I just... I miss my sister.

860
01:05:34,889 --> 01:05:37,557
I should have told you all that

861
01:05:37,642 --> 01:05:41,269
this wasn't about

862
01:05:41,354 --> 01:05:44,064
science or discovery.

863
01:05:49,111 --> 01:05:51,696
I think I'm going crazy.

864
01:05:53,449 --> 01:05:55,200
Like I'm seeing things.

865
01:05:56,827 --> 01:05:58,453
Something I did.

866
01:06:02,041 --> 01:06:03,458
It was my fault.

867
01:06:06,253 --> 01:06:07,837
I'm sorry.

868
01:06:57,096 --> 01:06:58,263
Tessa?

869
01:07:05,855 --> 01:07:07,480
Tessa, is that really you?

870
01:07:18,784 --> 01:07:20,243
Tessa, are you okay?

871
01:07:43,476 --> 01:07:47,020
- What are you?
- Courtney!

872
01:07:49,106 --> 01:07:51,274
Courtney!

873
01:09:03,556 --> 01:09:04,806
Let's go!

874
01:09:04,890 --> 01:09:06,349
Let's go!

875
01:09:47,391 --> 01:09:49,684
Hi. An update on room four.

876
01:09:49,768 --> 01:09:52,979
We've given the Lasix bolus,
and the output is limited.

877
01:09:58,277 --> 01:10:01,154
It's been less than 50 cc's
in the last two hours.

878
01:10:05,075 --> 01:10:06,284
All right.

879
01:10:12,875 --> 01:10:16,044
They found her at
the bottom of a fire escape.

880
01:10:16,128 --> 01:10:17,754
We'll know more after the autopsy,

881
01:10:17,838 --> 01:10:19,797
but right now,
it's unclear whether she fell,

882
01:10:19,882 --> 01:10:22,550
jumped, or God knows what.

883
01:10:24,887 --> 01:10:27,263
I know you all liked her.

884
01:10:27,348 --> 01:10:30,058
And I'm sorry, but for now, I need you

885
01:10:30,142 --> 01:10:32,685
to pick up her patient load
and divide it amongst yourselves.

886
01:10:32,770 --> 01:10:34,312
We still have a hospital to run.

887
01:10:41,153 --> 01:10:44,364
Do any of you know what might
have been going on with her?

888
01:10:44,448 --> 01:10:48,034
Is there something
you're not telling me?

889
01:10:52,289 --> 01:10:53,581
All right.

890
01:11:04,927 --> 01:11:06,302
It just doesn't feel real.

891
01:11:06,387 --> 01:11:07,720
I know.

892
01:11:10,140 --> 01:11:12,100
You know, I can't believe she's gone.

893
01:11:15,813 --> 01:11:17,730
We need to talk.

894
01:11:17,815 --> 01:11:22,360
Okay, something is happening to us,
and my mind is playing tricks on me.

895
01:11:22,444 --> 01:11:24,153
This morning,
when I was swimming in the pool...

896
01:11:24,238 --> 01:11:26,281
I can't talk, okay?

897
01:11:26,365 --> 01:11:28,449
- I have rounds right now.
- Guys,

898
01:11:28,534 --> 01:11:31,369
Wolfson already knows
we're holding something back.

899
01:11:31,453 --> 01:11:33,788
The school is going
to investigate her death.

900
01:11:33,872 --> 01:11:35,873
I don't believe it was a suicide.

901
01:11:35,958 --> 01:11:38,001
Maybe she fell.

902
01:11:38,085 --> 01:11:39,877
You were there.

903
01:11:39,962 --> 01:11:41,671
What happened?

904
01:11:42,715 --> 01:11:44,257
She never answered the door.

905
01:11:44,341 --> 01:11:46,509
I figured... She went to bed.

906
01:11:46,593 --> 01:11:47,677
Hey, killer party?

907
01:11:49,596 --> 01:11:51,639
You all look like shit.

908
01:11:51,724 --> 01:11:53,099
Hey, listen,

909
01:11:53,183 --> 01:11:55,018
if the school finds out
we have been flatlining,

910
01:11:55,102 --> 01:11:57,562
we will be expelled.

911
01:11:57,646 --> 01:12:00,148
And you can say goodbye to your future.

912
01:12:00,232 --> 01:12:02,984
Any notes you've taken, destroy them.

913
01:12:04,570 --> 01:12:07,113
I'm gonna get into Courtney's apartment,
get her phone, computer,

914
01:12:07,197 --> 01:12:09,115
anything incriminating.

915
01:12:09,199 --> 01:12:11,159
You know, you were right
this whole time, Ray.

916
01:12:11,243 --> 01:12:13,536
We should've listened to you.

917
01:12:13,620 --> 01:12:15,455
Yeah, that's true.

918
01:12:15,539 --> 01:12:16,914
This isn't on you, man.

919
01:12:16,999 --> 01:12:20,168
You should just walk away.

920
01:12:20,252 --> 01:12:22,378
We'll keep your name out of it.

921
01:12:23,047 --> 01:12:24,130
No.

922
01:12:24,798 --> 01:12:26,215
I'm not going anywhere.

923
01:12:26,300 --> 01:12:29,927
Whatever happens
to all of you happens to me.

924
01:12:41,148 --> 01:12:42,357
- Yes?
- Hey.

925
01:12:42,441 --> 01:12:44,609
Look, bad news.

926
01:12:44,693 --> 01:12:46,361
Ray and I checked her apartment.

927
01:12:46,445 --> 01:12:48,738
We found her computer and some notes,

928
01:12:48,822 --> 01:12:50,531
- but not her phone.
- Campus security

929
01:12:50,616 --> 01:12:52,116
- could have gotten there before you.
- Okay.

930
01:12:52,201 --> 01:12:55,244
Assuming you're right
and it's not a criminal investigation,

931
01:12:55,329 --> 01:12:56,913
then all that stuff stays with her body.

932
01:12:56,997 --> 01:12:59,082
Meaning you can go down there
and look for it.

933
01:12:59,166 --> 01:13:01,000
Go down where?

934
01:13:01,085 --> 01:13:03,753
Where do you think? The goddamn morgue.

935
01:13:52,428 --> 01:13:53,845
Okay.

936
01:15:10,589 --> 01:15:11,756
Marlo.

937
01:15:13,217 --> 01:15:14,425
Marlo.

938
01:15:15,385 --> 01:15:16,802
Marlo?

939
01:18:03,136 --> 01:18:06,514
Jamie...

940
01:19:01,194 --> 01:19:02,528
Jamie.

941
01:20:00,295 --> 01:20:02,630
Like I'm seeing things.

942
01:20:03,673 --> 01:20:05,424
Something I did.

943
01:20:06,384 --> 01:20:08,552
It was my fault.

944
01:20:09,429 --> 01:20:11,138
I'm sorry.

945
01:20:19,606 --> 01:20:21,440
Tessa?

946
01:20:23,610 --> 01:20:25,528
Tessa, is that really you?

947
01:20:27,989 --> 01:20:29,990
Are you okay?

948
01:20:33,829 --> 01:20:35,412
What are you?

949
01:20:44,756 --> 01:20:46,757
Jesus Christ.

950
01:20:52,639 --> 01:20:54,306
What was that?

951
01:20:55,392 --> 01:20:57,935
She was talking to someone.

952
01:20:58,019 --> 01:20:59,937
Someone was there.

953
01:21:00,021 --> 01:21:01,647
You don't know that.

954
01:21:01,731 --> 01:21:03,566
She could've been hallucinating.

955
01:21:03,650 --> 01:21:05,276
It didn't sound like that to me.

956
01:21:05,360 --> 01:21:08,487
What if it was Tessa?

957
01:21:10,031 --> 01:21:11,532
What do you mean?

958
01:21:11,616 --> 01:21:13,868
She saw something. You heard her.

959
01:21:13,952 --> 01:21:15,536
She said that she did something.

960
01:21:15,620 --> 01:21:17,288
Something was her fault.

961
01:21:17,372 --> 01:21:19,248
What if that's it? What if...

962
01:21:20,458 --> 01:21:22,835
What if our sins are coming for us?

963
01:21:22,919 --> 01:21:24,336
Sins. That's ridiculous.

964
01:21:24,421 --> 01:21:26,338
So, what are we gonna do?

965
01:21:26,423 --> 01:21:27,965
What are we gonna do?

966
01:21:28,049 --> 01:21:29,884
We're gonna tell each other
the goddamn truth.

967
01:21:29,968 --> 01:21:31,844
That's what we're gonna do.

968
01:21:34,180 --> 01:21:36,056
There's a girl I... I used to know.

969
01:21:37,267 --> 01:21:38,475
Alicia.

970
01:21:38,560 --> 01:21:41,687
She was a waitress
at my dad's country club.

971
01:21:41,771 --> 01:21:42,813
Oh, my God.

972
01:21:42,898 --> 01:21:45,190
- You killed her?
- What? No.

973
01:21:45,275 --> 01:21:47,401
No, I did not kill anyone.

974
01:21:48,945 --> 01:21:50,029
I...

975
01:21:52,115 --> 01:21:53,282
I... I...

976
01:21:53,366 --> 01:21:54,700
I got her pregnant.

977
01:21:55,827 --> 01:21:58,370
I wanted to help, you know?

978
01:21:58,455 --> 01:22:02,750
Pay for the abortion, be...
Go with her for the procedure.

979
01:22:02,834 --> 01:22:06,420
Anyway, the... The day came,

980
01:22:06,504 --> 01:22:08,589
and I... I couldn't deal with it.

981
01:22:09,299 --> 01:22:11,216
I... I drove right past.

982
01:22:12,677 --> 01:22:14,511
I left her to fend for herself.

983
01:22:16,556 --> 01:22:18,515
And she showed up in your flatline?

984
01:22:18,600 --> 01:22:20,517
I wish that was all.

985
01:22:20,602 --> 01:22:22,728
She showed up last night, too.

986
01:22:22,812 --> 01:22:24,897
So you're being haunted
by somebody that's alive.

987
01:22:24,981 --> 01:22:27,358
- What are you talking about?
- This.

988
01:22:27,442 --> 01:22:29,026
I am talking about this.

989
01:22:29,110 --> 01:22:30,778
Alicia did this to me.

990
01:22:30,862 --> 01:22:32,821
Only it wasn't her.

991
01:22:33,949 --> 01:22:35,741
Just like it wasn't Courtney's sister.

992
01:22:35,825 --> 01:22:37,159
Then what was it?

993
01:22:38,870 --> 01:22:40,371
Jamie, what?

994
01:22:40,455 --> 01:22:42,456
I... I don't know.

995
01:22:42,540 --> 01:22:46,377
Something feeding off
our guilty conscience.

996
01:22:46,461 --> 01:22:48,379
What do you mean? Like...

997
01:22:48,463 --> 01:22:51,006
Something demonic?

998
01:22:51,091 --> 01:22:54,551
Maybe it's using our pasts, our sins.

999
01:22:55,011 --> 01:22:56,637
Wait, wait.

1000
01:22:56,721 --> 01:22:58,013
We're rational people here.

1001
01:22:58,098 --> 01:22:59,848
You could have stabbed yourself.

1002
01:22:59,933 --> 01:23:01,850
People on drugs hurt themselves
all the time.

1003
01:23:01,935 --> 01:23:03,811
There has to be a logical explanation.

1004
01:23:03,895 --> 01:23:05,104
I was 17.

1005
01:23:05,188 --> 01:23:08,774
Her name was Irina Wong,
and she had a higher GPA than I did,

1006
01:23:08,858 --> 01:23:10,526
so I hacked her text messages

1007
01:23:10,610 --> 01:23:14,238
and I sent her naked photos
to the whole class.

1008
01:23:14,322 --> 01:23:16,073
It destroyed her.

1009
01:23:16,157 --> 01:23:17,908
What is the point in confessing
all of this?

1010
01:23:17,993 --> 01:23:20,077
This is clearly just happening here.

1011
01:23:20,161 --> 01:23:23,539
- That thing...
- Look, look, Courtney said to me

1012
01:23:23,623 --> 01:23:26,000
she thinks maybe we opened a door.

1013
01:23:26,084 --> 01:23:28,293
Wait, so you knew?

1014
01:23:28,378 --> 01:23:31,088
You and Courtney knew there was
a downside to flatlining,

1015
01:23:31,172 --> 01:23:32,798
and... And you still let
me and Marlo go in?

1016
01:23:32,882 --> 01:23:34,675
Hey, look, I thought it was
just part of the experience.

1017
01:23:34,759 --> 01:23:36,135
Side effects may include

1018
01:23:36,219 --> 01:23:38,178
dry mouth, hallucinations,
existential dread.

1019
01:23:38,263 --> 01:23:40,347
I did not know that
the side effects would show up

1020
01:23:40,432 --> 01:23:42,016
and start hunting us down.

1021
01:23:42,100 --> 01:23:45,019
There is a scientific explanation
to all of this.

1022
01:23:45,103 --> 01:23:47,354
We're way beyond explanations.

1023
01:23:47,439 --> 01:23:48,856
Okay.

1024
01:23:48,940 --> 01:23:51,191
If Courtney was right,

1025
01:23:51,276 --> 01:23:53,569
whatever's happening to us,

1026
01:23:53,653 --> 01:23:56,780
these hallucinations, these hauntings,
whatever it is,

1027
01:23:56,865 --> 01:23:59,074
it's only gonna get worse.

1028
01:23:59,159 --> 01:24:00,909
Until we figure it out,

1029
01:24:00,994 --> 01:24:04,621
until we figure out what to do,

1030
01:24:04,706 --> 01:24:10,127
whatever killed her
is gonna kill all of us, too.

1031
01:24:18,970 --> 01:24:23,057
Note the negative mass effect
secondary to the encephalomalacia.

1032
01:24:23,141 --> 01:24:26,477
There are multiple foci of high
T2 and FLAIR signal intensity

1033
01:24:26,561 --> 01:24:28,228
in the supratentorial white matter.

1034
01:24:28,313 --> 01:24:30,898
These findings are nonspecific,
but most in keeping with

1035
01:24:30,982 --> 01:24:32,816
chronic microangiopathic changes.

1036
01:24:32,901 --> 01:24:34,735
You'll note there's no hydrocephalus.

1037
01:24:34,819 --> 01:24:36,945
There's no brain herniation.
The vessels are well seen.

1038
01:24:38,698 --> 01:24:40,783
You'll note that the gray matter

1039
01:24:40,867 --> 01:24:43,285
differentiation
is completely maintained.

1040
01:24:43,369 --> 01:24:46,663
You little slut.
I can't believe you slept with him.

1041
01:24:46,748 --> 01:24:48,415
Not only are you a hopeless grind,

1042
01:24:48,500 --> 01:24:51,919
but you're an immature,
whiney, crybaby bitch.

1043
01:24:52,003 --> 01:24:54,630
- Okay, stop!
- Excuse me?

1044
01:24:58,093 --> 01:25:00,427
Sorry. Sorry.

1045
01:26:02,824 --> 01:26:03,866
No.

1046
01:26:03,950 --> 01:26:05,492
No! No! No!

1047
01:26:05,577 --> 01:26:06,910
No!

1048
01:26:08,204 --> 01:26:09,246
No.

1049
01:26:21,676 --> 01:26:23,093
No.

1050
01:26:30,518 --> 01:26:31,602
No.

1051
01:26:39,527 --> 01:26:40,527
No.

1052
01:26:44,866 --> 01:26:46,825
Stop!

1053
01:26:46,910 --> 01:26:48,869
Stop! No!

1054
01:26:49,954 --> 01:26:50,954
No!

1055
01:26:53,082 --> 01:26:54,875
Stop! No!

1056
01:27:41,130 --> 01:27:42,297
Hey.

1057
01:27:42,674 --> 01:27:43,757
Hey.

1058
01:27:45,426 --> 01:27:47,719
What are you doing here?

1059
01:27:47,804 --> 01:27:50,264
Have you seen Cyrus Gudgeon lately?

1060
01:27:50,348 --> 01:27:52,349
If that's supposed to be a joke,

1061
01:27:52,433 --> 01:27:54,059
- it's not funny.
- It's not a joke.

1062
01:27:55,395 --> 01:27:56,770
Then what?

1063
01:27:57,855 --> 01:28:00,274
I pulled the autopsy report.

1064
01:28:00,358 --> 01:28:02,317
It says nothing about metoprolol.

1065
01:28:02,402 --> 01:28:07,739
So then I went back to the original
path lab notes of the blood test,

1066
01:28:07,824 --> 01:28:09,825
and there it was.

1067
01:28:11,160 --> 01:28:12,577
Metoprolol.

1068
01:28:13,621 --> 01:28:15,080
I'm going inside.

1069
01:28:15,581 --> 01:28:18,917
Why wouldn't the autopsy report
match with the notes, Marlo?

1070
01:28:20,461 --> 01:28:21,545
Marlo?

1071
01:28:25,800 --> 01:28:27,884
Marlo.

1072
01:28:27,969 --> 01:28:31,096
Did you change that autopsy report?

1073
01:28:31,180 --> 01:28:34,516
I had to protect myself.

1074
01:28:36,269 --> 01:28:38,186
Protect yourself? Really?

1075
01:28:38,271 --> 01:28:40,272
By making it look
like he died from a sting

1076
01:28:40,356 --> 01:28:41,898
and not a drug you administered?

1077
01:28:41,983 --> 01:28:43,400
I know.

1078
01:28:43,484 --> 01:28:47,404
- I know. It was wrong of me.
- You got to tell someone.

1079
01:28:47,488 --> 01:28:50,282
- I am. I'm telling you.
- The dean, Marlo.

1080
01:28:50,366 --> 01:28:52,409
You have to tell the dean
you changed that report.

1081
01:28:52,493 --> 01:28:53,493
Why?

1082
01:28:53,578 --> 01:28:55,620
- What good is that gonna do now?
- Really?

1083
01:28:55,705 --> 01:28:57,122
You don't see it?

1084
01:28:57,206 --> 01:28:58,790
It's your flatline, Cyrus Gudgeon.

1085
01:28:58,875 --> 01:29:03,378
You know, it was so nice being with you

1086
01:29:03,463 --> 01:29:07,632
and realizing, after all this time,
that you actually like me.

1087
01:29:07,717 --> 01:29:09,634
And now you have to go and spoil it.

1088
01:29:09,719 --> 01:29:12,304
- I am here because I like you.
- Yeah, well, it's easy for you.

1089
01:29:12,388 --> 01:29:14,556
You don't have to sacrifice anything.

1090
01:29:14,640 --> 01:29:18,935
I'm becoming a doctor
with a degree from a top medical school.

1091
01:29:19,020 --> 01:29:21,021
I've worked my whole life for this.

1092
01:29:21,105 --> 01:29:25,025
And now, I... I made one mistake.
I mean, admitting it

1093
01:29:25,109 --> 01:29:26,693
is not gonna bring the guy back.

1094
01:29:26,778 --> 01:29:29,196
All it's gonna do is end my career.

1095
01:29:31,407 --> 01:29:33,909
That is the point here,

1096
01:29:33,993 --> 01:29:35,744
your career.

1097
01:29:39,332 --> 01:29:44,127
If you were willing to change
an autopsy report, then...

1098
01:29:45,046 --> 01:29:46,463
Say it.

1099
01:29:49,175 --> 01:29:51,885
Then maybe you shouldn't be a doctor.

1100
01:30:01,521 --> 01:30:03,355
Hi. Is this Beverly Wong?

1101
01:30:04,899 --> 01:30:07,317
Beverly Wong from East Hadley?

1102
01:30:07,902 --> 01:30:08,985
It is?

1103
01:30:10,029 --> 01:30:13,365
Do you have a daughter named Irina?

1104
01:30:17,870 --> 01:30:19,079
Hey.

1105
01:30:19,163 --> 01:30:20,789
Thanks for coming with me.

1106
01:30:20,873 --> 01:30:23,583
Could you have rented a smaller car?

1107
01:30:29,924 --> 01:30:32,509
You're sure it's the same Irina?

1108
01:30:41,102 --> 01:30:42,352
Irina.

1109
01:30:42,437 --> 01:30:43,645
Yes.

1110
01:30:43,729 --> 01:30:45,105
It's Sophia.

1111
01:30:46,357 --> 01:30:48,233
From East Hadley.

1112
01:30:48,317 --> 01:30:50,527
We went to the same high school.

1113
01:30:50,611 --> 01:30:53,905
I'm sorry. I know, it... It's...
It's been forever.

1114
01:30:53,990 --> 01:30:55,073
I...

1115
01:30:55,741 --> 01:30:59,494
I really needed to talk to you,
so I was hoping we could sit down...

1116
01:30:59,579 --> 01:31:01,204
What is this about?

1117
01:31:04,208 --> 01:31:07,836
You never knew this, but...

1118
01:31:09,755 --> 01:31:14,217
I was the one who sent your pictures
to the whole class.

1119
01:31:16,846 --> 01:31:19,473
That was me.

1120
01:31:19,557 --> 01:31:23,935
I can't stand myself to think about it.

1121
01:31:24,020 --> 01:31:27,230
Bottom line, it was
an awful thing to do. I know that.

1122
01:31:27,315 --> 01:31:29,107
What do you want?

1123
01:31:30,693 --> 01:31:33,403
I'd like you to accept my apology.

1124
01:31:34,363 --> 01:31:37,199
It's not necessary.

1125
01:31:37,283 --> 01:31:39,951
Okay? I've moved on.

1126
01:31:40,036 --> 01:31:42,078
Irina... This is important, okay?

1127
01:31:42,163 --> 01:31:43,955
I am so sorry.

1128
01:31:45,958 --> 01:31:47,751
Irina, please.

1129
01:31:55,635 --> 01:31:57,135
Sophia.

1130
01:32:07,647 --> 01:32:10,065
I forgive you.

1131
01:32:14,570 --> 01:32:16,071
Thank you.

1132
01:32:24,413 --> 01:32:25,914
What'd she say?

1133
01:32:27,416 --> 01:32:28,833
Hey, Marlo, it's Jamie.

1134
01:32:28,918 --> 01:32:31,628
- Hey.
- Look, we're just kind of riffing here,

1135
01:32:31,712 --> 01:32:33,338
but maybe you find
whoever you've wronged,

1136
01:32:33,422 --> 01:32:34,756
whatever you're feeling guilty about,

1137
01:32:34,840 --> 01:32:36,716
and you take responsibility.

1138
01:32:36,801 --> 01:32:38,385
I mean, look, who knows if it'll work?

1139
01:32:38,469 --> 01:32:41,346
But what have we got to lose?

1140
01:33:05,121 --> 01:33:06,246
Alicia!

1141
01:33:07,164 --> 01:33:08,206
Alicia.

1142
01:33:08,291 --> 01:33:11,126
Hey. It's... It's me.

1143
01:33:11,210 --> 01:33:13,211
It's Jamie.

1144
01:33:22,013 --> 01:33:23,430
What are you doing here, Jamie?

1145
01:33:27,602 --> 01:33:29,102
He's your son?

1146
01:33:31,230 --> 01:33:35,066
Hey. Hey... I came to apologize.

1147
01:33:35,151 --> 01:33:37,110
For taking off on you.

1148
01:33:37,194 --> 01:33:40,322
I... I panicked. I was a coward.

1149
01:33:40,406 --> 01:33:42,699
I should have been there for you.

1150
01:33:42,783 --> 01:33:44,993
But you weren't.

1151
01:33:46,245 --> 01:33:47,537
Look, I...

1152
01:33:47,622 --> 01:33:50,081
I want to make amends.

1153
01:33:50,166 --> 01:33:51,750
Do what's right.

1154
01:33:51,834 --> 01:33:53,668
Help... Help you out.

1155
01:33:53,753 --> 01:33:55,587
Whatever you need.

1156
01:33:57,089 --> 01:33:58,381
Alicia.

1157
01:33:59,884 --> 01:34:02,510
Who is that man, Mommy?

1158
01:35:26,095 --> 01:35:27,137
What?

1159
01:35:27,221 --> 01:35:28,555
What?

1160
01:35:56,959 --> 01:35:58,126
What the hell?

1161
01:36:16,437 --> 01:36:17,437
Sophia?

1162
01:36:17,521 --> 01:36:18,938
I just got a message from Marlo.

1163
01:36:19,023 --> 01:36:21,191
Something's wrong. And her phone is off.

1164
01:36:21,275 --> 01:36:22,692
We need to find her.

1165
01:36:22,777 --> 01:36:24,277
Okay. Where are you?

1166
01:36:24,361 --> 01:36:26,070
I'm... I'm gonna come to you.

1167
01:36:26,155 --> 01:36:27,238
Marlo?

1168
01:36:28,449 --> 01:36:29,741
Marlo!

1169
01:36:29,825 --> 01:36:31,951
She's not here, man.

1170
01:36:32,036 --> 01:36:33,328
Wait. Wait!

1171
01:36:35,331 --> 01:36:36,456
Marlo?

1172
01:36:37,708 --> 01:36:39,501
Forget it. She's here.

1173
01:36:39,585 --> 01:36:41,127
Come as fast as you can!

1174
01:36:43,088 --> 01:36:44,422
I'm nearly there.

1175
01:36:44,507 --> 01:36:45,882
You got to hurry.

1176
01:36:45,966 --> 01:36:47,175
Ray!

1177
01:36:47,259 --> 01:36:50,011
She must be down there. Come.

1178
01:36:50,095 --> 01:36:51,763
Okay.

1179
01:36:53,557 --> 01:36:54,599
Come on!

1180
01:37:05,569 --> 01:37:07,987
- Oh, my God.
- No, no, no, no, no!

1181
01:37:08,072 --> 01:37:09,697
Oh, my God. How long has she been under?

1182
01:37:11,033 --> 01:37:12,325
It's been over four minutes.

1183
01:37:12,409 --> 01:37:13,701
- BVM?
- Sure.

1184
01:37:15,371 --> 01:37:16,621
Come on. We need oxygen!

1185
01:37:27,591 --> 01:37:30,134
Cyrus. I'm so sorry.

1186
01:37:31,178 --> 01:37:32,679
Forgive me.

1187
01:37:33,889 --> 01:37:35,932
Will you please forgive me?

1188
01:37:40,729 --> 01:37:41,896
No pulse.

1189
01:37:43,148 --> 01:37:45,191
Take over the compressions.

1190
01:37:45,276 --> 01:37:47,277
Go, go, go!

1191
01:38:47,838 --> 01:38:49,380
It's not working. Shit.

1192
01:39:16,075 --> 01:39:17,492
Stop.

1193
01:39:22,998 --> 01:39:24,624
Nothing.

1194
01:40:05,249 --> 01:40:06,833
Ray.

1195
01:40:21,807 --> 01:40:25,309
Marlo, don't you get it?

1196
01:40:27,146 --> 01:40:29,063
I need you to come back.

1197
01:40:32,359 --> 01:40:33,651
To me.

1198
01:40:40,159 --> 01:40:42,827
Marlo, Marlo...

1199
01:40:48,792 --> 01:40:51,627
Marlo? Marlo.

1200
01:41:20,449 --> 01:41:22,950
No! No!

1201
01:41:27,915 --> 01:41:29,290
Marlo.

1202
01:41:31,877 --> 01:41:34,170
You have to forgive yourself.

1203
01:41:36,173 --> 01:41:37,673
Forgive yourself, Marlo.

1204
01:41:37,758 --> 01:41:38,800
No!

1205
01:41:41,470 --> 01:41:42,762
Charge 360.

1206
01:42:11,208 --> 01:42:12,583
Okay. Okay.

1207
01:42:12,668 --> 01:42:14,127
Oh, my...

1208
01:42:17,422 --> 01:42:19,799
It's okay. It's okay.

1209
01:42:23,804 --> 01:42:25,054
Hey.

1210
01:42:31,520 --> 01:42:32,562
Here.

1211
01:42:32,646 --> 01:42:33,938
There you go.

1212
01:42:36,191 --> 01:42:37,692
Thank you.

1213
01:42:41,822 --> 01:42:43,156
You okay?

1214
01:42:44,032 --> 01:42:45,241
Yeah.

1215
01:42:45,325 --> 01:42:47,326
I found the girl.

1216
01:42:49,121 --> 01:42:52,331
And a little boy.

1217
01:42:53,083 --> 01:42:54,292
Yeah.

1218
01:42:54,918 --> 01:42:57,753
The hell with going to L.A.

1219
01:42:57,838 --> 01:43:00,131
I'm getting a residency right here.

1220
01:43:00,215 --> 01:43:02,717
Be near them.

1221
01:43:04,261 --> 01:43:05,970
I'm gonna try.

1222
01:43:11,476 --> 01:43:13,519
Courtney was right.

1223
01:43:13,604 --> 01:43:15,730
It's not enough to apologize.

1224
01:43:15,814 --> 01:43:18,316
We have to face up to what we've done,

1225
01:43:18,400 --> 01:43:21,068
and then forgive ourselves.

1226
01:43:21,945 --> 01:43:24,780
Some lines should not be crossed.

1227
01:43:24,865 --> 01:43:27,283
We lost a friend.

1228
01:43:27,784 --> 01:43:29,994
We will never be the same.

1229
01:43:31,914 --> 01:43:33,122
Where were you?

1230
01:43:33,207 --> 01:43:34,832
I talked to the dean.

1231
01:43:34,917 --> 01:43:36,542
How'd it go?

1232
01:43:36,627 --> 01:43:38,336
I'm on probation.

1233
01:43:39,755 --> 01:43:41,839
Did you bring it?

1234
01:43:43,842 --> 01:43:45,259
Here.

1235
01:44:01,193 --> 01:44:03,819
Only Courtney knows now.

1236
01:44:14,915 --> 01:44:18,334
Feels so weird just being here
without Courtney.

1237
01:44:22,881 --> 01:44:24,882
Anyone want to say something?

1238
01:44:25,717 --> 01:44:27,593
Let's just get hammered.

1239
01:44:29,680 --> 01:44:32,098
Why don't you say something?

1240
01:45:08,802 --> 01:45:10,386
To Courtney.

1241
01:45:12,055 --> 01:45:13,639
To Courtney.