9/26/2016, 11:49:33 PM
TheSpinach: Master
Masterlightx: Hm?
TheSpinach: sigh
TheSpinach: Listen
TheSpinach: I may not like Jay as much as I used ot
TheSpinach: *to
TheSpinach: But
TheSpinach: I still dont like it when it looks like he's being yelled at, even when he's yelling back
TheSpinach: Maybe it's because the first time I really spoke to him was about serious matters, and he was really nice and we had a lot in common.
TheSpinach: . . .
TheSpinach: What I was going to say before Jay said to shut up about this
TheSpinach: Was that you know his mom... Helennah...
TheSpinach: Jay and his mom enjoyed playing TPP
Masterlightx: She was my best friend here for a long time before you guys ausThump
TheSpinach: I know
TheSpinach: But listen
TheSpinach: Jay heard of TPP, I dont know how, but he did. And he asked his mom if he could create an account to participate in, but she said no.
TheSpinach: After a while...
TheSpinach: During Anniversary Red, he was able to, and his mom said that she would have to have access to the account
TheSpinach: She wanted to watch over him
Masterlightx: I know, I was there for all of it Spinach :(
TheSpinach: Let me finish...
TheSpinach: She wanted to keep him safe from the whole "stealing personal info" issue
TheSpinach: Which could be a reason why he wouldnt give me his number or not tell me where he lived.
TheSpinach: > - >
TheSpinach: But, they both loved playing games on TPP and they both loved the community.
TheSpinach: And it wouldnt be surprising if they spent time just discussing TPP stuff with each other
TheSpinach: He enjoyed seeing her make friends on TPP, like you.
TheSpinach: He has memories of TPP with his mother, and that's all he'll have now...
TheSpinach: So it makes sense for him to take TPP seriously. Yes, it may be unhealthy, but it's all he has left to remind himself of the times he had fun with her.
TheSpinach: In this community
TheSpinach: And in case you dont know... Jay was never to good at making friends in real life
TheSpinach: *too
TheSpinach: And his family isn't really something of a place to find comfort in...
TheSpinach: I dont know if they're bad or not, but apparently he doesn't like to be around his family much
TheSpinach: He doesn't like to talk about it that much...
Masterlightx: His family sounds very distant from him...
TheSpinach: Mhm.
TheSpinach: That's why TPP is so important to him. It reminds him of his mom, and the times they had. And it's probably one of the few things he has for fun.
TheSpinach: Where he can meet people and interact with them
TheSpinach: Because when you grow up with social anxiety, you never really get that chance much...
Masterlightx: That's fine, but at the same time it's not... he should be out meeting people or having some other hobbies besides this for all hours he's awake. OpieOP
TheSpinach: Yeah
TheSpinach: But do you know how much I've "annoyed" him to at least give me his number so that I could talk to him when he wanted to?
TheSpinach: A lot
TheSpinach: I wanted to care for him because I sympathize with him
TheSpinach: But I guess he couldnt because of how he grew up
TheSpinach: His mother wouldnt want him to create an account for TPP, what makes you think he would give me his number?
Masterlightx: I stopped caring about trying to make him like me after he said he'd never forgive me for getting him banned again... which was a long time ago. And that was all because how much I loved his mom... I can't bring myself to care about him as much because of that. ausCry
TheSpinach: I understand...
TheSpinach: I stopped trying to make him important to me
Masterlightx: I already killed any chance of being friends with him because I liked his mom too much to handle... how can I respond to that?
TheSpinach: I know how Jay is...
TheSpinach: It's been a LONG time since he's welcomed me with his usual "Spin~ <3 "
Masterlightx: He won't let it go, he doesn't care what my motives were or what I was feeling, I got in his way and that's final. OpieOP
TheSpinach: He used to always greet me with Spin~ <3
TheSpinach: He hasnt done that in a while...
Masterlightx: I tried helping him get unbanned, I introduced hi mto you guys because I felt sorry for him, but no matter what he get further from me and I knew that eventually it would end up like this, the whole time I knew... ausCry
Masterlightx: he got*
Masterlightx: That's why I just stopped.
TheSpinach: It's... something you cant fix...
TheSpinach: I would try to help him understand your motive back then... but he barely wants to talk to me
TheSpinach: If I try to seriously act like I need some reassurance
TheSpinach: After being scared that he didnt want to be my friend anymore
Masterlightx: It's something that should be fixed by both of us. I got over my feelings for his mom. He needs to get over the fact that I wasn't just be malicious. But he won't.
TheSpinach: Which I was
TheSpinach: I know. It's very hard for me to talk to him now
Masterlightx: I've never tried to screw anyone over like that before... I did it once and that's all he sees of me. ausCry
TheSpinach: I guess he didnt like how pushy I was...
Masterlightx: Well talk to him in whispers. He'll probably at least talk for a little bit.
TheSpinach: Wait...
TheSpinach: I accidentally brought up the subject of his mom one time, and I apologized. He said it was no big deal
TheSpinach: I remember when he used ot show care and concern for me
TheSpinach: *to
TheSpinach: And even though he doesnt anymore
TheSpinach: And even though I stopped trying to apologize to him
TheSpinach: It...
TheSpinach: Something in me I guess... I dont like it when he is put into a corner like that. And it's been happening more common
TheSpinach: Master?
Masterlightx: It's because he's being more and more of a hypocrite and showing his bad side more and more since he's more comfortable around you guys OpieOP
Masterlightx: And Steve and SinR are starting to see it even though I knew about it the whole time.
TheSpinach: I dont think of it like that...
TheSpinach: Its a big flaw of mine, but I dont see the bad side in people
TheSpinach: I just look at the good side
TheSpinach: Because...
Masterlightx: Well that's what's happening. I've literally done nothing to try and sway Steve and SinR's opinion about him but they both seem to think that same way I do OpieOP
TheSpinach: ESPECIALLY for people I care about, it's impossible for me to see it
Masterlightx: There's a bad side to everyone. Some people just have a smaller one.
TheSpinach: And it's almost impossible to try and talk to him about this... he ignores it. He's ignored me.
Masterlightx: And some people have huge glaring ones they flaunt like Jay OpieOP
TheSpinach: But... I know that some people grow up with experiences that cause them to have issues
TheSpinach: Jay might have one with dealing with people he thinks he could trust
TheSpinach: The only exception is Waffle
TheSpinach: Because Waffle hasnt done anything to provoke him
Masterlightx: I won't violate his privacy but his life has been nothing but trust issues ausCry
Masterlightx: He told me.
TheSpinach: That's why he has a hard time trusting you. And why he has a hard time trusting me again
Masterlightx: His family, his mom's death, his school life, almost everything has been complete shit.
TheSpinach: Do you feel sympathy for him?
Masterlightx: A lot.
Masterlightx: I just don't know what to do about it. He wants to do nothing but ignore life by wasting it on TPP.
TheSpinach: I know...
TheSpinach: I'm saying what's been on my mind to him.
Masterlightx: He spends more and more time here and less caring about anyone here except Waffle who won't call him out on anything...
TheSpinach: He may not read it, but I should at least try.
Masterlightx: You can tell him what I said if you want...
Masterlightx: Not like he cares.
Masterlightx: But anyway I REALLY need to sleep. ResidentSleeper
TheSpinach: Okay
Masterlightx: Goodnight. ausL