I'm Back

Before I begin this, here's the quick version:

I was burnt out of streaming entirely, I felt obligated to do it and that hurt my motivation, so I'll be returning very soon with FM, SMB, and whatever else I want, with no clear schedule and no clear main game.

And now for the long version:

It has now been an entire month without a stream. Basically, this is for two reasons. The first reason is that I have a pretty rigorous work and class schedule. I'm working on saving up enough money so that when I move out this summer, I have enough cash to not have to worry about anything. So that much working combined with classes makes it hard to stream. But I did have time to, and I chose not to. Reason being, I'm burnt out.

Streaming as a whole is something I do for fun. It has always been something I viewed as totally for fun, and it is my favorite hobby I have. However, around December, I began to feel differently about it. I felt like I was obligated to stream. I had a stream schedule, and I felt obligated to stick to it because I had people subbed to me. The feeling changes when people are giving you money monthly to do your hobby. It stops feeling like a hobby. Even though I didn't (and still don't) care about getting ANY money, I still felt shitty if I missed a scheduled stream day, because I knew people are sinking their money into me.

I would get rid of my sub button. Trust me, I want to. BUT, I like having emotes. I know FrankerFaceZ is an option, but having global emotes is in general really nice, so I'm not getting rid of my sub button for that reason.

Now, to the next topic: games. I said no more FM. I said all Super Meat Boy. Now, everything I said about games is out the window. This felt like yet ANOTHER binding contract I was in. I don't want to be bound to ANYTHING anymore. If I want to play FM one day, I will. Meat Boy another day, I'm going to. I, from here on, will no longer have a set "main game". I am going to play whatever I feel like playing that day, for as long as I feel like playing it.

Streaming is a hobby, it should be fun. Fun to me is feeling like I'm not bound to any sort of schedule, or bound to play a certain game all the time. So, from here forward, I will have no set streaming schedule, and when I do stream it will be whatever game I truly want to play at that time.

And all my subs! I have to say, you guys are fucking amazing. Your support is absolutely incredible. But my issue is that I need to REMEMBER that you're giving me SUPPORT. After a while, it feels like a paycheck for a job instead of just a tip given to you from people who like what they see. But I'm throwing that idea out the window. If you guys choose to donate to me, or sub to me, do so knowing there's no promise I still stream a lot, and there's no promise I'll be playing whatever game you're watching the next time I stream.

I do plan on doing FM attempts again. How many or when, no idea. But it is definitely **IN THE CARDS** (heh). Ok. Also, I submitted FM to SGDQ. Why? May as well seeing as I'll be there.

Thanks again everyone for the support. Streams are gonna begin again soon. And with my return to streaming, comes my return to streaming for fun, without any underlying feelings of obligation.

-GFC_