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- please note: half of the songs on this playlist are about being transgender and/or are by trans/gnc artists. i hope you understand why; (ben/kylo) being trans is integral to this playlist.
- 01. salt - bad suns
- stuck inside of the wrong frame/i don't feel attached to this name
- trans feelings.
- 02. true trans soul rebel - against me!
- yet to be born, you're already dead/you sleep with a gun beside you in bed
- fairly obvious song choice. trans feelings and some suicidal and self harm tendencies.
- 03. trout heart replica - amanda palmer and the grand theft orchestra
- killing things is not so hard it's hurting that's the hardest part and when the wizard gets to me i'm asking for a smaller heart
- struggling with the light and the dark, wanting and needing to commit evil acts but feeling too much empathy, having too much heart.
- 04. the sea is a good place to think of the future - los campesinos!
- you may look down at your model's feet and wish that you'd just float away and the weather here is overcast and the sea is the same shade of gray
- depression and eating disorders and a hint of trans stuff--i headcanon ben was "the crazy girl" as a kid, always too much, too emotional, dismissed for being a hormonal, "typical" teen from an early age.
- 05. avalanches - jordaan mason & the horse museum
- what if all stripped wood is branches/and all frozen lakes are water/then our bodies will be avalanches
- dysphoria.
- 06. tears for animals - cocorosie
- heartstrings broken, wearily turned to the moon/bastard widows born marooned
- struggling with the light and the dark, empathy, suicidal thoughts, hopelessness. don't miss the lyric "orphan girl-child".
- 07. black me out - against me!
- i don't want to see the world that way any more, i don't want to feel that weak and insecure
- anger leads to hate.
- 08. pa pa power - dead man's bones
- please make me better (we won't destroy you, no, we will not destroy you)
- wanting to have power. wanting to be better.
- 09. way down we go - kaleo
- and they will run you down, down 'til you go, so you can't crawl no more
- a bit of self-flagellation.
- 10. hope there's someone - antony and the johnsons
- oh i'm scared of the middle place between light and nowhere
- fear of loneliness, fear of death, fear of being in-between.
- 11. poor deal - bianca casady & the c.i.a.
- if god and the devil are the same then who's your daddy now?
- i know han didn't exactly sell ben to snoke, but the metaphor still stands. parental complacence as the devil comes to take the girl-child away.
- 12. straight - amanda palmer
- and i can't seem to keep myself straight, i've forgotten which habits to hide and which habits to fake
- going to the academy--or maybe to train with the knights--and being socially inept. fear of being treated like a girl, specifically "the crazy girl". waiting for someone to call him out and reduce him to what he used to be but never was.
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