Current Life Situation

Hello,

If you are reading this, I appreciate it. It means you care, and that's the biggest favor you can do me right now.

Many of you already know, but I am moving very soon. 3-4 months soon. I am not moving with Alba, however: my parents decided to sell the apartment they lived in for 25 years to go to another town. I have gathered money from streaming, but rents are really expensive for what they offer where I live: I'd be able to live along with Alba's job, but it'd be very precarious. So I'm forced to move 35 miles away from Alba. Sure, it doesn't sound that bad! You can still get a car and go see her. But this isn't what I wanted. My parents said that this moving thing would happen in roughly 2 years, and they said this in July. And I really hate change. And this is change.

What's worst, however, it that my parents made my sit down roughly a week ago telling me that "no matter what, you will always find a home wherever we live. So once I knew that this was happening so fast, I told my mom that I may have to move with them until I can get some more money to move with Alba. To that, she responded "wait, really? I didn't know this". She sounded disappointed, unprepared. That, I call hypocrisy, and it was towards her son.

Now, before you keep reading. If you are idiotic enough that this is a cry out for you to give me your money, you can eat shit. I am trying to express myself and I think being transparent is one of the most important things when it comes to me streaming, because I am not above all of you guys, but with you. You are not viewers; you are my friends. I've had enough experiences of people saying "oh yes you are saying that your grandmother died so you can get money" (I'm looking at you, askkbrow. I had no expectations of you and yet you disappointed me beyond belief).

So, let me start by describing the beginning. Alba and I were going to get her grandmother's house by donation. We had to pay 7k euro and the house is ours, boom. Simple as that. Her granny, however, died 2 weeks prior to her signing this donation and it never took place. We thought her family would be kind of enough and human enough to say that it was their MOTHER'S WILL (because it was, she literally said that she wanted house to be ours) should be realized and we should get the house. But no: they prefer selling it for like 200k euro and make a penny out of it, despite knowing that our generation is FUCKED because of theirs and we cannot afford jack all.

So, yeah. No house until we know the price and we have enough money saved up. Oh well.

Now, my parents thought that I'd leave their apartment once we got that house, which was in September this month. But Clemencia (granny's mother) died before this. But they still kept going with this plan as if fucking nothing changed, in the selfish way that they've always done their stuff. Which is why I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Alba and I want to move to her parents' 1st floor (they have 2 floors, and it's a pretty big house because her family built it from scratch), but they currently have it loaned to people. So in order to live there, we'd have to go through rent (I'm not complaining about this, but it's obviously more expensive than the original plan), and the monthly expenses are quite high because we're also college students.

This is why you will see me a little bit on the down low from time to time on stream. If you are not feeling entertained, I will completely understand you leaving or whatever, but I don't want to lie about my emotions. Every time I press "start streaming" I always hope that things go well and I won't feel sad, but that sometimes just doesn't happen.

Anyway, I thank you for reading this until the end. You are a good person.

See you on stream!