I am in such an existential mood rn omg
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:13 PM
Why?
Mau - Today at 10:14 PM
I don't know I just started thinking about death and it won't get out of my mind
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:14 PM
Something is eating you up Abby
You aren't aware of it
Mau - Today at 10:14 PM
But I have never really thought about it before
and now I just can't get death off of my mind
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:15 PM
Question
Mau - Today at 10:15 PM
Yes?
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:15 PM
Do you want to die
Mau - Today at 10:15 PM
Why do you ask
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:15 PM
Just worried a bit
Mau - Today at 10:16 PM
I don't know tbh
I think I lost a bit of me
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:16 PM
When and where?
And how?
Mau - Today at 10:17 PM
I don't know
But I lost the part of me that fears death
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:18 PM
It is something that will come back
Mau - Today at 10:18 PM
I have no idea
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:18 PM
No idea about?
Mau - Today at 10:19 PM
Whether it will come back or not
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:19 PM
It will
Anyways
Mau - Today at 10:20 PM
Anyways what
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:21 PM
Kind of a depressing topic, you should try to stay away from that idea
Mau - Today at 10:21 PM
Sorry
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:22 PM
Why are you apologizing
You did not cause any issues
Mau - Today at 10:24 PM
I just
Nevermind
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:24 PM
Say what's on your mind Abby
I don't think you will feel better or get over anything if you keep what you are feeling in
Mau - Today at 10:24 PM
I am kind of scared
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:25 PM
Of?
Mau - Today at 10:25 PM
Alex
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:25 PM
Why?
Mau - Today at 10:25 PM
He makes me call him things
He says he owns me
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:26 PM
Oh
Mau - Today at 10:26 PM
I'm scared of what he will do
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:26 PM
I had a feeling
I told you as well
What would happen if you did it
Mau - Today at 10:26 PM
I know
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:26 PM
Not saying "I told you so"
He is taking advantage of you
He is controlling
It was a given
I promise you he is lying too about hurting himself
Just so he can get a nut off
Welcome to the world of being desperate
Or if he actually is hurting himself
Thats a new level I have yet to see
Mau - Today at 10:27 PM
He is
I have seen pictures
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:27 PM
Of cut wrists?
Of what?
Mau - Today at 10:27 PM
Cut wrists
Through video
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:27 PM
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Super easy to go online and download a video Abby
Not saying he is
But from what he is doing
I wouldn't be surprised
Mau - Today at 10:28 PM
We video chatted
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:28 PM
And he showed you through video
Insanely desperate
He isn't in need of help
No one does that
You broke Abby
And caved into what he wanted
Now it is bothering you
And he is basically treating you as his own item for sex
Which you are not an item for sex or anything of the sort
Have you done it again after the initial time?
Mau - Today at 10:30 PM
No
I come up with excuses to leave
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:30 PM
BUt he remains sexual?(edited)
Mau - Today at 10:30 PM
yes
whenever we are in a call he makes me call him things
all the time
it's a rule
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:31 PM
Wow
How did he get you to be like this
Are you that worried about him?
Mau - Today at 10:31 PM
He broke me after I was already broken
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:31 PM
He took advantage
Some kind of friend he is am I right?
Mau - Today at 10:32 PM
Yeah
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:32 PM
You will still worry about him though
Because it is part of your character
Mau - Today at 10:32 PM
Yeah
I'll brb
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:32 PM
Ok
Sorry for being rough
I am not happy with seeing you not be yourself
And letting my friend get this way
So bare with me
Mau - Today at 10:33 PM
It’s ok
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:33 PM
Let me know when you are back
Mau - Today at 10:36 PM
I’m back
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:36 PM
Wb
Mau - Today at 10:36 PM
Thank you
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:37 PM
So to continue
Will you ever speak up for yourself?
Mau - Today at 10:37 PM
I don’t know
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:37 PM
Why would you not do so?
Mau - Today at 10:38 PM
I don’t know how to
He scares me
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:38 PM
Of course he does
This is online btw
You can easily cut connections
Mau - Today at 10:39 PM
I’m also worried
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:39 PM
I would tell you to stop worrying
But I can't make you
Why would you be worried about him?
Mau - Today at 10:40 PM
I worry about people
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:41 PM
I know
But would you be worried about a rapist
A killer
Not saying he is
Asking simple questions
Mau - Today at 10:42 PM
Mostly I am just scared
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:42 PM
I know
You don't need to state it
Im just helping you realize it
Mau - Today at 10:42 PM
I just want a hug and somebody to tell me that everything is going to be ok
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:42 PM
Well
I wish I could say it
Because everything will be ok ONLY if you want it to be ok
You are the only person who can change it here
Not me, not anyone else
Mau - Today at 10:43 PM
I know I could just cut it off
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:43 PM
But?
Mau - Today at 10:44 PM
I want him to be ok
While I don’t like him at all he was still ‘there for me’ in a way that I don’t think you’d understand
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:44 PM
You are right
I may not understand
But that could easily be part of his way to control you
Mau - Today at 10:47 PM
He’s there, I didn’t want to even come home that day after it happened but I had to. I didn’t want to get online but Alex messaged me and I broke in front of him. He was there. A day after that he got really bad.
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:47 PM
Because he felt he had control maybe
Idk
Again
I have no control over what you do
But
If you dont cut him off
Or tell him off
Then you will continue to be eaten up
You will continue to be hurt
Continue to suffer from within
This is an opportunity imo
For you to grow in a way
Mature a bit
Mau - Today at 10:49 PM
Mature in what
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:49 PM
Mature in worrying about yourself
And mature in speaking your thoughts
You usually do not speak what you feel unless you really know the person
In this case you "know" alex
But you are scared of him
Sorry to say Abby, if you are scared of him then you don't know him as well as you think you do
It scares you because you were use to the Alex that was there for you
Now he is sexually harassing you
And taking advantage
It angers me to hear about it
But
I can't let my anger get the best of me
Nothing I can do
Mau - Today at 10:51 PM
Sorry
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:51 PM
For?
Actually
Don't answer
Mau - Today at 10:51 PM
Why?
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:51 PM
I already know what you are apologizing for
And stop thinking that way
Just because I am angered by this
Does not mean it is your fault
Mau - Today at 10:52 PM
Ok sorry
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:52 PM
....
Mau - Today at 10:52 PM
Oh
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:52 PM
You did nothing wrong
Mau - Today at 10:52 PM
Umm
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:52 PM
Smh Abby
You aren't hopeless
Mau - Today at 10:52 PM
Sorr-
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:52 PM
But sometimes I swear-
Mau - Today at 10:52 PM
:sweat_smile:
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:53 PM
That was on purpose
I know it was
Mau - Today at 10:53 PM
Not actually
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:53 PM
continuing on
Let me ask you
Would you rather you get sexually harassed by your "friend"
Or would you rather be unleashed from that leash
The reason why I already have an idea of this
Is because Alex is getting over it
Not your Alex
My Alex
She had finally gotten over the guy
for months she wanted to end it
Mau - Today at 10:54 PM
That’s good
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:54 PM
He was controlling, pushing her for sex, and so on
That was in person
Imagine if your Alex was in person
How would you react
Would you still let him act the way he is acting?
Mau - Today at 10:55 PM
I would be terrified
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:55 PM
Abby listen to me
Im going to be very harsh
So if you are hurt by this
Im sorry
His actions is those of a fucking rapist
Im not joking on that
He can't do anything
This is more of someone who likes control
Gets enjoyment out of it
Alex is doing this in a way
You said
"It is a rule"
For you to call him sexual names
He gets off to it
Simple as that
You don't find that weird?
Mau - Today at 10:56 PM
I don’t know
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:56 PM
What do you mean you don't know?
Mau - Today at 10:57 PM
I don’t know if it’s weird or not
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:57 PM
It is abby
Im 20
I know how normal relationships are
I've spoken to many many many of my friends
About their sex life
Men and women for that matter
The only time they call each other names like that
Is during the actual action
For all you know
He can be beating his meat in call with you when you call him that
What is the name even?
Mau - Today at 10:59 PM
Daddy
I hate it
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 10:59 PM
Dear god
Ok
Daddy is a common term
Mainly for someone who likes to be dominate
Its a way to show control
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 11:00 PM
That proves it alone
Mau - Today at 11:00 PM
He calls me kitten
I really hate it
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 11:00 PM
He probably has a weird fetish
Abby you need to speak up
Nothing can be done if you don't
You need to learn to stop caring about him
He isn't going to stop
It will only get worse if you don't do anything to prevent it
Mau - Today at 11:01 PM
Ok
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 11:02 PM
Did my words reach you
Or did I have no effect(edited)
Mau - Today at 11:02 PM
I got the message
TacticalTickler (JP) - Today at 11:02 PM
And how do you think after that?
Also
Something to keep in mind about life
Friends come and go
For good reasons
This is beyond a perfect reason for this "Friend" to go
NEW MESSAGES
Mau - Today at 11:03 PM
The funniest part is