Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:33
First please dont message ********** about this
But I really want to die Suji
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:33
Well you can't
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:33
Has she been talking to you?
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:33
Crow you need to realise that the friendship you guys had was beyond unhealthy and toxic
So I think a bit of a break is the best for the both of you
And so you can actually get over your feelings for her
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:34
DID YOU TELL HER TO END IT?
Did you tell my dearest friend to stop being friends with me?
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:35
No?
Don't fucking accuse me of shit
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:35
You certainly worded it to sound lile you had a part
Im sorry
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:35
Well you're reading it wrong, Crow
I had no business with it and I'm not a bitch
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:35
I never said that Suji
I just have all this frustration and Im venting at you im sorry
But you obvuously know what happened?
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:36
She just said she needs a break to get healthy I guess?
Which is ideal imo for both of you
Idk how many timesI  told you
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:37
Shes my dearest friend Suji
The friend I loved the most
I wouldve done anything for her
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:38
Crow
you treated her and viewed her more than a friend
and showed signs of not stopping
The best way to stop such feelings is to have a break from each other
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:38
I did before I met Cindy **Je T'aime**
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:39
You keep meeting girls but then you go back and do the same to **********
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:39
And then when I met Cindy, ********** dragged me back to her
Want to know what dragged me back to her?
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:39
Just respect **********'s wishes
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:39
I asked her "If I asked you now to date me, would you say yes?"
She immediately said yes
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:39
you shouldn't even have asked that
she's 15
you're not
don't even think of dating or anything like that when it comes to **********
even if it's just to see what she says
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:41
Theres no laws on dating someone Suji, sure 4 years is alot but I've seen alot worse
But when im 24 she'll be 20, then in doesnt even look bad
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:41
Now you're just continuing to make excuses just so you can potentially view her in a dating way
Crow you're into sexual things, no matter how hard you try to prevent it, it happens
I'm not saying it's bad
but IT IS bad when it comes to minors
Just go find an adult to date instead of a teenager?
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:42
Well I prevent it as hard as I can, especially around **********
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:42
I want you to read everything I have ever said about this topic
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:42
Its alot easier said than done
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:42
because i repeat myself
over
and
over
and you just keep going back
and I am officially done on repeating myself
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:43
well the one time I did find someone ********** dragged me back in
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:43
THIS IS WHY
BEING APART
IS A GOOD IDEA
SO YOU CAN STOP BEING DRAGGED IN
AND CROW YOU'RE MY FRIEND BUT I'VE REALLY LOST MY PATIENCE
YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ME SO I AM DONE
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:44
Because I love her Suji, and thinking about not being able to talk to her hurts. I even tried to stop for a day but she came back and tried to talk again
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:45
I'm done
I don't want to be in the middle of this
Just respect her wishes and stop talking for a while
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:45
Well Ive got no one else now
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:45
Don't say that omfg
I'm still your friend
I'm just saying I am done when it comes to this damn issue
because you literally NEVER listen to me
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:46
This issue is what Im trying to get through atm Suji
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:46
I was in love with someone for 4 fucking years and i learned to overcome it
So don't act like it's impossible
If you want to get through the issue, actually accept and listen to what i say
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:46
Ive never been nauseous because of emotions till now(edited)
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:46
don't find excuses to reply with "but i love her"
like yeah i get it you love her but it doesn't mean you can't stop
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:47
Its hard for me to stop
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:47
another excuse
it's hard
just say you will try and you will get over it
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:47
I have to try
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:47
saying it's hard to stop is just giving you a reason to not fucking try
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:47
Because I have no other choice
That doesn't stop me from wanting to die
I left the server because I went and she was being friendly with people in there like nothing happened
Ive never been through so much emotional strain before Suji
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:49
She's trying to deal with it in her own way, that's all
Instead of focusing on what happened, try and focus on how to overcome it
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:49
Well my own way is gone because I can't deal with seeing her
I dont know how to Suji
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:50
I don't want to sound offensive but go see a counsellor, i'm not saying you're mentally ill or anything but counsellors can literally help with anything
they can teach you 'how' to overcome things that hutt
hurt*
You shouldn't have been relying on her so much
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:51
Well I wanted to prove to her that I loved her, and I felt if I invested all I could in her, she would see that, because at times it seemed like she doubted it
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:51
Stop talking about loving her, you're only making it worse
trust me, i've been through it all
you just need to block out all those thoughts
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:52
Its not that easy
Ive been trying
Especially since saying good morning and goodnight to her was part of my schedule
I feel so alone now
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:53
Focus on your other friends for now
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:54
You, Seppy, Raven
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:54
So focus on us then
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:55
But you all remind me of her
Maybe I should just leave discord entirely
Suji - Last Tuesday at 21:55
you just find the things in us to remind you of her
instead of focusing on that
focus on how we're actually just suji, seppy and raven
we're not **********
Crow - Last Tuesday at 21:57
It also doesnt help that the romantic void that I've had for so many years, just as I thought it was about to be filled, instead just got bigger
I WANT TO DIE
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:06
I haven't had anyone properly ever so i get it but you need to learn to move on and not think of death
My phone is about to die
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:07
I wish i was about to as well
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:07
Dont thanks
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:08
I wont say its not tempting me
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:09
You'd also hurt everyone around you
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:09
They'd get over it
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:10
No they wouldnt
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:10
Then why would I get over **********?
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:13
Death is extremely different to romantic feelings???????
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:14
Not when I invested eveything into my romantic feelings
My goal in life
Was to finish uni and move to NL so I could be with her
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:15
Such extreme goals for someone you had an unstable relationship with
You shouldnt have relied on her so much crow
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:15
Well I did
Nothing can change that
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:15
Well you need to learn to overcome it and if youre extremely unstable go see a counsellor
I personally nearly saw one and should have
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:17
Im going to tell you something I probably shouldn't and you'll probably resent me for it, and modt likely be disgusted at me and **********'s behaviour, but immediately before her ending our friendship, want to know what we did?
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:17
Crow my phone is 1% so just know it will be okay, i believe in you dont let your weaknesses win
I already have an assumption
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:18
Its nothing youd like
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:18
Then my assumptions are corrected
I am a bit disgusted because you should have known better
And this is a perfect reason why you two need time apart
So accept it and try and move on
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:19
The funny thing is, she was the one who "manipulated" me into doing it
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:19
You as an adult should have stopped it to begin with
Crow - Last Tuesday at 22:19
And I knew it was wrong, but I still did it
Suji - Last Tuesday at 22:19
Just. Focus on overcoming this. I need to go sleep crow.