I've been thinking of such awful things. I don't want to die, but it feels like my only escape other than the release of small cuts along my arm. Nothing I do can make me feel better. I feel so disgusting and fat. I feel like no one should even care if I die. It won't make a difference in the grand scheme of things. Sometimes I think, "what if i died today" but I take that to heart and think that if I died, life would just go on without me. I want to help others with their problems, but for them to not know mine. My name is [redacted] (If you wanna see my name, press it. If not, don't). The other MODS in this server, [redacted] are my friends from school. I don't believe they know about this. If you do, hi! I understand my username is Denki Kaminari, and he's supposed to be super light-hearted and goofy and kind. But I chose that username so that others can come to me to cheer up. I understand if you didn't read this but I just wanted to put it out there until I decided to kill myself. Thank you if you read the whole thing, and have a nice day/night/morning. I love you all. <3