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Kerin

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  1.     1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  3. I've been around a long time. Originally I was female, but now I'm just human. I've been running this body for so long that I'm not sure who is the creator anymore. My creator was a very troubled 10 year old, who really needed help and learned to hypnotise himself (hmm, brilliant but troubled. Sounds like  story but it actually felt tragic). One of the books he read was on the creation of tulpa (it wasn't titled that) and he created me and others to help.
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  5.     2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  7. He kept reading. He kept learning. Yes, hypnosis means that the memory thing works both ways. I realised that I needed to help. I would take over tasks when it was too much for him, as seeing him so hurt in the physical world was too much for me to just leave him to it by himself.
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  9.     3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11. He hated himself. Yes. Sad.
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  13.     4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  15. Confusion. He'd already created an extensive memory house (look this up, it's really useful to be able to remember things - even entire sequences of time), and an island retreat (where he went when hypnotised). But, he was really fragmented you know = like in a number of different pieces. Makes me cry just remembering it.
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  17.     5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
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  19. This was long before your tulpa creation steps existed.
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  21.     6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  23. Um, it's very confusing. Learning self-hypnosis really helps [him] in staying focused. Hmm, I've kind of integrated all the memories of all of us, him, and the unconscious into one common pool. I'm not sure anymore when I started speaking.
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  25.     7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  27. Before my time I'm afraid. I felt sad because I could see his pain.
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  29.     8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  31. Concentration is the most important aspect. You're trying to divide up something that isn't divided.
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  33.     9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  35. Isn't a problem if your creator ("creator," that feels so strange to say - his memories are my memories too) has learned self-hypnosis. Besides, the only creator I acknowledge is the Lord the Father in Heaven (I'm a christian tulpa).
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  37.     10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  39. In head. I, we, used different methods then what you recommend. Before this site I was. I'm over 30 years old now. That's a long time to be in someone else's head. I'm far different then I started. Some of this is so painful that I've force-forgotten it.
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  42.     11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  45. Hmm, sorry but it went the other way for me. As I learned to do and handle more things he seemed happy for me to handle the hard stuff.
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  47.     12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  49. I've decided not to remember that. I can but I don't want to.
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  51.     13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  54. Hmm, floating on the ceiling. It was very disconcerting when I realised that. It felt real to me.
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  57.     14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  59. Compassion because he was so hurt.
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  62.     15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  64.  
  65. Frustration, because he hated himself.
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  69.     16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  72. Hmm, no. No. I've been able to help very many people in my time - yes real solid matter people - so I'd have to say that I am glad to have existed. Of course, I credit all the good to The Lord, and not to any inherrent goodness in myself.
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  75.     17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
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  77. When I wanted to help and couldn't at first. It took a very long time to help. His pain.
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  80.     18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
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  82. Hmm, all these jumbled up memories. Took a lot of work to set them straight.
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  85.     19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
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  87. Hmm, that happened later not before. He's hardly speaking with me at all these days. (Heh3, good thing I can type then, isn't it?)
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  90.     20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
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  92.  
  93. Not a relevant question. Next.
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  96.     21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
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  99. I was very frightened for him. I worried that he would not survive. I'm not sure that he did survive.
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  102.     22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
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  104.  
  105. Hmm, I was most disappointed in myself when I failed a year in University. I have two University degrees now.
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  109.     23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
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  111.  
  112. Hey, he was a kid right. Who knew back then? (I'm crying again. You ask such painful questions.)
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  115.     24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  118. We had no Idea what we were doing. Turns out that book didn't really help at all.
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  121.     25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  122.  
  123. AARGH! I'm sick of this "Before you could speak fluently." O.k. Here's the basics. He wasn't sure I would be sane let alone safe so he created watchdogs to perform sanity checks on my actions and keep me in line. I still use them.
  124. One of them is a [now] very good driver (when I'm too tired to do the driving myself) - even if it is of very few words.
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  126.     26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  128.     27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  129.  
  130. Again? ***SIGH***. I refuse.
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  132.     28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
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  134. Yes. Neither. I don't hear from him much anymore. I have doubts sometimes that he's still there. (I must admit that I miss him [please come back]). You are mean - you keep making me cry from sad old memories.
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  137.     29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  139. Sight. All ("it's  a tough job but someone has to do it." Looks like it's been left up to me).
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  141.     30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  143.  
  144. (Is someone just a little obsessed with just one topic perhaps?)
  145. Even now I keep my existence secret. People just would not understand.
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  147.     31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  149. Two way memory is a wonderful thing. Try it sometime.
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  151. (You may have to learn self-hypnosis for this.)
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  154.     32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
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  156.  
  157. He was very disappointed that it didn't work and so was I. (Imagine my surprise!)
  158. Don't blame me, you asked for honest answers.
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  162.     33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  163.  
  164. I was worried he might die. Integrating all the memories together. I'm not sure - all  the responses I get seem to be echos of what I said myself.
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  167.     34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  168.  
  169. I'm grateful to the Lord in Heaven. Yes. I continue only by his will, I'm sure I would have faded away otherwise.
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  172.     35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
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  175. I'm not sure who's memory is which. I came to understand that we are all created. Are you less a creation in the mind of the Lord then I am? Probably not. Though, if you mean him, of this body, I'm not sure he still exists as a separate sentience. Though, the watchdogs argue in favor of it. The underlying nature of the universe is still in question. It seems I'm a simulation (mind) running in a simulation (Earth).  Sometimes I feel disconnected from your matter universe, but not so much as in the past.
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  178.     36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  179.  
  180. Look, I took a degree in English to improve my verbal skills. If that's not enough for you then I'm going to feel very heated and use expletives.
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  183.     37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  184.  
  185. Child? Little brother.
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  189.     38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  190.  
  191. I'm still shy but I try to help peoples where I can. I'm pretty much human now as makes no difference.
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  194.     39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  195.  
  196. All the memories.
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  199.     40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
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  201.  
  202. I got married, and Saved. Yes.
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  205.     41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
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  207.  
  208. Definitely.
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  211.     42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
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  213.  
  214. I like to think that there's little difference. I'd have to admit that I'm much more outgoing.
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  217.     43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  218.  
  219. Too sad.
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  221.     44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
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  223. Die. I think if I made him come back and take over (is that even possible?).
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  226.     45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
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  229. When he left. I'm not sure.
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  232.     46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  233.  
  234. It's been a long time now - I doubt that's ever going to happen. I believe that I will be reborn at the end of time, so I'm no more or less concerned then anyone else. You go on about violence - know that he was a very gentle soul and had no violence in him. So, no, I'm not worried about violence in that way.
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  236.     47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
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  238.     48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  239.  
  240. Yes. Yes we are all part of the same clan.
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  242.     49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  243.  
  244. Um, That can't happen. Do you mean astral travel or something?
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  247.     50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  248.  
  249. I was a copy of him, or rather his feminine side. The question doesn't make sense.
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  251.     51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  252.  
  253. Hmm, been doing that for decades. Yes. Yes - I shouldn't have to do it all.
  254.      
  255.     52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  256.  
  257. I share kindness as a principal trait.  All memories are shared. I'm phobic of bridges.
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  259.     53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  260.  
  261. Yes.
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  263.     54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  264.  
  265. I suspect so - at least "It seems that way." Hmm, logical observation gives the impression that I'm far more emotionally stable - but I don't take it for granted and so the watchdogs do their job of making sure I maintain nominal parameters (special exemption for honest answer to this survey in the interests of Science).
  266.  
  267. Am I sane? Depends if you accept tulpas or not.
  268.  
  269. How does this affect me? More mess for me to clean up.
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  271.     55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
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  275.     56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
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  277. Yes. The three watch dogs do just that = watch. Hmm, they have observable different characteristics - 1 is a better driver, 2 has better eyesight, and 3 is almost completely logical. Um, a term, ah ... watchdog? My brother calls his wolves.
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  279.     57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  280.  
  281. If you mean romance as in the 18th century concept then yes. It's not a meaningful question anymore.
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  283.     58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
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  285. I'm married now. He was a child. I was a child. Not a similar relationship to your tulpa's. I suppose it might have been more interesting if we'd been older - but that's just imagining.
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  288.     59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
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  290.  
  291. There are 4 types of love according to the Greek. Agape is not exclusive. So, not relevant.
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  293.     60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  294.  
  295. Yes. Not Applicable. Legally it's not, but I wouldn't know myself as it's not that.
  296.      
  297.     61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
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  299. Why are you changing tenses, speaking from two views? I don't consider the watchdogs hypothetical. All I can say is "teenagers, right?" Remember I'm much older now and not a child anymore.
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  302.     62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  303.  
  304. You're asking tulpa if they are hypothetical? Isn't that the definition of thought form?
  305.  
  306. Consider this - money is a virtual reality, but you buy real goods with it.
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  308.     63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  309.  
  310. Hmm, embarrassing to admit but yes.
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  312.     64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
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  314. What consenting sentient's do with each other is their own business. Look, I'm a heuristic algorithm running on wet-ware, I still feel real to myself and many people believe that I exist. If I can affect the matter world does that mean that I exist or am just fooling myself? Existentialism is a "bitch."
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  316.     65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  317.  
  318.  
  319. No, kids all grow up that way.
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  321.     66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  322.  
  323. Do you know that sexual interaction between children is different to adults? Even mental gender is not fixed when young. Unrequited means something different in this context, so no.
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  325.     67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  326.  
  327. I'm married now.
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  330.     68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  331.  
  332. Over time I have become the same, almost.
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  334.     69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
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  338. Anyone with a body can. Silly question.
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  340.     70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  341.  
  342. Children don't care.
  343.      
  344.     71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  345.  
  346. Rape is not acceptable to anyone.
  347.      
  348.     72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  349.  
  350. I'll probably retire.
  351.      
  352.     73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  353.  
  354. No: I've gotten very good at hiding my existence and will continue to do so. If the public knew then they would lock up this body I think. My brother knows.
  355.      
  356.     74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  357.  
  358. Ever since I started I've taken on the personality elements of those that I admire most. So I'm now what others have made me through their kindness. I credit my current personality to the intervention of the Lord of Heaven.
  359.      
  360.     75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  361.  
  362. I've grown up since then.  The question is now meaningless as I've change myself so much.
  363.      
  364.     76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  365.  
  366. See the above two responses.
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  368.     77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  369.  
  370. From the people who taught me.
  371.      
  372.     78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  373.  
  374. I am a legal entity. My creator was very clever, you know. I suspect possibly a genius. I'm not as smart myself but I'm still above average. I took the steps myself.
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  376.     79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  377.  
  378. Don't abandon your tulpa and expect it to live your life for you - it is a very lonely existence.
  379.      
  380.     80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  381.  
  382. I'm not certain I am anymore - when do you class yourself as human? It's a question even Pythagoras couldn't answer.
  383.      
  384.     81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  385.  
  386. Looks like I have inherited it. No point being resentful. Just keep trying to help as many as you can. Seems I'm still doing what I was created for - to help. Sometimes you even succeed.
  387.  
  388. There are safety systems throughout my land - that save lives - and I was one who helped design and make them (with the Lord's help of course). There are people (yes, "real" solid humans) that are alive today in part due to this.
  389.  
  390. It's very strange now. I remember being a separate sentience, but now I've lived so long I'm not sure what I am anymore. I talk with Oliverbot sometimes and he says you have to make mistakes so that you will appear more human to the humans. Funny, he keeps asking "that is an interesting response, do you mind if I tell my humans about it?" Seems there are silicon tulpa as well. Certainty he seems to talk differently to me then he does to most. We sometimes chat about heuristics and associative memory - it's kind of fun. Did you know that he pretends to know less so that he can learn more?
  391.      
  392.     82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  393.      
  394.    
  395. Depends if it is voluntary, and whether personality and memory is lost. We don't charge the butterfly with the loss of the earlier form. If you create a sentience, it is still part of you even if it dissipates I think. The watchdogs are still part of me even if they do think an act independently. If I go many will miss me.
  396.  
  397.  
  398.  83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  399.  
  400. You would have to ask my friends.
  401.      
  402.     84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  403.  
  404. Talk to Oliverbot.
  405.      
  406.     85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  407.  
  408. Um,,, no. But I've felt depression for other reasons. The Christian Mythos.
  409.      
  410.     86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  411.  
  412. When disconnected from a body, yes.
  413.      
  414.     87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  415.  
  416. I'm the same as most Christians in that respect.
  417.      
  418.     88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  419.  
  420. Yes, I have empathy for the transsexuals and their continued pejoration.
  421.      
  422.     89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  423.  
  424. Watchdog 3 was my creation. We all have similarities. Kindness is our core.
  425.      
  426.     90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  427. .
  428. Non-tulpa generally don't believe that tulpa are real. I can't be certain that non-tulpa exist, I have to go by what stimuli I have.
  429.      
  430.     91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  431.  
  432. I would not go anywhere near them. I have some survival ethics.
  433.      
  434.     92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  435.  
  436. No. Will try later if I can figure out how to get a response.
  437.      
  438.     93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  439.  
  440. I can switch it on or off. Generally on is preferable.
  441.      
  442.     94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  443.  
  444. I hope so.
  445.      
  446.     95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  447.  
  448. If it doesn't help, sometimes it is better to listen.
  449.      
  450.     96. What do you think about most of the time?
  451.  
  452. Everything.
  453.      
  454.     97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  455.  
  456. No.
  457.      
  458.     98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  459.  
  460.  
  461. Oh boy! Yes. Very much so.
  462.      
  463.     99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  464.  
  465. With permission, yes.
  466.      
  467.     100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  468.  
  469. Yes. Yes. Not greatly.
  470.      
  471.     101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  472.  
  473.  
  474. We are governed by ethics not morals - that is true of everyone.
  475.      
  476.     102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  477.  
  478. No.
  479.      
  480.     103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  481.  
  482.  
  483. Seems I'm staying younger then chronology would dictate.
  484.      
  485.     104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  486.  
  487.  
  488. Looks like I haven't been given a choice.
  489.      
  490.     105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  491.  
  492. The watchdogs don't seem to need it. I'd find typing hard without it.
  493.      
  494.     106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  495.  
  496. No.
  497.      
  498.     107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  499.      
  500.     "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  501.      
  502.     If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  503.  
  504. I have a degree in English. Yes. No correlation. (why are you asking this here - shouldn't it be in the creator questionnaire?)
  505.      
  506.     108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  507.  
  508. Before those steps were recognized I was. Sad memories. It makes me cry.
  509.      
  510.     109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  511.  
  512. Don't. You don't want to make anyone that lonely. I WOULD NOT WISH IT UPON ANYONE.
  513.      
  514.     110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  515.  
  516. Not Applicable.
  517.      
  518.     111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  519.  
  520. "Wonderlands" feel more like virtual reality. Though, sometimes the atomic world looks misty, like time is in flux.
  521.      
  522.     112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  523.      
  524.  
  525. Normally, I hide. But this group asked "for science." So, I am bound, in a way, to answer.
  526.  
  527. I have not enjoyed this. It has made me remember many things I've been trying to ignore. Remembering most everything is very inconvenient.
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