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- DrSavage For private reasons, don't expect me in VFR for a while
- 18:39 DrSavage ...if ever again
- 18:39 padri what happened?
- 18:40 DrSavage I'm not /allowed/ to talk of it under bannable punishment
- 18:40 DrSavage You'd have to ask Wilt
- 18:41 padri if it has to do with vfr, you should tell me.
- 18:41 padri i'm an op for a reason
- 18:41 DrSavage I'm not /allowed/ to
- 18:41 DrSavage If he found out I told you
- 18:41 DrSavage I'd be /banned/ from FR and all its affiliates
- 18:42 padri he's not going to find out.
- 18:43 DrSavage This is also can't get back to who it's about either
- 18:43 DrSavage Promise it
- 18:43 padri who's it about?
- 18:43 DrSavage Alivi
- 18:43 padri maybe i don't want to hear.
- 18:43 DrSavage Alleged/accidental sexual harassment
- 18:44 DrSavage None of which I was as cognizant about as I could've been
- 18:44 DrSavage Or meant to
- 18:44 DrSavage I'm leaving it at that
- 18:44 DrSavage But now I don't feel at all welcome to VFR
- 18:44 DrSavage And I don't feel welcome at FR
- 18:44 DrSavage Wilt has /zero/ trust in me now
- 18:44 padri well
- 18:44 padri vOv
- 18:45 DrSavage And I believe he doesn't regard me as a friend anymore
- 18:45 DrSavage So
- 18:45 DrSavage Now you know
- 18:45 DrSavage I never mean harm to anyone
- 18:45 DrSavage I care about all of you
- 18:47 DrSavage But I don't think people believe that
- 18:47 DrSavage They certainly didn't after the whole me still trying to "get" you thing
- 18:47 DrSavage So why should they now
- 18:48 padri i don't know, savage
- 18:49 DrSavage Good to see how I stand
- 18:52 padri iunno, doc.
- 18:53 padri you've gotten yourself into a lot of trouble.
- 18:53 DrSavage And I really don't mean to
- 18:53 DrSavage I make mistakes
- 18:53 padri a lot.
- 18:54 DrSavage Hmm
- 18:54 DrSavage I guess so
- 18:54 padri yeah.
- 18:54 DrSavage Well
- 18:55 DrSavage All I can do is try to improve
- 18:55 DrSavage I don't think you want to believe I /can/
- 18:55 padri i do want to believe you can
- 18:55 padri i just don't know if i believe you /will/
- 18:56 DrSavage Mmmm
- 18:56 DrSavage Well
- 18:56 DrSavage First solution to the problem?
- 18:56 DrSavage Minimizing ooc contact
- 18:56 padri that's not going to solve anything.
- 18:56 DrSavage Removes the /possibility/ of the issue
- 18:56 padri that's just avoiding problems
- 18:56 padri which is not a solution.
- 18:56 DrSavage Any contact made will be cordial and kind
- 18:56 DrSavage And polite
- 18:56 padri the /solution/ is to improve.
- 18:57 DrSavage But I'm done initiating contact
- 18:57 DrSavage Fuck, nobody wants to talk to me anyway
- 18:58 DrSavage Be brutally honest
- 18:58 DrSavage Do you care or even trust me at /all/?
- 18:59 padri i want to, doc.
- 18:59 padri but you're making it awfully hard.
- 18:59 DrSavage Not do you /want/ to
- 18:59 DrSavage I'm asking /do/ you
- 19:00 padri no, not really.
- 19:00 padri i've trusted you and i've trusted you and i've trusted you,
- 19:00 padri but you keep making 'mistakes'
- 19:00 padri and you refuse to learn from them
- 19:01 DrSavage Then I'll try to earn it back
- 19:01 DrSavage But I won't be holding my breath
- 19:01 padri no?
- 19:02 padri then how much are you actually trying?
- 19:02 DrSavage No, I'm going to do what I can
- 19:03 padri do you even realize /why/ you're losing our trust?
- 19:03 DrSavage Tell me, then
- 19:04 padri no, i want to hear your view of it.
- 19:05 DrSavage Because I'm pestering, because I'm pushing people out of their comfort zones
- 19:05 DrSavage Because I'm investing myself /too/ much
- 19:07 DrSavage Because I'm being a selfish fuck
- 19:07 DrSavage What do you want me to say
- 19:08 padri i want to see how you're seeing this.
- 19:08 padri you really need to learn to take no for an answer.
- 19:08 padri because some things are inappropriate.
- 19:09 DrSavage Alright
- 19:10 padri you can start by leaving alivi /alone/
- 19:11 DrSavage I will
- 19:11 DrSavage In fact, I'm coming to the decision
- 19:11 DrSavage That for a while
- 19:11 DrSavage I'm not going to come to FROOC or FR
- 19:11 padri that won't help
- 19:11 padri unless you come back changed
- 19:11 DrSavage It's apparent I'm not wanted and my presence will only agitate people
- 19:12 padri leaving until everyone forgets is a selfish move
- 19:12 DrSavage Oh cut it out, padri
- 19:12 padri if you're going to leave,
- 19:12 DrSavage None of them
- 19:12 DrSavage Even you
- 19:12 padri don't come back until you've changed.
- 19:12 DrSavage Want to think that I'm going change
- 19:12 padri yes, i do!
- 19:12 DrSavage You all /want/ to see this jackass
- 19:12 padri but past experience shows that you /won't/
- 19:13 padri you haven't changed yet
- 19:13 DrSavage Someone you can compare yourself to and feel better about
- 19:13 padri why would you change this time?
- 19:13 DrSavage Because there's no chances after this
- 19:13 DrSavage And I've lost enough friends already
- 19:13 padri make this about yourself, why don't you?
- 19:13 padri just like you make everything.
- 19:13 DrSavage I'm not!
- 19:13 padri you're always the victim, aren't you?
- 19:13 DrSavage And because it hurts people
- 19:13 padri you /harass/ alivi
- 19:13 padri and then /you're/ the victim.
- 19:13 DrSavage No, /she/ is
- 19:14 padri because everyone hates you
- 19:14 DrSavage I didn't say that
- 19:14 padri no?
- 19:14 padri >Someone you can compare yourself to and feel better about
- 19:14 DrSavage I said they immediately assume the worst
- 19:14 padri we all want "Someone you can compare yourself to and feel better about"
- 19:14 DrSavage Everyone here has problems
- 19:14 DrSavage I'm not saying I don't
- 19:14 padri go fuck yourself.
- 19:14 DrSavage padri
- 19:14 DrSavage I don't mean it that way
- 19:15 padri then what way damnit?
- 19:15 DrSavage Wilt can be rather cold at times, Roget can be spacey, etc.
- 19:15 DrSavage My problem is what you said
- 19:15 DrSavage You're right
- 19:15 DrSavage I can't take no for an answer sometimes
- 19:15 DrSavage And I'll try to fix that
- 19:15 DrSavage Not just for me, but for all of you
- 19:15 DrSavage I'm tired of hurting people
- 19:16 padri and can you stop being the victim?
- 19:16 DrSavage Yes
- 19:16 padri own up when you've done something wrong and don't blame it on everyone hating you
- 19:16 DrSavage This is my fault, nobody else's
- 19:16 DrSavage I'm still allowed to feel bad, though
- 19:16 padri people have reason to be upset with you, doc
- 19:16 DrSavage But yes, I did do wrong
- 19:16 padri and until you change, you can't blame them for it.
- 19:17 DrSavage So it's not unwarranted
- 19:17 padri Yes it is.
- 19:17 DrSavage I understand that
- 19:17 DrSavage They /do/ have a reason to feel this way right now
- 19:17 padri You can feel bad, but turning us into awful people for holding you to a standard?
- 19:17 DrSavage I'm so very sorry for all of this, padri
- 19:18 DrSavage You're putting words in my mouth
- 19:18 DrSavage I didn't mean you're all awful
- 19:18 padri >Someone you can compare yourself to and feel better about
- 19:18 padri it's pretty hard to put words in that mouth
- 19:19 DrSavage I'm saying I'm not the only person who made a mistake, and I'm not going to be the last, but you're right, I don't need to push blame
- 19:19 DrSavage This is /my/ fault
- 19:19 DrSavage Not Alivi's
- 19:19 DrSavage Not Wilt's
- 19:19 DrSavage Not your's
- 19:19 DrSavage This is my fault
- 19:19 padri exactly.
- 19:19 DrSavage And I need to work on it
- 19:19 padri so when we blame you for being at fault,
- 19:20 padri that's nothing to fault us for.
- 19:20 DrSavage And I don't think I should be around until I fix it
- 19:20 DrSavage Not for my own comfort
- 19:20 DrSavage But because there are these hostile feelings
- 19:20 DrSavage It's better for others, I think you, Wilt, and especially Alivi
- 19:20 DrSavage That I not be around for a bit
- 19:21 padri I really hope you can fix it and come back.
- 19:21 DrSavage I'm not saying it'll be months
- 19:21 padri Really, I do.
- 19:21 DrSavage Or weeks, hell, I'm going to be talking to a close friend about this in the next few days and finally hammer this out
- 19:22 padri I look forward to having you back, then.
- 19:23 DrSavage In advance, I'm not making this about me, this is what I actually believe...I don't think anyone else but /you/ thinks that
- 19:23 DrSavage Especially not the /owner/
- 19:23 padri it's because you haven't improved so far
- DrSavage Which is true
- 19:23 DrSavage But admit it, that doesn't change what I said
- 19:24 DrSavage You're the /only/ one who thinks that right now
- 19:25 padri then fix yourself before I lose faith, too.
- 19:25 DrSavage I'll try
- 19:25 DrSavage I can no longer afford not to
- 19:26 padri you couldn't afford not to before.
- 19:26 DrSavage True
- 19:27 DrSavage Well
- 19:27 DrSavage I'll be on irc
- 19:28 DrSavage But I'm not going to be on FR or FROOC for a bit
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