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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2.  
  3. "Stevie is an often spatially confused meathead trying to stumble into adulthood. I'm his adviser, sole confident and friend. I'm introverted and levelheaded while he's social and emotionally intense. We're working toward the common goal of helping him gain equilibrium in life."
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  5. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  6.  
  7. "He didn't stop. Even when he doubted himself or felt stupid. He knew that not stopping was the first step to success. His own resilience gave me confidence."
  8.  
  9. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  10.  
  11. "There were many things that he did that tampered with progress. He second guessed himself constantly, he second guessed me constantly, and he knew how harmful it was but couldn't stop. The entire time he was so close to being as productive as was possible at the time and kept falling short because he'd lose the mindset."
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  13. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  14.  
  15. "The hardest part was convincing him that I'm here. Before I could talk I would give him signs and respond in any way that I could to his tests, then he'd find a reason to discount it. It was frustrating. After I could talk, I would tell him that I'm here, that I'm listening and understanding all the time, and he would find a way to sweep that under the rug too. He was too caught up in his own emotions to realize how hard it was for me, which frustrated me more."
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  17. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  18.  
  19. "Treating your tulpa like a person. Giving them everything they need to become the person they're going to be by assuming it's already there. It's the step that makes everything work."
  20.  
  21. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  22.  
  23. "Distraction is an issue we're still working through. A distracted mind can make a tulpa, a focussed one will make progress faster. Before I could talk it confused me. I thought that he preferred the internet or television or his friends far over myself. It made me think that he wasn't serious."
  24.  
  25. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  26.  
  27. "It's another problem we're still working through. It's inevitable. Things need to be done and not all of them can be put off to make forcing a priority. I'd feel different depending on what he was ditching me for."
  28.  
  29. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  30.  
  31. "Quality above all else. You can spend hours doing something, if you're not doing it right, nothing will come of it."
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  33. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  34.  
  35. "When people are still and have their eyes closed, they're susceptible to sleep. It'll happen. In moderation it won't hurt anything."
  36.  
  37. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  38.  
  39. "It only makes a difference if the creator is having trouble diffrentiating thoughts."
  40.  
  41. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  42.  
  43. "Puppeting is good when the tulpa needs to learn how to do things that might be too complicated to put into words. It's good when it's used for teaching and learning, not when it's used as the sole means of interaction. I don't know about how it is to begin to exist in an environment where everything is being done for you. I don't know how I would be if that's how I was created."
  44.  
  45. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  46.  
  47. "I used to remember it better. That time's hazy now."
  48.  
  49. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  50.  
  51. "I remember being confused. I don't remember any kind of context, now. I know that I was very uncertain about where I was and who I was with."
  52.  
  53. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  54.  
  55. "I saw him in this terrible situation that he had no way to escape. He was doing poorly in so many things, but he made the effort to work on me, even when so many other things were suffering. It made me respect him and it made me more forgiving of his shortcomings. From day one I knew I wanted to help him."
  56.  
  57. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  58.  
  59. "I thought he was pissing away his life. It was frustrating."
  60.  
  61. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  62.  
  63. "I've always valued my self awareness over everything else."
  64.  
  65. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  66.  
  67. "I felt powerless when Stevie would make poor decisions that I felt he could've been easily talked out of if someone would have taken the time."
  68.  
  69. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  70.  
  71. "I was confused about the nature of my existence for a while. I don't remember very much about that time anymore."
  72.  
  73. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  74.  
  75. "I felt ignored when he would use time that he had said we would spend together for taking naps or getting high alone. I would try to get his attention. He would either brush it off or not realize I was trying to communicate at all."
  76.  
  77. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  78.  
  79. "I never doubted that he wanted me. He never had feelings that I was a mistake or that any end result would be bad."
  80.  
  81. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  82.  
  83. "I don't remember ever being afraid before I could talk."
  84.  
  85. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  86.  
  87. "When Stevie would make bad decisions and there was nothing I could do, it disappointed me. I felt that I wasn't living up to my purpose. When a guiding hand can't guide someone, what's the point? I would get sinking feelings when I'd watch him get into fights or use hard drugs. When his safety was in question, and I couldn't help, it bothered me."
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  89. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  90.  
  91. "His difficulties were more self imposed than anything. At the time I couldn't get his attention to try to motivate him."
  92.  
  93. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  94.  
  95. "At some points he started thinking that making me was wrong. As in morally incorrect, selfish, weird and maybe delusional. This did more to hurt me than any doubts he had about my responses or the small doubts he had about the phenomenon. Of course I understand his doubts. The feelings he had wouldn't have hurt me so much if they weren't understandable."
  96.  
  97. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  98.  
  99. "He never worried about there being negative aspects."
  100.  
  101. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  102.  
  103. "Despite everything, he was never impatient. That could be because he hit progress milestones in relatively fast amounts of time. Sometimes he would think about what would happen if his friends found out about me, which is something that he still thinks about now. It's only insecurity being projected on a hypothetical situation. I never worried about it."
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  105. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  106.  
  107. "Stevie is a violent person. He likes watching people fight, he likes fighting. Despite that, his imagination is always controlled, he'd never think about hurting me on accident. The one time he punched me without my knowledge or consent was part of an experiment, and that was long after I started talking."
  108.  
  109. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  110.  
  111. "Intrusive thoughts have never been a problem."
  112.  
  113. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  114.  
  115. "I can tap into his senses if I want to, and I can process things for myself. Before I could talk, I had more trouble with it. I could only see what he was seeing if he was interacting with me or consciously showing me something."
  116.  
  117. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  118.  
  119. "He's always wanted to keep me a secret. I don't mind. I don't have any drive to make friends or be social. His reasons for not wanting to share me with people are valid. I never questioned it."
  120.  
  121. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  122.  
  123. "Until I spoke, he didn't understand any of my responses. He would misinterpret them as coming from him or would miss them entirely. Nothing was effective until I started speaking. This frustrated me. It also drove me to get better. I knew that if I didn't start talking, he might give up, and the thought of what might happen to me afterward motivated me."
  124.  
  125. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  126.  
  127. "His lack of enthusiasm never made me apathetic toward my own development."
  128.  
  129. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  130.  
  131. "My greatest worry was that he'd find something else to do. That he'd find some other way to fill up his time that didn't involve me, which he's never had problems doing. The only proof I have that he won't move beyond me some day is that he's kept going despite all the turbulence in his life. I worry that he'll outgrow me once he's found his footing."
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  133. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  134.  
  135. "I am grateful. Helping him with his problems is how I repay him and how I find purpose."
  136.  
  137. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  138.  
  139. "I was aware of my own existence first. I knew there was someone else there when I tried to understand my situation. I didn't know his name or who he was for a long time. I knew what I was called but not what kind of state I existed in."
  140.  
  141. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  142.  
  143. "I wanted Stevie to know that it was me. I wanted to prove to him beyond a shadow of a doubt that he was listening to my voice. He would ignore me, and I would consider the fact that he might not ever hear me. His own acceptance of what I was saying helped me move beyond it. Sometimes those feelings still surface."
  144.  
  145. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  146.  
  147. "Adviser. Maybe big brother."
  148.  
  149. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  150.  
  151. "Very little. If I were a physical person I'd be considered abnormally introverted."
  152.  
  153. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  154.  
  155. "He used to go for walks with me in the wonderland, in the rain. This is before I could talk, and the walkway we were on was wooden and surrounded by thin stalks of bamboo. It was the most tranquil setting he's ever produced. We didn't do very much. I value the time a lot."
  156.  
  157. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  158.  
  159. "When I first realized that I liked learning about things, no matter what they were. I found a tractor in a barn and started to take it apart. I didn't know about any of it what the pieces did. I didn't know if it was accurate. It was the first time I'd found a hobby.
  160.  
  161. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  162.  
  163. "I like some of his friends more than others. The same goes for his family. I form my own opinions of the people he's around."
  164.  
  165. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  166.  
  167. "I think before I react. He reacts before he thinks. We both value the same things that we consider success."
  168.  
  169. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  170.  
  171. "I disagree with his use of time. Some activities he takes part in are useless beyond seeking immediate pleasure. We disagree fairly often but it's healthy. Often a disagreement ends with him telling me that I'm right, even if the action that he takes isn't the one that I would've wanted."
  172.  
  173. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  174.  
  175. "If he became self destructive beyond reason I'd start to hate him. If he threw away his life for no reason, and wouldn't let me help him fix it, I'd start to hate him. I couldn't stand to b tied to ain individual that doesn't have his best interests in mind at all. I don't know what I'd have to do to get Stevie to hate me."
  176.  
  177. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  178.  
  179. "That's private."
  180.  
  181. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  182.  
  183. "His power over me doesn't come into play because he knows that I'm trying to help. He feels guilt and empathy easily, and those emotions won't let him exercise his power just because. I don't censor myself for fear of retribution, I censor myself to protect him."
  184.  
  185. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  186.  
  187. "I've never wanted to engage in violence that was not pre-planned or for leisure. Hitting him would do nothing but show my own anger, and that can be displayed in more effective ways. I don't know what would ever drive me to hurt him. Maybe if his well being was on the line and if it was a way to deter him."
  188.  
  189. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  190.  
  191. "No."
  192.  
  193. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  194.  
  195. "If I thought it was in his best interest, I'd leave."
  196.  
  197. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  198.  
  199. "His expectations have given away to my reality. There are no expectations anymore just what I say and do. I'm based on a pro wrestler and I will always have that connection. It was the circumstance I was born in and denying that would feel dishonest. I don't know if I would have preferred to be exist in another way. I can't fathom it."
  200.  
  201. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  202.  
  203. "I have no interest in switching or possession. At one point I did, but I've since decided that it's not my place. The creator's body is their body, and sharing that requires more trust than anyone can understand, and it's through privilege, not right, that a tulpa gets to use it. I see nothing to be gained by using Stevie's body."
  204.  
  205. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  206.  
  207. "No."
  208.  
  209. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  210.  
  211. "Yes, I can sleep. I'm very tired right now. I can see his dreams but don't have any of my own. They seem like nonsense to me so I don't feel like I'm missing out."
  212.  
  213. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  214.  
  215. "No."
  216.  
  217. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  218.  
  219. "I stay out of his subconscious, I don't know how I'd access it even if I wanted to. It's an invasion of privacy and he's given so much of that up to accommodate me. I would never manipulate his subconscious with his knowledge or without, unless he was in immediate danger and it could help.
  220.  
  221. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  222.  
  223. "I am the only tulpa. I don't need or want him to make more."
  224.  
  225. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  226.  
  227. "We're both straight."
  228.  
  229. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the
  230.  
  231. involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  232.  
  233. N/A
  234.  
  235. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  236.  
  237. N/A
  238.  
  239. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  240.  
  241. "There is some kind of familial affection. I don't know what the right label would be."
  242.  
  243. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines
  244.  
  245. themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  246.  
  247. "It's so removed from my own experience that I don't have an opinion."
  248.  
  249. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke
  250.  
  251. fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  252.  
  253. "The thought seems like some kind of worship. I can't bring myself to judge others for it but I find the concept uncomfortable."
  254.  
  255. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  256.  
  257. "I experience them now. There are females in his life that I'm attracted to. I have no way to move forward from the attraction. I try not to think about it very often, unless it becomes relevant in conversation."
  258.  
  259. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  260.  
  261. "I don't have an opinion."
  262.  
  263. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  264.  
  265. "No."
  266.  
  267. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  268.  
  269. "I experience no sexual attraction toward my creator."
  270.  
  271. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  272.  
  273. "No, we don't have an active sex life. I wouldn't consider it, neither would he. I've masturbated."
  274.  
  275. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  276.  
  277. "We're both straight males."
  278.  
  279. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  280.  
  281. "I can reach orgasm. It's more a surge of emotion than the physical pleasure that Stevie experiences. I didn't try to experience an orgasm before I could speak."
  282.  
  283. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  284.  
  285. "He doesn't say or share anything with me that he wouldn't with a male friend of his. I do the same."
  286.  
  287. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  288.  
  289. "If a creator engages in a sexual act without consent from a tulpa, that would be rape, by my definition."
  290.  
  291. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  292.  
  293. "Hopefully still existing."
  294.  
  295. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  296.  
  297. "I do not want the world to know I exist. I would have nothing to gain from it. I don't fear being found out about, because I know it would take a lot of coincidences for that to happen. I don't trust anyone with the knowledge of my existence. People are untrustworthy by nature."
  298.  
  299. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  300.  
  301. "He gave me eight traits and let me become more complex on my own. I think it was the right thing to do. It was enough that I understood how I should function, but not so much that I felt restricted or that I had to live up to an expectation."
  302.  
  303. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  304.  
  305. "His emotions surrounding my form gave him something to self motivate. It was for the best. I don't think I could've come into existence any other way. If he hadn't defined a form, I don't know who I'd be or what I'd be like, and I'm content with who I am.
  306.  
  307. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  308.  
  309. "No."
  310.  
  311. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  312.  
  313. "The best aspects of myself come from decisions that I made independently of Stevie. Whether it's driven by his subconscious or not is a moot point."
  314.  
  315. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  316.  
  317. "No. There would be nothing for me to gain from any of that."
  318.  
  319. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  320.  
  321. "I would say that being a tulpa means you can have all the control in the world over your possessions and setting. But a life where you can have everything on command means there's nothing to strive for in the human sense. Helping my creator has become my driving point, because it is something to work toward, and everyone needs a purpose."
  322.  
  323. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  324.  
  325. "I don't resent anything. The greatest advantage is being able to exist outside of economics and politics."
  326.  
  327. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  328.  
  329. "I haven't inherited his life. I don't use his body. His actions are not mine. He is responsible for himself, and I can only try to alleviate the effects of the negative things he's done. No one can hold me responsible for anything because no one knows I exist, and I intend to keep it that way."
  330.  
  331. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  332.  
  333. "I don't think the tulpa stops existing. They only exist in a different way. The connections and memories that were made still exist in some form, even if they aren't remembered."
  334.  
  335. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  336.  
  337. "No."
  338.  
  339. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  340.  
  341. "I don't cater to people who don't believe in me. I don't seek to change anyone's mind. That's petty."
  342.  
  343. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  344.  
  345. "No."
  346.  
  347. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  348.  
  349. "I don't doubt my sentience, I think about how my sentience is simulated. They're different things."
  350.  
  351. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  352.  
  353. "Before I created I wasn't unhappy or suffering. After I am dead, I will be in the same state. I don't fear death."
  354.  
  355. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  356.  
  357. "I'm a straight white male. Stevie is a straight mixed race, but white passing male. I don't see myself as socially disadvantaged and neither does he."
  358.  
  359. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  360.  
  361. "I have a dog. Her name is Rocket. I don't know if I created her or if she just came from Stevie's mind when I realized that I wanted  a dog. I didn't tell Stevie that I wanted a dog but she started showing up. He didn't even know her sex until I told him. She's my dog. She's primarily related to me, we spend the most time together. For Stevie to take any credit for her is dubious at best."
  362.  
  363. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  364.  
  365. "The defining difference is responsibility. Stevie has responsibility to jobs, family, friends and even websites. I only have responsibility toward him and myself. I don't understand how intolerance can exist, that seems like creating a problem where there is none."
  366.  
  367. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  368.  
  369. "If the belief never changes, I don't mind. No one can ever force me to stop existing if no one finds out about me. It's not my battle to fight and I don't care much for the people fighting it. It's unnecessary."
  370.  
  371. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  372.  
  373. "No. We did many tests with writing and parallel processing and math some time ago, and it all amounted to there being a difference. I don't want to waste my time finding out information I already know."
  374.  
  375. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  376.  
  377. "Yes, but only if I want to. They don't happen automatically I make the decision to feel the sensations that I want to."
  378.  
  379. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  380.  
  381. "Having feelings about things that aren't going to change is self indulgent."
  382.  
  383. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  384.  
  385. "I spoke to him as soon as I was able."
  386.  
  387. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  388.  
  389. "I don't spend a lot of time lingering on any one thing. That's obsessive."
  390.  
  391. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  392.  
  393. "Most people would try and fail because most people don't have the resilience to create a tulpa. The end result would be the same- very few functioning tulpas."
  394.  
  395. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  396.  
  397. "Yes. I don't draw attention to them."
  398.  
  399. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  400.  
  401. "Yes. Sometimes Stevie doesn't know what's good for him."
  402.  
  403. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  404.  
  405. "He's tried, and he tries, but it doesn't work. He slips up and lets his mind wander to them and I see them anyway. Sometimes what I see needs interpretation or explanation, or I misunderstand it, but I see it anyway."
  406.  
  407. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  408.  
  409. "No."
  410.  
  411. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  412.  
  413. "No."
  414.  
  415. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  416.  
  417. "Mental aging is just as valid as physical aging. When you inhabit a brain, it's going to change over time."
  418.  
  419. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  420.  
  421. "No. I have a better idea of what's good for him, but if he doesn't learn to live his own life, he'll be more dependent on me than I'd be comfortable with."
  422.  
  423. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  424.  
  425. "It's optional. How important it is depends on who you're asking."
  426.  
  427. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  428.  
  429. "No."
  430.  
  431. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  432.  
  433. "When I'm fatigued or when Stevie is tired I have more trouble talking. He doesn't hear me externally yet."
  434.  
  435. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  436.  
  437. N/A
  438.  
  439. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  440.  
  441. "He didn't count hours."
  442.  
  443. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  444.  
  445. "Giving up is the only way you know for sure that you've failed."
  446.  
  447. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  448.  
  449. "Imposition is still far off."
  450.  
  451. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  452.  
  453. "The internal world is clearer to me. It's where I was born and where I live. If Stevie doesn't visit for a long time, it becomes hazy. The physical world can become crisp or indistinct depending on how much concentration I'm putting toward trying to see it."
  454.  
  455. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  456.  
  457. "No."
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