Meeting Halfway

Hello ladies and degentlemen, let's communicate a little. Just to get on the same page. So here's a page of text. Sorry if it's boring, I just want to make sure people see where I'm coming from.
So lately I've been getting worse at tolerance. I'm sorry for that, I really am. I can feel my perfectionism taking over, and I don't like that. So instead of always pushing to raise the bar, and hating those who won't step up to it, I want to try something else. I'm gonna give people what they want. It's such a foreign concept to me, I'm so used to going against the grain and challenging ideas that it's become unhealthy. My channel is growing, but not like it should be. I can feel the threat of stagnancy weighing on me. I feel people questioning my direction, distancing themselves. Instead of hating them for it, I'm just going to try meeting you all halfway. So let me know what you want, make it clear. And do your part, what I'm trying to do here is give you the best I can, in entertainment, in information, in life. So yeah, let's see how selling out works. This is us, not just me. We're gonna make my stream the best it can be.
As far as mental health goes, I'm just gonna be transparent here, and please realize this isn't easy to be open about. I'm going on antidepressants, at the suggestion of my psychiatrist. Hopefully that will help me be less of a dick. I want to actually get along with people instead of being so antagonistic. So, Lexapro and Adderall is my situation now, hopefully that balances my shit out. SSRIs are supposedly good for reducing impulsive or intrusive behavior, and honestly usually when I'm too hard on someone, I think it's because I'm taking out my anxiety on them. Even if I have a real point, even if I'm right, I hope that I'll be able to cut that shit out. I want to lead with love, and I can still give my 2 cents without belittling people, hopefully. So call me on that shit, if I'm being unfair to people.
Also as far as scheduling goes, I'll be back to streaming soon, just taking a quick break to work on YouTube videos and straighten out my mind. Obviously I'm thinking through a lot of shit and reevaluating, it's important to do sometimes. But yeah, probably in a week I'll be going hard again.
It's not easy being a streamer. I'm not used to being the center of attention, the leader. I want so badly for everyone to think for themselves, and in part that's so that I'm not responsible for them. For you. I'm scared of my influence. But I can't let that hold us back. We're gonna make something of this thing we've got going, whatever it is. So thank you, truly, deeply, for sticking with me through this ride we call life, for enjoying what I offer, and contributing to it however you do. And thanks for reading my lame pastebins when I feel like I'm having a breakthrough. ur hott. lov u.
Temporarily official, forever the,
~Skozzy, one and only <3