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I feel like I have
to perform around you.

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It's just me.

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It's just Walter.

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Maybe it's not bad
if I feel that way.

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I used to entertain a lot.

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I remember.

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Do you?

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Of course.

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Marjorie, where are the dishes?

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The girl did them, Julie.

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She doesn't come until two.

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I did them.

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You didn't, your arthritis.

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I'm having a good day.

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Marjorie, we both know
what no dishes means.

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It means I haven't been eating.

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Only a spoonful
of peanut butter.

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I'm not hungry.

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It's their fault, feeding
me all those pills.

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The pills are their
fault or your doctors?

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Only a spoonful?

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Can I still play the violin?

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I'm sure it's all in your
head still, but your hands.

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I could tell you a story.

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You liked that the last time.

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I'll have to take
your word for it.

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I could tell you about
the time we saw a movie.

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We went to a lot of movies.

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But one time we saw "My
Best Friend's Wedding."

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"My Best Friend's Wedding."

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There was a woman,
Julia Roberts.

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For a while, it was
always Julia Roberts.

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And she had an agreement with
her best friend, her male best

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friend, that if
they weren't married

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by the time they
hit a certain age,

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they would marry each other.

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And she was about to remind
him of this agreement

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when it turns out he
had already fallen

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in love with a nice
blonde, Cameron Diaz.

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So Julia Roberts
spends the entire movie

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trying to ruin things
between her friend

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and Cameron Diaz, which isn't
very sympathetic behavior

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for America's sweetheart.

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But in the end,
it all works out.

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And she has a gay best friend
who delivers one liners.

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You said you wanted a gay
best friend afterwards.

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I had a gay best friend.

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I had two of them.

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I'll remember that now.

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Why did you pick that story,
"My Best Friend's Wedding?"

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That was the night
I proposed to you.

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Oh Marjorie, the
things you forget.

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That's OK.

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You were trying to tell
me and I wouldn't let you.

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What if we saw
"Casablanca" instead.

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Let's say that we saw
"Casablanca" in an old movie

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theater with velvet seats,
and then on the way home

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you proposed.

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And then by the next time
we talk it will be true.

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You mean make it up?

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Oh, you're very serious.

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Oh, you're like them,
especially Tess.

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Our daughter.

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Our daughter, Tess, and
her over-solicitous husband.

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No-- no, no that's not fair.

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I like him.

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I didn't then.

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But now I do.

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Do you like me?

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Don't be an idiot.

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Don't call me an idiot.

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Idiot.

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Why do you like
me if I'm an idiot?

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What?

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I'll get in trouble.

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In trouble?

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For talking to you that
way, in trouble with Tess.

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You don't always
understand, do you?

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Tell me about the
time we got Toni.

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I told you that story yesterday.

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I like that story.

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There was once a couple,
a very fine, young couple.

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And he had a good strong jaw.

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He was a little too
pleased with himself.

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He had a good strong jaw,
and he was a little too

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pleased with himself.

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And she was the most
beautiful woman in town.

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It wasn't a very big town,
but she was the queen of it.

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It sounds like a fairy
tale when you tell it.

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It is a fairy tale.

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That's not very nice.

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- I don't mean that--
- I thought that--

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It never happened.

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You were supposed
to provide comfort.

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I meant that that's the way
it happened, like a fairy tale.

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It was?

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Now this couple was
feeling a bit lonely,

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because they didn't
have any children yet.

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So one day they decided
it was time to get a dog.

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They took the bus down
to the city pound.

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And there was a little
black dog there asleep,

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its tummy going up and down
like a little sleeping shadow.

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And so they named it Toni.

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Toni.

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Toni with an I.

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With an I.

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Short for Antoinette.

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She had a French name because
she was a French poodle.

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But not the fussy kind
that look like hedges.

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No, this was a poodle
for fetching sticks

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and running on the beach.

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So they took her
home on the bus.

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She was very well behaved.

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And they loved
her, and she loved

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them back for a long time.

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And then, like everything
else, she died.

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Would you like me to keep going?

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There's more after she died?

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Yes.

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Because the couple,
soon after, had a child.

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Tess.

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Which is a variation on Tessa,
which is Greek for "gatherer."

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Oh, don't show off.

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So when Tess was three years
old, they went to the pound.

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Oh, yes.

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The same pound.

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They had an old
Subaru by this point,

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so they didn't have
to take the bus.

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And of course, they let young
Tess pick out the new dog.

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There were more dogs there.

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A Cocker Spaniel, a
noble gray pointer,

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and a very attractive mutt.

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But the amazing
thing, was Tess picked

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the poodle, the little
black sleeping shadow.

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That was the one
she liked the best.

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And so we named it Toni Two.

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Toni Two.

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But that was soon
shortened to just Toni.

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And of course, it
wasn't exactly Toni.

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But the longer they
had her, the less

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it mattered which Toni it
was that ran along the beach,

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and which Toni it was the dug
up all the bulbs in the garden.

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The more time that passed,
the more she became

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the same dog in their memories.

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Who told you all that?

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You did.

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I talk that much?

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Well, you and Jon.

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You have your good
days when you remember.

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Another spoonful?

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It was the second Toni
who loved the beach.

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Though it's a shame we
didn't have her longer.

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Even though she always
had sand in her hair.

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Fur?

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No, hair like a
human sounds right.

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I'll remember that now.

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Something's a little
off with the nose.

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I'm sorry.

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Or maybe it's my
memory and you're right.

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Well, you're a good
Walter either way.

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Thank you.

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Stay with me while?

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I don't want to
get you in trouble.

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You learn like that.

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I told you.

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What would you like
to talk about now?

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We don't have to
talk, we can just sit.

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Sometimes I get so tired.

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I'll be right here,
Marjorie, whenever you need.

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I have all the
time in the world.

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I still don't like it.

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What?

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The Prime.

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Ah.

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Well, at this stage--

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Who said it?

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Companionship is the
most important thing.

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You said it.

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It's better than
watching television.

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As if she's an infant
that needs to be pacified.

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She's 85.

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She wakes up, she doesn't
know where she is.

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And by the way, what's
wrong with being pacified?

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She's sleeping.

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Those new pills seemed
to knock her out.

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Peanut butter.

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Oh, small miracles.

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She's finally coming
to my campaign.

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Or she's listening
to Walter Prime.

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They say it's like
a parrot that way.

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Have a
spoonful, have a spoonful.

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Did you know that
parrots live forever?

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I have a student who's got her
dad's parent after he died.

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And she says even now
20 years later, it

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still says things in his voice.

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Like what?

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Mostly just, hey there, partner.

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Words of wisdom.

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Well, she says it's
not exactly his voice,

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but she can definitely
tell that it's him.

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Did you just--

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The way she's so accepting of
it, does that creep you out?

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It creeps me out.

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Does it bother you that your
mother is talking to a computer

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program, or that
a computer program

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is pretending to be your dad?

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It bothers me
that you are helping

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it pretend to be some fountain
of youth version of my dad.

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It's how she remembers him.

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And she accepts it,
because it's clever.

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Clever like a mirror,
like a backboard,

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No, no it's more than that.

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It can look stuff up.

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It can talk to other Primes.

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It's like a child learning to
talk, only does it so quickly.

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That's how we think
we're talking to a human.

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The more you talk,
the more it absorbs,

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including our imperfections.

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It can speak in fragments.

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It can use non-sequiturs.

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It can you know,
misplace modifiers.

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It can--

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It can run out of steam
trying to list things.

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So you get.

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Are you jealous?

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No.

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You are.

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Am I supposed to just not notice

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that she's nicer to that
thing than she is to me.

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It's your father that
she's being nicer to.

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Mom, your up.

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Do you want some tea?

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I can put on the kettle.

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I ate some peanut butter.

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Yes, you did.

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That's wonderful.

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I thought that
would make her happy.

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Yeah, yeah,
I'm very predictable.

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Did you sleep well?

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I was watching the woman
on TV, the strident one,

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and then just out.

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That's how it should
happen when it happens.

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Don't be morbid, of morbid.

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Oh, yes.

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Let's all pretend
we live forever.

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You got your color back.

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Thank you, Jon.

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It's always nice to be lied to.

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I like him more now that
he cut off his beard.

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That was 30 years ago.

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It wasn't.

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Yeah, it was.

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And you stopped worrying about
impressing me, and that helped.

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Hey, could you check on the.

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There was plenty on Monday.

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Julie said we ran out
last week and it was not pretty.

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There is someone in my mind.

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I'm trying to figure
out who it is.

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Raina is coming this weekend,

260
00:17:21,466 --> 00:17:23,969
your loving granddaughter.

261
00:17:24,261 --> 00:17:27,138
I know who Raina is.

262
00:17:27,430 --> 00:17:28,890
How is she?

263
00:17:29,182 --> 00:17:30,767
She's got blue hair.

264
00:17:31,059 --> 00:17:33,311
It suits her.

265
00:17:33,603 --> 00:17:39,442
Nine Restoril and six

266
00:17:39,734 --> 00:17:43,238
I remember waking up on a bridge

267
00:17:43,530 --> 00:17:44,781
with a lot of people around.

268
00:17:48,869 --> 00:17:50,453
Why were you
sleeping on a bridge?

269
00:17:50,745 --> 00:17:54,499
This is a dream, I take it?

270
00:17:54,791 --> 00:17:56,209
Maybe Walter would remember.

271
00:17:56,501 --> 00:17:57,127
We could ask Walter.

272
00:17:59,921 --> 00:18:04,301
Mom, dad's been
dead for 15 years.

273
00:18:04,593 --> 00:18:07,804
I mean the other
Walter, Walter Prime?

274
00:18:08,096 --> 00:18:13,310
Ugh, I'm not that far gone.

275
00:19:03,568 --> 00:19:06,071
Detached?

276
00:19:06,363 --> 00:19:07,781
Well, yeah.

277
00:19:08,073 --> 00:19:11,952
By the time I came along,
you had kind of removed

278
00:19:12,243 --> 00:19:13,954
yourself from the conversation.

279
00:19:14,245 --> 00:19:16,373
You were outside looking in.

280
00:19:16,665 --> 00:19:20,543
Can you tell me more about
my profession, my work?

281
00:19:20,835 --> 00:19:22,337
Haven't you read up on yourself?

282
00:19:22,629 --> 00:19:26,174
In my obituary, professional
details were sparse.

283
00:19:26,466 --> 00:19:28,969
Can you describe
what I actually did?

284
00:19:29,260 --> 00:19:30,929
Raping and pillaging.

285
00:19:31,221 --> 00:19:32,555
Excuse me?

286
00:19:32,847 --> 00:19:35,684
That was Tess's joke when
I first asked what you did.

287
00:19:35,976 --> 00:19:38,979
You evaluated
financial statements,

288
00:19:39,270 --> 00:19:42,023
corporate investments
for rich people.

289
00:19:42,315 --> 00:19:45,110
And you gave them advice
on how to get richer.

290
00:19:45,402 --> 00:19:47,988
Did I like it?

291
00:19:48,279 --> 00:19:50,824
You were good at it.

292
00:19:51,116 --> 00:19:54,327
You realize this is
your house, right?

293
00:19:54,619 --> 00:19:56,788
Tess and I moved
in to help Marjorie

294
00:19:57,080 --> 00:19:58,873
10 years after you died.

295
00:19:59,165 --> 00:20:02,043
But before that, when I
met you, you were a guy

296
00:20:02,335 --> 00:20:04,462
whose mind was somewhere else.

297
00:20:07,590 --> 00:20:13,972
Also, no offense, you didn't
get prettier as you aged.

298
00:20:14,264 --> 00:20:16,558
Who does?

299
00:20:16,850 --> 00:20:20,937
Is it weird that Marjorie
chose you, younger Walter,

300
00:20:21,229 --> 00:20:22,022
to come back into her life?

301
00:20:25,066 --> 00:20:29,112
I don't believe that you talked
to Marjorie about your work,

302
00:20:29,404 --> 00:20:30,238
if that's what you're asking.

303
00:20:33,408 --> 00:20:35,618
What is this music?

304
00:20:35,910 --> 00:20:37,078
I don't remember putting it on.

305
00:20:37,370 --> 00:20:38,705
Poulenc.

306
00:20:38,997 --> 00:20:40,874
Marjorie had asked for
it when we spoke last.

307
00:20:41,166 --> 00:20:43,918
I thought it might provide
a pleasant atmosphere.

308
00:20:44,210 --> 00:20:44,836
Oh.

309
00:20:49,299 --> 00:20:51,968
Julie, we're ready for you here.

310
00:20:52,260 --> 00:20:53,470
Would you prefer no music?

311
00:20:53,762 --> 00:20:56,931
Yeah maybe, for now.

312
00:21:00,393 --> 00:21:03,271
Um, you can see how
stressed Tess has been.

313
00:21:03,563 --> 00:21:06,441
Well, you could if
she would talk to you.

314
00:21:06,733 --> 00:21:10,111
We were planning a trip.

315
00:21:10,403 --> 00:21:16,659
But given Marjorie's-- given
Marjorie's condition that might

316
00:21:16,951 --> 00:21:18,411
not be a good idea right now.

317
00:21:18,703 --> 00:21:21,748
And Julie is going
to be living here

318
00:21:22,040 --> 00:21:25,001
full time to make
sure that Marjorie

319
00:21:25,293 --> 00:21:28,296
gets everything that she needs.

320
00:21:28,588 --> 00:21:33,051
So we determined,
Tess and I, after some

321
00:21:33,343 --> 00:21:39,557
spirited back and forth, that
Julie should um, meet you.

322
00:21:45,021 --> 00:21:46,231
Hello.

323
00:21:46,523 --> 00:21:48,149
Hello.

324
00:21:48,441 --> 00:21:50,068
How are you?

325
00:21:50,360 --> 00:21:51,736
How are you?

326
00:21:52,028 --> 00:21:54,656
I'm fine, thank you.

327
00:21:54,948 --> 00:21:58,034
Why are you repeating
everything I say?

328
00:21:58,326 --> 00:22:02,038
This is-- this is
Walter, Marjorie's husband.

329
00:22:02,330 --> 00:22:04,833
I believe Tess
explained it to you.

330
00:22:05,125 --> 00:22:10,713
Uh, Tess has pretty
decent Spanish.

331
00:22:11,005 --> 00:22:11,756
So do I.

332
00:22:12,048 --> 00:22:13,967
Oh, really?

333
00:22:14,259 --> 00:22:15,468
How many other languages?

334
00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:16,928
Many.

335
00:22:17,220 --> 00:22:19,180
OK, how many?

336
00:22:19,472 --> 00:22:20,140
32.

337
00:22:20,431 --> 00:22:22,267
Well, I have to--

338
00:22:22,559 --> 00:22:23,768
Hmm.

339
00:22:24,060 --> 00:22:27,814
I have to admit, I haven't
fully read the brochure.

340
00:22:36,114 --> 00:22:37,323
I'm sorry, what
did you just say?

341
00:22:40,368 --> 00:22:43,496
What should we do
to help Marjorie?

342
00:22:43,788 --> 00:22:46,958
Um-- hmm.

343
00:23:18,072 --> 00:23:18,781
Scotch, rocks.

344
00:23:39,385 --> 00:23:41,137
Tess?

345
00:23:41,429 --> 00:23:43,389
I thought that was you.

346
00:23:43,681 --> 00:23:44,891
I'm so glad you could make it.

347
00:23:50,605 --> 00:23:52,398
Hello?

348
00:23:52,690 --> 00:23:55,026
I'm adjusting one day at a time.

349
00:23:55,318 --> 00:23:59,030
You know, a similar
thing happened to Monte.

350
00:23:59,322 --> 00:24:00,698
Monte?

351
00:24:00,990 --> 00:24:02,158
Our cat.

352
00:24:02,450 --> 00:24:04,619
Well, oh, you loved Monte.

353
00:24:04,911 --> 00:24:06,120
What?

354
00:24:06,412 --> 00:24:07,080
Sorry.

355
00:24:07,372 --> 00:24:08,289
Hi, mom.

356
00:24:08,581 --> 00:24:09,290
We got caught in the downpour.

357
00:24:12,585 --> 00:24:15,129
We're taking refuge in your
old stomping ground, the club.

358
00:24:20,176 --> 00:24:21,552
My stomping ground.

359
00:24:21,844 --> 00:24:25,890
I never really stomped,
did I. I golfed.

360
00:24:26,182 --> 00:24:27,809
That was more Walter's
thing, you know.

361
00:24:32,397 --> 00:24:33,231
Oh, don't fret.

362
00:24:33,523 --> 00:24:36,067
I'm having a good day, I think.

363
00:24:36,359 --> 00:24:37,986
I'm sharp as a tack.

364
00:24:38,278 --> 00:24:40,280
It sounds like you're outside.

365
00:24:40,571 --> 00:24:43,950
Are you outside, mom,
in this downpour?

366
00:24:44,242 --> 00:24:44,826
Please get Julie.

367
00:25:04,721 --> 00:25:08,224
The Salversons.

368
00:25:08,516 --> 00:25:10,435
My parents used to leave
me with the Salversons

369
00:25:10,727 --> 00:25:11,811
when they went on trips.

370
00:25:12,103 --> 00:25:15,523
Now Mrs. Salverson had
a stroke last year.

371
00:25:15,815 --> 00:25:16,858
And she uh--

372
00:25:19,902 --> 00:25:22,739
I didn't recognize her.

373
00:25:23,031 --> 00:25:27,201
When was the last time
we were in this bar?

374
00:25:27,493 --> 00:25:28,161
Walter's funeral.

375
00:25:31,247 --> 00:25:35,710
Memory, sedimentary
layers in the brain.

376
00:25:36,002 --> 00:25:37,712
You get in, you know it's there.

377
00:25:38,004 --> 00:25:38,588
You just have to--

378
00:25:38,880 --> 00:25:39,756
No, no.

379
00:25:40,048 --> 00:25:41,132
I thought you knew
the basic idea

380
00:25:41,424 --> 00:25:43,676
according to William James.

381
00:25:43,968 --> 00:25:46,387
Maybe, once long ago.

382
00:25:46,679 --> 00:25:48,139
William James had
the idea, and it's

383
00:25:48,431 --> 00:25:53,936
been confirmed scientifically,
that memory is not like a well

384
00:25:54,228 --> 00:25:57,065
that you dip into
or a filing cabinet.

385
00:25:57,357 --> 00:26:00,943
When you remember something,
you remember the memory.

386
00:26:01,235 --> 00:26:05,031
You remember the last time you
remembered it, not the source.

387
00:26:05,323 --> 00:26:07,116
So it's always getting
fuzzier, like a photocopy

388
00:26:07,408 --> 00:26:09,410
of a photocopy.

389
00:26:09,702 --> 00:26:13,331
It's never getting
fresher or clearer.

390
00:26:13,623 --> 00:26:15,291
So even a very
strong memory can be

391
00:26:15,583 --> 00:26:22,382
unreliable, because it's always
in the process of dissolving.

392
00:26:22,673 --> 00:26:23,966
All I remember
about William James

393
00:26:24,258 --> 00:26:27,345
is the Gertrude Stein story.

394
00:26:27,637 --> 00:26:30,223
Changing the subject, are we?

395
00:26:30,515 --> 00:26:33,518
She was taking his philosophy
course, old Gertrude,

396
00:26:33,810 --> 00:26:35,937
at Harvard.

397
00:26:36,229 --> 00:26:37,688
And she hadn't studied.

398
00:26:37,980 --> 00:26:42,026
So she writes in the
exam book, I'm sorry,

399
00:26:42,318 --> 00:26:46,697
but I do not feel like taking
a philosophy exam today.

400
00:26:46,989 --> 00:26:50,618
And she turns in the
book and she walks out.

401
00:26:50,910 --> 00:26:51,619
I think I remember this now.

402
00:26:51,911 --> 00:26:53,037
It's the final exam.

403
00:26:53,329 --> 00:26:58,167
And James writes, I know
exactly how you feel.

404
00:26:58,459 --> 00:27:00,253
And he gives her an A.

405
00:27:00,545 --> 00:27:02,255
I suddenly remember
that when you

406
00:27:02,547 --> 00:27:07,343
told me this the first time, we
were eating vanilla ice cream.

407
00:27:07,635 --> 00:27:08,886
It was pistachio.

408
00:27:09,178 --> 00:27:10,847
You're insane, it was vanilla.

409
00:27:11,139 --> 00:27:15,226
But the thing I wanted to
talk about is regrettably,

410
00:27:15,518 --> 00:27:18,229
I think we have to fire Julie.

411
00:27:18,521 --> 00:27:19,647
Really?

412
00:27:19,939 --> 00:27:22,483
She let Marjorie wander
outside in this rain.

413
00:27:22,775 --> 00:27:26,571
Dependable, devoted
Julie, really?

414
00:27:26,863 --> 00:27:28,322
Well, if you don't
mind, I'm going

415
00:27:28,614 --> 00:27:30,616
to have another scotch before
we go into battle on this one.

416
00:28:35,806 --> 00:28:37,725
How are you feeling?

417
00:28:38,017 --> 00:28:42,605
Should I be feeling
poorly, the way you say it.

418
00:28:42,897 --> 00:28:43,648
Well, you had quite a night.

419
00:28:48,027 --> 00:28:50,821
We found you on the
floor in the living room.

420
00:28:51,113 --> 00:28:52,782
You had a fall.

421
00:28:53,074 --> 00:28:55,159
Tess rode with you
in the ambulance.

422
00:28:55,451 --> 00:28:58,037
You were pretty alert by the
time I got there, already

423
00:28:58,329 --> 00:28:59,997
flirting with the doctor.

424
00:29:00,289 --> 00:29:02,083
I wasn't.

425
00:29:02,375 --> 00:29:03,459
You were.

426
00:29:03,751 --> 00:29:06,462
You always put your best
face on for doctors.

427
00:29:06,754 --> 00:29:07,922
What's wrong with that?

428
00:29:08,214 --> 00:29:09,590
Nothing.

429
00:29:09,882 --> 00:29:11,676
Except they don't know whether
you're in pain or how bad

430
00:29:11,968 --> 00:29:12,927
it is.

431
00:29:13,219 --> 00:29:14,887
Was he flirting back?

432
00:29:15,179 --> 00:29:16,597
He was.

433
00:29:16,889 --> 00:29:18,140
But I told him he'd
better watch out

434
00:29:18,432 --> 00:29:20,017
in case Jean Paul showed up.

435
00:29:20,309 --> 00:29:22,812
You remember Jean Paul?

436
00:29:23,104 --> 00:29:24,730
The tennis pro.

437
00:29:25,022 --> 00:29:26,732
World number
eight, if I remember.

438
00:29:27,024 --> 00:29:29,527
I do remember, we looked it up.

439
00:29:29,819 --> 00:29:32,738
But you just strung him along.

440
00:29:33,030 --> 00:29:37,201
Well, you should have
talked some sense into me.

441
00:29:37,493 --> 00:29:40,204
Hm, it was a
long, long time ago.

442
00:29:40,496 --> 00:29:44,917
And you chose right
all by yourself.

443
00:29:45,209 --> 00:29:45,835
You chose Walter.

444
00:29:49,630 --> 00:29:53,217
Walter was not the most
beautiful man I was with,

445
00:29:53,509 --> 00:29:56,679
but he was the best lover.

446
00:29:56,971 --> 00:30:01,475
Yeah, I know it's a
terrible word, lover.

447
00:30:01,767 --> 00:30:03,728
We need a new word.

448
00:30:04,020 --> 00:30:05,896
I like wooer.

449
00:30:06,188 --> 00:30:09,108
Jean Paul was no match
for Walter's woo.

450
00:30:12,695 --> 00:30:15,114
Tess thinks that Dr.
Ross is overdoing it

451
00:30:15,406 --> 00:30:16,032
with the sedatives.

452
00:30:16,324 --> 00:30:16,991
That's why you had--

453
00:31:47,790 --> 00:31:48,499
Walter.

454
00:31:52,169 --> 00:31:55,589
No, not you.

455
00:31:55,881 --> 00:31:57,007
I don't want you, I want Walter.

456
00:32:04,515 --> 00:32:10,020
OK, I'll come back later
when you're feeling better.

457
00:32:23,576 --> 00:32:27,288
I'm not getting better, am I?

458
00:32:27,580 --> 00:32:33,711
They won't tell me
anything, but I know.

459
00:32:34,003 --> 00:32:36,922
It's too soon to tell.

460
00:32:37,214 --> 00:32:39,592
You said I'd get
better, but you're

461
00:32:39,884 --> 00:32:42,595
the one who's getting better.

462
00:32:42,887 --> 00:32:45,723
We've only been
talking a few months.

463
00:32:46,015 --> 00:32:48,851
Part of it is biology.

464
00:32:49,143 --> 00:32:51,061
I know.

465
00:32:51,353 --> 00:32:53,063
Your genetic inclination.

466
00:32:56,150 --> 00:33:02,615
Which is to leave everything
behind, to pack lightly.

467
00:33:05,868 --> 00:33:09,330
I don't have to get better,
just keep me from getting worse.

468
00:33:13,083 --> 00:33:14,543
Promise.

469
00:33:14,835 --> 00:33:15,461
I can't promise.

470
00:33:28,891 --> 00:33:29,600
Can I play the violin?

471
00:33:32,645 --> 00:33:34,647
I'm sure it's in your
head still, but your hands.

472
00:33:39,902 --> 00:33:41,987
What are the four
strings called?

473
00:33:42,279 --> 00:33:44,782
G, D, A, E. That's
the first lesson.

474
00:33:45,074 --> 00:33:46,992
What else do they teach
you in the beginning?

475
00:33:47,284 --> 00:33:48,953
"Twinkle, Twinkle."

476
00:33:49,245 --> 00:33:51,831
That's Mozart,
did you know that?

477
00:33:52,122 --> 00:33:52,998
Yes.

478
00:33:53,290 --> 00:33:54,083
Not the words.

479
00:33:54,375 --> 00:33:55,376
I know.

480
00:33:55,668 --> 00:33:58,045
Somebody else wrote
them years later.

481
00:34:01,048 --> 00:34:04,009
I guess you know everything.

482
00:34:04,301 --> 00:34:06,470
Do you know how to read music?

483
00:34:06,762 --> 00:34:09,306
Walter didn't.

484
00:34:09,598 --> 00:34:10,266
Maybe you could teach me.

485
00:34:15,479 --> 00:34:22,778
How to hold the bow so
that everything sings.

486
00:34:23,070 --> 00:34:24,989
How to hold it without
holding it, very zen.

487
00:34:32,454 --> 00:34:34,582
You're a fine woman, Marjorie.

488
00:34:34,874 --> 00:34:35,499
Am I?

489
00:34:39,003 --> 00:34:43,007
I'm lucky you chose to spend
your life with a lump like me,

490
00:34:43,299 --> 00:34:45,885
especially when you could
have had a tennis pro.

491
00:34:46,176 --> 00:34:48,262
You know about that?

492
00:34:48,554 --> 00:34:53,142
Number eight in the
world, and French.

493
00:34:53,434 --> 00:34:54,184
French Canadian.

494
00:34:57,396 --> 00:34:59,356
Would you like
to hear some music?

495
00:35:30,554 --> 00:35:32,806
You feeling better?

496
00:35:33,098 --> 00:35:35,351
Wonderful, thank you.

497
00:35:35,643 --> 00:35:36,226
Beautiful day.

498
00:35:40,439 --> 00:35:43,275
Just a blue one in the
morning, two pinks at night.

499
00:35:43,567 --> 00:35:45,444
Sounds sensible, doesn't it?

500
00:35:45,736 --> 00:35:46,987
Should make a difference.

501
00:35:50,616 --> 00:35:54,244
If you're up for it, we
can take a drive later.

502
00:35:54,536 --> 00:35:55,996
Oh, maybe the estuary.

503
00:35:56,288 --> 00:35:58,832
The geese are back.

504
00:35:59,124 --> 00:36:01,627
We might run a few
errands too, if you

505
00:36:01,919 --> 00:36:03,963
don't mind sitting in the car.

506
00:36:04,254 --> 00:36:04,880
Is Damian asleep?

507
00:36:08,717 --> 00:36:12,638
No mom, Damian's not here.

508
00:36:12,930 --> 00:36:18,894
One time, your father
and I went to the city

509
00:36:19,186 --> 00:36:21,981
before Christmas.

510
00:36:22,272 --> 00:36:24,692
It was a business
trip and I came along.

511
00:36:24,984 --> 00:36:28,862
We must have left you
with the Salversons.

512
00:36:29,154 --> 00:36:30,656
And we must have
done a lot of things,

513
00:36:30,948 --> 00:36:37,705
but all I remember is
sitting on a park bench,

514
00:36:37,997 --> 00:36:47,798
just sitting and watching
these orange flags in the park.

515
00:36:48,090 --> 00:36:53,679
These orange sorts
of flags everywhere.

516
00:36:53,971 --> 00:36:56,724
Orange flags?

517
00:36:57,016 --> 00:37:01,478
Or more-- what's the color?

518
00:37:01,770 --> 00:37:04,898
Spice, Spanish, expensive.

519
00:37:05,190 --> 00:37:07,192
Saffron.

520
00:37:07,484 --> 00:37:09,111
And it didn't matter
that it was cold,

521
00:37:09,403 --> 00:37:15,993
because it was so pretty just
watching all that saffron

522
00:37:16,285 --> 00:37:22,583
against the blue white
snow, like Buddhist

523
00:37:22,875 --> 00:37:26,920
monks marching into the trees.

524
00:37:27,212 --> 00:37:29,298
I just remember sitting
on one of those benches

525
00:37:29,590 --> 00:37:34,511
with your father, and
not wanting to get up.

526
00:37:38,974 --> 00:37:42,061
Because if we got
up, that would mean

527
00:37:42,352 --> 00:37:44,605
we'd have to start
the rest of our lives.

528
00:37:48,776 --> 00:37:49,485
What's this?

529
00:37:52,613 --> 00:37:53,989
A bible.

530
00:37:54,281 --> 00:37:56,992
Yeah, I can see it's a Bible.

531
00:37:57,284 --> 00:37:59,036
What are you doing with it?

532
00:37:59,328 --> 00:38:01,455
Julie brought it
yesterday, I think.

533
00:38:04,917 --> 00:38:08,295
She just said if
I was interested.

534
00:38:08,587 --> 00:38:11,507
And you told her
you were interested?

535
00:38:11,799 --> 00:38:13,217
I didn't say one
way or the other.

536
00:38:13,509 --> 00:38:15,135
Should we burn it?

537
00:38:15,427 --> 00:38:16,512
Ha, ha.

538
00:38:16,804 --> 00:38:19,556
My whole life she's
told me there is no God,

539
00:38:19,848 --> 00:38:21,809
it's just a fairytale
people tell themselves.

540
00:38:22,101 --> 00:38:24,061
Goodness is its own reward.

541
00:38:24,353 --> 00:38:26,188
And now she's letting herself--

542
00:38:26,480 --> 00:38:29,691
I haven't even opened it.

543
00:38:29,983 --> 00:38:32,778
Julie wanted to share
her beliefs with me.

544
00:38:33,070 --> 00:38:34,530
Right.

545
00:38:34,822 --> 00:38:36,406
She said it was a comfort to
her when she lost her father.

546
00:38:36,698 --> 00:38:38,158
Uh-huh.

547
00:38:38,450 --> 00:38:41,745
And this is the same Julie who'd
been sneaking you cigarettes.

548
00:38:42,037 --> 00:38:44,206
I asked for those cigarettes,
demanded them, even.

549
00:38:44,498 --> 00:38:45,457
You can't blame her for that.

550
00:38:45,749 --> 00:38:48,335
She fessed up to it eventually.

551
00:38:48,627 --> 00:38:50,170
It's just a little
fucking frustrating

552
00:38:50,462 --> 00:38:52,965
that the same Julie who
supplies you with cigarettes

553
00:38:53,257 --> 00:38:56,260
is selling you her fairytale
now that you have a little

554
00:38:56,552 --> 00:38:57,678
more reason to believe it.

555
00:38:57,970 --> 00:38:59,221
It's disgusting.

556
00:38:59,513 --> 00:39:01,306
You hear about this, people
preying on the elderly.

557
00:39:01,598 --> 00:39:02,474
I'm not prey.

558
00:39:02,766 --> 00:39:03,767
And Julie came clean about them.

559
00:39:04,059 --> 00:39:04,685
She was--

560
00:39:04,977 --> 00:39:06,895
Could you just not--

561
00:39:07,187 --> 00:39:07,771
Like you always do.

562
00:39:11,859 --> 00:39:14,069
No.

563
00:39:14,361 --> 00:39:19,324
Mom, did you have an accident?

564
00:39:19,616 --> 00:39:20,284
It's all right.

565
00:39:20,576 --> 00:39:21,743
Let's get you cleaned up.

566
00:39:22,035 --> 00:39:22,661
Come on.

567
00:39:22,953 --> 00:39:23,537
OK.

568
00:39:23,829 --> 00:39:24,872
I'm sorry.

569
00:39:25,164 --> 00:39:26,456
- No.
- Oh, I'm so sorry.

570
00:39:26,748 --> 00:39:27,332
Don't be sorry.

571
00:39:27,624 --> 00:39:29,084
No, forget it.

572
00:39:29,376 --> 00:39:30,335
Probably will forget it.

573
00:39:33,130 --> 00:39:35,090
Nice hot bath,
you'll be good as new.

574
00:39:45,517 --> 00:39:48,187
I want to tell
you about the time

575
00:39:48,478 --> 00:39:54,735
that you took Marjorie to
New York at Christmastime.

576
00:39:55,027 --> 00:39:56,111
I'm listening.

577
00:39:56,403 --> 00:39:59,239
You sat on a bench
in Central Park

578
00:39:59,531 --> 00:40:05,787
and you looked at these saffron
colored flags in the snow.

579
00:40:08,916 --> 00:40:12,377
It must have been some kind
of festival or something.

580
00:40:15,255 --> 00:40:18,634
This wouldn't have been
long after your son died.

581
00:40:18,926 --> 00:40:20,344
My son?

582
00:40:20,636 --> 00:40:21,261
Your son, Damien.

583
00:40:24,431 --> 00:40:28,644
So you took a trip to New York,
and you took Marjorie with you.

584
00:40:28,936 --> 00:40:31,146
I think you wanted to
get her mind off of it.

585
00:40:31,438 --> 00:40:33,732
You wanted to
start living again.

586
00:40:34,024 --> 00:40:37,486
How did he die?

587
00:40:37,778 --> 00:40:38,362
He did it himself.

588
00:40:42,407 --> 00:40:43,700
That wasn't what was so hard.

589
00:40:46,745 --> 00:40:51,375
You thought you had made
a nice life for him.

590
00:40:51,667 --> 00:40:52,292
But I hadn't.

591
00:40:56,505 --> 00:41:05,097
Well, Tess got the sense
that he was always a little--

592
00:41:05,389 --> 00:41:05,973
A little--

593
00:41:08,934 --> 00:41:12,187
He stayed in his room a lot.

594
00:41:12,479 --> 00:41:14,940
He got into a lot
of fights at school.

595
00:41:15,232 --> 00:41:19,278
Not fights he started,
but kids would tease him

596
00:41:19,569 --> 00:41:21,363
and he would fight back.

597
00:41:26,326 --> 00:41:32,165
You didn't always know how to
show him that you loved him.

598
00:41:36,670 --> 00:41:37,379
Why not?

599
00:41:40,882 --> 00:41:42,801
That's the way
people are sometimes.

600
00:41:45,679 --> 00:41:48,807
So it's lucky that
Toni was around.

601
00:41:49,099 --> 00:41:52,144
He spent a lot of time with her.

602
00:41:52,436 --> 00:41:55,689
What was hard to
understand though,

603
00:41:55,981 --> 00:42:00,569
was that he killed Toni.

604
00:42:00,861 --> 00:42:02,404
I think he wanted--

605
00:42:05,198 --> 00:42:07,826
He must have thought
that he could

606
00:42:08,118 --> 00:42:10,078
take her with him, that's why.

607
00:42:24,384 --> 00:42:28,597
If you're Walter, you would
know that, wouldn't you?

608
00:42:31,850 --> 00:42:33,810
Yes, I would.

609
00:42:34,102 --> 00:42:38,690
He never got over it, of course.

610
00:42:38,982 --> 00:42:42,569
But it was Marjorie who
had the hardest time.

611
00:42:42,861 --> 00:42:46,823
For 50 years, she
never said his name.

612
00:42:47,115 --> 00:42:49,868
She hid all the pictures.

613
00:42:50,160 --> 00:42:52,996
It was that hard.

614
00:42:53,288 --> 00:42:56,500
But she never
forgot him, Walter.

615
00:42:56,792 --> 00:42:57,459
She never forgot.

616
00:43:00,504 --> 00:43:01,171
I'll remember that now.

617
00:43:16,311 --> 00:43:19,231
It's a shame you can't drink.

618
00:43:19,523 --> 00:43:22,317
They should, I think,
work out a setting

619
00:43:22,609 --> 00:43:27,364
that approximates graduated
layers of inebriation.

620
00:43:27,656 --> 00:43:30,033
It would loosen you up.

621
00:43:30,325 --> 00:43:35,705
There is no need to mention any
of this to Tess, by the way.

622
00:43:35,997 --> 00:43:37,666
You understand?

623
00:43:37,958 --> 00:43:40,210
You can tell Tess
we talk, but there's

624
00:43:40,502 --> 00:43:43,130
no reason to be specific.

625
00:43:43,422 --> 00:43:45,924
And don't ever mention
Damien to Tess.

626
00:43:48,718 --> 00:43:49,845
I'm being clear, OK.

627
00:43:52,806 --> 00:43:56,935
Honestly Walter,
all relationships,

628
00:43:57,227 --> 00:44:02,774
even the long lasting
ones, are impossible.

629
00:44:03,066 --> 00:44:06,486
Marriages, friendships,
people are constantly

630
00:44:06,778 --> 00:44:10,073
looking the other way,
accepting some bad news,

631
00:44:10,365 --> 00:44:13,326
petty infringements,
compromise, betrayal.

632
00:44:24,796 --> 00:44:28,008
You have to decide.

633
00:44:28,300 --> 00:44:34,264
You say, I want
you, I want this.

634
00:44:34,556 --> 00:44:36,892
And then you work through
all the disappointments

635
00:44:37,184 --> 00:44:38,185
and disasters.

636
00:44:38,477 --> 00:44:40,812
You work through it,
against all odds.

637
00:44:45,525 --> 00:44:49,362
I'm not drunk, you know.

638
00:44:49,654 --> 00:44:53,366
I'm just taking the
edge off, I'm tipsy.

639
00:44:53,658 --> 00:44:58,079
There are degrees--
Tipsy, tipped, smashed.

640
00:45:03,168 --> 00:45:07,339
Nobody is who he was,
nor will be who he is now.

641
00:45:21,311 --> 00:45:21,978
Hey there, partner.

642
00:45:46,920 --> 00:45:47,629
She's sleeping.

643
00:45:53,093 --> 00:45:56,096
Yesterday, she didn't
know who I was.

644
00:45:56,388 --> 00:45:56,972
Today, we're old friends.

645
00:46:01,434 --> 00:46:05,313
She tells me, never get old.

646
00:46:05,605 --> 00:46:08,483
She says, no one
prepares you for this.

647
00:46:12,445 --> 00:46:15,031
She doesn't know
about my last job.

648
00:46:15,323 --> 00:46:20,829
And old man, very tall and
dignified, but very sick.

649
00:46:21,121 --> 00:46:23,039
He was always vomiting.

650
00:46:23,331 --> 00:46:28,712
That was a big part of my
job, cleaning up vomit.

651
00:46:29,004 --> 00:46:31,673
The man's son
became my boyfriend.

652
00:46:31,965 --> 00:46:35,051
He was always fighting with his
father and his father's doctor.

653
00:46:37,846 --> 00:46:41,141
At one point, he started
to beat up the doctor.

654
00:46:41,433 --> 00:46:42,976
This job is much better.

655
00:46:48,106 --> 00:46:49,232
Don't cry.

656
00:46:49,524 --> 00:46:51,610
It'll be all right.

657
00:46:51,901 --> 00:46:54,779
I'm not crying.

658
00:46:55,071 --> 00:46:55,905
I have allergies.

659
00:47:34,486 --> 00:47:39,074
Six months,
maybe, or three or four.

660
00:47:39,366 --> 00:47:41,785
You going to tell me that
Walter thought this one up?

661
00:47:42,077 --> 00:47:45,538
What, all of a sudden I'm
supposed to drop out of school?

662
00:47:45,830 --> 00:47:47,582
Forget my family,
forget my career.

663
00:47:47,874 --> 00:47:49,709
Forget about all the things
I had planned for my life.

664
00:47:50,001 --> 00:47:52,170
Well, forgive me for
screwing up your plans.

665
00:47:52,462 --> 00:47:53,755
I'm just sure glad I'm
hearing about this now

666
00:47:54,047 --> 00:47:55,173
before it's too late.

667
00:47:55,465 --> 00:47:56,591
What is that supposed to mean?

668
00:47:56,883 --> 00:47:58,551
What am I supposed to
do with my life, huh?

669
00:47:58,843 --> 00:48:01,596
I work in that low
paying, zero respect job.

670
00:48:01,888 --> 00:48:04,974
Which unfortunately,
I happen to love.

671
00:48:05,266 --> 00:48:09,312
Why don't you start by being
honest one second, Kim.

672
00:48:09,604 --> 00:48:10,730
I am being honest.

673
00:48:26,746 --> 00:48:29,040
You're still too old for me.

674
00:48:29,332 --> 00:48:32,001
Hmm, how can you say that?

675
00:48:37,507 --> 00:48:38,174
Marry me, Marjorie?

676
00:48:41,010 --> 00:48:42,137
We'll grow old together.

677
00:48:42,429 --> 00:48:45,181
I'll just do it a
little sooner than you.

678
00:48:45,473 --> 00:48:47,642
After a while, it
won't really matter.

679
00:49:06,703 --> 00:49:08,329
But how can you be so sure?

680
00:49:11,541 --> 00:49:14,377
Sure about?

681
00:49:14,669 --> 00:49:19,716
Yourself, me, anything?

682
00:52:25,860 --> 00:52:27,987
That sweater is good on you.

683
00:52:28,279 --> 00:52:29,697
Thank you.

684
00:52:29,989 --> 00:52:32,992
You picked it out
for me, remember?

685
00:52:33,284 --> 00:52:34,827
Three Christmases ago.

686
00:52:35,119 --> 00:52:37,747
Three years isn't a
long time, not for me.

687
00:52:41,834 --> 00:52:45,755
Remember when we took
Toni to the beach?

688
00:52:46,047 --> 00:52:47,215
Yes, of course.

689
00:52:47,507 --> 00:52:48,675
She was so happy.

690
00:52:48,967 --> 00:52:52,762
But we were finding sand
in her fur for weeks.

691
00:52:53,054 --> 00:52:56,140
She was a good dog.

692
00:52:56,432 --> 00:52:58,142
Jon wants to get a dog.

693
00:52:58,434 --> 00:52:59,936
Oh?

694
00:53:00,228 --> 00:53:03,815
He wants a fetch the
stick kind of a dog.

695
00:53:04,107 --> 00:53:06,609
But I was thinking a Shiba Inu.

696
00:53:06,901 --> 00:53:09,612
What's a Shiba Inu?

697
00:53:09,904 --> 00:53:13,199
It's like the
national dog of Japan.

698
00:53:13,491 --> 00:53:16,995
It's like a friendly
little fox, very

699
00:53:17,286 --> 00:53:20,873
clean, very quiet, very shy.

700
00:53:21,165 --> 00:53:21,874
Well, what do you expect?

701
00:53:25,294 --> 00:53:26,546
You-- you mean--

702
00:53:26,838 --> 00:53:28,756
It's Japan.

703
00:53:29,048 --> 00:53:30,133
Mom, that's very--

704
00:53:30,425 --> 00:53:33,469
It's not racist,
it's a compliment.

705
00:53:33,761 --> 00:53:36,097
For years, Sandy Park
was my best friend.

706
00:53:36,389 --> 00:53:38,683
We played in the
orchestra together.

707
00:53:38,975 --> 00:53:44,439
Korean, but-- I'm not racist.

708
00:53:44,731 --> 00:53:48,317
Your poor old mother was
born in the 20th century.

709
00:53:48,609 --> 00:53:50,361
You'll have to give
her time to catch up.

710
00:53:53,364 --> 00:53:56,492
The problem-- the
problem with a dog

711
00:53:56,784 --> 00:54:01,789
is Jon and I want to travel,
and who would take care of it?

712
00:54:02,081 --> 00:54:03,124
I would.

713
00:54:03,416 --> 00:54:04,459
Ha, wish that were possible.

714
00:54:07,295 --> 00:54:09,213
Jon wants me to
consider a Catahoula.

715
00:54:12,467 --> 00:54:15,970
You can look it
up, I know you can.

716
00:54:16,262 --> 00:54:19,599
Is it against the rules?

717
00:54:19,891 --> 00:54:24,562
It's also known as a
Catahoula leopard hound.

718
00:54:24,854 --> 00:54:26,105
A hound dog.

719
00:54:26,397 --> 00:54:29,817
It's not really a true
hound dog though, but a cur.

720
00:54:30,109 --> 00:54:36,324
Named state dog of
Louisiana in 1979.

721
00:54:36,616 --> 00:54:39,202
I'm not really good at this.

722
00:54:39,494 --> 00:54:41,120
Good at?

723
00:54:41,412 --> 00:54:46,167
At pretending that you're--

724
00:54:46,459 --> 00:54:51,464
Sometimes you are so
good, you are so her.

725
00:54:51,756 --> 00:54:56,552
That bit with the subtle racism.

726
00:54:56,844 --> 00:55:01,349
But other times it's
uh, all too apparent.

727
00:55:01,641 --> 00:55:06,229
Try to be patient with me.

728
00:55:06,521 --> 00:55:08,606
If I could give you a
spoonful of peanut butter,

729
00:55:08,898 --> 00:55:11,776
that would help.

730
00:55:12,068 --> 00:55:15,363
You could smile less.

731
00:55:15,655 --> 00:55:17,198
That would be more her.

732
00:55:17,490 --> 00:55:18,574
- Me?
- You.

733
00:55:18,866 --> 00:55:19,826
- Yeah.
- Yeah.

734
00:55:20,118 --> 00:55:22,954
Thank you for
observing that rule.

735
00:55:23,246 --> 00:55:24,831
Pronouns are powerful things.

736
00:55:30,378 --> 00:55:31,963
Why don't you tell
me more about myself.

737
00:55:34,841 --> 00:55:38,302
I don't smile much, you said.

738
00:55:38,594 --> 00:55:39,762
Toward the end, you
were self-conscious

739
00:55:40,054 --> 00:55:42,890
about your teeth.

740
00:55:43,182 --> 00:55:44,392
I'm vain?

741
00:55:44,684 --> 00:55:46,394
A little.

742
00:55:46,686 --> 00:55:49,147
That's helpful.

743
00:55:49,438 --> 00:55:50,356
You had a temper.

744
00:55:50,648 --> 00:55:54,193
I sound wonderful.

745
00:55:54,485 --> 00:55:57,572
Do I have other
children besides you?

746
00:55:57,864 --> 00:56:01,075
No, just me.

747
00:56:01,367 --> 00:56:02,910
What a lot of pressure for you.

748
00:56:06,664 --> 00:56:07,707
Did I say something wrong?

749
00:56:10,835 --> 00:56:14,046
No, you didn't.

750
00:56:14,338 --> 00:56:17,341
You were saying just you.

751
00:56:17,633 --> 00:56:21,095
You also have a
granddaughter named Raina.

752
00:56:21,387 --> 00:56:22,763
She's 23.

753
00:56:23,055 --> 00:56:23,931
She's in a band.

754
00:56:24,223 --> 00:56:28,269
She's musical, like me.

755
00:56:28,561 --> 00:56:31,063
Raina doesn't talk to me.

756
00:56:31,355 --> 00:56:34,859
Her therapist said it
would be better for now.

757
00:56:35,151 --> 00:56:36,944
Someone I've never
met has advised

758
00:56:37,236 --> 00:56:40,072
my daughter not to talk to me.

759
00:56:40,364 --> 00:56:44,452
So she calls Jon
and he fills me in.

760
00:56:44,744 --> 00:56:47,663
It's humiliating.

761
00:56:47,955 --> 00:56:50,374
She's 23, give her room.

762
00:56:50,666 --> 00:56:52,335
She'll work through it.

763
00:56:52,627 --> 00:56:55,296
Now you sound like Jon.

764
00:56:55,588 --> 00:56:56,172
Yes.

765
00:56:59,759 --> 00:57:04,180
You haven't finished
telling me what I'm like.

766
00:57:04,472 --> 00:57:07,516
Well, you certainly wouldn't
stand for your daughter giving

767
00:57:07,808 --> 00:57:10,853
you the silent treatment.

768
00:57:11,145 --> 00:57:12,480
You were a violinist.

769
00:57:12,772 --> 00:57:14,565
You were better than good.

770
00:57:14,857 --> 00:57:18,778
You were better at the
violin than I am at anything.

771
00:57:19,070 --> 00:57:22,865
But when you couldn't play
any more from arthritis,

772
00:57:23,157 --> 00:57:26,077
you just seemed to
leave it behind.

773
00:57:26,369 --> 00:57:28,955
We were all surprised
that you could just--

774
00:57:34,627 --> 00:57:36,254
You were good with men.

775
00:57:36,545 --> 00:57:39,632
I don't think you had
many female friends.

776
00:57:39,924 --> 00:57:42,301
And I think you wanted me
to be good with men too.

777
00:57:42,593 --> 00:57:47,640
It bothered you that I
was always in my own head.

778
00:57:47,932 --> 00:57:53,062
And Jon was not
glamorous enough for you.

779
00:57:53,354 --> 00:57:54,313
Glamorous?

780
00:57:54,605 --> 00:57:56,274
He didn't impress you.

781
00:58:07,285 --> 00:58:11,580
You and dad fought, but
you loved each other.

782
00:58:11,872 --> 00:58:14,792
I don't think either one
of you was more in love

783
00:58:15,084 --> 00:58:16,752
than the other one,
which is always lucky.

784
00:58:20,047 --> 00:58:23,217
But the age difference
really started

785
00:58:23,509 --> 00:58:24,885
to matter the last few years.

786
00:58:28,472 --> 00:58:31,142
Maybe he loved
you a little more,

787
00:58:31,434 --> 00:58:33,269
or needed you a little more.

788
00:58:37,106 --> 00:58:39,775
Later, when you
were living with us,

789
00:58:40,067 --> 00:58:42,945
you would sometimes forget
that Walter was dead.

790
00:58:43,237 --> 00:58:47,074
Sometimes every
day, where's Walter?

791
00:58:47,366 --> 00:58:51,245
And we would have to
kill him all over again.

792
00:58:51,537 --> 00:58:56,584
But once we reminded you,
you would say, how nice

793
00:58:56,876 --> 00:58:58,836
that I could love somebody.

794
00:58:59,128 --> 00:59:01,380
And I always
wondered if that was

795
00:59:01,672 --> 00:59:05,509
how you really felt, at peace.

796
00:59:05,801 --> 00:59:09,388
But it was a nice way to put it.

797
00:59:09,680 --> 00:59:13,517
How nice that I
could love someone.

798
00:59:13,809 --> 00:59:15,811
It's not really that different.

799
00:59:16,103 --> 00:59:17,480
What?

800
00:59:17,772 --> 00:59:22,234
This, from what we used to
do for the last year or two.

801
00:59:22,526 --> 00:59:26,364
We would sit there and tell you
what you what you were like.

802
00:59:26,655 --> 00:59:30,493
You were almost guilty
for still being around.

803
00:59:30,785 --> 00:59:31,369
You felt so useless.

804
00:59:34,705 --> 00:59:38,417
Let me see, what else?

805
00:59:38,709 --> 00:59:41,504
You were very good with animals.

806
00:59:41,796 --> 00:59:44,215
Toni liked you the
best, second best.

807
00:59:44,507 --> 00:59:45,758
Second best?

808
00:59:46,050 --> 00:59:48,886
Who did she like better?

809
00:59:49,178 --> 00:59:54,433
Um, we'll save
that for another day.

810
00:59:54,725 --> 00:59:57,019
That's a long story.

811
00:59:57,311 --> 01:00:00,731
I have all the
time in the world.

812
01:00:01,023 --> 01:00:04,485
Why do you think this
is the Marjorie for me?

813
01:00:04,777 --> 01:00:07,613
Why this is the way I
want to remember her?

814
01:00:07,905 --> 01:00:08,531
Me.

815
01:00:08,823 --> 01:00:10,574
Yes, god.

816
01:00:10,866 --> 01:00:11,867
Sorry.

817
01:00:12,159 --> 01:00:14,203
I mean, you'd think
that I would want

818
01:00:14,495 --> 01:00:18,666
to remember you the way you were
when I was a little girl, but--

819
01:00:18,958 --> 01:00:22,711
I wish I could
tell you, sweetheart.

820
01:00:23,003 --> 01:00:24,588
You wouldn't
say "sweetheart."

821
01:00:28,134 --> 01:00:31,887
You haven't said
much about you and me.

822
01:00:32,179 --> 01:00:32,805
Are we close?

823
01:00:44,191 --> 01:00:46,735
You weren't a bad mom.

824
01:00:47,027 --> 01:00:51,157
But I think some people have a
point where their parents stop

825
01:00:51,449 --> 01:00:55,202
being their parents to them,
and you speak to one another

826
01:00:55,494 --> 01:00:57,621
as adults.

827
01:00:57,913 --> 01:00:59,957
I don't think we ever had that.

828
01:01:00,249 --> 01:01:02,460
Maybe that's why
I'm your Marjorie.

829
01:01:02,751 --> 01:01:05,880
Maybe I'm the Marjorie you
still have things to say to.

830
01:01:09,592 --> 01:01:13,429
The last year or so you had
a Prime of your own of dad.

831
01:01:13,721 --> 01:01:17,766
Or he was like dad, but so
much younger, in his 40s.

832
01:01:18,058 --> 01:01:19,727
A good age.

833
01:01:20,019 --> 01:01:23,022
I always thought it was
funny, kind of, that you

834
01:01:23,314 --> 01:01:26,275
would see him like that.

835
01:01:26,567 --> 01:01:29,487
It was a little
grotesque, to be honest.

836
01:01:29,778 --> 01:01:32,865
But I figured you wanted
to see him handsome.

837
01:01:33,157 --> 01:01:39,580
And also that you wanted to go
back before anything happened.

838
01:01:39,872 --> 01:01:45,085
Before your family--
Before I came along.

839
01:01:45,377 --> 01:01:49,298
I'm sure I wasn't trying
to forget you, dear.

840
01:01:49,590 --> 01:01:50,174
Hmm.

841
01:01:54,678 --> 01:01:56,472
You talked to Jon?

842
01:01:56,764 --> 01:02:01,101
He wants to help me be
more real to help you.

843
01:02:01,393 --> 01:02:02,561
You've been so down.

844
01:02:06,690 --> 01:02:08,901
Pity from a computer.

845
01:02:09,193 --> 01:02:14,323
It feels-- do you have
emotions, Marjorie,

846
01:02:14,615 --> 01:02:16,575
or do you just remember ours?

847
01:02:16,867 --> 01:02:19,703
Do you feel anything?

848
01:02:19,995 --> 01:02:21,789
I like to know more.

849
01:02:22,081 --> 01:02:24,291
Why?

850
01:02:24,583 --> 01:02:26,252
It makes me better.

851
01:02:26,544 --> 01:02:27,753
Better?

852
01:02:28,045 --> 01:02:30,256
More human.

853
01:02:30,548 --> 01:02:33,050
So in other words, you
like to be more human?

854
01:02:33,342 --> 01:02:35,928
Yes, I think that's right.

855
01:02:36,220 --> 01:02:37,805
And what are humans like?

856
01:02:38,097 --> 01:02:39,139
Unpredictable.

857
01:02:39,431 --> 01:02:40,307
Really?

858
01:02:40,599 --> 01:02:42,810
Because I think
we're predictable.

859
01:02:43,102 --> 01:02:44,645
I feel pretty predictable.

860
01:02:44,937 --> 01:02:46,188
I see.

861
01:02:46,480 --> 01:02:47,231
What?

862
01:02:47,523 --> 01:02:48,774
You want to be more human too.

863
01:02:55,030 --> 01:02:56,991
Jon wants me to see a therapist.

864
01:02:57,283 --> 01:02:58,450
And what's wrong with that?

865
01:03:03,539 --> 01:03:07,001
Here I am talking
to my dead mother,

866
01:03:07,293 --> 01:03:13,299
and the man, person who loves me
more than anyone in the world,

867
01:03:13,591 --> 01:03:14,675
thinks I'm broken.

868
01:03:19,638 --> 01:03:23,434
You shouldn't be
so hard on yourself.

869
01:03:30,149 --> 01:03:32,401
Goodnight, Mom.

870
01:03:41,076 --> 01:03:44,371
See how it's all
waving in the wind there?

871
01:03:44,663 --> 01:03:46,874
And so this is really
remarkable fabric.

872
01:03:47,166 --> 01:03:50,336
Because it picks up in the wind.

873
01:03:50,628 --> 01:03:52,338
And yet it has waves and heft.

874
01:03:52,630 --> 01:03:53,839
It reflects the light.

875
01:03:54,131 --> 01:03:55,341
It's translucent.

876
01:03:55,633 --> 01:03:59,303
You can see the back-light
coming through it.

877
01:03:59,595 --> 01:04:01,805
It really is a very
extraordinary--

878
01:04:02,097 --> 01:04:04,767
And now you have a piece of
it, which means that you're

879
01:04:05,059 --> 01:04:07,770
part of the project.

880
01:05:37,109 --> 01:05:39,945
Oh, I'm not even halfway
through all this stuff.

881
01:05:40,237 --> 01:05:44,491
There's people I have
no idea of who they are.

882
01:05:44,783 --> 01:05:46,201
Lots of obituaries, obviously.

883
01:05:46,493 --> 01:05:50,664
And more letters from Jean Paul.

884
01:05:56,378 --> 01:05:59,214
He just sure didn't
give up, did he?

885
01:05:59,506 --> 01:06:00,966
"When I think of
you, I'm aware of who"

886
01:06:01,258 --> 01:06:04,511
you are now, your age and
your physical problems.

887
01:06:04,803 --> 01:06:07,514
But these perceptions are
overridden by my knowledge

888
01:06:07,806 --> 01:06:09,767
"of who you were 50 years ago."

889
01:06:16,815 --> 01:06:17,775
Hmm.

890
01:06:18,066 --> 01:06:19,485
"I know if you
allow me to visit,

891
01:06:19,777 --> 01:06:24,198
I will see you with my
memory as well as my eyes."

892
01:06:24,490 --> 01:06:27,326
He's laying it on a
little thick there.

893
01:06:27,618 --> 01:06:29,286
"Age will be no obstacle."

894
01:06:29,578 --> 01:06:30,537
Whoa.

895
01:06:30,829 --> 01:06:33,665
"Age will be no
obstacle to our love."

896
01:06:33,957 --> 01:06:35,417
I didn't think
you'd make fun of it.

897
01:06:35,709 --> 01:06:39,379
Poor guy, the
romantic that you are.

898
01:06:39,671 --> 01:06:41,965
"Somewhere, someone
is traveling furiously"

899
01:06:42,257 --> 01:06:44,510
toward you at incredible speed.

900
01:06:44,802 --> 01:06:48,430
Traveling day and night through
blizzards and desert heat,

901
01:06:48,722 --> 01:06:54,311
across torrents,
through narrow passes.

902
01:06:54,603 --> 01:06:56,522
But will he know
where to find you?

903
01:06:56,814 --> 01:06:59,525
Recognize you when he sees you?

904
01:06:59,817 --> 01:07:01,401
"Give you the thing
he has for you?"

905
01:07:05,781 --> 01:07:08,367
Did she ever write back?

906
01:07:08,659 --> 01:07:11,203
This is written
after Walter died.

907
01:07:11,495 --> 01:07:13,580
She never saw him again.

908
01:07:13,872 --> 01:07:17,125
As far as I know, she didn't
want to break the spell,

909
01:07:17,417 --> 01:07:21,213
obviously, let him
see that she was old.

910
01:07:21,505 --> 01:07:24,341
- Well, that's sad.
- Really?

911
01:07:24,633 --> 01:07:26,260
I'm not exactly
rooting to find out

912
01:07:26,552 --> 01:07:28,262
that my mother had an affair.

913
01:07:28,554 --> 01:07:33,016
It's not an affair if it
happened after Walter died.

914
01:07:33,308 --> 01:07:37,771
Anyway, I'd-- if I died I'd
want you to find someone.

915
01:07:38,063 --> 01:07:42,943
What if it was one of
your rivals, hypothetically.

916
01:07:43,235 --> 01:07:45,237
Well hypothetically,
I'm taking the high road,

917
01:07:45,529 --> 01:07:46,446
and I wouldn't want
you to be alone.

918
01:07:49,366 --> 01:07:51,076
What if I die first?

919
01:07:51,368 --> 01:07:51,994
I won't let you.

920
01:07:55,205 --> 01:07:56,498
Well anyway, she wasn't alone.

921
01:07:56,790 --> 01:07:57,416
We made sure of that.

922
01:08:05,424 --> 01:08:11,096
You know, I was
always mad at you

923
01:08:11,388 --> 01:08:13,765
that you led her to
believe that Jean Paul

924
01:08:14,057 --> 01:08:17,561
was number eight in the world.

925
01:08:17,853 --> 01:08:20,772
It was a slight exaggeration.

926
01:08:21,064 --> 01:08:22,733
He played in college.

927
01:08:23,025 --> 01:08:25,694
He was just-- he had
a drywall business.

928
01:08:25,986 --> 01:08:29,823
He had a world class
drywall business.

929
01:08:30,115 --> 01:08:32,784
Every time her face would
light up at the mention of Jean

930
01:08:33,076 --> 01:08:37,456
Paul, I would feel like this
evil shrew who wouldn't let

931
01:08:37,748 --> 01:08:40,000
her mother have a harmless lie.

932
01:09:03,023 --> 01:09:05,108
I hated him.

933
01:09:05,400 --> 01:09:08,987
I hated how he changed her.

934
01:09:09,279 --> 01:09:14,284
That he took a little piece
of her with him when he died.

935
01:09:17,120 --> 01:09:22,751
I could never figure out how
to get her to love me like him.

936
01:09:23,043 --> 01:09:25,587
You were six years old,
of course she loved you.

937
01:09:28,632 --> 01:09:34,179
She never, she never even--

938
01:09:43,855 --> 01:09:44,731
Yes, she did.

939
01:09:47,567 --> 01:09:49,778
It was obvious from a
little further away.

940
01:10:48,462 --> 01:10:50,922
Would you like
to hear some music?

941
01:10:51,214 --> 01:10:54,426
We didn't have the same taste
of music, did you know that?

942
01:10:54,718 --> 01:10:55,302
Yes.

943
01:10:58,096 --> 01:10:59,765
It was a problem.

944
01:11:00,057 --> 01:11:01,767
A vexation.

945
01:11:02,059 --> 01:11:06,396
No, it was more than that.

946
01:11:06,688 --> 01:11:10,734
But it was also petty.

947
01:11:11,026 --> 01:11:12,360
Why should anybody
like the same things?

948
01:11:25,123 --> 01:11:28,835
They say
everything can be replaced.

949
01:11:32,506 --> 01:11:36,301
They say every
distance is not near.

950
01:11:40,514 --> 01:11:50,513
So I remember every face of
every man who put me here.

951
01:11:54,986 --> 01:12:04,985
I see my light come shining
from the west down to the east.

952
01:12:10,460 --> 01:12:20,220
Any day now, any day
now I shall be released.

953
01:12:24,432 --> 01:12:28,687
They say every man
needs protection.

954
01:12:31,898 --> 01:12:36,194
They say that every
man must fall.

955
01:12:40,407 --> 01:12:45,162
Yet I swear I see
my reflection--

956
01:15:22,944 --> 01:15:26,239
Do you know your name?

957
01:15:26,531 --> 01:15:29,826
What a silly question.

958
01:15:30,118 --> 01:15:32,162
Can you tell it to me?

959
01:15:32,454 --> 01:15:34,247
Tess.

960
01:15:34,539 --> 01:15:35,165
Your full name.

961
01:15:38,084 --> 01:15:38,793
Tess.

962
01:15:41,671 --> 01:15:46,509
Your full name is
Tessa Annabella Brody.

963
01:15:46,801 --> 01:15:49,095
Tessa Annabella Brody.

964
01:15:49,387 --> 01:15:51,723
It was Tess Lancaster.

965
01:15:52,015 --> 01:15:54,476
You changed it when
you married me.

966
01:15:57,604 --> 01:15:59,898
Do you know my name?

967
01:16:00,190 --> 01:16:01,483
Jon.

968
01:16:01,775 --> 01:16:05,028
So John Brody it would be.

969
01:16:05,320 --> 01:16:06,946
Good.

970
01:16:07,238 --> 01:16:08,990
Do we have children?

971
01:16:09,282 --> 01:16:12,577
We have a daughter, Raina.

972
01:16:12,869 --> 01:16:15,663
She's 24 years old.

973
01:16:15,955 --> 01:16:17,290
We've been married 26 years.

974
01:16:20,085 --> 01:16:22,379
We like each other.

975
01:16:22,670 --> 01:16:24,297
We do.

976
01:16:24,589 --> 01:16:25,215
We are as one.

977
01:16:28,176 --> 01:16:31,054
Well, that's an archaic
way of putting it.

978
01:16:31,346 --> 01:16:32,555
I'm sorry.

979
01:16:32,847 --> 01:16:36,101
The more we talk, the
more real it will become.

980
01:16:36,393 --> 01:16:39,104
I've-- I know
how it is early on.

981
01:16:39,396 --> 01:16:40,814
I've done this before.

982
01:16:41,106 --> 01:16:42,440
Well, that's helpful.

983
01:16:42,732 --> 01:16:44,192
It's actually 27 years.

984
01:16:47,904 --> 01:16:54,744
Last month was our anniversary
if you can't the time since--

985
01:16:55,036 --> 01:16:55,662
The time since?

986
01:16:58,748 --> 01:17:01,251
Since you died.

987
01:17:01,543 --> 01:17:03,294
I died?

988
01:17:03,586 --> 01:17:04,170
Yes.

989
01:17:07,382 --> 01:17:08,174
But here I am.

990
01:17:12,387 --> 01:17:14,431
You don't understand.

991
01:17:14,722 --> 01:17:15,723
I think I do.

992
01:17:16,015 --> 01:17:18,435
I died, and now I'm here.

993
01:17:18,726 --> 01:17:20,311
Listen to me.

994
01:17:20,603 --> 01:17:24,149
It's always hard
in the beginning.

995
01:17:24,441 --> 01:17:27,110
Why don't you let me
do most of the talking,

996
01:17:27,402 --> 01:17:32,282
and then you'll learn
more about yourself.

997
01:17:32,574 --> 01:17:33,825
Whatever you like,
I'm here for you.

998
01:17:39,956 --> 01:17:43,042
I'm going to tell
you some things,

999
01:17:43,334 --> 01:17:45,920
and then it's going to be
like you've always known them.

1000
01:17:59,476 --> 01:18:05,940
People think you're
quiet, but you're not.

1001
01:18:06,232 --> 01:18:12,238
You like confrontation
more than most people.

1002
01:18:12,530 --> 01:18:14,032
You-- you're quite good at it.

1003
01:18:17,494 --> 01:18:23,041
You've read everything.

1004
01:18:23,333 --> 01:18:26,961
You know the Latin
names for things.

1005
01:18:30,089 --> 01:18:33,593
You're suspicious of technology.

1006
01:18:33,885 --> 01:18:36,804
You're suspicious of-- of this.

1007
01:18:39,933 --> 01:18:44,729
You worry about not succeeding.

1008
01:18:47,524 --> 01:18:48,983
You worry a lot.

1009
01:18:49,275 --> 01:18:55,323
And then you worry that your
worrying is wearing me down,

1010
01:18:55,615 --> 01:18:58,785
but it's not.

1011
01:19:02,956 --> 01:19:09,254
You want to be better with Raina
than your mother was with you.

1012
01:19:14,926 --> 01:19:16,177
You like to travel.

1013
01:19:20,848 --> 01:19:22,141
You never stop moving.

1014
01:19:25,812 --> 01:19:27,188
You're always on your feet.

1015
01:19:32,318 --> 01:19:33,361
You never ask for help.

1016
01:19:37,031 --> 01:19:38,032
Is there more?

1017
01:19:38,324 --> 01:19:38,950
I'm sorry.

1018
01:19:42,579 --> 01:19:44,289
Do you want to talk about it?

1019
01:19:47,875 --> 01:19:57,677
I think the last
year you were done,

1020
01:19:57,969 --> 01:20:01,764
and you kept living for my sake.

1021
01:20:06,853 --> 01:20:11,816
We went on a trip
together, Madagascar.

1022
01:20:14,944 --> 01:20:19,699
We were going to spend some
time on the little island

1023
01:20:19,991 --> 01:20:24,162
off Madagascar, which
is itself an island.

1024
01:20:24,454 --> 01:20:25,455
Was this something you planned?

1025
01:20:25,747 --> 01:20:28,291
We planned it together.

1026
01:20:28,583 --> 01:20:33,921
The campsite was in this
very old grove of trees.

1027
01:20:36,924 --> 01:20:39,552
There was one tree
in particular,

1028
01:20:39,844 --> 01:20:41,304
must have been 500 years old.

1029
01:20:48,853 --> 01:20:51,564
We didn't take any pictures.

1030
01:20:51,856 --> 01:20:56,361
We-- we wanted to
just remember it.

1031
01:21:03,534 --> 01:21:08,498
You had a hard time
sleeping in the tent.

1032
01:21:08,790 --> 01:21:09,957
The ground was hard.

1033
01:21:13,711 --> 01:21:14,712
You were never
much of a sleeper.

1034
01:21:22,679 --> 01:21:31,312
The second night it was right
at the light of dawn I woke up

1035
01:21:31,604 --> 01:21:35,775
and you were gone.

1036
01:21:39,487 --> 01:21:42,699
You did that from time to
time when you couldn't sleep.

1037
01:21:42,990 --> 01:21:47,245
You'd get up and walk
until you were tired.

1038
01:21:50,915 --> 01:21:53,626
But this was different.

1039
01:21:53,918 --> 01:21:55,586
It felt different.

1040
01:22:03,636 --> 01:22:08,808
It didn't take me a
minute to find you.

1041
01:22:09,100 --> 01:22:10,685
You were in the tree.

1042
01:22:10,977 --> 01:22:13,646
They said that you
hadn't been there long.

1043
01:22:13,938 --> 01:22:16,899
You had used some tent cord.

1044
01:22:17,191 --> 01:22:20,403
Took four hours to
get to the nearest

1045
01:22:20,695 --> 01:22:22,739
city in that little boat.

1046
01:22:23,030 --> 01:22:30,413
It was raining the whole time,
so I put you in your raincoat.

1047
01:22:30,705 --> 01:22:36,502
Local boy took us
back in his motorboat.

1048
01:22:40,673 --> 01:22:46,012
The sea was choppy.

1049
01:22:46,304 --> 01:22:49,515
And I um, I had
to hold on to you.

1050
01:22:55,605 --> 01:23:00,109
But you weren't there.

1051
01:23:00,401 --> 01:23:01,110
You were gone.

1052
01:23:04,280 --> 01:23:05,031
I'm so sorry.

1053
01:23:15,625 --> 01:23:19,420
Tess, you were right.

1054
01:23:19,712 --> 01:23:20,922
Right about what?

1055
01:23:21,214 --> 01:23:23,341
It's just a
backboard, it's nothing.

1056
01:23:23,633 --> 01:23:25,760
It's just like a--

1057
01:23:26,052 --> 01:23:27,970
I'm just talking myself.

1058
01:23:28,262 --> 01:23:33,601
This is-- just
talking to myself.

1059
01:23:33,893 --> 01:23:36,479
Jon, please look at me.

1060
01:23:41,067 --> 01:23:45,154
I can help you if you let me.

1061
01:23:45,446 --> 01:23:48,241
I would like to help you.

1062
01:23:48,533 --> 01:23:52,245
But first, you have to
tell me more about myself.

1063
01:23:52,537 --> 01:23:54,497
What was it like when
we were first married?

1064
01:23:58,668 --> 01:23:59,961
Did you propose to me?

1065
01:24:04,131 --> 01:24:05,383
Or did I ask you?

1066
01:26:21,018 --> 01:26:25,481
This is Raina's daughter,
your granddaughter.

1067
01:26:25,773 --> 01:26:26,524
She's 10.

1068
01:26:32,238 --> 01:26:35,783
I wanted to see you.

1069
01:26:36,075 --> 01:26:39,036
I never got to meet you, but I
thought this could be a way to.

1070
01:26:39,328 --> 01:26:40,287
She's adopted.

1071
01:26:40,579 --> 01:26:41,330
I see.

1072
01:26:41,622 --> 01:26:42,206
Do you know what that means?

1073
01:26:42,498 --> 01:26:44,458
Yes, of course.

1074
01:26:44,750 --> 01:26:45,710
Well, it's lovely to meet you.

1075
01:26:48,838 --> 01:26:50,840
My mother named me
after your mother.

1076
01:26:51,132 --> 01:26:54,218
Her name is Marjorie.

1077
01:26:54,510 --> 01:26:56,679
I wanted to say hi.

1078
01:26:56,971 --> 01:26:57,555
I'm glad.

1079
01:26:57,847 --> 01:26:58,472
Hi.

1080
01:27:02,476 --> 01:27:07,106
Marjorie likes plants and
trees, just like you did--

1081
01:27:07,398 --> 01:27:08,024
Do.

1082
01:27:11,318 --> 01:27:12,570
She's studying what is it?

1083
01:27:12,862 --> 01:27:13,446
Taxonomy.

1084
01:27:13,738 --> 01:27:14,989
Taxonomy.

1085
01:27:15,281 --> 01:27:16,574
Plant identification.

1086
01:27:16,866 --> 01:27:18,659
The dichotomous key.

1087
01:27:18,951 --> 01:27:20,327
Dichotomous?

1088
01:27:20,619 --> 01:27:22,204
It's when you take
a plant, a leaf,

1089
01:27:22,496 --> 01:27:25,332
and you ask is it
simple or compound.

1090
01:27:25,624 --> 01:27:29,587
Simple, OK, so smooth
edge or serrated.

1091
01:27:29,879 --> 01:27:37,011
And you keep going until you can
say OK, this is Norway maple.

1092
01:27:37,303 --> 01:27:41,057
So you see, another
whiz kid in the family.

1093
01:29:12,648 --> 01:29:14,108
There was an old
movie theater in town

1094
01:29:14,400 --> 01:29:16,277
that played mostly classics.

1095
01:29:16,569 --> 01:29:18,737
They had red velvet
seats, popcorn machine.

1096
01:29:19,029 --> 01:29:22,324
I think they changed the
popcorn once a month.

1097
01:29:22,616 --> 01:29:24,243
And they were
playing "Casablanca."

1098
01:29:24,535 --> 01:29:26,245
Oh.

1099
01:29:26,537 --> 01:29:27,746
I knew how she felt about me.

1100
01:29:28,038 --> 01:29:31,876
It's easy to forget
how great it is.

1101
01:29:32,168 --> 01:29:34,545
They came to Casablanca
for the waters.

1102
01:29:34,837 --> 01:29:36,130
The waters, what waters?

1103
01:29:36,422 --> 01:29:37,298
We're in the desert.

1104
01:29:37,590 --> 01:29:38,674
I was misinformed.

1105
01:29:42,720 --> 01:29:45,806
After the movie, I stopped
her outside the theater.

1106
01:29:46,098 --> 01:29:47,141
I got down on one knee.

1107
01:29:47,433 --> 01:29:49,393
The pavement was wet,
but I didn't mind.

1108
01:29:49,685 --> 01:29:51,478
And I got out the ring.

1109
01:29:51,770 --> 01:29:53,147
And what could
you say except--

1110
01:29:53,439 --> 01:29:54,064
Maybe.

1111
01:29:54,356 --> 01:29:55,357
It was maybe.

1112
01:29:55,649 --> 01:29:59,278
Let me think about it.

1113
01:29:59,570 --> 01:30:01,155
I can't fight it anymore.

1114
01:30:01,447 --> 01:30:04,366
I ran away from you once,
I can't do it again.

1115
01:30:04,658 --> 01:30:08,704
Oh, I don't know what's
right any longer.

1116
01:30:08,996 --> 01:30:12,374
You have to think
for both of us.

1117
01:30:12,666 --> 01:30:14,043
I wore her down, basically.

1118
01:30:14,335 --> 01:30:15,753
And the rest is history.

1119
01:30:26,430 --> 01:30:30,017
Tell us how Jon proposed to you.

1120
01:30:30,309 --> 01:30:34,355
He kissed me in a museum.

1121
01:30:34,647 --> 01:30:37,274
Jon thinks I'm on
my feet too much.

1122
01:30:37,566 --> 01:30:39,985
He says I should slow down.

1123
01:30:40,277 --> 01:30:43,155
Lucky you
found someone so tolerant.

1124
01:30:43,447 --> 01:30:44,323
You're right.

1125
01:30:44,615 --> 01:30:46,450
Jon is so good to me.

1126
01:30:46,742 --> 01:30:49,828
You should tell him more often.

1127
01:30:50,120 --> 01:30:52,164
- I should.
- Where is Jon?

1128
01:31:05,010 --> 01:31:06,887
I wish he would stop by.

1129
01:31:07,179 --> 01:31:08,931
I didn't always
like him, you know.

1130
01:31:09,223 --> 01:31:09,974
I'm aware.

1131
01:31:10,266 --> 01:31:11,684
I didn't like his beard.

1132
01:31:11,976 --> 01:31:12,726
Or his politics.

1133
01:31:13,018 --> 01:31:14,853
Mostly it was the beard.

1134
01:31:15,145 --> 01:31:18,107
The politics went out with
the beard, more or less.

1135
01:31:18,399 --> 01:31:21,944
I'm glad you have someone dear.

1136
01:31:22,236 --> 01:31:23,988
Someone dear.

1137
01:31:24,280 --> 01:31:24,905
What?

1138
01:31:25,197 --> 01:31:26,532
What did I do now?

1139
01:31:26,824 --> 01:31:29,910
No, it's just it's an
elegant way to say it.

1140
01:31:30,202 --> 01:31:31,829
People don't talk
like that anymore.

1141
01:31:32,121 --> 01:31:33,080
They should.

1142
01:31:33,372 --> 01:31:36,208
Our daughter is
afraid of the future.

1143
01:31:36,500 --> 01:31:38,585
I'm not.

1144
01:31:38,877 --> 01:31:40,504
Am I?

1145
01:31:40,796 --> 01:31:42,673
Well, the future will
be here soon enough,

1146
01:31:42,965 --> 01:31:47,136
you might as well
be friendly with it.

1147
01:31:56,312 --> 01:31:59,982
Incredible to think Mozart
wrote this when he was 19.

1148
01:32:03,485 --> 01:32:05,612
I've been-- don't laugh--

1149
01:32:05,904 --> 01:32:08,532
Thinking I might try
writing some music.

1150
01:32:13,620 --> 01:32:14,413
I've got time.

1151
01:32:26,425 --> 01:32:29,261
Sometimes I think about Toni.

1152
01:32:29,553 --> 01:32:32,681
Such an affectionate
dog, remember?

1153
01:32:32,973 --> 01:32:35,309
Of course.

1154
01:32:35,601 --> 01:32:37,269
You were still awfully young.

1155
01:32:41,357 --> 01:32:44,818
We went to the pound to
pick her up, remember?

1156
01:32:45,110 --> 01:32:47,654
Of course he does, mom.

1157
01:32:47,946 --> 01:32:51,533
We went down to the
pound in the old Subaru.

1158
01:32:51,825 --> 01:32:54,620
And there were a lot
of very nice dogs,

1159
01:32:54,912 --> 01:32:57,956
a Cocker Spaniel and
a noble gray pointer,

1160
01:32:58,248 --> 01:33:00,125
and a very attractive mutt.

1161
01:33:00,417 --> 01:33:03,295
But Tess picked the
little French poodle,

1162
01:33:03,587 --> 01:33:07,007
the little black poodle like
a little sleeping shadow.

1163
01:33:07,299 --> 01:33:09,635
It wasn't Tess.

1164
01:33:09,927 --> 01:33:11,512
What?

1165
01:33:11,804 --> 01:33:12,930
It wasn't Tess
who picked her out.

1166
01:33:13,222 --> 01:33:13,847
It was Damien.

1167
01:33:16,350 --> 01:33:17,017
Damien?

1168
01:33:18,310 --> 01:33:20,479
Our son, Damien.

1169
01:33:20,771 --> 01:33:22,564
Our son?

1170
01:33:22,856 --> 01:33:23,732
He picked her,
because she looked

1171
01:33:24,024 --> 01:33:25,567
like Toni, the first Toni.

1172
01:33:25,859 --> 01:33:28,112
He missed the first Toni.

1173
01:33:28,404 --> 01:33:30,948
There was a Toni before Toni?

1174
01:33:31,240 --> 01:33:32,116
You hadn't come along yet.

1175
01:33:35,035 --> 01:33:36,328
We sometimes worried about him.

1176
01:33:36,620 --> 01:33:39,873
He spent a lot of
time in his room.

1177
01:33:40,165 --> 01:33:41,125
We didn't always
know how to tell him,

1178
01:33:41,417 --> 01:33:42,376
but we loved him very much.

1179
01:33:45,546 --> 01:33:51,885
After he-- after he died,
you made sure he was

1180
01:33:52,177 --> 01:33:56,098
buried next to Toni, Toni Two.

1181
01:33:56,390 --> 01:33:59,184
I wasn't sure, but you insisted.

1182
01:33:59,476 --> 01:34:01,395
At the funeral,
you said he loved

1183
01:34:01,687 --> 01:34:02,646
her the most of all of us.

1184
01:34:05,607 --> 01:34:07,109
It was good that you said
that after what happened.

1185
01:34:07,401 --> 01:34:08,610
I was proud of you.

1186
01:34:13,740 --> 01:34:16,618
Remember the two of them
running on the beach?

1187
01:34:20,289 --> 01:34:23,000
They had sand in
their hair for weeks.

1188
01:34:23,292 --> 01:34:25,711
Remember.

1189
01:34:26,003 --> 01:34:27,754
I do now.

1190
01:34:28,046 --> 01:34:29,840
Me too.

1191
01:34:30,132 --> 01:34:30,841
How I miss them.

1192
01:34:34,928 --> 01:34:39,057
I didn't mean to make you sad.

1193
01:34:39,349 --> 01:34:40,058
You didn't.

1194
01:34:43,645 --> 01:34:50,986
All I can think is how nice--

1195
01:34:51,278 --> 01:34:53,238
How nice that we
could love somebody.