Oh yeah the reason I can’t I am raise my voice or scream appropriately is because when I was violated I scream so much I think I ripped my vocal cords and because I didn’t want my mom to know I just started speaking more calmly all there’s so much more fucked up shit please from jog my memory that’s why my screams that’s why my voice can’t get raised unfortunately I a damage my cars when I was young so my voice never dropped yeah but I can talk like this yeah seems dark but I have a sunny disposition