The Luminous Path

The Luminous Path

	Stars faded in the brooding night sky, and clouds rolled back and forth ominously. It would
have been a rather pretty sight to behold, except I was lying on the ground with a severe headache and a
lack of pants. I felt for my golden pocket watch, something that was so very dear to me, though in this
state I couldn't discern why. Patting my bare leg gave me an epiphany: I was completely de-clothed.
Startled at this realization, I jumped up and scanned the area for any signs of danger and/or pants. I
found nothing, nothing except a twinkling light billowing directly in front of me, sheltered by tree
among tree. In fact, I did a quick spin around and realized I was beleaguered by forest, with the clearing
around me being the only saving grace. I put my focus back onto the light and decided to myself that if I
indeed could not remember how I got here and I indeed am lacking pants, following this light might be
the only thing bridging me between dying here in a cold land and living in a warm abode. With a quick
internal debate, I decided to throw caution to the wind and set off on a journey towards the
indiscriminate light.
	Thick vines lashed out at me as I braved my way through the forest. It seemed lighter going
in, but as I continued deeper and deeper, tree stumps and the ground formed an irrational ratio. For the
sake of saving myself from embarrassment, I'm going to pretend I didn't trip over jagged rocks and plant
my face deep into the soil a few times. But what I did do was follow that beautiful light. I never seemed
closer, it always seemed farther. I felt like I had been walking through the jungle substitute for hours and
felt hunger pangs vibrate in my consciousness... and stomach. I became distracted by my hunger and
let my eyes off of the light as I searched the leaf-grazed forest ground. An ant convoy seemed to be
minding their own business, but in this dimly lit growth, it could have very well been a span of rocks. I
then entertained myself with thoughts of tiny pebbles marching throughout the woodland, searching for
food and adventure, then quickly reminded myself I was hungry, which led me to search for anything
edible or at the very least digestible. As I searched, I realized my mistake and hastily brought my eyes
forward, and observed the absence of the light. I felt a knot in my stomach form as the sudden
realization that my only compass had disappeared in this horrible thicket, when the next basic human
need arrived at my subconsciousness: water.
	It was at this moment when nature seemed to answer my plea for help, and I
heard the faint rushing of water. It was also at this moment that my mind began to erupt into
horrible thoughts of my sudden untimely demise, and the wondrous thoughts that if I do die, someone
is going to find me laid up against a tree, completely naked. I panicked, and rushed the sound of waves.
I blew through branch after branch, bramble after bramble, vine after vine in this godforsaken coppice.
As if a cliche ruled my life, my foot played football with a large boulder and the boulder won, sending
my body rocketing forwards. I crashed into putrid smelling muck, caking my face with the earth. I
screamed at the sudden pain flowing throughout my figure, but the dirt muffled it to the point where
only the rushing tributary could listen to my embarrassment. Wait, what? Tributary?
	I raised my body up and although I could not see anything besides the rough dirt and a
disheveled earthworm crawling around, I heard the rushing water before me. I cautiously took a few
steps forward, balancing the dangers of being blind and being near a rippling river when I slid on smooth
clay and launched forward into the coursing creek. I thrashed around aimlessly trying to get a grip on
an outward root or a boulder or anything but instead found only the comfort of more rushing water.
The torrent of water whip lashed me and washed the mud off of my visage, allowing the benefit of seeing
how close I was to dying, with jagged rocks protruding out of the base of the river, inviting me to be
stabbed and killed. I screamed as I passed by the rocks, each one discussing the benefits of being stabbed,
my frame being beaten and slashed and bruised and maimed by the emotionless hazards. I wished for
my family, if they even existed, and I wished I could be reunited with my golden pocket watch and
gaze upon the picture inside just once more. I began to form sentimental thoughts of my eventual death
and that I would've rather died doing something incredible, like riding a blimp with a saddle and cowboy
hat, rather than dying in a dark estuary completely naked, when the river began to thin itself and become
narrower. The rush died down and became slow and steady as I plummeted back into the earth for a
second time.
	I rose from the ground for the third time tonight and observed my surroundings, then
realized I couldn't observe my surroundings because my features were once again caked with gunk, so I
approached the creek with caution and washed the mud off, scrubbing with deep concentration and
flinching in pain as I dug into my wounds. As I finished ridding my face of the rest of the gunk, I felt
around my body and realized how wounded I was. Cuts and scrapes littered my face like unwelcome
pimples on a teenager. Deep wounds and stabs formed a constellation over my frame. My legs and arms
had the honor of showcasing tearing and blood. After observing my body for a few minutes, I doubled
over in pain and let tears wash over me. Through misty eyes I examined something I thought lost forever,

				Light.

	The world stood still. Branches stopped swaying. Leaves rested on the earth. The creek
refused to budge. I didn't hear any birds on this awful journey but if they existed, they were silent. My
eyes pierced the light, yet the light seemed to pierce my eyes. I wiped my teary eyes and stumbled
forward, ignoring my bruises and wounds. I hobbled at an alarming pace, a hobble turned into a walk, a
walk turned into a sprint, a sprint turned into a dash. I almost seemed to glide through the forest,
avoiding nature's obstacles, staying close to the river but with a goal on my mind. The creek and light
finally guided me to my destination. As I stepped out of a few trees, I found what produced the soft glow
of beams that began and ended my journey.
	Darkness continued to shroud the coppice, yet I could still make out miniscule details
with the help of the abode's light. The wooden cabin stood tall at what appeared to be roughly two
stories high, with windows plastered all around, shining gently into the forest. A porch guarded the
home, with ancient rocking chairs ruling the decoration. I would have continued to describe the
exterior when all the lights went out. A confused expression formed on my features until roughly
a minute passed and the lights flickered back on. I had then realized that I had simply stood here in the
boundaries of timber and home and decided to march my way to this gateway to freedom. As I walked,
I began to regain feeling in my frame and was able to walk almost like a normal person could. I strolled
towards the front door and climbed the creaking steps. I raised my fist to knock the door but froze. I
stared intently at the entrance and felt a sense of familiarity. I felt as if I had knocked on this door many,
many times ago. I struggled with my fist, feeling conflict with the door. I probably would have stood
there for hours if I hadn't smelled a peculiar scent, but I did. My nose stiffened and I noticed a window
to my left was cracked open, welcoming any visitor or danger. I peered through and viewed an empty
living room, complete with a crackling fire place. This registered the thought that someone was home,
and thus, I ignored my odd sense of Déjà vu and knocked on the door. Patience ran thin as minutes ran
by. I knocked twice, thrice, then overwhelming panic set in. I started thinking things I didn't want to
think, remembering things I didn't want to remember. In my exploding state of mind, I slammed my foot
into the door, sending the wooden barrier flying across the room, and sending splinters all into my
bare foot. Ignoring the pain, I stumbled through the doorway and into the living room. My mind was
screaming, and I felt like I wanted to plunge myself into the fireplace. I was afraid, I couldn't figure out
what this cabin was doing to me. I viewed another doorway and bashed through it, and in that moment I
regretted ever following the light.
	Bodies. Bodies laid up everywhere. An old man formed a snow angel on the ground,
with what was I assumed his cane piercing his heart. Two young children were face down, slumped
over in their chairs, both with gunshot wounds in their scalp. A young woman was bolted to the fridge
by a knife. I drew close to this woman, and examined her face. It was one of surprise and of terror,
preserving the moment of a horrible event. I leaned in close and tears unexpectedly streamed
down my face. I uttered a word I didn't think possible.

				Mom.

	Red. Red everywhere. My vision was plastered with red. I started to dry heave, I vomited.
My vision blurred. Where was I? My father, he lay there. My brother and sister, they lay over there. My
mind became fragmented. I couldn't see straight. Lights flickered on and off, blinding my hazy vision. I
unclenched my jaw to scream but not a sound came out. I channeled my emotions through physical
destruction and burst through the back door, ending up back into the forest from which I had escaped. In
my hazy state I found the river that brought me here and followed it into the darkness. Tears littered
the path as my mind began to form memories and thoughts. I wanted whoever committed this atrocity
buried in the ground, and if it hadn't happened already, I was going to do it with my bare hands.
	Running dwindled to ambling. I couldn't process images through my brain except for my
only companion, the river that had hurt me. I followed the river to its end, a rotting tree stump. It was
gloomy, but I was able to distinguish shapes laying on the stump. I drew near and discovered that they
were clothes. I brushed them with my hand and felt blood, still wet. My eyes widened at the epiphany that
the murderer could be right in this very clearing. I felt my body grow cold as I veered my eyesight to the
left and found a loaded revolver laying next to the stump. I grasped the weapon with sweaty palms and
cocked it. The only thought going through my brain was that of murder. I debated how I was going to
punish the horrible stain of a human being when a particularly shiny object glimmered beneath the
clothes. I hesitated, as if I knew what was coming next, but I pressed on and shoved my hand
underneath, and produced a golden pocket watch.
	I achieved enlightenment at the cost of my sanity. I pieced together the puzzle using the clues
I had stumbled across on this accursed stump, and screamed to the stars for penance. My eyes hovered
above the pocket watch, and every muscle in my chassis restrained itself to stop me from disclosing the
details hidden within the miniature clock, but I refused their proposal and ripped it open. A lone picture
of my mother, father, brother, and sister stared back at me. I stood still, not daring to move an inch. I
turned to the bloodied attire and tried them on. It was a perfect fit. I looked around at the beleaguering
woodland that surrounded me, that surrounded this creek, that surrounded this stump. Wind billowed
softly, caressing my cheeks. Mist hung close to the ground. The night sky kissed the earth goodnight,
and the sun slowly climbed the trees. I laid my bruised and beaten body up against the stump and let
tears expel from my eyes. I clenched the golden pocket watch in one hand and used my other hand to
guide the revolver's barrel to my head. Though no one could ever hear me, I whispered the first words
of the morning to the world, with a hoarse gasp.

				"I'm sorry."

	And as I slowly pulled my finger towards the trigger, I thought to myself once more, a simple
phrase. "I achieved enlightenment at the cost of my sanity." And then, I pulled the trigger. And then, the
birds of the forest awakened and scattered. And then, the forest stood still. And then, the earth stood still.
And then there was silence.