[FEDS] Xplosonhed	Reply - Copy Savebox - Block Player - Report	18 Apr 2019, 10:19:06
Feel free to copy paste ANY of my messages. I have nothing to hide and everything to gain by being upfront and having you all understand where my head is.

Am i pissed off...of course i am. But ive done nothing in retaliation, nor am i trying to.

If i'm shoved out on top of, and after being ZFd.... you'd bet your @ss i'll come gunning for muzzer with everything i can muster because then it will be pretty obvious that it's personal.
If i can get back up and running and be useful, then of course my loyalties stay here.
	[FEDS] Xplosonhed	Reply - Copy Savebox - Block Player - Report	18 Apr 2019, 10:11:44
That's why i was trying to get into gf... to see a list of the guilds ive been in over the years. And to see just how long ive been in the same guild with you guys.... with muzz.... back when yawg and i were swarm together.... just to try to see wtf happened.

But it won't even seem to allow me to get in now.
	[FEDS] Xplosonhed	Reply - Copy Savebox - Block Player - Report	18 Apr 2019, 10:07:17
The only offhand stuff they might assume is that there seems to be a disconnect or discourse with muzzer. Likely because none of them understand (nor do i) why he'd kill 200 million of mine rather than a few million in RCs during a time of war when all fleets and especially those of an active veteran could be put to use.

Neurotic kept asking me this... like mining for reasons.... none of which i know to give him.


I appreciate you guys going to bat for me. I still don't understand the rationale. I haven't thought id ever done anything to anger anyone or give any reason to think i would suicide or turn spy. I'm the original owner and this was my first account playing AE. Id imagine if i had been a jerkoff or screwed anyone over, itd be known.

Look at the lineage of my account on gf.... look at the guild list ive been in.... then look at muzz... we've been in the same guild together for fkn YEARS. I still cannot wrap my head around ANY of this.
	[FEDS] Xplosonhed	Reply - Copy Savebox - Block Player - Report	18 Apr 2019, 09:55:17
I haven't given anyone in fleet any Intel at all and i wouldn't.

To keep transparency, i DID buy neurotic a 1month upgrade with the hopes of getting a NAP/DNH which he agreed to... and posted about it in their guild....that was after several fleet started occ'ing my bases and killing my spawns. If i leave, i'm free to be targeted again.

He and i chatted about how can i be any use to anyone if i can't even build back. He asked what happened because it definitely seemed to have more to it than just me overcollecting. I agreed. Said i didn't know why else but that's the bottom line because i fkd up and sent my entire fleet...

<<< My original question>>>
I'm not accusing you of being a spy. But I'm asking you this because I want to be as transparent with you as possible. And for me to do that, I need you to be as transparent with me as possible.

I think you would agree that since the incident that I've stood up for your interests. Even if things didn't turn out positively. It's because I believe you have value to us despite what has happened.

Muzzar, on the other hand, is thinking only of the security of the guild in a situation where ANY LITTLE THING could be used against us. Trust me we're using EVERY LITTLE ADVANTAGE we have over FLEET. Don't think twice that they'd look for any little advantage they can. Even using an offhand comment from a private message as a means to gather information.

I want you to stick around. Muzzar wants you, at least for the term of the war. Somewhere where you can't possibly do any harm. Unless, of course, you feel that you are at risk from retribution from FLEET. If you feel that you are, let me know as that might change things a bit.

I need to know whether I'm butting heads with Muzzar for someone who's still with us despite the rocky road we've walked. Or if your head's still not settled.

If it's the latter, it might be a prudent move to take the high road and spend the next week or so with a non-combatant guild. And then come back afterwards.