Blade says
I don't want that
You guys are all I have
So it terrifies me to think there's a risk of osmething bad happening
G u m b y ™ says
No its fine.
Blade says
and yeah like I said, I AM y'alls Leader and I bust my balls off to try to make sure everyone is okay and progressing
It's stressing as Hell
G u m b y ™ says
I can imagine.
Blade says
and exhausting
So I'm quick to bite if I feel like one of you are disrespecting me
G u m b y ™ says
I try not too
Like
98% of the time im poking fun at you
Blade says
Just be careful not to cross that line where it's not funny to me anymore
G u m b y ™ says
You gotta tell me if it gets to that point though.
I wont know unless you say something
Blade says
I'm a horrible perfectionist, warning you of that now
So when you were teasing at me about Rawr being Tet
That's why I was vicious when I brought Jinx in and killed him
and started being cocky
G u m b y ™ says
I noticed lol
Was very obvious.
Not trying to be rude
Just stating I knew lol
Blade says
Oh I know it was obvious
And I gloated that yeah my point was made
Jinx is a force to be reckoned with, as he shold be because I've had that archer for almost 4 years
I've put so much shit into him
So when I feel like someone is trying to threaten me I get upset
I get torn up by Regen characters a lot in TW
or I used to
now they suck and don't even show but still
All around me in Tempest everyone is rank 9
I constantly compare myself to others
I'm never happy with myself
I want to be more OP
G u m b y ™ says
I know that feeling all too well.
Blade says
more OP
more OP
G u m b y ™ says
Just, not all in game.
Blade says
oh I have + 10 Nirvana. NOT GOOD ENOUGH
I will never be happy with myself and I know it
G u m b y ™ says
*hugs*
I know that all too well.
Blade says
So cocky attitude directed at me about Jinx is really... it fucks with me
G u m b y ™ says
You have no idea.
Blade says
I strive to be perfect and I want to be amazing to you guys
G u m b y ™ says
Oh please hun.
Blade says
Lately I've felt less than even good
G u m b y ™ says
You are.
Blade says
I've fought with Haji for two days
Only made up with her today
G u m b y ™ says
I heard.
Blade says
Kitty and I had an explosion last night
about the past
Sinz and I constantly bicker
Then there was Rawr
and your snark
G u m b y ™ says
Lots of stress for the both of us this week.
Blade says
so I've been a loose canon lately about being a dick
G u m b y ™ says
Blade, I care about you.
I do.
As much as you may not believe it. I really do.
You're a fucking OPing ass in game and I love it lol <3
Meant to be love btw
Please dont hate me
Blade says
I don't hate you
G u m b y ™ says
Like 90% of the time I feel i cant come to you.
Blade says
if I hated you why would I have voted for you in Member of the month on our Viper site?
G u m b y ™ says
/didnt know that
Blade says
Because I felt impressed with you and satisfied a bit back
You've got a tally from me
G u m b y ™ says
Thanks :>
Blade says
You can come to me
Just sometimes you may have to go to my filter (Haji)
Or Hell even Kitty
G u m b y ™ says
I just want you to see that I strive to make sure you're okay and happy.
Im a people pleaser.
Blade says
So am I but it crashes with my perfection complex
clashes
something
G u m b y ™ says
clashes
lol
Blade says
Yes that
G u m b y ™ says
*hugs* Please dont be afarid im going to hurt and leave you.
Blade says
/hugs tightly
G u m b y ™ says
Im not.
Blade says
...I'm sorry
G u m b y ™ says
Why?
Blade says
about lately
and tonight
G u m b y ™ says
Oh god you have me crying.
Im legitly really proud of you.
Blade says
Don't cry, I already had you doing that earlier
G u m b y ™ says
Ever since we started talking again Ive felt like you havent liked me, trusted me, or anything as much as everyone else.
Im really happy you opened up to me like this.
It makes me feel like you can trust me and you do care. Even if you already say you do.
Blade says
I do care
I told you
you're a brat
but you're part of my family now
G u m b y ™ says
and you're an ass but youre one of my best friends.
Blade says
And being your Leader means more than oh ho I'm your Leader respect me oh obey me now oh do it now DO IT
it also means it's my job to make you feel wanted and appreciated
and lately I know I haven't done it well
G u m b y ™ says
Im sure if you work on it some, and come to Sinz or Kitty or anyone you'll get better.
You are a great leader as it is though
You put a lot of time into helping us.
And I know that.