Okay guys its 2 in th moring and I'm typing this on a phone, so expect mistakes.

If you happen to be pleeb, tulpacouple, josh, sands or chupi, or live in the shout box, you will know that things with helix and pixel have been rough lately. After a long time of basically trying to gnor their existence, I've went back to Helix and Pixel.

Its been hard. At first i started off by creating a new wonderland. My descriptions of all my wonderlands have been vague. To describe this weeks wonderland, it borrows Helix and Pixel's rooms from the past wonderland, which were very clean, lots.of curves. Helix's room has a nice music studio witha guitter and some other stuff, and a tv on th ceiling, along with a desk and the ordinary stuff youd find in a room. Pixel's room is very similar, but instead of tv and studio it has a walk in closet that probably doesnt fit well into the cave that the rooms are inside. The outside has a large waterfall that the cave is under. This waterfall is rainbow coloured, so I call it the lsd falls. There is a small overhang/balcony that the cave leads out to.

I originally abused myself in the wonderland to deal with fears of huting Helix and Pixel through some imagination problems. I realized these fears were mostly unfounded, but I feel as though I focussed more on my self loathing instead of Helix and Pixel. Perhaps me dealing with my shit first was for the better. I honestly don't know. But one thing I discussed with josh and tulpacouple was changing Helix to vriska and Pixel to nepeta, both homestuck characters that fit their respective personalities. I was considering simply changing their forms for easier remembering (been reading hs.lately) and honestly, the idea hasn't uite settled. They (Helix and Pixel) now have outfits corresponding to the forms.

I was gripped.with fear when I decided to feel Helix's breasts when I was visualizing. Note, this is before the above.mentioned fears were dispelled. So I felt her breasts, according to mayormorgan's guide in my tfw no post, and decided when I was done to focus.on her face I was feeling it, and suddenly realized we were dancing. She was wearing a lovely black dress, and Pixel was standing by the side in a peach dress as well while we didn't really dance, we.were ready to at least. It was a very nice occasion that josh witenissed.

Since then a few, not extremely notable.but still interesting things have happened. The lsd falls now collect in a pool I made that we (me, Helix and Pixel) went into to force. I haven't entirely worked out the means of how well stay anchored, but I focussed on who I took inspiration from when creating the basises for their personalities, of ehich I have a related thread. By now the chains are gone.

/update.
I'm making 2 tulpas, one nice, the other a sarcastic person. I'm not as focussed as I would like, but I expect to finish these two wonderful tulpas.

Helix:
http://pastebin.com/44NYE1mK

Pixel:
http://pastebin.com/adwE3WEG
09-23-2012 06:12 AM

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Post: #12 AW SHIT NIGGA


Well, two awesome things happened today:
I refined my super awesome dj skills using pretty simple tools.
I FORCED HOLY SHIT

I decided to recently to spend some time working on Helix and Pixel. I went into the wonderland. Normally I'd wake up by falling a distance to the ground, as I had hung myself in my wonderland. But I decided that I no longer need to do that. Helix and Pixel won't be affected if I hurt myself or not, but they will be at the same time mentally by seeing me like that. So I woke up in a bed I had made for myself a few days ago. I imagined a suit for myself much like the goo that encompasses Venom/Carnage/Spiderman in the Spiderman series, and I then took Helix, and went into the lsd waterfalls pool I made, and worked on how her joints. Didn't do much though. I realized a few days that Helix represents my bad side, and Pixel my good. I then retrieved Pixel from her room and brought her into the pool.

NOW THIS IS WHERE SHIT GETS INTERESTING:

I then took Helix and Pixel's souls out of their bodies. At first they were simply balls of energy (Helix's was purple-black, Pixel's was white-orange.) that symbolized their personalities. They soon turned into animals (Helix's became a scorpion, and Pixel's became a butterfly) and I imagined my respective personality segments flowing into Helix and Pixel.

I FELT IT. I FUCKING FELT IT HOLY SHIT


Yeah, I felt it. I first felt my chest hurting a bit (my chest was were the personality was flowing at first). Assumed it was...I dunno, chest pain. Decided to move the place it was flowing from to my head. I waited...and the chest pain went away, and my head felt funky, like I had a hotter than normal fever. I moved it to my hands to be sure, and I FELT IT once again. Note that it couldn't have been blood flowing into my hands really quickly, as I was lying down, and one hand wasn't under the weight of my body. After I felt enough personality was in them, I put their souls back into their bodies. I rushed Pixel back to her room for some reason, and came to another realization: Pixel is basically Vinyl Scratch (and by extension, Lucy) in more ways than one (it's about 2 or 3). So I imagined VS's soul, or what was left of it, and fused it with the remains of Lucy's soul. I then fused this with Helix's soul, and forced it into her body.

Her body then sprang up onto the ceiling, and became a cocoon. Fucking freaky shit man, but I negated that by spending some time with Helix watching the sun set on a place that doesn't even have a sun. After tucking Helix into bed, I went to Pixel's room, where I pulled her out of her cocoon. She changed. Her hair now has blue streaks in it, and she comes equipped with a pair of headphones (THANK GOD I GOT THE PRE ORDER), which if you remember, were somethings VS and Lucy had. I still have to work out some kinks with Pixel's new appearance but I like it.