Advantages of Travelling by Train (2019) EN

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Imagine a woman coming home
and surprising her husband

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inspecting his own shit
with a popsicle stick.

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Imagine that this man never
comes out of his self-absorption.

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Imagine that she has to admit him
into a mental clinic

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in the north of the country.

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Our story begins precisely the next day.

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CHAPTER 1
The Deceitful Wedding

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Do you want to hear my life story?

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Just kidding. To break the ice.

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It's a long trip to Madrid.

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My name's Ángel Sanagustín.

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I'm a psychiatrist
at the International Clinic.

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I saw you there yesterday
very late. True?

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Sorry, my name's Helga.
Nice to meet you.

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Nice to meet you.

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I don't know if Dr. Crespo
spoke to you about me.

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I'm working on the applications
of written discourse

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on the diagnosis
of personality disorder.

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We ask the patient

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to write down
an episode in their life,

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we analyze its narrative
and make a diagnosis.

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We'll do it with your husband too.

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And with great pleasure too.

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Texts by coprophagists
are my favorites,

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their narratives are the most curious.

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In fact,

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in this file

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I have a set of texts by patients
with schizophrenia

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and paranoid disorders.

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Later, if you like,
I'll read you some.

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Patients with hebephrenic
schizophrenia, for example,

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show a marked tendency
to tell their own life story

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but each time they do it differently,

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so their personality consists

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of a string of superimposed stories,

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like the layers of an onion.

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By the time we realize it,

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we don't have a personality
as such to study

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but a collection of stories,
one narrative after another,

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beneath which there is no person.

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I'm going to tell you something

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that happened to me with a patient

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who should've been
locked up for good.

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He wasn't schizophrenic,
but paranoid.

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Unlike the schizophrenic,

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the paranoid patient is always
attentive to external stimuli,

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establishing erroneous links
between them.

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Paranoids' stories
can be very dangerous.

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Martín.

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Martín Urales de Úbeda,
that was his name.

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The name says it all, doesn't it?

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His seductive power was hypnotic.

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Have you ever been kidnapped?

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Before he kidnapped me,

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I'd spent a long time
looking for him.

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I didn't know him,
but I'd heard about him.

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I was told that he convinced people

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to throw themselves
into garbage trucks.

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In fact, he died like that, crushed.

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If you like, I'll tell you about it.

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Alright, it started when
my wife and I moved

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and bought a house on
a residential estate in Galapagar.

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We're just following the rules.

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And they cover
daily garbage collection,

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the residents' garbage.

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I am a resident.

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But only recently.
You know better than I do

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that this garbage isn't yours.

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If it were, my friend and I

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would load the truck
and haul it away.

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But I repeat, this is for
Public Thoroughfares.

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They have to come to an agreement
with Garbage Removal,

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maybe they think it's our job.

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Hello. Ángel Sanagustín?
I have a certified letter for you.

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If you'd kindly sign here, please.

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Yes.

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- Thank you.
- Thanks.

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The letter read, quote:

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Dear Ángel Sanagustín,

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my father's greatest dream was that

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my brother Martín might enter
San Javier Military Academy, Murcia.

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Though my brother had no calling,

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to please my father, he joined
the academy and became a soldier.

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- Fusilier!
- Fusilier!

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He wrote us letters every week
that my father read and re-read

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in his wheelchair
by the sitting room window.

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My father was paralyzed,

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his legs had been blown off
in a bombing.

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Shortly after graduating,

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the war broke out in Kosovo
and he was sent there.

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He kept sending letters from there,

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but they became
increasingly more enigmatic.

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One fine day, without warning,

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my brother cut off
all communication with us.

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He disappeared.

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It was as if the ground
had swallowed him up.

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Martín!

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My son.

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They threw me out.

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Out of where?

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The Air Force.

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Sit down.

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What happened, Martín?

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You know I was posted to
a military hospital in Kosovo.

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It was a hotel they'd
fitted out as a hospital.

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A huge, old building.

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This girl who ran the gym

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fell in love with her psychologist,
a guy called Manuel.

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They got married,
he gave up psychology

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and moved into an office
in the gym with her.

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The medicine was running out.

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The electrical devices
stopped working.

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There was a shortage
of food and water.

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The number of deaths was rising.

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...she found out by chance

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that Manuel wasn't a psychologist,
but a vet.

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How she found out,
I'll tell you some other time,

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it's not important now.

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She went into her office
to ask for an explanation...

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One of the halls
was turned into an orphanage.

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...looking through a little hole
leading to the women's changing room,

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with his pants down and one eye...

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It was set up by Dr. Linares.

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It was a miracle that she'd
done it with her own hands,

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but it was in a terrible state.

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I'll catch up.

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- If I may...?
- Thanks a lot.

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It's a miracle this place exists.

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Your work here is incredible.
You must be proud.

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We do what we can
with the means we have.

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If I can help in any way...

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I appreciate it,
but unless you're a millionaire...

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What we need here
is a big injection of money.

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As a friend of mine said,
money's what I have most of.

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Do you have a hundred of anything?

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We'd meet for breakfast
before our shifts.

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Or go for a walk when we were done.

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She'd tell me about
the latest child to die

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and about the state of the hospital,
which was more and more worrying.

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The months flew by.

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Until one day it all changed.

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It's called "Lobotomy".

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It hypothesizes that everything
on the TV screen

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is fiction with a script.

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For example, game show participants

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are actors who pretend to be nervous
but know how it ends.

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The football games,
the goals, the fouls...

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- What happened? How did you do it?
- I can't talk now, Martín.

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I'll come back when we're finished.
I'm dying of curiosity.

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I can't today.

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Are you alright?

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You know that I live
and breathe for the hospital.

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It's the most important thing for me.

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You also know they denied funding
and we were about to close down.

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You yourself saw some of
those children die.

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That's why...

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I decided to prostitute myself.

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I chose my clients
from NATO leaders,

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members of the Papal entourage,

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UN observers...

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and top representatives of NGOs.

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For a few months
there was a bit more money,

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enough to not...

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give it up,

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but not enough to cover our needs.

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Until one night...

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She got a visit
from a certain client.

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We'll call him...

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Cristóbal de la Hoz.

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I wanted to tell you something.

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I have a group of,

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let's say, "very powerful" friends,

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with a lot of influence
in charitable matters who...

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would be delighted to help you.

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Sure, give them my number.

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No.

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I don't mean that.

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If you add up NATO subsidies,

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the E.U. and the Church,

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this group of friends could get you
over 200 million pesetas a year.

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In exchange for...

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one orphan a month.

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Get out.

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Think it over.

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But the hospital was unsustainable.

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Children were dying,

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the money from my services
only covered food.

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One orphan at random.

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Every month.

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You needn't worry about a thing.

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They'll take care of everything.

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I'll talk to them and that's that.

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You did it for them.

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You saved a lot of lives,
don't forget that.

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You once asked me about the orphans.

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I told you
they were sold to families,

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but...

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The other night
I was with these friends...

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If you don't want to say
what you do with the children...

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Well, a little curious, yes.

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But anyway...

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I didn't say anything.

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What do you mean?

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It's the third time you've asked.

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I didn't realize.

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Do you really want to know
what we do with the children?

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Come on.

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I'll show you.

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To the left.

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Get comfortable.
It'll start in a minute.

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Let's say this is direction control.

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This business
has three income sources.

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On one hand, the star of the video

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pays a fortune to be
in that room for an hour.

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One the other,
a pornographic video is made

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that's distributed worldwide,

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with the faces digitally altered.

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There are specialist pages
that pay very well for the videos.

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Yes.

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Now?

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Of course, yes.

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Okay.

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We have to go out for a moment.

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I won't be long.

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Everything alright?

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Fine.

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Yes?

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Cristóbal.

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How are you?

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I've got nothing against parks,
but why meet me here?

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What have you done?

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What have I done?

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What are you people doing?

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Did you know what they were
doing to the children?

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I know everything.

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It's barbaric.

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It's not what we agreed!

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Lower your voice.

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How could you do
something like this?

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How could you?

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Money, Cristóbal.

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It's the reason you're looking for
and don't seem to understand.

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I'm a professional
in the market economy.

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I was trained to extract
maximum benefit from raw material.

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Though filming death
makes a higher profit

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than prostitution or blackmail,

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nothing is comparable

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to the price paid by
drug companies for the entrails.

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We're selling the innards
for a fortune

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to a company that makes
special food for geese.

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The clean, gutted bodies

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go to an eccentric New York artist

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who sells them to New York trendies

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who truly appreciate
this guy's hyper-realist art.

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The authorities say nothing for now
because we lower youth unemployment

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and they participate symbolically
in the business.

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As for you...

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What can I tell you?

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You're in big trouble.

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They'll search the planet for you.

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And they'll find you, of course.

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00:28:07,876 --> 00:28:08,834
Who knows?

263
00:28:09,126 --> 00:28:11,667
Maybe you'll end up
in a New York art gallery.

264
00:28:16,042 --> 00:28:18,584
I'll put in a word for you.

265
00:28:20,084 --> 00:28:21,834
They're friends, after all.

266
00:28:26,376 --> 00:28:30,292
I'll try to get them not to rip out
your eyeballs which, well dried,

267
00:28:30,584 --> 00:28:32,751
make wonderful erasers

268
00:28:33,042 --> 00:28:35,542
for pen and printing ink.

269
00:28:36,626 --> 00:28:39,167
I'll get them to at least
leave your eyes.

270
00:28:46,084 --> 00:28:49,251
Come on, give me a hug.

271
00:28:52,667 --> 00:28:53,667
I didn't want to...

272
00:28:57,542 --> 00:29:00,667
disappear
without you knowing all this.

273
00:29:13,751 --> 00:29:15,167
I don't want to be stuffed.

274
00:29:22,126 --> 00:29:24,751
I suppose I could be next.

275
00:29:26,042 --> 00:29:27,292
And I wouldn't mind,

276
00:29:27,584 --> 00:29:31,334
it'd be a favor now that I know
that what they did is my fault.

277
00:29:31,626 --> 00:29:33,167
No, it wasn't your fault.

278
00:29:36,751 --> 00:29:37,667
Here.

279
00:29:38,834 --> 00:29:41,001
This is the key to
a locker in my office

280
00:29:41,292 --> 00:29:43,459
with all the hospital's papers,

281
00:29:43,751 --> 00:29:46,667
so you can take charge of it all
if something happens to me.

282
00:29:47,834 --> 00:29:49,876
Nothing will happen to you,
I'm sure of it.

283
00:29:53,084 --> 00:29:54,917
That was the last time I saw her.

284
00:30:02,876 --> 00:30:06,042
I reported it to my superiors,
but they said I was insane

285
00:30:08,084 --> 00:30:09,876
and told me to forget it.

286
00:30:10,792 --> 00:30:11,667
I refused.

287
00:30:14,959 --> 00:30:17,709
They charged me with insubordination,
threw me out of the service

288
00:30:18,001 --> 00:30:20,167
and put me in a psych hospital.

289
00:30:20,459 --> 00:30:21,542
My son!

290
00:30:24,917 --> 00:30:25,959
Lies!

291
00:30:29,501 --> 00:30:31,334
I don't believe a word of it!

292
00:31:09,417 --> 00:31:11,709
From that day on,
my father kept to himself

293
00:31:12,001 --> 00:31:14,334
and devoted his life
to staring out the window

294
00:31:15,917 --> 00:31:19,167
or sitting on the patio watching
the people go by on bullfight days,

295
00:31:19,459 --> 00:31:21,667
when our street was a bit livelier.

296
00:31:27,251 --> 00:31:30,917
Until death took him one day
after an afternoon snack.

297
00:31:33,751 --> 00:31:35,834
My mother died of grief
a short time later.

298
00:31:36,126 --> 00:31:39,876
Now the Secret Service
wants to obliterate Martín,

299
00:31:40,167 --> 00:31:43,251
take away his civil rights,
and they're saying he's mad

300
00:31:43,542 --> 00:31:46,417
and persuades people to throw
themselves into garbage trucks.

301
00:31:48,751 --> 00:31:52,792
I hope this case interests you.
I've nothing more to say.

302
00:31:54,084 --> 00:31:57,792
Yours sincerely,
Amelia Urales de Úbeda.

303
00:32:05,709 --> 00:32:09,792
The letter did sound odd,
to be honest.

304
00:32:11,209 --> 00:32:12,917
But it drew me in so much

305
00:32:13,626 --> 00:32:16,042
that I decided to track down
where this woman lived.

306
00:32:16,334 --> 00:32:19,001
"...devoted his life
to sitting on the patio

307
00:32:19,292 --> 00:32:21,459
and watching people
on bullfight days,

308
00:32:21,751 --> 00:32:23,626
when our street
got a little livelier."

309
00:32:23,917 --> 00:32:25,251
That's what the letter said.

310
00:32:26,001 --> 00:32:29,376
The woman had lived
in a lower house, with a patio,

311
00:32:31,042 --> 00:32:33,834
near Las Ventas bullring.

312
00:32:38,626 --> 00:32:40,792
It's true that the whole thing
could've been a story,

313
00:32:41,084 --> 00:32:43,876
but if we think like that,
we never do anything in life.

314
00:32:50,292 --> 00:32:53,001
I spent days
looking for the non-existent house

315
00:32:53,292 --> 00:32:56,042
of Amelia Urales de Úbeda.
But it did exist.

316
00:32:58,876 --> 00:33:01,459
I'd passed it several times
and never noticed it.

317
00:33:01,751 --> 00:33:04,376
It was like it suddenly appeared.

318
00:33:11,042 --> 00:33:13,834
21, Martínez Izquierdo.

319
00:33:14,501 --> 00:33:17,126
You can check it if you like,
I'm not making it up.

320
00:33:24,792 --> 00:33:25,792
Hello?

321
00:33:26,501 --> 00:33:28,584
Hello. Are you Amelia?

322
00:33:29,417 --> 00:33:31,209
I'm Ángel Sanagustín.

323
00:33:33,001 --> 00:33:36,542
You wrote me this letter
about your brother's case.

324
00:33:37,959 --> 00:33:41,251
- I'd like to meet him, if possible.
- Ángel Sanagustín.

325
00:33:43,292 --> 00:33:45,584
Sorry, I wasn't expecting you.

326
00:33:45,876 --> 00:33:48,417
No, it's my fault
for coming unannounced...

327
00:33:48,709 --> 00:33:50,126
I didn't have your phone number.

328
00:33:50,417 --> 00:33:54,001
Your letter described the house,
that's how I found you.

329
00:33:54,292 --> 00:33:55,876
Sure, sure.

330
00:33:57,417 --> 00:34:01,209
My brother's not in right now,
but I don't think he'll be long.

331
00:34:01,501 --> 00:34:03,751
- Oh, dear.
- You can wait inside if you like.

332
00:34:04,459 --> 00:34:07,209
- You don't mind?
- Please, come in.

333
00:34:07,501 --> 00:34:08,626
- Very kind of you.
- Come in.

334
00:34:14,667 --> 00:34:16,626
The smell is from the pipes.

335
00:34:17,459 --> 00:34:19,834
These old houses, you know?

336
00:34:20,126 --> 00:34:24,001
Very pretty and all that,
but so expensive to maintain.

337
00:34:24,501 --> 00:34:25,376
Sure.

338
00:34:27,876 --> 00:34:30,001
I don't think my brother will be long,

339
00:34:30,292 --> 00:34:33,209
though with him you never know.

340
00:34:33,876 --> 00:34:35,542
Never mind, I'm in no hurry.

341
00:34:41,417 --> 00:34:43,417
- There's no need.
- Please!

342
00:34:44,084 --> 00:34:45,334
Thanks very much.

343
00:34:48,334 --> 00:34:50,376
Forgive me
if I don't turn on the lights,

344
00:34:50,667 --> 00:34:54,417
we have a little wiring problem.

345
00:34:59,917 --> 00:35:01,417
Well...

346
00:35:03,209 --> 00:35:05,334
What did you think of my letter?

347
00:35:06,334 --> 00:35:07,626
Intriguing.

348
00:35:09,792 --> 00:35:12,834
There, sitting in his wheelchair,

349
00:35:13,501 --> 00:35:16,417
my father read the letters
my brother sent.

350
00:35:19,792 --> 00:35:21,334
Through that door

351
00:35:22,251 --> 00:35:26,126
he appeared in the uniform
of a lieutenant, missing an arm.

352
00:35:27,751 --> 00:35:28,876
And look,

353
00:35:29,167 --> 00:35:33,751
the table my father broke when
my brother was thrown out of the army.

354
00:35:34,042 --> 00:35:36,792
Look at the crack.
You can take a look.

355
00:35:37,751 --> 00:35:39,876
He left it in splinters.

356
00:35:41,209 --> 00:35:45,667
I have no money to fix it.
A shame, it's quite lovely.

357
00:35:46,917 --> 00:35:48,376
Lovely, yes.

358
00:35:49,042 --> 00:35:51,167
Though even if I had money,
I wouldn't fix it.

359
00:35:51,959 --> 00:35:56,042
It's a way of remembering
my father, don't you think?

360
00:35:57,334 --> 00:35:58,959
Yes, it is.

361
00:36:01,834 --> 00:36:03,751
That's the croquette
that hit my brother's head

362
00:36:04,042 --> 00:36:05,334
when my dad hit the roof.

363
00:36:07,834 --> 00:36:10,001
I'm quite the fetishist.

364
00:36:14,501 --> 00:36:15,667
Do you like it?

365
00:36:16,751 --> 00:36:18,459
- What?
- The liquor.

366
00:36:19,667 --> 00:36:20,459
Yes.

367
00:36:21,709 --> 00:36:22,917
I make it myself.

368
00:36:23,667 --> 00:36:26,167
Oh, it's very good.

369
00:36:26,792 --> 00:36:28,626
Strong, but very good.

370
00:36:28,917 --> 00:36:32,251
I'll get you some sausage
I also make.

371
00:36:32,542 --> 00:36:35,251
To help you get it down.

372
00:36:35,542 --> 00:36:37,209
- Please!
- There's no need.

373
00:37:05,751 --> 00:37:07,959
Sit down!
Make yourself comfortable!

374
00:37:12,417 --> 00:37:14,001
I make this sausage too.

375
00:37:33,667 --> 00:37:35,167
It's very nice sausage.

376
00:37:38,876 --> 00:37:41,459
I'm so glad you've come,
Mr. Sanagustín.

377
00:37:41,751 --> 00:37:44,376
Call me Ángel, please.

378
00:37:44,667 --> 00:37:46,751
I'm so glad, because...

379
00:37:48,001 --> 00:37:51,292
there's something I wanted
to tell you.

380
00:37:56,334 --> 00:37:57,209
Yes?

381
00:37:59,751 --> 00:38:00,834
Yes.

382
00:38:03,376 --> 00:38:04,667
I lied to you.

383
00:38:06,292 --> 00:38:07,251
Really?

384
00:38:09,459 --> 00:38:11,584
My brother was never a soldier.

385
00:38:12,376 --> 00:38:13,834
It's not that I deceived you,

386
00:38:14,126 --> 00:38:18,209
he was deceiving us all
for a very long time.

387
00:38:19,834 --> 00:38:23,417
Of everything I said in the letter,
the only truth is that he's one-armed.

388
00:38:26,501 --> 00:38:28,709
Everything went awry
the day they rejected him

389
00:38:29,001 --> 00:38:31,334
from San Javier
Military Academy in Murcia.

390
00:38:31,792 --> 00:38:34,292
He intended to re-do the exam
a year later.

391
00:38:34,584 --> 00:38:38,042
Until then he moved into a hostel
and got work as a garbageman.

392
00:38:38,334 --> 00:38:43,167
Meanwhile, he wrote us the letters
describing barracks life

393
00:38:43,459 --> 00:38:45,667
that my father enjoyed so much.

394
00:38:47,709 --> 00:38:50,209
A year went by
and he failed the exam again.

395
00:38:50,501 --> 00:38:52,042
The next year, the same thing.

396
00:38:52,334 --> 00:38:56,584
Before he knew it, Martín was
a garbageman living in Murcia.

397
00:38:57,209 --> 00:39:01,042
What began as a white lie,
a postponement,

398
00:39:01,709 --> 00:39:04,001
ended up being a decision.

399
00:39:05,751 --> 00:39:09,042
He lost his arm one night
when he wasn't on the ball.

400
00:39:36,542 --> 00:39:40,667
And now, depressed, one-armed,

401
00:39:41,126 --> 00:39:43,584
with a shitty pension,

402
00:39:44,251 --> 00:39:45,709
he's living here with me.

403
00:39:49,376 --> 00:39:50,626
Take it easy.

404
00:39:53,084 --> 00:39:54,959
Take it easy, it's alright.

405
00:39:57,792 --> 00:39:59,167
Now, looking back,

406
00:39:59,959 --> 00:40:02,459
I'm surprised I didn't realize before,

407
00:40:02,917 --> 00:40:04,334
but I didn't.

408
00:40:08,751 --> 00:40:10,209
Take it easy.

409
00:40:10,501 --> 00:40:12,251
Take it easy, it's alright.

410
00:40:24,459 --> 00:40:25,542
Well...

411
00:40:27,251 --> 00:40:28,292
Well, well...

412
00:41:01,792 --> 00:41:03,334
No fucking way.

413
00:41:12,542 --> 00:41:15,792
Sorry about the joke.
I think I kept it going too long.

414
00:41:18,667 --> 00:41:20,334
I've been living alone so long.

415
00:41:51,876 --> 00:41:53,792
Now I've covered the mics,
we can talk.

416
00:41:55,084 --> 00:41:56,709
I should've guessed.

417
00:41:58,001 --> 00:41:59,917
No, don't sell yourself short.

418
00:42:00,834 --> 00:42:03,584
They're much more powerful
and they still haven't found me.

419
00:42:04,751 --> 00:42:05,626
Who?

420
00:42:06,834 --> 00:42:09,667
Them, the garbagemen.

421
00:42:18,667 --> 00:42:19,584
They followed you.

422
00:42:21,001 --> 00:42:21,751
No!

423
00:42:48,251 --> 00:42:50,001
I knew it wasn't the pipes.

424
00:42:51,334 --> 00:42:53,042
8 years without
throwing out the garbage.

425
00:42:54,292 --> 00:42:55,751
You can't expect it to smell of roses.

426
00:43:03,959 --> 00:43:05,167
If you make a noise, I'll punch you

427
00:43:24,876 --> 00:43:26,667
Do you know who those people
in the truck are?

428
00:43:30,501 --> 00:43:31,667
Garbagemen.

429
00:43:33,751 --> 00:43:36,709
You got no fucking idea
what's going on in the world.

430
00:43:37,334 --> 00:43:41,042
- No?
- No, that's why I made you come.

431
00:43:43,001 --> 00:43:44,667
You made me come?

432
00:43:45,084 --> 00:43:47,209
You don't know how hard
it was to find you.

433
00:43:47,501 --> 00:43:50,709
The letter I sent pretending
to be my sister didn't help?

434
00:43:51,001 --> 00:43:53,542
The clues I left were no help?

435
00:43:53,834 --> 00:43:55,792
For fuck's sake, Ángel!

436
00:43:58,126 --> 00:44:01,959
I brought you because you're
the chosen one.

437
00:44:04,917 --> 00:44:06,167
You're trustworthy,

438
00:44:07,334 --> 00:44:09,876
because for years you've been
using disposable razors,

439
00:44:10,167 --> 00:44:13,334
even though they've brought out
triple or quadruple razors.

440
00:44:13,792 --> 00:44:17,959
You're an idealist because
you don't eat transgenic foods.

441
00:44:18,251 --> 00:44:20,459
You're tenacious and persistent,

442
00:44:22,501 --> 00:44:24,959
your pumpkin seed shells prove it.

443
00:44:26,709 --> 00:44:27,751
And, above all,

444
00:44:30,334 --> 00:44:31,876
above all, Ángel,

445
00:44:32,751 --> 00:44:34,126
you're brave

446
00:44:36,126 --> 00:44:37,792
because you drink loads of coffee.

447
00:44:41,709 --> 00:44:44,334
- You spied on my garbage?
- Of course.

448
00:44:45,542 --> 00:44:47,459
- What for?
- To open your eyes.

449
00:44:55,459 --> 00:44:58,251
You think I use this cotton
and this helmet because I'm mad.

450
00:44:59,751 --> 00:45:01,251
But I'm not mad, Ángel.

451
00:45:04,917 --> 00:45:08,667
They put mics
and an identification chip in me.

452
00:45:12,459 --> 00:45:15,542
- Who?
- The people up there.

453
00:45:18,084 --> 00:45:20,876
- The garbagemen?
- They're not garbagemen!

454
00:45:23,126 --> 00:45:24,042
Right.

455
00:45:27,292 --> 00:45:30,959
Then what are they, Martín?

456
00:45:32,417 --> 00:45:33,834
Political police.

457
00:45:37,751 --> 00:45:39,209
Have a little respect.

458
00:45:40,001 --> 00:45:41,334
Forget everything my sister told you.

459
00:45:41,626 --> 00:45:43,876
Let your mind go blank
and listen carefully.

460
00:45:47,667 --> 00:45:49,251
I was a garbageman for 5 years.

461
00:45:53,917 --> 00:45:56,792
But didn't you say that everything
your sister said was a lie?

462
00:45:57,084 --> 00:45:59,001
No. I said to forget everything
my sister told you,

463
00:45:59,292 --> 00:46:01,209
to let your mind go blank
and to listen carefully.

464
00:46:01,501 --> 00:46:03,167
Are you going to listen carefully?

465
00:46:03,834 --> 00:46:04,417
- Yes.
- Good.

466
00:46:06,084 --> 00:46:07,917
I was a garbageman for 5 years.

467
00:46:10,751 --> 00:46:12,792
When I started,
I was assigned to a truck

468
00:46:14,209 --> 00:46:16,001
with two colleagues, Paco Platero...

469
00:46:19,376 --> 00:46:20,584
and Gota.

470
00:46:21,501 --> 00:46:23,209
The work was routine and unpleasant.

471
00:46:24,042 --> 00:46:27,001
Some fuckers don't shut
their bags right

472
00:46:27,292 --> 00:46:30,334
and when you tip it into the truck,
all the shit falls on you.

473
00:46:31,501 --> 00:46:32,792
Fucking hell...

474
00:46:33,292 --> 00:46:35,834
Then your colleagues
are always going on about it,

475
00:46:36,126 --> 00:46:38,417
that we're sick of picking up
people's shit...

476
00:46:38,709 --> 00:46:40,959
I'm sick of picking up
people's shit, man.

477
00:46:41,917 --> 00:46:43,959
...that it's the worst job ever...

478
00:46:44,251 --> 00:46:45,542
This is the worst job ever.

479
00:46:46,334 --> 00:46:47,667
...that it's the worst paid...

480
00:46:47,959 --> 00:46:49,084
And the worst paid!

481
00:46:50,084 --> 00:46:52,542
...that it's not valued
by society...

482
00:46:52,834 --> 00:46:55,001
People don't realize what we do,

483
00:46:55,292 --> 00:46:58,126
while they're sleeping peacefully.

484
00:46:59,667 --> 00:47:00,959
Bastards!

485
00:47:05,292 --> 00:47:06,417
Then there's the smell.

486
00:47:07,292 --> 00:47:09,042
No matter what gloves
and special clothes you use,

487
00:47:09,334 --> 00:47:12,001
the stink gets
in your hair and skin,

488
00:47:12,292 --> 00:47:14,417
there's no way to get it out.

489
00:47:16,042 --> 00:47:18,292
The first two weeks are the worst,

490
00:47:19,626 --> 00:47:22,459
you think you'll go crazy
with the stink, I'm telling you,

491
00:47:22,751 --> 00:47:24,626
but then you get used to it.

492
00:47:26,917 --> 00:47:29,834
And then you discover
that the company itself

493
00:47:30,126 --> 00:47:32,501
is spraying the dumpsters
with an unbearable stench

494
00:47:32,792 --> 00:47:37,001
that we, the garbagemen,
touch every day,

495
00:47:37,501 --> 00:47:39,959
to alienate us socially
and increase our resentment.

496
00:47:56,667 --> 00:47:58,834
The idea is that,
when the time comes,

497
00:47:59,126 --> 00:48:03,376
you'll accept without reservations
what your bosses tell you in secret:

498
00:48:04,751 --> 00:48:07,042
the real task.

499
00:48:09,209 --> 00:48:10,751
The real task?

500
00:48:11,042 --> 00:48:13,667
The real task.

501
00:48:17,042 --> 00:48:19,209
The trucks don't grind the garbage.

502
00:48:24,251 --> 00:48:25,584
They store it.

503
00:48:29,001 --> 00:48:30,834
It all starts with
the identification of each bag.

504
00:48:31,126 --> 00:48:32,292
There's a margin of error,

505
00:48:32,584 --> 00:48:36,334
but usually the last person
to touch the bag is the owner.

506
00:48:37,667 --> 00:48:41,417
The plastic the bags are made of
preserve fingerprints wonderfully.

507
00:48:41,709 --> 00:48:43,792
When they match them with the waste,

508
00:48:44,084 --> 00:48:47,376
we have the owner of the garbage.

509
00:48:48,834 --> 00:48:50,251
Every resident has a file,

510
00:48:50,542 --> 00:48:54,376
with a history and a detailed
analysis of the waste.

511
00:48:54,667 --> 00:48:58,001
That's why they didn't collect
the garbage at your house.

512
00:48:59,126 --> 00:49:00,959
It would've falsified your file.

513
00:49:01,459 --> 00:49:03,542
Your case was a blip in the system.

514
00:49:03,876 --> 00:49:06,459
In the more advanced countries,
this is done by the citizens,

515
00:49:06,751 --> 00:49:08,834
who separate and classify
their own garbage,

516
00:49:09,126 --> 00:49:11,126
believing that they're improving
the environment.

517
00:49:11,417 --> 00:49:12,667
But not here, no.

518
00:49:14,251 --> 00:49:17,209
Unintentionally, we make it hard
for the intelligence center.

519
00:49:17,501 --> 00:49:19,792
There had to be some advantage
to the Third World mentality.

520
00:49:20,084 --> 00:49:22,251
They can find out your tastes,
your phobias,

521
00:49:22,542 --> 00:49:25,251
how you survive financially,
how you vote, your sex life,

522
00:49:25,542 --> 00:49:28,126
your dreams, your moods...
Everything.

523
00:49:30,959 --> 00:49:32,209
They know everything.

524
00:49:34,501 --> 00:49:37,001
I'm the only garbageman
to leave the company

525
00:49:38,209 --> 00:49:40,709
and since then I've been on the run.

526
00:49:42,209 --> 00:49:44,751
I discovered they'd implanted
microphones in me,

527
00:49:46,459 --> 00:49:47,792
in my nostrils,

528
00:49:49,501 --> 00:49:51,751
and magnetic metals
in my cerebral cortex.

529
00:49:53,834 --> 00:49:55,792
I can't go into the Prado Museum.

530
00:50:01,751 --> 00:50:04,876
So I passed myself off as my sister
and hid out here,

531
00:50:06,667 --> 00:50:09,834
buying nothing at the supermarket,
not generating any waste,

532
00:50:11,542 --> 00:50:13,792
feeding myself the best I can
on my urine and feces.

533
00:50:16,292 --> 00:50:19,042
Wasn't the liquor and sausage
you ate nice?

534
00:50:21,709 --> 00:50:23,001
We have a lot of prejudices.

535
00:50:23,542 --> 00:50:27,167
When he said that,
I must've made a face,

536
00:50:27,459 --> 00:50:29,334
much like the one
you're making now.

537
00:50:30,459 --> 00:50:33,626
He said he was sick of
being looked at like that,

538
00:50:35,709 --> 00:50:37,542
of everyone looking at him like that.

539
00:50:38,251 --> 00:50:40,542
He said: "Right now,
I'll show you I'm right."

540
00:50:40,834 --> 00:50:43,251
He tied me up, gagged me

541
00:50:43,542 --> 00:50:45,542
and took me outside
by the back door.

542
00:50:50,542 --> 00:50:53,709
Lots of fuckers don't shut their
bags right, you'll get used to it.

543
00:50:54,251 --> 00:50:57,126
We're getting into a truck
so you see with your own eyes.

544
00:50:58,751 --> 00:51:00,376
Relax, it's just a moment.

545
00:51:01,251 --> 00:51:02,042
Now!

546
00:51:03,292 --> 00:51:05,792
I don't know what I did,
what I grabbed on to,

547
00:51:06,084 --> 00:51:07,834
adrenaline is wonderful.

548
00:51:08,126 --> 00:51:09,834
At the last moment,

549
00:51:10,126 --> 00:51:11,667
he tripped and let go of me.

550
00:51:12,751 --> 00:51:16,459
I fell down outside
and he fell inside.

551
00:51:17,501 --> 00:51:19,001
I'm still alive...

552
00:51:24,084 --> 00:51:26,126
...and he vanished forever.

553
00:51:28,751 --> 00:51:29,917
Are you hungry?

554
00:51:30,542 --> 00:51:33,126
I usually get down here
and buy a sandwich at the bar.

555
00:51:33,417 --> 00:51:35,792
I'll get you one.
Ham and cheese? Salad?

556
00:51:37,084 --> 00:51:39,334
- Okay, but I'll pay.
- No, no need.

557
00:51:40,001 --> 00:51:41,584
My treat.

558
00:51:46,626 --> 00:51:47,917
I'll be right back.

559
00:52:26,501 --> 00:52:30,917
CHAPTER 2
People

560
00:52:45,084 --> 00:52:47,667
Helga Pato's problem with people

561
00:52:47,959 --> 00:52:50,417
was that she confused narrators
with authors

562
00:52:50,709 --> 00:52:53,334
and sometimes the latter
with characters.

563
00:52:53,959 --> 00:52:56,667
When she met W at the Book Fair,

564
00:52:56,959 --> 00:52:59,001
she was an independent editor

565
00:52:59,292 --> 00:53:01,876
and he was a famous writer
popular with the left wing.

566
00:53:02,376 --> 00:53:06,709
W at once perceived
a powerful groin under her pants,

567
00:53:07,251 --> 00:53:10,459
and instead of a dedication,
he wrote an address.

568
00:53:15,959 --> 00:53:19,709
She believed at that moment
a love story was beginning

569
00:53:20,001 --> 00:53:23,501
about a young editor who was going
to live with her favorite author

570
00:53:23,792 --> 00:53:25,876
on the top floor
of a Madrid skyscraper.

571
00:53:26,626 --> 00:53:30,209
She believed she was falling
in love with her favorite writer...

572
00:53:32,751 --> 00:53:35,834
Today we have pleasure of speaking
to the author of "Jungle".

573
00:53:36,126 --> 00:53:39,042
...but she'd actually fallen
in love with the narrator...

574
00:53:41,917 --> 00:53:44,709
If you could be a jungle animal,
which would you choose?

575
00:53:45,709 --> 00:53:46,834
A predator.

576
00:53:47,917 --> 00:53:50,042
...and gone to live
with a character.

577
00:53:54,001 --> 00:53:57,751
After this last romantic failure,
Helga Pato quit her job,...

578
00:54:00,876 --> 00:54:03,834
adopted a dog, called it Pingo,

579
00:54:04,501 --> 00:54:09,167
and decided never to have anything
to do with a man again.

580
00:54:27,751 --> 00:54:30,042
My thing began as "101 Dalmatians".

581
00:54:30,501 --> 00:54:32,376
Everything that happened later,

582
00:54:32,751 --> 00:54:35,417
I could've foreseen
from the first day I met him,

583
00:54:35,709 --> 00:54:38,376
for all things are present
in their beginnings.

584
00:54:38,917 --> 00:54:40,042
Hey!

585
00:54:40,334 --> 00:54:43,417
No! Sorry, she's mine.
Leave them be.

586
00:54:50,876 --> 00:54:52,709
I wanted a litter.

587
00:55:02,709 --> 00:55:04,376
I really love dogs.

588
00:55:05,667 --> 00:55:08,376
I have plenty of room at home,
I can handle it.

589
00:55:25,001 --> 00:55:26,667
- Do you live in the neighborhood?
- Yes.

590
00:55:27,876 --> 00:55:29,292
Right nearby.

591
00:55:30,834 --> 00:55:32,876
I've got a kiosk on the square.

592
00:55:33,709 --> 00:55:35,001
- Really?
- Yes.

593
00:55:37,917 --> 00:55:39,626
Drop by one day if you like.

594
00:55:40,667 --> 00:55:44,209
One day I had nothing better to do,
so I went to see him at the kiosk.

595
00:55:44,501 --> 00:55:45,209
Hello!

596
00:55:47,209 --> 00:55:48,626
- Hello.
- How are you?

597
00:55:49,751 --> 00:55:52,334
Well, not many customers today.

598
00:55:55,751 --> 00:55:59,709
I was thinking the other day,
you didn't tell me your dog's name.

599
00:56:01,709 --> 00:56:03,542
- Charla.
- Charla?

600
00:56:03,834 --> 00:56:05,334
Charlita, Charla.

601
00:56:08,084 --> 00:56:09,792
And I'm Emilio.

602
00:56:11,751 --> 00:56:13,334
I'm such an idiot...
My name's Helga.

603
00:56:19,667 --> 00:56:22,667
I'd let you in, but this place
is a bit like my home, you know?

604
00:56:23,709 --> 00:56:25,834
It means a lot if a woman comes in.

605
00:56:26,126 --> 00:56:26,751
Sure, sure.

606
00:56:31,542 --> 00:56:34,959
When I went to buy bread
or walk the dog, I'd stop by.

607
00:56:37,542 --> 00:56:41,626
He'd show me dog magazines
and talk about breeds and crosses.

608
00:56:41,917 --> 00:56:44,584
A dog's mission
is to play and procreate.

609
00:56:44,876 --> 00:56:48,167
Obviously I was fond of Pingo
and I'd ask about Charla's pregnancy,

610
00:56:48,459 --> 00:56:50,542
but nothing more.

611
00:57:00,167 --> 00:57:02,751
I was thinking of selling
four of the five pups.

612
00:57:04,542 --> 00:57:05,834
All but this one.

613
00:57:13,667 --> 00:57:14,792
His name's Elvis.

614
00:57:16,876 --> 00:57:17,667
Hold him

615
00:57:25,709 --> 00:57:27,709
I was thinking of giving him to you.

616
00:57:30,959 --> 00:57:32,751
If you'll be my girlfriend.

617
00:57:38,251 --> 00:57:39,459
What do you say?

618
00:58:03,292 --> 00:58:05,667
We spent lots of time together
in the kiosk.

619
00:58:05,959 --> 00:58:08,667
That's the job for you,
it really ties you down.

620
00:58:09,917 --> 00:58:11,042
But I didn't mind.

621
00:58:11,334 --> 00:58:14,584
What I minded was that
he tired of me so quickly.

622
00:58:19,042 --> 00:58:21,834
After a few months he'd leave me
alone all day in the kiosk

623
00:58:22,126 --> 00:58:24,834
while he'd walk the dogs
to Casa de Campo.

624
00:58:31,042 --> 00:58:34,959
One night, in bed,
he asked to do it from behind.

625
00:58:37,751 --> 00:58:39,084
Like dogs, he said.

626
00:58:39,376 --> 00:58:40,542
Like dogs.

627
00:58:40,834 --> 00:58:44,792
As we hadn't talked for a while
or done anything, I gave in.

628
00:58:47,126 --> 00:58:50,459
And if you give in once,
you do forever,

629
00:58:50,751 --> 00:58:52,834
sometimes for love,

630
00:58:53,126 --> 00:58:56,626
sometimes from insecurity,
sometimes because you're scared.

631
00:58:56,917 --> 00:58:59,751
Generally it's for all three
reasons at the same time,

632
00:59:00,042 --> 00:59:02,667
if all three aren't the same thing.

633
00:59:03,834 --> 00:59:07,459
After that we never did it
face to face again.

634
00:59:28,667 --> 00:59:31,001
One day I tried to say no.

635
00:59:33,251 --> 00:59:36,667
No, Emilio, I don't feel like it
that way today.

636
00:59:42,834 --> 00:59:44,251
He was gone for a week.

637
00:59:51,959 --> 00:59:53,626
I never said no again.

638
01:00:03,084 --> 01:00:05,459
Now moan. Like a dog, do it.

639
01:00:10,751 --> 01:00:12,001
That's it, that's it.

640
01:00:15,751 --> 01:00:16,667
That's it.

641
01:00:18,251 --> 01:00:19,251
Higher, higher!

642
01:00:28,834 --> 01:00:30,626
He was very nice all week

643
01:00:30,917 --> 01:00:33,792
and gave me my first gift
since he gave me Elvis.

644
01:00:41,501 --> 01:00:42,667
What's this?

645
01:00:43,876 --> 01:00:44,876
For you.

646
01:01:12,834 --> 01:01:13,751
Wait!

647
01:01:24,876 --> 01:01:25,959
2.20.

648
01:01:29,751 --> 01:01:31,376
Thanks, see you later.

649
01:01:35,834 --> 01:01:37,001
You're not wearing it.

650
01:01:40,251 --> 01:01:42,876
I put it on at home,
but I take off to go out.

651
01:01:45,626 --> 01:01:48,001
Why put it on and take it off
all the time?

652
01:01:48,917 --> 01:01:50,334
Leave it on.

653
01:02:04,251 --> 01:02:06,292
One day he said he'd make lunch.

654
01:02:06,584 --> 01:02:10,709
He bought himself Sanlúcar prawns
and gave me meat stew.

655
01:02:14,501 --> 01:02:16,709
He said it was meat stew.

656
01:02:18,376 --> 01:02:20,667
It wasn't bad, to be honest,

657
01:02:21,209 --> 01:02:23,584
but I would've preferred
Sanlúcar prawns.

658
01:02:25,417 --> 01:02:28,251
From then on,
he always made the food.

659
01:02:29,876 --> 01:02:33,001
Now he didn't even bother
hiding where the stew came from.

660
01:02:34,792 --> 01:02:38,001
Today, eat it without cutlery.
You'll love it.

661
01:03:31,501 --> 01:03:35,417
Today I thought you'd like
to eat with them.

662
01:03:39,542 --> 01:03:40,834
No, Emilio, no.

663
01:03:46,959 --> 01:03:48,876
But it's got your name and everything.

664
01:03:49,626 --> 01:03:51,876
Not that.

665
01:03:57,667 --> 01:03:58,751
Why not?

666
01:04:00,876 --> 01:04:03,167
Because.

667
01:04:04,251 --> 01:04:05,751
Why not?

668
01:04:06,792 --> 01:04:08,001
Because.

669
01:04:09,501 --> 01:04:11,626
Why not?

670
01:04:14,834 --> 01:04:16,292
Don't laugh at me.

671
01:04:17,917 --> 01:04:19,084
Don't laugh at me.

672
01:04:19,792 --> 01:04:21,459
You're not laughing at me!

673
01:04:22,084 --> 01:04:23,751
You're not laughing at me!

674
01:04:24,751 --> 01:04:26,126
Don't you laugh at me!

675
01:04:26,501 --> 01:04:28,459
Get it straight,
you're not laughing at me!

676
01:04:31,959 --> 01:04:33,167
Don't you laugh at me!

677
01:04:33,459 --> 01:04:34,542
Don't you laugh at me!

678
01:04:42,251 --> 01:04:44,334
What are you staring at? Shit!

679
01:04:47,542 --> 01:04:50,042
Don't laugh, this is not a joke!

680
01:04:53,917 --> 01:04:57,042
He took the dogs and went off
to the Casa de Campo.

681
01:05:27,126 --> 01:05:29,501
When you're alone,
thinking the whole damn day,

682
01:05:29,792 --> 01:05:32,459
it's easy to find reasons
for doing something.

683
01:05:37,292 --> 01:05:39,042
No matter how crazy it is.

684
01:05:44,251 --> 01:05:46,376
When I told him I'd do it,

685
01:05:47,376 --> 01:05:50,001
he put his arms around me
and for the first time in ages,

686
01:05:50,667 --> 01:05:52,209
he kissed me on the muzzle.

687
01:05:55,834 --> 01:05:58,417
The changes had taken place
so gradually

688
01:05:58,709 --> 01:06:01,126
that I didn't realize
he'd turned me into a dog.

689
01:06:03,792 --> 01:06:07,542
I'd ceded terrain that
I was never going to recover.

690
01:06:08,251 --> 01:06:10,376
That happens a lot in life,

691
01:06:11,126 --> 01:06:13,709
especially if you do nothing
at the beginning.

692
01:06:33,126 --> 01:06:34,001
Helga!

693
01:06:42,459 --> 01:06:44,251
I've been thinking...

694
01:06:45,417 --> 01:06:48,459
Now that you're in the garden
there's more room in the house.

695
01:06:49,751 --> 01:06:51,334
And well...

696
01:06:53,417 --> 01:06:54,917
I thought that

697
01:06:56,542 --> 01:06:58,376
we could have a puppy.

698
01:07:04,751 --> 01:07:08,001
I was so happy,
because I thought maybe a child

699
01:07:08,292 --> 01:07:10,751
would make me more human for him.

700
01:07:25,417 --> 01:07:26,042
Elvis!

701
01:07:31,501 --> 01:07:32,626
No!

702
01:07:35,876 --> 01:07:38,584
He had no choice
but to tie me up and beat me.

703
01:07:43,417 --> 01:07:44,626
Look at her! Look at her!

704
01:07:44,917 --> 01:07:47,792
See her? Go for it, go on!

705
01:08:21,376 --> 01:08:25,459
Love is a beam of indirect light,

706
01:08:25,751 --> 01:08:30,001
a drop of peace, faith awakened,

707
01:08:30,292 --> 01:08:34,542
a hum in the air, a spot in the fog,

708
01:08:34,834 --> 01:08:37,042
a profile, a shadow,

709
01:08:37,334 --> 01:08:39,417
a pause, expectation.

710
01:08:39,751 --> 01:08:43,876
Love is a soft murmur approaching,

711
01:08:44,376 --> 01:08:48,251
a buzz from afar, a light breeze,

712
01:08:48,751 --> 01:08:52,876
a voice in the calm,
an aroma of mint,

713
01:08:53,251 --> 01:08:55,334
and then, a perhaps,

714
01:08:55,626 --> 01:08:57,751
a "let's see", a goal.

715
01:08:58,042 --> 01:09:01,959
Love sprouts between air
and ground,

716
01:09:02,417 --> 01:09:06,542
palpable and felt,
and there are those who see it,

717
01:09:06,834 --> 01:09:10,667
and it makes you awaken
and think of it,

718
01:09:11,417 --> 01:09:15,334
and it calls you softly,
brushing your skin.

719
01:09:15,834 --> 01:09:19,834
Love hypnotizes you,
makes you dream,

720
01:09:20,417 --> 01:09:24,251
and you dream and you give in
and let yourself go,

721
01:09:24,751 --> 01:09:28,876
it moves you inside,
it makes you be more,

722
01:09:29,334 --> 01:09:33,167
it pushes you, overcomes you
and takes you from behind.

723
01:09:33,459 --> 01:09:37,959
And suddenly you rise,
hurl yourself and burn,

724
01:09:38,251 --> 01:09:40,501
there is light in your soul,

725
01:09:40,792 --> 01:09:42,709
fire in your veins,

726
01:09:43,001 --> 01:09:47,001
it makes you scream
when you feel you are burnt,

727
01:09:47,292 --> 01:09:51,334
it dissolves you, evaporates you,
destroys you, creates you.

728
01:09:51,626 --> 01:09:56,251
It makes you travel
on the edge of time,

729
01:09:56,542 --> 01:10:00,709
going up the rivers
of a thousand universes,

730
01:10:01,001 --> 01:10:05,126
and it takes you to glory,
it delivers you to the earth,

731
01:10:05,417 --> 01:10:10,001
it looks at you, sees you,
and thinks and thinks.

732
01:10:19,751 --> 01:10:23,751
And suddenly love
is the light of a flame

733
01:10:24,542 --> 01:10:28,667
that begins to flicker,
then goes out.

734
01:10:29,042 --> 01:10:33,251
It's a tiny island lost in the fog,

735
01:10:33,751 --> 01:10:37,667
a drop, an unknown,
a blemish, a grimace.

736
01:10:38,084 --> 01:10:42,209
Love is a leaf fallen on the ground,

737
01:10:42,876 --> 01:10:46,876
a point on the sea,
a thickening mist,

738
01:10:47,459 --> 01:10:51,334
a snag in the soul, a watching sun,

739
01:10:51,792 --> 01:10:56,001
a why, a depending,
a no more, a whine.

740
01:10:56,376 --> 01:11:00,542
Love comes down, rung by rung,

741
01:11:00,959 --> 01:11:05,209
hands closed, a weary pace,

742
01:11:05,501 --> 01:11:09,334
it asks you who you are
to let you know

743
01:11:09,792 --> 01:11:13,834
that it barely knows you:
What do you want from it?

744
01:11:14,126 --> 01:11:18,167
Love mocks you, laughs at you,

745
01:11:18,667 --> 01:11:22,751
while you follow it calmly,
not knowing what to do,

746
01:11:23,042 --> 01:11:27,334
and you wish to follow it
and tell it now,

747
01:11:27,834 --> 01:11:31,751
to stay, to come back,
to make a mistake.

748
01:11:32,042 --> 01:11:36,334
Love thwarts your grand ideas,

749
01:11:36,626 --> 01:11:40,834
it destroys, it breaks you,
it splits you, it breaks you,

750
01:11:41,126 --> 01:11:45,292
and makes you what you
wanted not to be,

751
01:11:45,584 --> 01:11:49,667
it drives you to be evil
and turns you to shit.

752
01:11:49,959 --> 01:11:54,042
It hurls you face down
into the final hell,

753
01:11:54,334 --> 01:11:58,626
rips out your soul,
stamps on your body,

754
01:11:58,917 --> 01:12:03,167
drowns you in yearning
to return to nothing,

755
01:12:03,626 --> 01:12:05,709
and suddenly it stops.

756
01:12:19,501 --> 01:12:21,709
That night I decided to kill him.

757
01:12:22,626 --> 01:12:24,834
I remembered a book
I'd read recently

758
01:12:25,126 --> 01:12:26,667
that mentioned Anarbital,

759
01:12:27,251 --> 01:12:29,417
a powerful tranquilizer
that left no trace

760
01:12:29,709 --> 01:12:32,876
and that I could get without
prescription on the Internet.

761
01:12:50,501 --> 01:12:55,709
One night, I put 10 c.c.'s
of Anarbital in Emilio's drink.

762
01:12:57,292 --> 01:12:59,917
Then I left the house
and spent some days with my mother.

763
01:13:21,792 --> 01:13:23,292
Supposedly in those few days

764
01:13:23,584 --> 01:13:25,626
Emilio would've gradually
passed away,

765
01:13:29,917 --> 01:13:32,834
but when I got back, he hadn't.

766
01:14:11,751 --> 01:14:13,167
I looked for a cheap clinic

767
01:14:13,459 --> 01:14:16,334
that didn't ask too many questions
and was far away.

768
01:14:24,792 --> 01:14:27,626
There I said goodbye
to Emilio forever.

769
01:14:42,042 --> 01:14:43,667
Now let's go back to the train

770
01:14:44,751 --> 01:14:47,709
and let's imagine that Helga Pato
opens Sanagustín's red file

771
01:14:48,001 --> 01:14:50,251
to look for a phone number
or an address.

772
01:15:04,959 --> 01:15:07,792
Let's imagine that her eyes
don't find what they're after,

773
01:15:08,084 --> 01:15:10,959
but they see some words that
immediately grab her attention.

774
01:15:11,251 --> 01:15:13,584
SOMATIC DELUSIONAL DISORDER

775
01:15:13,876 --> 01:15:15,626
I WAS BORN ON A RIVER BANK...

776
01:15:34,126 --> 01:15:35,751
I was born on a river bank...

777
01:15:36,709 --> 01:15:38,251
...and the damp softened my bones,

778
01:15:38,542 --> 01:15:41,667
forcing me to stay in bed
for most of my life.

779
01:15:43,084 --> 01:15:45,834
Those first years of life
that forge character

780
01:15:46,501 --> 01:15:48,334
and predict future conduct,

781
01:15:48,626 --> 01:15:50,584
I was flat on my back.

782
01:15:51,084 --> 01:15:53,209
"No one will be able to avoid..."

783
01:15:53,501 --> 01:15:57,334
Life was filtered through
the opaque sieve of Sister Araceli,

784
01:15:57,626 --> 01:15:59,001
my teacher.

785
01:15:59,292 --> 01:16:02,251
I understand that perfectly.
But what gets me muddled is...

786
01:16:02,709 --> 01:16:05,834
the second and third...
it's like one is...

787
01:16:07,334 --> 01:16:09,834
is everything that's
then inside a third.

788
01:16:10,126 --> 01:16:14,001
- The third part is the second.
- Exactly.

789
01:16:14,292 --> 01:16:17,251
- So, like the Russian dolls.
- Like the Russian doll.

790
01:16:17,542 --> 01:16:20,334
Perfect.
Let's look for our Russian doll.

791
01:16:20,626 --> 01:16:21,251
Okay.

792
01:16:21,542 --> 01:16:24,667
The third Russian doll is
"what has to happen",

793
01:16:24,959 --> 01:16:28,167
which is an adjectival proposition...

794
01:16:28,459 --> 01:16:30,042
I never went to school

795
01:16:30,334 --> 01:16:33,001
or had any contact with
vertebrate boys my age...

796
01:16:33,292 --> 01:16:37,209
...only with the nuns and the carers
in the residence where I lived.

797
01:16:37,751 --> 01:16:39,667
Can you get me some water?

798
01:16:40,834 --> 01:16:43,459
My experiences were always false
and belonged to others

799
01:16:44,459 --> 01:16:48,417
coming from reading
or the TV screen.

800
01:16:48,709 --> 01:16:50,917
Petrarch, Bécquer, Garcilaso,

801
01:16:51,626 --> 01:16:53,751
Truffaut, Bertolucci...

802
01:16:54,709 --> 01:16:57,251
I also took delight
in the audiovisual fiction

803
01:16:57,542 --> 01:17:00,542
supplied to me by
the substitute social worker.

804
01:17:13,126 --> 01:17:16,209
And so, this snail child
got an idea of the world

805
01:17:16,501 --> 01:17:19,001
and the marvelous universe of love.

806
01:17:27,334 --> 01:17:29,251
After many medical trials
and tribulations,

807
01:17:29,542 --> 01:17:31,751
which I won't tire you with,

808
01:17:33,626 --> 01:17:37,792
thanks to advances in prosthetics
as a result of the Gulf War

809
01:17:38,501 --> 01:17:41,917
they filled my body with iron,
inside and out.

810
01:17:44,751 --> 01:17:48,917
Months later, the handicapped
association to which I belonged

811
01:17:49,917 --> 01:17:51,417
organized a trip to Paris.

812
01:17:54,292 --> 01:17:56,001
And off I went to Paris.

813
01:18:07,084 --> 01:18:10,376
As soon as I arrived,
my camera was stolen.

814
01:18:13,167 --> 01:18:14,542
Hold it! Hold it!

815
01:18:15,792 --> 01:18:19,292
Rosa, a lame woman
on the trip, consoled me.

816
01:18:19,584 --> 01:18:20,501
- Did you see that?
- Are you alright?

817
01:18:20,792 --> 01:18:23,959
Yes, I'm fine.
I got distracted for a second.

818
01:18:24,251 --> 01:18:25,501
Just for a moment.

819
01:18:25,792 --> 01:18:27,542
Then her crutch was stolen...

820
01:18:28,834 --> 01:18:30,542
I don't believe it! The same guy!

821
01:18:30,834 --> 01:18:33,167
...and I was the one
who had to dry her tears.

822
01:18:38,126 --> 01:18:39,167
It'll probably seems silly,

823
01:18:39,459 --> 01:18:42,709
but I was disappointed that
they spoke French in Paris.

824
01:18:43,376 --> 01:18:45,334
This detail, which everyone knows,

825
01:18:46,126 --> 01:18:49,001
isn't mentioned in any work
of fiction that I know.

826
01:18:49,292 --> 01:18:51,042
It became a nightmare

827
01:18:51,334 --> 01:18:54,334
when I went out with Rosa
to buy a new crutch.

828
01:18:55,209 --> 01:18:56,251
Lady of France...

829
01:18:56,542 --> 01:19:00,042
It didn't occur to me to look up
"crutch" in the dictionary,

830
01:19:01,001 --> 01:19:04,001
and that led me to figure
in those kinds of episodes

831
01:19:04,417 --> 01:19:07,667
which when they're happening
are pathetic

832
01:19:08,334 --> 01:19:11,376
and which, if you marry
the person with you at that time,

833
01:19:12,001 --> 01:19:14,751
become hilarious and endearing,

834
01:19:15,626 --> 01:19:17,126
and if you don't get married,

835
01:19:17,417 --> 01:19:19,459
they're pathetic
until the day you die.

836
01:19:20,709 --> 01:19:22,001
At the time, I didn't realize that

837
01:19:22,292 --> 01:19:26,126
the higher I went up
the ridiculous scale in my own eyes,

838
01:19:26,959 --> 01:19:30,001
the more points I made
in hers in the account of love.

839
01:19:31,084 --> 01:19:35,876
We finally got a new crutch and,
exhausted, went back to the hotel.

840
01:19:44,501 --> 01:19:45,751
Once there,

841
01:19:46,667 --> 01:19:50,334
she helped me remove the orthopedics
from my arms and legs.

842
01:20:11,084 --> 01:20:13,667
Without them I felt more naked
than when I was naked,

843
01:20:14,751 --> 01:20:18,459
deconstructed like
some postmodernist slug,

844
01:20:19,334 --> 01:20:20,626
almost liquid.

845
01:20:30,709 --> 01:20:32,876
She removed her orthopedic shoe

846
01:20:35,084 --> 01:20:37,584
as if she were taking off
her underwear.

847
01:20:50,292 --> 01:20:52,334
We were so tired by the effort,

848
01:20:54,917 --> 01:20:56,751
we lay there on our backs,
asleep,...

849
01:20:59,667 --> 01:21:01,751
she with one leg
longer than the other

850
01:21:02,417 --> 01:21:04,209
and I, without my structures,

851
01:21:04,792 --> 01:21:07,001
helpless as a peeled prawn.

852
01:21:07,792 --> 01:21:08,792
I caught a cold.

853
01:21:10,292 --> 01:21:12,376
The next day, I had to stay in bed

854
01:21:16,084 --> 01:21:17,709
and she stayed to look after me.

855
01:21:18,376 --> 01:21:21,709
I couldn't see that this gesture
was more than generosity.

856
01:21:22,001 --> 01:21:24,001
I hadn't been trained

857
01:21:24,292 --> 01:21:27,501
to interpret the gleam
in a lame girl's eyes as love.

858
01:21:27,792 --> 01:21:29,501
In all the books I'd read,

859
01:21:29,792 --> 01:21:31,584
in all the films I'd seen,

860
01:21:31,876 --> 01:21:35,292
the women were always
perfect and symmetrical.

861
01:21:35,584 --> 01:21:38,542
They didn't have defects
and they certainly weren't lame.

862
01:21:38,917 --> 01:21:42,626
And if they did, those bastard
poets, writers and filmmakers

863
01:21:43,709 --> 01:21:45,792
had hidden it
with words or prosthetics,

864
01:21:46,084 --> 01:21:49,167
lying to humanity
and fucking up my life.

865
01:21:54,001 --> 01:21:57,751
Can anyone tell me in which
Garcilaso or Bécquer poem

866
01:21:58,042 --> 01:22:02,376
there are imperfections,
physical defects or asymmetries?

867
01:22:02,667 --> 01:22:04,459
And I'm not talking
about skin imperfections

868
01:22:04,751 --> 01:22:07,834
that can be a beautiful trace
of the passing of time, etc. etc.

869
01:22:08,126 --> 01:22:12,001
I'm talking about one leg longer
than the other, for fuck's sake!

870
01:22:12,959 --> 01:22:16,959
Nobody told me that what
I was starting to feel for Rosa

871
01:22:17,251 --> 01:22:18,959
was true love.

872
01:22:22,792 --> 01:22:26,626
I was expecting to shudder,
to shake with internal spasms.

873
01:22:29,042 --> 01:22:31,876
And as I didn't feel any of that,
but a justified affection,

874
01:22:33,042 --> 01:22:35,417
a vague tenderness,
I told myself:

875
01:22:35,709 --> 01:22:38,709
"It's not love you feel, Gárate,
only pity."

876
01:22:47,709 --> 01:22:50,751
And when Rosa asked me
to sleep with her,...

877
01:23:09,292 --> 01:23:12,584
...as I'd promised myself
to do it for the first time

878
01:23:12,876 --> 01:23:16,876
only with the person who
made me feel what I mentioned,

879
01:23:17,751 --> 01:23:18,834
I said no.

880
01:23:20,292 --> 01:23:23,917
I said no,
but we ended up doing it.

881
01:23:28,501 --> 01:23:30,709
We did it, unfortunately for me.

882
01:23:32,667 --> 01:23:35,417
Because sex happened for me
the same as love:

883
01:23:38,084 --> 01:23:40,126
everything I knew,
when the first time came,

884
01:23:40,417 --> 01:23:44,667
I'd learned from the films
my volunteer carer brought me.

885
01:23:50,709 --> 01:23:54,334
No huge breasts or long legs.

886
01:23:55,251 --> 01:23:57,959
Well, yes, there was one long leg

887
01:23:58,709 --> 01:24:00,209
and another shorter one.

888
01:24:10,126 --> 01:24:14,001
Rosa didn't throw herself on me
like the women in fiction.

889
01:24:45,209 --> 01:24:48,501
So there was none of
that frantic activity

890
01:24:48,792 --> 01:24:52,459
or howling that was
so familiar to me.

891
01:25:16,251 --> 01:25:18,834
Worst of all was when
the final moment came.

892
01:25:26,792 --> 01:25:31,167
I did what I'd seen
sex professionals do so often.

893
01:25:36,542 --> 01:25:38,042
I was surprised by her reaction.

894
01:25:38,334 --> 01:25:40,042
I did it
with the best of intentions.

895
01:25:42,292 --> 01:25:43,376
Listen...

896
01:25:44,792 --> 01:25:47,042
She didn't say anything.
She got dressed and left.

897
01:25:52,917 --> 01:25:56,001
I heard her uneven footsteps
heading off down the hallway

898
01:25:57,417 --> 01:25:59,042
and I never saw her again.

899
01:26:00,084 --> 01:26:01,417
She left the Tour,

900
01:26:02,001 --> 01:26:06,167
and hid away on the Fortunate Isles,
where she was from.

901
01:26:08,084 --> 01:26:12,792
CHAPTER 3
Advantages of Travelling by Train

902
01:27:13,834 --> 01:27:16,417
Hello, Good evening.
My name's Helga Pato.

903
01:27:16,709 --> 01:27:19,667
I'd like to leave a message
for Dr. Sanagustín.

904
01:27:28,542 --> 01:27:31,501
- Hello?
- Hello, this is Ángel Sanagustín.

905
01:27:33,084 --> 01:27:34,042
Ángel?

906
01:27:34,334 --> 01:27:38,042
Look, I'm not sure I know
who you are or what you want,

907
01:27:38,334 --> 01:27:39,542
but I can imagine.

908
01:27:39,834 --> 01:27:42,209
What I am sure of is that
I haven't lost any file.

909
01:27:42,501 --> 01:27:45,917
So please, don't call me
at the clinic again.

910
01:28:57,751 --> 01:29:00,001
- Yes.
- I think we spoke on the phone.

911
01:29:00,542 --> 01:29:02,334
Forgive me for coming unannounced,

912
01:29:02,626 --> 01:29:05,584
but what happened to me
doesn't happen every day.

913
01:29:05,876 --> 01:29:08,501
This is the famous file
that apparently you haven't lost.

914
01:29:08,792 --> 01:29:10,417
I told you, that's not my file.

915
01:29:10,959 --> 01:29:13,251
I'd rather you didn't bother me
with these things.

916
01:29:13,542 --> 01:29:16,834
Yesterday I met a man on the train
who said he was Ángel Sanagustín,

917
01:29:17,126 --> 01:29:19,417
he was a psychiatrist,
he worked at the International Clinic,

918
01:29:19,709 --> 01:29:20,584
he lived in Galapagar

919
01:29:20,876 --> 01:29:24,334
and had a mountain of garbage
that no one wanted to remove.

920
01:29:25,292 --> 01:29:26,834
Clearly that man isn't you,

921
01:29:27,126 --> 01:29:30,292
but whoever it was I met on the train,
he knows you,

922
01:29:30,584 --> 01:29:32,001
and he left this file on his seat.

923
01:29:34,084 --> 01:29:36,709
Let her in. That's our file.

924
01:29:37,334 --> 01:29:39,709
I'm sorry if my husband
was a bit abrupt, but...

925
01:29:40,001 --> 01:29:44,876
we're having neighbor trouble
because of the garbage

926
01:29:45,167 --> 01:29:48,834
and he thought the call

927
01:29:49,126 --> 01:29:50,501
was about that.

928
01:29:50,792 --> 01:29:53,459
Don't worry,
I understand perfectly.

929
01:29:53,751 --> 01:29:55,209
Unless I'm mistaken,

930
01:29:55,876 --> 01:29:58,542
the person you met on the train
was this man.

931
01:30:04,959 --> 01:30:06,584
He's my brother Martín.

932
01:30:06,917 --> 01:30:10,126
- Martín? Martín what?
- Martín Urales de Úbeda.

933
01:30:15,751 --> 01:30:19,209
So you're Amelia.
And you're Ángel.

934
01:30:23,417 --> 01:30:25,334
My brother Martín is very sick.

935
01:30:25,959 --> 01:30:29,209
Theoretically he's admitted
at the International Clinic,

936
01:30:29,876 --> 01:30:32,959
But they have very advanced ideas
about mental health

937
01:30:33,959 --> 01:30:36,542
and they say that my brother
must be free to come and go,

938
01:30:36,834 --> 01:30:38,417
so that he can integrate into society.

939
01:30:39,084 --> 01:30:41,459
- They say he's harmless.
- And he is.

940
01:30:42,542 --> 01:30:44,209
He'd never kill anyone,

941
01:30:44,501 --> 01:30:46,709
but it isn't the first time
he's done something like this.

942
01:30:47,001 --> 01:30:50,167
Talking to people is part of
his rehabilitation therapy.

943
01:30:52,542 --> 01:30:55,001
Is lying part of his therapy?

944
01:30:55,292 --> 01:30:56,709
And supplanting personalities?

945
01:30:57,001 --> 01:31:00,001
Is confusing people
part of his rehabilitation therapy?

946
01:31:03,917 --> 01:31:07,376
If people believe everything
that Martín, or anyone else,

947
01:31:07,667 --> 01:31:09,459
tells them on a train,

948
01:31:09,751 --> 01:31:11,709
it's their problem, don't you think?

949
01:31:12,292 --> 01:31:16,417
Or did you make an honesty pact
that made him tell you the truth?

950
01:31:16,709 --> 01:31:17,751
Ángel...

951
01:31:21,209 --> 01:31:26,376
Martín has paranoid schizophrenia
with a wealth of syndromes.

952
01:31:27,542 --> 01:31:30,917
There are no affective disorders,
but he has divided personalities.

953
01:31:32,126 --> 01:31:34,417
He has delusions and hallucinations.

954
01:31:34,709 --> 01:31:38,584
At times he feels like someone else
and lives as such.

955
01:31:39,376 --> 01:31:44,251
In common language
it's called split personality.

956
01:31:45,501 --> 01:31:48,876
Currently, from what you say,
he's living as if he were me.

957
01:31:53,834 --> 01:31:57,292
The papers here look like statements
by schizophrenic patients,

958
01:31:57,584 --> 01:31:59,959
but they're nonsense,
with no rhyme or reason,

959
01:32:00,251 --> 01:32:02,126
things he made up.

960
01:32:07,084 --> 01:32:09,042
That's the reason I'm here.

961
01:32:09,334 --> 01:32:12,126
I'm interested in these papers.
I'd like to publish them.

962
01:32:13,959 --> 01:32:14,792
Publish them?

963
01:32:15,917 --> 01:32:18,792
I don't care if they're real or not.
They're good.

964
01:32:19,209 --> 01:32:22,126
As an editor, I think
there's a good novel here.

965
01:32:22,417 --> 01:32:26,376
I guess you should speak to him.

966
01:32:26,917 --> 01:32:31,834
If you do, don't tell him you've
been here or that you know us,

967
01:32:32,126 --> 01:32:35,209
and please, don't call him Martín,
call him Ángel.

968
01:32:37,792 --> 01:32:39,667
If you want,
I'll give you the address.

969
01:32:43,376 --> 01:32:45,376
No, no need.

970
01:33:01,792 --> 01:33:04,917
Dr. Sanagustín?
Do you remember me?

971
01:33:06,459 --> 01:33:08,667
We met the other day on the train.

972
01:33:12,501 --> 01:33:14,042
Yes, of course.

973
01:33:15,709 --> 01:33:18,959
You were lucky to catch me here.

974
01:33:20,876 --> 01:33:24,417
I've come to inspect
Martín Urales de Úbeda's papers.

975
01:33:27,751 --> 01:33:29,376
Do you want to come with me?

976
01:33:37,667 --> 01:33:40,209
I told you the smell was unbearable.

977
01:34:00,876 --> 01:34:03,709
You'll understand how important
this moment is for me.

978
01:34:15,376 --> 01:34:16,542
This way.

979
01:34:29,126 --> 01:34:31,292
I'm going to need
more time than I thought.

980
01:34:32,459 --> 01:34:34,126
Look, look.

981
01:34:35,709 --> 01:34:37,126
There's everything here.

982
01:34:44,917 --> 01:34:46,626
There's lots of data protection,

983
01:34:48,001 --> 01:34:51,626
lots of discussions about whether
we're watched on the Internet

984
01:34:51,917 --> 01:34:53,626
or when we pay by credit card,

985
01:34:53,917 --> 01:34:58,751
but then we don't mind sitting
on the privacy of our toilet

986
01:35:00,709 --> 01:35:03,042
and blithely supplying

987
01:35:04,501 --> 01:35:07,167
the most hidden aspects
of our personality.

988
01:35:09,084 --> 01:35:13,292
It's how we open
our hearts to others.

989
01:35:17,917 --> 01:35:20,126
We're just a fistful of shit.

990
01:35:22,667 --> 01:35:25,542
A fistful of shit and 80% water.

991
01:35:27,876 --> 01:35:30,959
Look, doctor, I've really
come to see you

992
01:35:31,251 --> 01:35:34,876
because I read the file you left
on the train

993
01:35:35,167 --> 01:35:37,667
and I'm interested in publishing it.

994
01:35:40,001 --> 01:35:42,876
- Publishing it?
- I'm an editor.

995
01:35:43,167 --> 01:35:44,542
- An editor?
- Yes.

996
01:35:48,876 --> 01:35:50,167
That's terrible!

997
01:35:53,834 --> 01:35:55,167
Next Monday it'll be...

998
01:35:56,709 --> 01:36:00,167
seven years and two months
since I stopped reading.

999
01:36:02,001 --> 01:36:03,584
I used to read,

1000
01:36:04,917 --> 01:36:07,334
but now, as I read
with a psychiatrist's eyes,

1001
01:36:07,626 --> 01:36:09,209
I don't believe a word.

1002
01:36:11,417 --> 01:36:13,126
Plausibility bores me.

1003
01:36:14,751 --> 01:36:17,292
Why such an effort to make
books and films seem real

1004
01:36:17,584 --> 01:36:19,376
when everyone knows they aren't?

1005
01:36:21,084 --> 01:36:24,001
Well, there's something called
"suspension of disbelief"...

1006
01:36:26,459 --> 01:36:28,542
Plausibility is overrated.

1007
01:36:37,417 --> 01:36:38,876
According to the firemen,

1008
01:36:39,167 --> 01:36:41,334
it's too soon to know
if the fire was provoked

1009
01:36:41,626 --> 01:36:45,334
or due to the spontaneous combustion
of gases from the garbage.

1010
01:36:45,626 --> 01:36:49,834
Guys, it still isn't safe
to go down into the basement!

1011
01:36:50,126 --> 01:36:51,876
Is anyone left in the basement?

1012
01:36:52,501 --> 01:36:53,584
Martín.

1013
01:36:54,501 --> 01:36:55,959
Martín Urales de Úbeda.

1014
01:36:57,042 --> 01:36:58,667
He said his name was Ángel,

1015
01:37:00,084 --> 01:37:01,792
but he's called Martín.

1016
01:37:04,792 --> 01:37:07,626
FOR SALE

1017
01:37:22,001 --> 01:37:22,876
Hello?

1018
01:37:24,126 --> 01:37:25,376
Yes, that's me.

1019
01:37:25,876 --> 01:37:29,209
We'd make a cut here
on the forehead

1020
01:37:30,251 --> 01:37:32,584
to access the pre-frontal lobe.

1021
01:37:35,292 --> 01:37:39,917
As you'll understand,
it's a very delicate operation.

1022
01:37:43,167 --> 01:37:46,084
So we need your authorization.

1023
01:37:47,917 --> 01:37:49,667
You'd just have to sign here.

1024
01:37:55,001 --> 01:37:56,001
Good.

1025
01:37:57,001 --> 01:37:57,959
Good.

1026
01:38:37,376 --> 01:38:39,376
Would you like some conversation?