An Apology

Hey friends,

As you probably saw over the last couple weeks, I've had numerous 'break-downs' on Twitter. And I really want to apologise for that.

I make it seem as though I'm going through some real tough stuff but in reality, it's all in my head, and I'm fairly certain that its ruining the growing friendships I have. I'm going to flat out say that I am an attention seeker. I really am. As I've come to the realisation that its lowering my ability to grow as a person, I realise that I need to stop crying for that attention from people. I don't deserve any of it and I need to own up to the fact that I'm making a terrible mistake of trying to get this attention. Heck, the person I want it from (if you're reading this I sincerely apologise) probably thinks of me completely different because of my stupid and unnecessary outbursts. I need to realise that other people have their own needs of speaking to people and its not just "ME ME ME." I need to realise that people need space and don't always want to be talking 24/7. I'm 20 years old and I still behave like a 14 year old, quite frankly its disgusting. I'm losing respect from people I care about for complaining about the most trivial things and I'm afraid its all backfired and all I am is just a whiny millennial who needs to find her privilege. I'm sorry everyone.

On a lighter note, I'm starting University in a couple of weeks and I'm very excited for this new chapter in my life. Over the next 3 years of this I hope I gain the maturity and genuineness that I need to grow as a person.

Still a bit sad at the fact that I'm not going to SGDQ, but that's okay. I'll try not to bring anyone down by moping all day everyday, I love seeing my friends so happy with each other and I know that one day I'm going to be there too.

Thank you if you read all of this.
- Maddi