How I was treated by the old administration in 2019

They walked all over me like a treadmill. They stabbed me in the back so many times, I can't even recall the individual occasions anymore. They broke me in ways that I still haven't fully recovered from. I made the mistake of dating one of the elites at the time. When the relationship inevitably folded (keyword: ghosted), they used messages from when I was intimate with her as material to mock and bully me relentlessly. Then when shit hit the fan (e.g. data corruption on the server), they came to me hoping that I had backups, because that's something I was obsessed with at the time. Of course, I complied because I was hopeful that they would appreciate my efforts in one form or another. They didn't. They relied on me while simultaneously making my life a living hell. In fact, they often made fun of me for my efforts, which didn't help matters at all.

They knew I was in a rough shape and mentally unwell, but they didn't care. They treated me like a punching bag whenever they could, making the same jokes about me wearing fedoras (a rough phase of my life that I've long since moved past from), being an incel (which critically wounded my self-image, might I add), "buzz buzz", or my other mannerisms at the time. Even without a position of power as late as July 2020, they were still able to drive me to attempt suicide with a belt, which thankfully failed.

Since then, some of those involved have apologized for their roles (which I am thankful for), but others stuck to their guns. I frankly do not care enough about the past to hold their actions against them now because 4 years is a long time and people can change, but I still care enough to make sure that we don't repeat the same mistakes as before. If we did, its costs could range from the server's player base to a person's life.