Rainbow Dash Story

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>Once again I wake up with a different guy at my side.
>How many have they been? I already lost count of them.
>All kinds of boys, athletes, musicians, funny guys, assholes, cute guys, etc.
>Sometimes, even with two boys at the same time.
>Why do I keep doing it? Is it because I’m tired of everyone calling me a dyke?
>No, of course not. That never bothered me.
>Never…
>I even kissed a girl once, but I didn’t feel a thing.
>The truth is that deep down, I feel lonely.
>I want to be embraced by a man so bad.
>And him to tell me I'm the most beautiful girl in the entire world.
>With these hook ups, I can reach this ecstasy if just for a couple of seconds.
>Though, after that, I have to let them fuck me.
>15 mins, 1 hour, maybe all night.
>But I hate the sex.
>Every one of their thrusts pierces my heart.
>Every time I call them daddy, a piece of my soul gets lost.
>This is so painful yet I can't stop looking for new men.
>Maybe looking for a long term relationship like Rarity does?
>No, I can't do that. I'm scared of them.
>I can’t bear another man to abandon me. Not again.
>My heart and soul won't be able to take it anymore.
>This is fine, at least for now.
>If I can grasp these seconds of heaven every now and then, I'll be able to survive.

>"Oh? you're still here, Dash?"
“Wha- Oh yeah, sorry, I fell asleep.”
>"Nah, don't worry about it. You can stay all morning if you want. Say, wanna go for another round?"
"... ok. But can we cuddle before, just a little bit?"
>"Sure thing, Dashie. Come here."
>Every boy I spent a night with is different.
>Some are clumsy; others treat me with little respect on the bed, spanking me and pulling my hair as if I was theirs.
>My favorites are the ones that hug me all the time.
>This time my partner was violent, hurting me when he grabbed my hips and wrists.
>At least he cuddled with me for the rest of the morning.
>I felt protected, like a little girl floating on the sky with no worries at all.
>After that, I dressed up, giggling while he playfully squeezed my butt.
>It was an act though; I didn't want anything to do with a man I’ve spent some time with. The idea terrified me.
>In his case though, it was because he thought I was his.
>While walking out of his house, he spanked me one last time
>”Can’t wait for the next round, Dashie”.
>I nodded and left his house.
"Who does he think I am? His whore?" I said to myself. "I still have my self-respect!"
>I stopped on my tracks and slowly looked down at my feet.
"No, no I don't. I'm just a, dirty slut."
>I suddenly felt the urge to cry.
"Not again, I-I have to wait until I get h-home."
>But it was too far to hold it in.
>I jogged to a near park, and hid behind a bush.
>And I exploded.
"Why? Why do I keep doing this? Why am I such a filthy girl?"
>My tears ran down my face.
"I only want to feel loved. Just a little bit. But I'm so scared of being abandoned."
>I covered my face with my palms.
"And this is your fault! I'm fucked up in the head because of you, dad!"
>I buried my head on my knees.
"Nothing I ever did was good enough, was it?! All I've ever done was for you to be proud of me!"
>At that point, I was screaming.
"I k-knew you liked soccer, so I got into the team, and became the best player, a-and to how many games did you even go?!"
"But you never did! Never told me that you loved me, or were proud, not even once."
>It felt like my chest was going to explode.
"A-And then, you..."
>After a while, I finally pulled myself together.
>I fix both my clothes and hair before coming out of the bush.
>I peek out to check if someone’s out there and I quickly get out of my hideout.
>It's ok, if I cry every now and then, I'll be fine.
>As long as I can smile in front of my friends, I don't need to worry about anything.
>They don’t have to worry about my dumb problems.
>They don't need to know I'm a dirty whore.
>If they find out, they'll surely abandon me.
>I need to protect our friendship, it's all I have.

>"Rainbow Dash! Hello!"
“Eh? Oh, hi Fluttershy. How are you doing?”
>"Oh I'm fine. I was just going to the animal center to take care of the most adorable puppies and-"
“...and?”
>"Hey, Rainbow. Were you, crying again?"
”What the- Of course not! What are you talking about?”

>She took out a little mirror from her purse and lent it to me.
>Dang it, my eyes were red and swollen.
>I return the mirror and turn around my face.

>"Dash, what happened now?"
“N-nothing, Fluttershy. I wasn't crying. I got a little drunk yesterday and I have a hangover, yeah that’s it.”
>"Please, don't lie to me, Dashie. Did someone call you a, homosexual again?"
“I told you that doesn't bother me, because I'm not a dyke!”
>"Oh... sorry..."
>I don’t know why I lost it.
“No, Fluttershy, I'm sorry. I didn't want to… I’m still drunk, alright? My head hurts a little bit and I want to go home and rest for a bit.”
>"Ok..."
“... Good bye, Fluttershy, I'll see you later.”
>"Bye..."

>Why did I have to shout at her?
>But I can't let them figure out what's going on.
>She would surely hate me.
>Besides, how could she think I'm annoyed by people calling me a lesbian?
>She knows that doesn't bother me at all.
>It doesn’t.
>That never hurt me.
>I finally get to my house.
>I walk up the stairs, and quietly get in my room.
>While I wait for my dumb computer to install the latest update, I look at myself on my mirror.
>I can see why I'm so successful with boys. What an amazing body I have.
>"Damn, my eyes are still red." I jokingly say.
>Luckily I didn't have to think about it too much, since my laptop finally started.
>I sit in front of it, and check out my e-mail.
>Some dumb assignments I need to do.
>Fluttershy sending me pictures of her animals.
>And some guys asking me to have another night with them.
>Some nicely written letters; others are idiots saying "yo bitch, my dick misses your mouth".
>Not that it matters anyway, I don't care for them anymore.
>There's nothing they can offer to me.
>With nothing else to do, I close my laptop, and lay on my bed.
>Looking at my ceiling, with a poster of my favorite soccer team.
>"Ouch" I say while I rub my crotch.
"That idiot, he was too rough with me."
>I slowly open my thighs to relieve some pain, and I notice that I'm in front of my mirror.
>“I should check myself out, just in case." I say while pulling my panties down.
>"Let's see... No, it doesn't look serious at all."
>I suddenly noticed how much my lips have changed.
>Not long ago they were pristine, but now?
>"Ugh, so disgusting." I said while turning away and taking off the rest of my clothes.
"I should take a bath, I'm all dirty."
>I go to my bathroom and turn on the hot water.
>Nothing like bathing with the hottest possible water.
>It's easier to scrub out the filth from my body.
>I heard on tv that this feeling was all in my head but it still feels good to scrub my body twice.
>"If it doesn't hurt, it's not working." I say to myself.
>My lips are still in pain by the time I reach them.
>I sigh and I repeat.
"If it doesn't hurt, it's not working if it doesn't hurt it's not working."
>I try to suck it up, but I can't deny it.
>It hurts so bad."

>Once I’m done, I put on some pajamas and check out my computer again.
>This is so boring, there’s nothing to do.
>It’s been a while since I checked my old e-mail let’s see if we find out something interesting.
>As I log in, I wonder why I stopped using this one.
>But the answer hit me like a brink when I read the first mail.
>It was a request from a lesbian dating site.
>Apparently someone used my e-mail to create dozens of accounts in this kind of sites.
>They even used my real name and one of my pictures.
“Fucking bitches.”
>I log out and throw myself on my bed.
>Trying to relax myself, I close my eyes.
>But memories won’t stop messing with me.
>Of the time they wrote all those mean things on my notebooks.
>I didn’t even know there were many ways to call a lesbian.
>Or that other time they drew me on the girl’s bathroom eating a cunt.
>How could someone be so despicable?
"I'm not a lesbian..."
>I just don't get it, why is this happening to me?
>No, pull it together, Dash.
>Remember, this doesn't affect you.
>If you show them it affects you, you lose.
>To be strong in front of them, you first need to be strong with you.
>Yes, ignore them at all cost.
"But it still hurts."
>I sigh and open my eyes.
>Feeling a little depressed, I decide to take out my favorite book.
>I love reading Daring Do, I know it's a book for younger girls but, it's such a great story.
>It makes me feel like a small child every time I read it.
>I forget all my problems and lose myself in the adventures of one of my heroes.
>After a couple of minutes, I smile again.
>"Yeah, this is good for now" I say to myself.

>Without noticing it, hours have passed and I hear a knocking on my door.
>"Who is it?" I ask
>"Oh... sorry, are you busy?"
>I roll my eyes and answer "No, Fluttershy. You can come in."
>Fluttershy quietly comes in, with Twilight, Rarity, Applejack and Pinkie Pie.
"... So, were we supposed to hang around or something?" I asked.
>"No, Rainbow Dash" Twilight said. "We thought that maybe, you know, you'd like to have a sleep over?"
>The question surprised me.
"A sleepover? Right now? But it's 12pm."
>"Well, yeah, what's wrong about that?" Pinkie nervously said.
"That there are still several hours left until night time? What’s wrong with you?"
>"Oh, darling" Rarity said, there's nothing wrong with having some fun with friends, now is there?"
"I guess not. I'm sorry about the mess, I wasn't expecting visits."

>I was annoyed at how they came without notice but they're my friends, I can’t get angry with them.
>We sat for a while, talking about nonsense.
>Some old stories about Applejack's brother, and how we used to have the biggest crush on him.
>Applejack wasn't amused by it though.
>Sadly, the conversation shifted to relationships.

>"What about you, Dashie?" Pinkie Pie asked.
"Wha-? No, I'm too, busy with soccer and all of that." I said while dodging her gaze.
>They all looked at each other.
>"You know, Dash" Rarity said "I know a couple of wonderful gentlemen that would like to meet you. They are also into sports."
"What are you trying to do, pair me with someone? I told you, I don't want to right now!"
>"Don't get upset, Rainbow." Applejack said "We're just a little worried."
"What?! Worried about what? My god, are you saying-"
>"No! of course not!" Twilight intervened. "What AJ tried to say, is that, we are worried about you..."
“Damn it, Fluttershy, did you tell them I was crying?!”
>”S-sorry…”
"I'm not a carpet muncher!"
>"Dash, we know that, please calm down." Twilight pleaded.
"Then what the hell is with this intervention?! Out! Get out!"
>"Calm down, sugarcube..."
"I said out!"

>The girls slowly walked out of the room.
>Fluttershy was the last one to get out, with some tears on her eyes.
>I was very upset, I know. But why did they have to bring that out?
>They know I’m not a lesbian I don't care about the dyke thing! I... I shouldn't care, because I know I'm not one.
>I'm straight; I got disgusted when I kissed that girl.
>I fuck a lot of guys; that proves it I'm not gay, right?
>Right?
>O-of course it does! I, I...
>I turn around and see myself on the mirror.
>I was crying again.
>Oh no, they saw me cry.
>Why the hell did they make me cry?
>I-I'm not a dumb girl like Rarity that cries all the time.
>I'm strong a-and I have self-respect. I’m not a stupid drama girl.
>...
>I-It doesn't m-matter. As long as I s-stay in my room, nothing can hurt me a-anymore...
>I, I may be a s-slut, but I'm not a dirty dyke.
>...
>Who needs them anyway...
>As long as I have men in my life, I don't need anything else.
>Yeah, that's right.
>I don't need friends like those.
>Besides, if I keep hanging around them, people will keep calling me a dyke because I only hang out with girls.
>I don't need this right now.
>Yeah, it's alright. This way is ok.
>For now at least.
>After that, I grabbed my Daring Do book again, and started it from the beginning.
>If I read it from the beginning, I can spend more time in my room.
>I need to, forget about life for a little bit.
>Just for a while, it wouldn't hurt, would it?
>Yeah, just for a little bit.
>I'm not bothering anyone. As long as people mind their own business.
>Inside this book, no one will be able to hurt me.
>No one to call me a dyke; there is no one to make me feel like a freak.
>No one that'd abandon me.
>Just me and Daring Do.
>That's all I need.
>I didn’t realize how hungry I was until I finished the book.
>Haven't eaten something since yesterday's afternoon, it feels like I’m going to die.
>As I walk down the stairs, I see the girls sitting in my kitchen.
>What are they doing here?
>I don't want them here.
>I quickly turn around but Pinkie grabs my arm.

>"Please, Dashie." She said "We're worried about you."
"Worried that I may be a fucking carpet muncher, right? I told you I'm not!"
>"Enough, Rainbow!" Applejack scolded "You know better than that. We don't believe those damn rumors! Look at you, how can you think that we believe you're a lesbian?"
>"..."
>"Dash, listen." Twilight calmly said while holding my hand. "Fluttershy didn't have to tell us about you crying. We’ve all seen you."
“... I'm not a lesbian and it doesn't hurt me when they call me that way..."
>"You may think that way but, ever since your father died, you've fallen apart."
"What? What do you mean fallen apart?! I'm still the best soccer player in the team! Why would his death affect me?"
>"Because you've changed since then "Rarity interrupted "Days after his departure, you almost killed that girl for calling you a tomboy."
"...it was an accident..."
>"After that, the rumors started. Like you, we tried to ignore them but, you've suffered so much in the past months. How do you expect us to ignore your pain?" Twilight said while squeezing my hand.
"I-It doesn't hurt a-at all..."
>"Do you miss your father?" Fluttershy said while walking towards me.
"I-I don't! He was an asshole that never cared for me! The day he died was the happiest day in my entire life! I don't need him."
>"You can cry if you want." Fluttershy said.
"For god's sake, Fluttershy, I'm not a dumb girl, I won't cry-"

>Oh no, I'm feeling tears running down my cheek.
>I have to get out of here!
>But as I tried to run back to my room, the other girls held me in a hug.
"P-please! let me go!" I cried.
>"It's ok to cry, Dash. Let it all out." Twilight lovingly said.
"I'm not a baby, I don't want to cry in front of you!" I plead.
>"Shh, don't worry about anything Dashie." Pinkie said while hugging me.
"P-please... let me go..."

>No, I have to hold my tears in.
>I won't let them think I'm a weak girl.
>I'm not! I'm a strong person!
>I can take care of myself, I don't need them.
>And I definetly don't need any hugs from them.
>Hugs?
>I-I can feel their warm bodies against mine.
>Their calm breathing around me.
>All of their beating hearts.
>N-no, stop touching me.
>I don’t want people to think I enjoy being touched by you.
>The rumors will grow.
> I don’t want to!

"Let me go! Get off me!"
>"Calm down, Dash! Hold her, AJ!" Rarity said.
"No! Stop touching me!"
>"What the heck are you talking about?"Applejack said.
"I don't want people to think I’m a dyke, stop it!"
>"AJ, let her go, let her go!" Twilight said.

>As soon as AJ let me go, I ran back to my room.
>My sanctuary.
>Yes, nothing can hurt me here.
>No boy has ever gotten in and I plan it to stay that way.
>It's only for me.
>I locked my room, closed my curtains, and sit on the darkest corner of my room.
>Far from the light.
>Far from my problems.
>Far from the outside world.
>Yes, this corner is good enough.
>Nothing will touch me here.
>But I hear a knock on my door.

>"Dash?"
"... go away, Fluttershy..." I say while hugging my legs.
>"...No. I won't. We will stay here until you're ready to come out."
"Please..."
>"I said no. You're our precious friend. We won't abandon you." She firmly said.
"I j-just want to be alone."
>"We know. We won't bother you." She paused "But when you feel like talking, we will be here, outside your room. We'll stay outside, alright?"
"..."
>"Rainbow?"
"...ok"
>I didn't notice but I fell asleep.
>When I woke up, I was still in my room.
>Alone.
>I hate being alone.
>But people keep hurting me.
>My father, even my best friends.
>It almost looks like they enjoy making me suffer.
>Some sick pleasure at seeing me crying.
>But is that true?
>Do they actually like seeing me suffer?
>I don't know.
>Better find it out.
>I slowly crawl at the door and lean back on it.
>It's ok, as long as I'm in my room, nothing will hurt me.
>Their words and laughs will stay on the outside world.
>Yeah, better end this now.

"...Fluttershy?" I say.
>"Wha- what? Is that you, Dash?" She said, while waking up.
"Are you all there?"
>"Yes, darling. We are all here." Rarity interrupted. "Are you ready to come out?"
>"..." I breathe. It's difficult to have them all on the other side of the door.
"Do you" I continue "Do you girls, hate me?"
>There is only silence coming out of the hallway.
>"We would never hate you, Dash." Fluttershy finally answered. "Why are you asking something so, dreadful?"
"Because I'm a slut..." I immediately answer without noticing it.

>Oh no.
>What did I just do?
>No no, I answered in my mind, right?
>I shut my mouth, didn't I?
>I didn't fuck up, did I?!

>"..." Silence on the other side of the door.
"I-It was a j-joke, girls..." I say.
>"What do you mean, Dash?" Twilight said.
"Hahaha, w-what a fun joke, right? C-come on, laugh with me, hahaha..."
>"Dash." One of them said.
"Imagine it, a s-slut? How can the g-great Rainbow Dash be a slut? haha..."
>"Dash, please stop."
"Laugh, damn it, laugh!" I order.
>"Is it true, Dash?" Pinkie worryingly asked.
“N-No. I-I mean, I slept with a couple of g-guys before but, that's n-normal, right? Nothing out of the ordinary..."
>"..." Once again, silence.
>Or so I thought.
>I could listen to a faint whispering on the other side of the door.
>"Do you think she's that girl from the rumors?"
"The sporty whore, isn't it?" I say. "That's how boys know me, right?"
>"What are you talking about?" Twilight paused "Why?"
"Pretty ironic. Girls call me a butch and boys call me a slut."

>As I roll up into a fetal position, I start confessing all my sins to my priests.
"I guess that I'm still a little sad about him dying."
"What a terrible person he was, hating me because I wasn't born with a dick. Still, I always hoped that maybe one day he would learn how to love me."
>Again, I feel the tears coming up through my throat, but I don't care if I cry here. It's my safe spot.
"I guess that's why I got so, upset with that girl when she called me a tomboy. I built my entire life trying to please him. And this was the result, people thinking I'm a dyke."
"Even if I try to convince myself that the rumors didn't affect me, they were a reminder that I wasted my life, trying to be something I'm not. I got tired of them and decided to, put an end to it."
"It was the first time I was with a man, so I tried to look for one that was my ideal person. Strong, athletic, funny, all the things I am but a male version." I laughed at the joke, but I stopped when they weren't laughing.
"So I invited one of the soccer players at our school. We got a little drunk, and he took me to his place."
"I was a little scared, even trembling when I was sitting on his bed." I took a deep breath, as I remembered the moment, the most special moment in my life.
"And then he hugged me. His broad back and strong arms embraced me. It was, actually the first time a man did it" I say with a little smile on my face.
"He said don't worry about it, Dash. I promise I'll be careful with the cutest girl in the world, alright? so calm down."
”Those minutes inside his hug and on his lips, were the most exciting and heartwarming moments in my entire life.”
“So I let myself lose in this pleasure.”
"But this angelic feeling didn't last." I say, while my smile faded away.
"A romantic girl like you would know how disgusting is to lose your virginity with someone you just met, right Rarity? Not being able to hold the hand of someone you really trust, knowing that he won't hurt you."
>I pause to see if she'd answer, but there was only silence.
"I was scared. Having him on top, feeling him filling my insides was both disgusting and horrific." I sighed.
"Worst part is that he didn't keep his promise, he wasn't careful with me."
"That guy kept thrusting with all his strength, panting like a dog, asking me to scream."
"It was the most humiliating moment in my life. I felt so weak, so impotent with this rabid wolf. I just wanted it to end this as quickly as possible."
"After a while, he tensed his entire body, squeezing me so hard that he almost suffocated me and then, he relaxed."
"Did it feel good for you too, babe? He asked. What a stupid question, couldn't he see that I was shaking? But I did answer it was good."
"The boy smiled, and hugged me, and immediately fell asleep."
>Once again, I smile, remembering the tight but soft grip from his arms.
"That was such a bitter sweet emotion. On one hand, this beast that hurt me was holding me, almost as if I was of his possession."
"But then again, no man before showed me this much care before, so I let him embrace me."
"I didn't sleep that night. I rubbed my head against his chest, trying to hide from the real world, hoping that this night would last forever."
"I tried to relax with his heartbeats, but every time I heard it, it reminded me of his, cock, pounding into me."
"Every time his heart beat, it hurt down here, but even if I had to suffer to stay in his arms, I'd gladly do it."
"Of course it didn't last. There isn't a mighty god in this world that would stop the moon and sun from moving across the sky."
"When he woke up and saw me inside his arms, he wanted to go for a second round."
"T-that's enough, Dash. N-no need to keep going..." Rarity said. She was clearly upset.
"Eh? Nah don't worry, I wasn't going to tell you everything. This story ends with him giving me his cellphone number, for when I was feeling lonely, or so he said."
"But when I walked back home, I threw that paper in the trashcan. I was scared and angry at him." >I paused a little bit, contemplating what actually happened at that time.
>"...and, I didn't want to fall for a guy."
>"Fall? How could you fall for someone so, despicable? For such a vulgar man?" Rarity scolded.
>It was heartwarming the way she said it, she wasn't mad at me.
>"I... I don't know. What if he was better than he showed? What if he was the best guy out there?"
>"..."
>"And what if he left me? What if he left me? I couldn't live with that."
>"Well you just find a more fitting man! No need to cry for something so-" Rarity said before being interrupted.
>"Rarity, stop! Dash, keep going." Twilight ordered.
>"If a man that never showed me any kindness left me in this state, what would happen with another one that made me feel like this?"
>"I-I'd probably die of sadness."
>"Dash, that's enough!" AJ suddenly said.
>"You're not right! You need our help, get out of there!"
>She started to bang on the door, trying to open it with all her might.
>I was scared; I didn't want someone in here.
>The rest of the girls tried to stop her from breaking in, while I stood up on the other side, almost as if waiting for a wild animal to attack me.
>"Don't you dare to come in, Applejack! I-I'm warning you!"
>"You need to come out, Dash! You'll rot in there!"
>"I said stay outside!"
>As the other girls controlled AJ, I sat on the floor again.
>"I know you hate me, AJ... I'm sorry for being such a filthy person."
>"Of course I don't hate you, you..." She sighed.
>"Ok fine, I calmed down, alright? I won't try to get inside. I Promise."
>After a couple of minutes, I calmed myself.
>Eventually, I decided to keep going.
"I guess the rumor expanded quickly. After that, I received invitations from many different guys."
>I sigh, trying to count the number of men that actually looked for me.
"I couldn't say no. The idea of repeating the feeling from that first night was intoxicating... So I accepted every single one of them into my body."
>I slowly rub my lips, still in pain after the last time.
“But not into my heart. It’s impossible for that to happen. “
>”What do you mean?” Twilight asked.
“I’m a filthy human being.”
>”You’re not, Dashie!”Pinkie said “You’re one of the best persons I’ve ever met.”
“I slept with more men than anyone can remember, Pinkie. I almost killed a girl for a simple joke and I’m obsessed with my dead father. I’m a waste.”
>”Please don’t say that.” Fluttershy said. She was a little hesitant.
>After that I stayed quiet again.
>They surely hate me now.
>How couldn’t they? I’m a whore that deserves everything insult thrown at her.
“I wish I was dead.”
>I don’t know if I said this out loud or not but, I heard one of them break into tears.
>Others began to cry too, while someone began to kick the walls.
>That must be Applejack, such a hotheaded girl.
>I suddenly notice a knot inside my throat.
>I’m going to cry again?
>I don’t care anymore.
>There is no reason left for me to hold my tears in.
>Right now, there is no that cares about me anymore.
>I’m bullied by all the cunts and used by the idiots in my school.
>The crying girls outside of my rooms probably will never speak to me.
>Is there a reason to keep living?
>I should end it all…

>But before I could even think of doing anything, there was a very strong banging on the door.
>It kept getting louder until the door broke.
>My, door, my only shield from this disgusting world…
>It was Applejack.
>Of course, who else could it be?
>I try to back away any way I can.
>I don’t want her to beat me up.
>What other reason is there to open my door like that?
>But I guess I’d deserve that.
>Maybe I fucked her crush without noticing it?
>I’m disgusting.
>On the floor, I put my arms in front of my face.
“Please don’t hit me AJ, I’m sorry…”
>I’m such a pathetic girl.
>Asking for forgiveness on the floor while crying.
>She slowly walked towards me, while the other girls looked inside the room.
>What a strange view, Rarity had her mascara running down her face, while Fluttershy tried to hide her tearing face.
>I always hated to see her cry.
>How can I blame her now? She probably wants to throw up just by looking at me.
>Applejack was finally in front of me.
>She kneeled, so that our faces were on the same height.
>And hugged me?
>”I’m sorry, Rainbow, so sorry.”
>What is she talking about?
>”I failed you as a friend; I never noticed you were suffering this bad.”
>The other girls also got closer and hugged me too.
>Their embrace was stronger than ever, as if they were trying to hold me down.
>But there was no place for me to run away.
>They desecrated my sanctuary, my only bubble that protected me from the world.
>There is no place to go now.
”No, don’t hug me so hard… I’m filthy”
>”You’re not filthy, darling.” Rarity said “You’re anything but filthy.”

>I was in the middle of this massive, almost eternal hug.
>My hands were pressed against my chest and they didn’t even let me move.
>”From now on, your pain is our pain” Pinkie said “You will never be alone again.”
“What do you mean?”
>”We’ll help you with that unfillable void” Rarity said.
“Please, no. I’m not a lesbian…”
>”Hush, girl” Applejack said “We’re not talking about that. There are other ways, I’m sure we can think on something, right Twilight?”
>”Yes, definitely; from now on, you’ll never be by yourself. We will stand right at your side.”
“I wish I could stay in my room for the rest of my life… I hate that school.”
>”Well then we’ll all transfer to another one, far away from this one” Twilight affirmed.
“What? You can’t do that! Twilight, what about your grades? You’re an honor student!”
>”I’ll manage. Right now, the most important thing is you.”
“This is the closest school to your farm, Applejack, what are you going to do?”
>I’ll think of something.”
“… I don’t deserve this, I’m a disgusting whore.”
>”You’re not a whore, stop saying that.” Fluttershy said.
“I’ve slept with dozens of men! How else can you call that?”
>”It’s not the same thing, Dashie.” Pinkie intervened.
“But… but…”
>At that moment, Fluttershy began to hum a very nice tune.
>I remember this was a song she used to sing to her pets when we were both kids.
>Maybe she still sings it to them, to calm them down when they’re scared.
>Such a cute, relaxing tune.
>It makes me feel like everything is going to be fine.

>After the whole incident, the girls decided to sleep with me.
>Applejack said she would bring Big Mac tomorrow to fix my door, before my mother could see it.
>”Is your mother still working two jobs, Rainbow?” Rarity asked.
“Yeah, bills are getting harder to pay every month.”
>”I see…”
“Don’t worry about it, Rarity. It’s not like we ‘re starving, you know?”
>Pinkie Pie decided to cook something for us, while the rest kept an eye on me.
>I don’t know why, it’s not like I’m going to run away from my own house.
>At that moment, my cellphone rang.
>A new message? Who is it from?
>I grab my phone and see it’s from an anonymous number.
>”Yo Dash, I heard you like hunk guys like me, wanna hook up tonight? I’m JT from your history class.”
>Another invitation? Well, that guy is kind of cute, so why not?
>But before I could do anything, Twilight took the phone from my hand.
”Twilght! What are you doing?”
>”I’m sorry, but it’s for your own good.”
“But…”
>”But nothing, sugar cube; we won’t let you harm yourself anymore.”
“I told you girls, I need it.”
>I know I sound pathetic but, maybe I can convince them.
>However, Twilight decided she had enough and grabbed my face.
>”No Dash, you don’t need it.”
“Wha-“
>”Repeat after me, I don’t need them.”
”I don’t…”
>”Come on, Dash, I don’t need them.”
”I don’t need them…”
>”Again.”
“I don’t need them.”
>”Once more.”
“I don’t need them.”
>”Good, very good.” Twilight said with a smile on her face. “First thing’s first. We’re going to make you a new e-mail and change your phone number.”
“But they won’t be able to contact me anymore…”
>”That’s the plan, Darling.”
>They log in to my computer and got into my e-mail.
>That’s what I get for letting it remember my passwords for me.

>As they looked through both my old and new e-mail, I noticed their expressions of disgust.
>All those vulgar messages from the boys of our school, and the insults from the girls.
>If they didn’t think I was filthy, they sure must think it now.
>They finally closed both of my e-mails for good and created a new one.
>”Alright” Twilight said “Give your new e-mail address to your mom and no one else, alright?”
“I know, I know!”
>She is so bossy. Who does she think she is? I’m older than her… for just a couple of months, but still.
>No, what am I thinking? They are doing this for my own good.
“I’m sorry for being such an awful person and making you waste your time…”
>”You’re not wasting our time, Dash” Fluttershy said “I’m sure you would do the same for us.”
>She’s right though.
>I would do anything for them, my precious friends.
>We are pretty close, right?
>I wonder…
“Hey, girls? Did someone, you know, bully you too for hanging around me?”
>They stopped doing what they were doing, and thought a little bit.
>”Well, a little bit. They tried to pull that homosexual thing with me too, but dropped it” Applejack said “Guess they don’t want to mess with the sister of one of the most handsome boys at school.” She giggled.
“And you, Fluttershy?”
>”I didn’t care for them. I was much more worried about you, Dash.”
“Twilight?”
>”It was fine, that never bothered me. I had more important things to do.
>So it was my entire fault…
>”And don’t you dare to apologize, Rainbow Dash.” Rarity said “I don’t even want you thinking this was your doing, alright?”
“Alright.”

>After that, Pinkie invited us to eat downstairs.
>It was pretty awkward; all of them were looking at me.
“You all guys can stop; I’m not going to die.”
>”Oh, my bad.” They all said at the same time.
>That made me smile a little bit.
>Then that smile became into laughter.
>And it became into six different laughs.
>It was a while since I laughed like this.
>It kept going for some minutes, until we all stopped.
“Thanks for being with me, girls.”
>They all stood up and hugged me again.
>”We’ll never let you down again, alright?” Twilight said.

>I can’t sleep.
>My heart is aching, it feels cold.
>This is stupid; I cannot betray my friends for what they’ve done so far.
>But I need it, so bad.
>What was his name? JT? I think I know where he lives.
>Yeah, he is a friend of the soccer team’s captain!
>If I go right now, maybe I can still find him.
>It’ll be the last time.
>Yeah, of course, one more time won’t hurt.
>I’ll go with him, and then come back without them noticing it.
>Without making any noise, I step out of my bed and quietly walk through my friends.
>I pick some clothes from one of my drawers and exit the bedroom.
>I put them on in the hallway, a cute, short skirt, a sexy shirt and my favorite boots.
>And slowly walk down the stairs.
>But every step fills me with guilt.
>I’m not going there, right?
>However, every time I think of returning, my aching heart forces me to go down another step.
>It feels like I’m being ripped apart.
>If I don’t hurry up, I may miss this chance.
>And if they discover I was gone, they will undoubtedly hate me.
>What should I do?
>But my answer was in front of me, I walked down all the stairs.
>I slowly reach out the doorknob, savoring my next embrace.
>If I cannot experience that embracement, I’m going to go insane.
>It’s the only thing that keeps me alive.
>I may as well kill myself if I cannot taste it!
>My hand gently rubs the doorknob.
>It’s so close to me, this door is the only thing standing in my way.
>Once I beat it, nothing else will be able to stop me from going.
>And my friends?
>I-I told you, it will be the last time!
>You’re betraying them, aren’t you?
>Shut up!
>After all they’ve done for you?
>I said shut the hell up!
>They don’t deserve this, you know that.
>Shut it, shut it! I can’t stand it anymore!
>Then don’t go.
>Fuck off!
>I suddenly open the door with all my strength.
>Now nothing can stop me now.

>It’s 5am, almost the dawn of a new day and Fluttershy wakes up.
>Like Dash, she had some problems to sleep, but couldn’t stop thinking on her friend.
>However, knowing that they were all with her deeply calmed her.
>She stood up to check out Dash.
>But she was gone.
>”Oh god, girls! Girls wake up! She’s gone!” The timid girl shouted.
>As if a fire broke up in the house, they all jumped out of their bed and ran out to the hallway.
>When they saw the open door they believed the worst possible thing happened.
>Without thinking it twice, the five girls ran out of the house, trying to find the girl.
>However, Twilight and Fluttershy tripped with each other and fell right on top of each other.
>”Come on, Twilight, there may still be a chance to find her!”
>”I know, I know! Let me just-“
>The smart one abruptly stopped.
>”Twilight?”
>”Shh! Listen!”
>In the darkness of the night, they heard a sobbing coming from one of the rooms in the house.
>They slowly walked through the hallways and found the open door where the sound was coming from.
>In there, Rainbow Dash, dressed in very revealing clothes, was crying in a fetal position.
>”Rainbow, Dash?”
>The athlete slowly turned around and covered her face, for she didn’t want her friends to see her in that state.
”Don’t look at me, stay away from me…”
>”What a relief.” Twilight thought to herself “Fluttershy, stay with her, alright? Take care of her while I go look for the other ones. Don’t lose sight of her!” She finally ordered.
>With Twilight storming out of the room, only the two old friends remained.
“I’m filthy, a dirty girl.”
>”Don’t cry, Dashie, please, what happened?”

>Fluttershy grabbed my shoulder, but I move it away.
“Don’t, you’ll get dirty.”
>”S-sorry” She said “Dash, what happened?”
“I-I was going to go and look for JT…”
>”But you didn´t.”
“I needed him so bad, but I couldn’t step out of this house. I thought about all of you girls.”
>I could see Fluttershy smile, but before she could say anything, I continue.
“Still, my heart couldn’t take it. So I called him to his house.”
>Her face became pale. Her smile completely disappeared.
“He told me that he was already with another girl… but he could fuck me another day.”
>I sighed, ready to tell the worst part.
“So I begged. I begged him to come to my house. I-I told him I would fuck him better than that s-slut, that I would suck him all night, let him do whatever he wished with my body.”
>I began to sob again.
“I even told him that… that he could bring friends and they all could have fun with me.”
>She didn’t say anything.
“He laughed at me… He said to me, how could I be such a vapid whore? And when he was going hanging down the phone I…”
>”…You what?”
“I… told him that you were all here, that if he came he could’ve slept with all of us at the same time.”
>Fluttershy looked at me, her eyes lost in mine. I saw fear in them; fear and anger.
>”What happened next?”
“He laughed again and hung down the phone.”
>She sighed with relief.
>I could see it on her face, for a split second, she thought she was going to be raped.
>”After that, you came here?”
“Yes…”
>Fluttershy walked in front of me and kneeled, so that our faces looked at each other.
>”I’m so sorry for this, Dash.”
>She then slapped me with all her strength.

>”Don’t you ever, ever scare me like that! Is that clear?”
“Yes… I’m so sorry! You can all leave now; you don’t have to keep dealing with trash like me.”
>”Oh no, we won’t, you’re our friends, and we are going to get you out of this hole even if it’s the last thing we do!”
>I’ve never seen Fluttershy like this before.
>She was always so shy, but now, she’s intimidating me.
>We then listen to footsteps coming into the room.
>They were the rest of the girls, puffing from the excessive running.
>Twilight, who was the last one to get in, almost fainted for the physical activity, so she had to held herself against the wall, turning the light on by accident.
>”Oh my god Dash, thank goodness you’re alright!” Rarity said, almost throwing up.
>”Don’t you… do that… again…” Pinkie said.
“I’m so sorry girls, I was-“
>Fluttershy shut me up with her hand.
>”She was just having a hard time sleeping, that’s all.”
>The girls then look around the room I was at.
>A very dusty studio that no one has used for a long time.
>”What is this place?” Twilight said.
“This was my father’s old studio.”
>The girls all looked at me again.
“I used to come here to color drawings for him. I tried to make him happy with them since he was always so angry.”
>I stood up and opened a drawer.
“After he died, I looked for the drawings everywhere; putting this entire place upside down, but I didn’t find them.”
“I guess, I had some hope left that he loved me and that he at least saved the drawings.”
>I walked around the room for a while, whipping off my tears.
“Do you guys think that I deserved to be born? If I was a male, nothing like this would’ve happened.”
>I then hugged Fluttershy.
“I understand now. I won’t stand in your way anymore. Please, help me; you’re the only persons I care in my life.”
> I whispered into Fluttershy’s ear.
“Thanks for taking care of me.”

“I need to tell you girls what happened tonight.”
>Fluttershy tried to stop me, but it’s the right thing to do.
>I told them about my sneaking and calling the guy.
>Telling them about “that” part was extremely bitter, for them and me.
>When I finished telling them, there were a wide range of emotions in their faces.
>Pinkie Pie was worried for me while Rarity felt incredibly insulted, it took the other girls hours of persuasion to make her talk to me again.
>Applejack was quite mad with me, but even angrier with JT.
>As for Twilight, she was quite scared.
>She said that when they all got back into the house, that she saw some shadows walking around.
>That made us all pretty nervous.
>Applejack ran back to the hallway, closed the main door and called his brother.
>Minutes later, he came on his truck, and checked out the garden and the inside of the house with a baseball bat.
>Luckily, no one was in the house and it was just in Twilight’s head.
“I’m sorry for all of this.”
>”I hope you learned your lesson” Applejack said while hitting me on the arm “Never do that again, alright?”
“Sorry…”
>”It’s ok; you weren’t on your senses.” She heartwarmingly laughed “Besides, if that friggin TJ was around the house, Big Mac would’ve pound his teeth with no effort.”
>It took some more time for Twilight to forgive me and even a longer one for Rarity to do the same, but in the end no one left my side.
>”I have a crazy idea” Twilight said “but if we stick together, I think we can pull it off, what do you say?”
“What do you mean?”

>Days passed after the incident.
>We decided it would be the best to talk to my mom about what was happening with me.
>The bullying, the boys and the rape invitation.
>She listened carefully to what they were all saying.
>Then, Twilight brought her idea.
>”We think it would be the best for Rainbow Dash to move away. Granny Smith would be glad to accept her in the farm and we will help her with anything we need.”
>Needless to say, my mother was surprised, but didn’t object.
>However, she asked me to get out of the house while she talked with the other girls.
>As I sit outside the house, I keep wondering.
>Is this even a good idea?
>Granny Smith jokingly said that she’s going to break my back in the farm. It was a joke but still.
>Well I guess it’s a better option than Twilight’s original plan of moving all together to an apartment in the city.
>We’re just teenagers after all.
>Will I be able to live in a farm, go to a different school and keep playing soccer?
>And what is mom telling them about?
>”Hey, Dash.” Fluttershy said.
“Oh, hi. Are you done talking over there?”
>”Yeah, your mother is telling us about how she was a bad mom and should’ve looked for you better and- oh, I wasn’t supposed to say that…”
>I laugh at Fluttershy’s clumsiness.
“Do you think everything is going to be alright? I never worked in a farm before.
>”I’m sure Granny Smith wouldn’t make you work that hard from the beginning, besides, remember she makes some amazing apple pie.
“I guess, but you’re also changing schools with me; don’t you think that’s too much?”
>”Of course not! If we’re not there for you, who knows what would happen.”
>Fluttershy hugs me.
 >“We need to stick around like the good friends we are.” She finishes.
>I smile and hug Fluttershy back.
“No, not friends. We’re a family now.”