Kiera (2)

I’m sorry to bring this up again but I really need to tell you this. You have been such a big part of my life for the last 2-3 years because of everything for me has revolves around you. Which is something that you know by now, when you first sent me the paragraph about how you feel that we couldn’t be friends anymore. it actually broke me because I thought that I had lost you and that’s something I’m scared of and why I have been getting emotional. Recently. You are the best person I have ever met and probably will ever meet with how caring you are, you listen to everything and don’t judge me in any way, you don’t just shut anyone out even if they have done wrong and smart. To just top it of your pretty and I just don’t wanna loose you.

What I’m saying here is that your special to me even without that I still do have a crush on you. We have had our lows like that paragraph that you sent prior to Christmas but we have had our highs as well. I wanna be friends with you.

You say to me how can I still like you when you have been a bitch to me, my answer to that is if I just write you off as a bitch (which Ik you aren’t) then I have no one to communicate my issues to.

The neckless.... that was something that I thought would have been a nice gift to you even I found it but looking back now it seems dumb and Would have done batter as a birthday present, even know you did seem to be very much appreciate it but I feel that your not comfortable with that. The true reasons for getting you it where that I had to somewhat give back to you on how you have dealt with my shit shit over the years and yes,I did think you were special to me in more ways then one.

When I talk about issues that I have acquired over this period of time. I have blamed them on you in the past yet we both know it’s not your fault. I asked the questions that got me those answers and maybe I shouldn’t have asked some of them. I should have never resented you for all of that because we can’t pick who we like and it was just plain unfair to blame you for not having feeling that you have never had and probably never will.