it was good but I FUCKIN' FELL ASLEEP

Musik: -Tony sat on the couch, chewing on his cheek until it was raw as he stared down at his phone, moving it from hand to hand. His mind clearly lost in thought as he reread Cadence's texts in his brain. He moved his eyes to look at Ryder as he pushed his nosea gainst his leg, he dropped his hand down to pet over his head, staring off again.-
Tsaaq: ((Oh god.))
Tsaaq: She walked towards the door, pushing it open as she stepped into the apartment. Hayley inhaled deeply as she closed the door behind her and walked towards the living room where Tony and Ryder had been. "Where's that damn kitty?" She asked aimlessly before glancing at Tony's face. "You alright?" Hayley asked softly.
Musik: -He looked over at the door as it opened, his eyes instantly landing on Hayley's face as she asked about the damn cat. He pushed up to his feet, letting his phone fall from his hands as he stepped closer to her, wrapping his arms around her waist and dropping his head down to her shoulder.-
Tsaaq: She lifted her head a bit and wrapped her arms around him in return but still she furrowed her eyebrows. "I mean, I really like it when you show affection... Like, a lot." Hayley whispered unsurely and she squeezed herself against his form. "But didn't answer me." She pouted a bit, wondering what the fuck was up.
Musik: -He cocked his head to the side to bury his face against her neck.- "Cadence told me.." -He pecked her neck gently before lifting his eyes to look at her.-
Tsaaq: Hayley's eyes widened as she lowered her head for a moment then looked up at him. "Everything?" She asked with her voice cracking a bit, feeling the tears coming already.
Musik: "No stop don't cry. But yeah, kind of. I think. She told me about the bleach.." -He said through a strained voice as he brought his hands up to cup her cheeks, running his thumbs under her eyes.-
Tsaaq: Despite him telling her not to cry that somehow made more tears come. "I'm sorry." Hayley struggled to say. "It just hurts so much-" She cut herself off and sniffled as she wiped her nose. "I've just been so tired and when we got home for Thanksgiving everything just felt worse so I didn't want to hurt anymore." Hayley began to get hysterical. "And I'm sorry because I didn't want to hurt anybody."
Musik: "Why are you apologizing? You have nothing to be sorry for, Hayley." -He sat down and slid his hand into hers, pulling her down to sit next to him.- "I'M sorry you feel this way. I should've seen it more, I should've been helping you. Instead I was just buying you a cat hoping it'd make you feel all better." -He shook his head.- "What's going on? Really going on inside your head?"
Tsaaq: She kept her head down low as she sobbed. "B-because-" Hayley stuttered and plopped down beside him. "I can't." She forced out. "Because if I do you're not going to want to be with me anybody and I can't lose anymore people. I don't know what I'll do." Hayley said quickly, wiping her cheek. "I didn't want anybody to get worried abour me because I'm shitty."
Musik: "What are you saying? I'm not fuckin' going anywhere, Hayley. I'm right here." -He said softly and snaked his arms around her, pulling her closer to him.- "I'm not leaving you. Tell me what's wrong."
Tsaaq: ((The post is already done!))
Tsaaq: "Yes you will, everybody leaves." Hayley sobbed louder. "And that's okay because I can tell people are a lot happier when I'm not around." She slowly nodded her head as she looked up at him. "It makes me wish I wasn't around myself either so I could be happy too." Hayley leaned against Tony. "Everything started going wrong after they raped me." She strained and couldn't really say words after that cause tears.
Musik: -He brought his hands up to cup her cheeks, forcing her eyes to look at him.- "Hayely look at me. I'm not going anywhere. I'm here. Okay?" -He furrowed his brows, knowing she was raped but she's never really talked about it.- "Who's they?"
Tsaaq: Her lower lip quivered as she looked at him. "I don't know, there was a lot of them." Hayley answered weakly. "Um..." She sniffled again and tried to calm her tears. "This guy I hung out with for a little bit, Thaddeus, I don't know who else. I don't remember." Hayley inhaled deeply. "Wait, Harper said Devin was there too... And I keep trying not to think about it but it keeps coming back in my head and I feel so shitty all the time." She muttered.
Musik: -His face went pale as she mentioned the names, staring into her face.- "Thaddeus? D......Devin? I'm going to fucking kill them.." -He grumbled and shook his head.- "Wait Harper was there? How did you end up getting raped if someone was there to stop them?"
Tsaaq: "I don't know. I only remember bits and pieces. She said she tried to help and I know I heard her calling my name." Hayley answered, shaking her head as well. "I keep trying to figure out what I did wrong." She whispered. "It's my fault, everything that happens to me is my fault." Hayley began to sob again.
Musik: "You didn't do anything wrong. They're deadbeats. Dead meat, really. I'll kill Devin first, then Thaddeus after I get the rest of their names. Maybe Harper can help me.." -He trailed off, chewing on his lip slightly before looking at her.- "Nothing is your fault, babe. Not this. Nothing that has happened to you is your fault stop saying that." -He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into his chest.-
Tsaaq: She held onto him tight. "I lost my baby and I didn't even know I was pregnant." Hayley said past her tears. "I'm gross." She whispered, just letting it all out now. "I didn't want you to know, I didn't want you to know how gross I am on the inside."
Musik: "Will you stop it? You're not gross. If I thought you were gross I wouldn't have you practically living with me, Hayley. You didn't know you were pregnant, that's the thing. You wouldn't have lost it if you knew. But maybe it's a good thing.. You wouldn't have wanted to carry a baby that was by one of them. You want to carry a baby by someone you love. Trust me when I tell you that. It makes everything so much easier."
Tsaaq: Hayley stared up at him with tired sad eyes. "You're right." She whispered to him. "I wouldn't want that." Her eyes came to a close and she lowered her head again. "I don't even know what I'd do with a baby, just give Remy another reason to call me stupid." She said softly then sighed. "And there's something else..."
Musik: "Well Remy is stupid and he's on my set to kill list too.." -He said softly and watched her face.- "What? What else is there?"
Tsaaq: She stayed silent for a moment as she looked at him. "I've also been sad because..." Hayley trailed off, feeling her heart pound in her chest. "I-" She began to say. "I fell so sad and guilty because-" She stammered then chickened out at the last minute. "We haven't had sex because of me." Hayley said in a mumur as she kept her head down.
Musik: -He shook his head, running his hand over her hair.- "Stop it. It's.. Fine. it's fine. We can wait as long as you need. I don't NEED sex. Especially when I know you're not gonna be into it. It's fine." -He nodded and kissed her temple gently.-
Tsaaq: Hayley let out another sigh. "You're too good to me." She said softly and turning her head to kiss him. "You're one of the only people who make me feel good." Hayley whimpered. "If I did die that night I probably still would've felt bad because I would hate for you to blame yourself. You actually give a shit about me... Which is why I feel so bad."
Musik: "Stop feeling bad. I mean, I would've figured out a way to bring you back to life and I would've killed you myself.." -He said softly.- "I almost lost my bestfriend to suicide, I won't lose my girlfriend. I didn't know anything was wrong with her, I couldn't help her. But I'll help you. I will." -He nodded.-