speeches_and_shit.txt :: Jan 14, 2016

So, I gave a presentation tonight at work (CENSORED).  I thought it was going to go down well, and well, it didn't.<br />
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The previous meeting was about trying to find a way so that developers could make sure that their code worked<br />
before they pushed into the git repository.  This seeeeeemed like an easy thing to do, since myself i had personal<br />
revelations / thoughts that I felt (note: felt, not knew) everyone else had.<br />
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It turns out that while giving the presentation for what I thought was best, I wasn't aware that the goals we had<br/>
agreed on in the previous meeting, were forgotten.  My bad.  I did apologise to those in the meeting (actually I used <br />
the #general channel for our slack comms channel to apologise to everyone).  I had been working on the POC (Proof <br />
of Concept) all day, and even during the meeting.  i came across an `arc diff` error while I was giving the PoC.<br />
This wasn't accepted as being a PoC for some reason and instantly and shortly afterwards turned into a free for all (2<br />
people for those most passionate (2 others).<br />
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I should have known going into a presentation (sorta was aware of this) with the entire development community of my<br />
company that I would receive negative feedback.  I am pretty open to negative feedback from what I say, and I mean<br />
usually being myself I expect negative feedback, and while receiving that negative feedback i want to know what I can<br />
do to change what I'm saying that has that negative feedback.  It's a very rare thing that I think fully, and get<br />
nothing but PAR or positive feedback.<br />
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I became instantly defensive when hearing nothing but negative feedback from those also passionate about what I was
attempting to solve.  I've never been a developer, I've never managed people, i've never been a part of a team where
I was required (as a team) to be responsible for the outcome of developers code.  I know this to be somewhat a baby
thing (adults taking care of wiping ass) that was part of what i was doing.  It turns out I was responsible for the
entire automation (hooray! seriously I like computers), and I enjoy being that person.

I hope I am prespared for the next time I give a presentation.  I suppose I always expect negativity, I just also expect<br />
those that have that type of feedback to give an alternative.