Hey so I want to address something I did in late May I'm not proud of, why I haven't been around much lately, and why I've had my account private for a while. So a little over 2 months ago now, I quoted someone's tweet and basically harassed them over something they said that I didn't agree with, and they and their followers rightfully harassed me back. I was honestly out of line and I went too far with what I said. However, the harassment against me got to the point where people were screenshotting old tweets of mine that had stuff like slurs in it, racist language, misogyny, and other horrible things I said a long time ago as a way to get back at me, and those tweets ended up spreading across twitter a good bit. I'm going to say right now that I shouldn't have done what I did in the first place and the consequences of my actions were justified, like I didn't know him at all and I should have just moved on instead of saying anything and insulting him as a person. That wasn't right of me to do at all, and if you see this pastebin, know that that was super out of character of me, I sincerely regret my actions, and I'm sorry. That was a horrible week for me, and coming after anyone in general, especially someone I don't even know, to make myself feel better is absolutely wrong and I deeply regret it. I also want to apologize for when I unprivated around E3 and made a bunch of excited tweets about Metroid Dread. I should have addressed things first before I said anything else publicly, and I didn't think about what I was doing due to my excitement about the game and my desire to tell people my thoughts on it. I also apologize to any friends of mine that got involved as a result of my horrible decision and any ensuing consequences of it too.

	To address those tweets, I just want to say that none of what I said back then reflects who I am at all today and I'm super sorry to anyone that might have seen those tweets and took offense to what was said in them. I've grown a lot in general since I first made my twitter account in late 2012, halfway through my senior year of high school. In that time, I've realized I'm bi, I started paying more attention to politics and stopped listening to what my super right wing conservative parents say about politics as well, I broke off from my toxic high school friend group who I know for a fact heavily influenced a lot of the language in those tweets, and in general I started speedrunning, which lead me to a community of very wonderful and diverse people that helped me understand and care more about the world and people around me. If you think those tweets are indicative of who I am today, then I won't stop you from thinking that, but I know for a fact that I've grown up and matured considerably since then and that they do not reflect the person that I've become. Seeing the shit I said back then today really hasn't sat right with me at all and I heavily regret the things I said. Like I spiraled into a super hard depression when I saw some of the stuff that people found that I said all that time ago, and I have my friends to thank for talking with me in Discord and helping me through these times.

	I will say that this whole experience has actually helped me a bit in the end. I've needed to get my shit together in my personal life for a while, and the blowback from all of this has taught me that I need to be less on twitter in general. That's helped me get the motivation to look for jobs again, not to mention I've been going to therapy for the last few weeks as well! I have a lot of baggage from the past 8 years in particular that I've needed to unload, and so far it's been helping me out a lot! All I can do for now is own up to my actions, apologize, do better, and try to move on with my life, so I hope you'll allow me to do that. Apologies for how long it took to address this as well, but more than anything else I didn't want to ruin the Calithon event I helped plan and run in June or throw my friend I raced in SGDQ in July under the bus because of my stupid actions and end up screwing anyone over involved in any of those events.