[11/29/2010 4:25:03 PM] Cammylivers: I've just been a bit bugged for a while lately. It's a lot of shit. Sorry if it seems like I won't let anything go.
[11/29/2010 4:25:48 PM] : What's going on then? I've been away for a while, since i came back from vacations only today. So i still need to catch up with certain things.
[11/29/2010 4:26:09 PM] Cammylivers: I came back from vacation from Miami and a lot of shit happened
[11/29/2010 4:26:30 PM] : Neat. How Miami was?
[11/29/2010 4:26:41 PM] Cammylivers: It was great. I spent it with Internet Gentleman
[11/29/2010 4:26:49 PM] Cammylivers: Who was courting me the entire time since I am single now
[11/29/2010 4:27:09 PM] Cammylivers: He bought me silver earrings, a real gold chain, and expensive chocolates
[11/29/2010 4:27:28 PM] Cammylivers: And we went out and stuff
[11/29/2010 4:27:53 PM] Cammylivers: Not necessarily as a date, but...we went out
[11/29/2010 4:28:02 PM] Cammylivers: And a lot of stuff happened and we are a lot closer now as a result
[11/29/2010 4:28:40 PM] Cammylivers: James, however, seems pretty distraught
[11/29/2010 4:28:44 PM] Cammylivers: Not at the fact we're going out
[11/29/2010 4:28:49 PM] Cammylivers: Or anything like that
[11/29/2010 4:28:50 PM] Cammylivers: But the fact he feels he cannot compete
[11/29/2010 4:29:22 PM] Cammylivers: I mean, Alejandro is like....seriously fucking loaded, has perfect boyfriend qualities, is an intellectual, brings sexy back, etc.
[11/29/2010 4:30:09 PM] Cammylivers: He is literally everything a woman with a shred of intelligence would want
[11/29/2010 4:30:15 PM] Cammylivers: I mean EVERYTHING
[11/29/2010 4:30:17 PM] : Well, James shouldn't let that bother him, i suppose. I'm pretty sure he did the best he could for you as a boyfriend.
[11/29/2010 4:30:24 PM] Cammylivers: That's the thing
[11/29/2010 4:30:27 PM] Cammylivers: He didn't
[11/29/2010 4:30:32 PM] Cammylivers: And he realizes this now
[11/29/2010 4:30:39 PM] Cammylivers: And he feels guilty
[11/29/2010 4:31:21 PM] Cammylivers: The whole reason why he and I broke up was because of the fact that he says I can depend on him, comes up short, and has no job
[11/29/2010 4:31:41 PM] Cammylivers: I was constantly breaking my back just to save up money just to see him
[11/29/2010 4:31:56 PM] Cammylivers: And it's a lot of pressure
[11/29/2010 4:32:05 PM] Cammylivers: I would not go out. I would stay home. I would be away from friends to save money.
[11/29/2010 4:32:14 PM] Cammylivers: And that's very unfair when I go there, and he is just this huge asshole
[11/29/2010 4:32:23 PM] Cammylivers: Who READS my private Skype conversations
[11/29/2010 4:33:03 PM] : Woah.
[11/29/2010 4:33:10 PM] : He actually did that?
[11/29/2010 4:33:22 PM] Cammylivers: Out of jealousy over Alejandro
[11/29/2010 4:33:25 PM] Cammylivers: I'm serious
[11/29/2010 4:33:30 PM] : I was going to say something like that.
[11/29/2010 4:33:39 PM] Cammylivers: I was out of the room and he read ALL of my conversation with him
[11/29/2010 4:33:45 PM] Cammylivers: While I was out
[11/29/2010 4:33:47 PM] Cammylivers: And he didn't like what I said
[11/29/2010 4:34:20 PM] Cammylivers: I wrote him a script only to find out he shat all over it to make it more convenient to animate, when all he has to do is form together his team of animators and get off his ass and do it
[11/29/2010 4:34:31 PM] Cammylivers: All of it involving SIMPLE motion tweening
[11/29/2010 4:34:39 PM] Cammylivers: That you can do after learning flash for 2 minutes
[11/29/2010 4:34:53 PM] Cammylivers: It's the easiest shit in the world, and he just shits all over it
[11/29/2010 4:35:09 PM] : I take it you're relationship with James is strained, even as just a friendship.
[11/29/2010 4:35:15 PM] Cammylivers: And then says "Oh, let's go out to this Japanese place like I promised you when the guys show up." You know, the Bristol trip, if you saw it.
[11/29/2010 4:35:27 PM] Cammylivers: He spent 40 pounds on XBox Live Points
[11/29/2010 4:35:44 PM] Cammylivers: And we only went out on an actual date twice. One of which he did NOT pay for, but his brother did.
[11/29/2010 4:35:56 PM | Edited 4:36:01 PM] Cammylivers: I was there for THREE WEEKS
[11/29/2010 4:36:06 PM] Cammylivers: And he brother ends up supporting me
[11/29/2010 4:36:16 PM] : Who pays for James living anyways? Just his brother?
[11/29/2010 4:36:24 PM] Cammylivers: And his Dad
[11/29/2010 4:36:34 PM] Cammylivers: He has been looking for 2 years and still no job
[11/29/2010 4:36:46 PM | Edited 4:36:48 PM] Cammylivers: And we would fight about this because I was trying so hard to get there and getting no help from him
[11/29/2010 4:36:59 PM] : Yeah, i remember you saying a long time ago that his father was a douchebag to him or something like that.
[11/29/2010 4:37:03 PM] Cammylivers: He is
[11/29/2010 4:37:16 PM | Edited 4:37:22 PM] Cammylivers: But he is only a douchebag because James won't get off his fucking ass and actually apply for work
[11/29/2010 4:37:36 PM] Cammylivers: While I was there, we saw TWO job vacancies, right?
[11/29/2010 4:37:40 PM] Cammylivers: HE didn't apply to a single one
[11/29/2010 4:37:41 PM] : I was imagining that.
[11/29/2010 4:37:48 PM] Cammylivers: But then wants to bitch to me about how hard it is to find work
[11/29/2010 4:37:57 PM | Edited 4:38:00 PM] Cammylivers: It's in his fucking face and he does nothing
[11/29/2010 4:38:09 PM] : I really would respect James much more if he finally did some effort on improving his life.
[11/29/2010 4:38:19 PM] Cammylivers: Exactly
[11/29/2010 4:38:24 PM] Cammylivers: He has no ambitions or goals
[11/29/2010 4:38:25 PM] Cammylivers: At all
[11/29/2010 4:38:41 PM] Cammylivers: He has no drive. He says he's trying, but never does.
[11/29/2010 4:38:48 PM] : Though, aren't you being a bit too harsh on him? I've never seen you so upset at James before.
[11/29/2010 4:38:59 PM] Cammylivers: I was waiting on him for 2 years
[11/29/2010 4:39:04 PM] Cammylivers: To get his life together
[11/29/2010 4:39:09 PM] Cammylivers: He makes promises he does not keep
[11/29/2010 4:39:22 PM] Cammylivers: He violated my fucking privacy
[11/29/2010 4:39:40 PM] Cammylivers: And he showed barely any appreciation for me further down the line
[11/29/2010 4:39:45 PM] Cammylivers: Sure, he made a video here and there
[11/29/2010 4:39:48 PM] Cammylivers: And that's nice
[11/29/2010 4:39:58 PM] Cammylivers: But everything I done for him compltely overshadows everything he did for me
[11/29/2010 4:40:05 PM] Cammylivers: And I remained helpful, patient, and full of advice
[11/29/2010 4:40:11 PM] Cammylivers: Advice he NEVER FUCKING TOOK
[11/29/2010 4:40:31 PM] Cammylivers: And as a result, he has nothing going for him in his life
[11/29/2010 4:42:29 PM] : Seems that way. He reached a point where the internet is his life, pretty much. I can't really imagine him doing anything that isn't internet-related. I think it's been that way for more than a year.
[11/29/2010 4:42:49 PM] Cammylivers: I just couldn't take it anymore
[11/29/2010 4:43:00 PM] Cammylivers: I have so much patience, and all I wanted for him was to get his life together
[11/29/2010 4:43:18 PM] Cammylivers: "I promise I'll find work. It's any day now." Any day now was like ages ago, dude
[11/29/2010 4:44:04 PM] : I would give out more about my true opinion on James, but i think you need to chill down for now. Getting so emotionally attached to internet issues isn't really healthy, at least in my opinion.
[11/29/2010 4:44:23 PM | Edited 4:44:38 PM] Cammylivers: Then Alejandro came along and awakened me as an intellectual and the same 4 topics on lillyday of video games, funny drama that's going on, comics, and movies just got old to me.
[11/29/2010 4:44:50 PM] Cammylivers: We would spend it not talking to each other
[11/29/2010 4:44:56 PM] Cammylivers: And it's not an emotional attachment to the internet, mind you
[11/29/2010 4:45:01 PM] Cammylivers: The internet can pretty much kiss my ass
[11/29/2010 4:45:10 PM] Cammylivers: It's an emotional attachment to James himself
[11/29/2010 4:45:30 PM] Cammylivers: And a lot of this shit that cropped up only happened IN PERSON while i was there
[11/29/2010 4:45:46 PM] : Well, sorry for me insinuating then. That was not my intention.
[11/29/2010 4:46:03 PM] Cammylivers: So the internet really had nothing to do with it. It's cool, though.
[11/29/2010 4:46:19 PM] Cammylivers: But like...oh my God, the last time I was there was just so much shit
[11/29/2010 4:47:06 PM] Cammylivers: Then I come back and then I get frustrated
[11/29/2010 4:47:12 PM] Cammylivers: And I just....couldn't do it anymore
[11/29/2010 4:47:15 PM] Cammylivers: I had to leave
[11/29/2010 4:47:34 PM] Cammylivers: I felt like I was suffocating
[11/29/2010 4:47:45 PM] Cammylivers: Because I'm constantly trying to help and he does nothing with his life
[11/29/2010 4:48:48 PM] Cammylivers: If he's not going to appreciate what I do for him, then I'm going somewhere else. Internet Gentleman (Alejandro) filled in that gap. And he actually DOES appreciate me. And his life is already figured out.