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- [guitar playing]
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- [audience cheering]
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- Hey!!
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- ♪ Last week, I attended a family affair ♪
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- ♪ And a few remarked
- Upon my recent growth of facial hair ♪
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- ♪ "You look just like your father did
- With that beard," someone said ♪
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- ♪ I answered back, "I am him ♪
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- ♪ Even though my old man's dead" ♪
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- ♪ I didn't want to be him ♪
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- ♪ Well, at first I did ♪
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- ♪ And I loved and looked up to him
- As a little kid ♪
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- ♪ He sent me to his old school
- I was a numeral with his name ♪
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- ♪ And he gave me this gold signet ring
- And he wore one just the same ♪
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- ♪ I guess that I believed him ♪
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- ♪ Probably it was true ♪
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- ♪ When he told me I was just like him ♪
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- ♪ That's what some fathers do ♪
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- ♪ But a father's always older
- And my dad was rather tall ♪
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- ♪ Who says size doesn't matter? ♪
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- ♪ He was big and I was small ♪
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- ♪ I needed to be big enough ♪
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- ♪ To be someone someday ♪
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- ♪ And I learned I had to beat him ♪
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- ♪ That was the only way ♪
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- ♪ I learned I had to fight him ♪
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- ♪ My own flesh, blood, bone, and kin
- But I felt I was just like him ♪
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- ♪ Can a man's son be his twin? ♪
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- ♪ First we fought for my mother ♪
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- ♪ That afforded little joy ♪
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- ♪ When he left, she was heartbroken ♪
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- ♪ I was still their little boy ♪
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- ♪ But I started to get bigger ♪
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- ♪ And to win the ugly game ♪
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- ♪ Well, I made a little money ♪
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- ♪ And I got a bit of fame ♪
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- ♪ And I saw how this could wound him ♪
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- ♪ Yeah, this could do the trick ♪
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- ♪ And if I made it big enough
- I could kill him off quick ♪
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- ♪ But how can you murder someone
- in a way that they don't die? ♪
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- ♪ I didn't want to kill him ♪
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- ♪ That would be suicide ♪
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- ♪ I got frightened and I backed off ♪
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- ♪ I let up I was through ♪
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- ♪ And in the end, he did himself in ♪
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- ♪ Usually that's what we do ♪
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- ♪ I'm alive and he is dead ♪
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- ♪ And neither of us won ♪
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- ♪ It's spoiled for the victor ♪
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- ♪ Once the vanquishing is done ♪
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- ♪ A man becomes immortal ♪
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- ♪ Through his daughter or his son ♪
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- ♪ And when he fears his legacy ♪
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- ♪ A man can come undone ♪
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- ♪ The beard is a reminder ♪
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- ♪ I'm a living part of him ♪
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- ♪ Although my father's dead and gone ♪
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- ♪ I'm his surviving twin ♪
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- ♪ Although the old man's dead and gone ♪
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- ♪ I'm his surviving twin ♪
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- Hey!
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- Welcome to Surviving Twin.
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- That was the title track.
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- It's a posthumous collaboration,
- in which I'm gonna combine and connect
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- some of my songs
- with the writing of my late father,
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- the esteemed Life magazine columnist
- Loudon Wainwright Junior.
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- He wrote under the byline
- of Loudon Wainwright,
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- and his column, "The View From Here,"
- appeared in Life magazine
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- throughout the 1960s and '70s and '80s
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- when Life was ubiquitous
- on every coffee table in America,
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- way back when there were coffee tables.
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- My dad wrote
- about the big stories of his day,
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- the Vietnam War,
- the Project Mercury astronauts,
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- he interviewed Martin Luther King
- and Robert Kennedy
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- and Marilyn Monroe and...
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- the Maharishi.
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- But he also wrote about his personal life,
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- including his feelings
- about his own father,
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- and they were complicated feelings.
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- My dad's father died
- when my dad was just 17.
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- So my dad never got to say,
- "Fuck you, Dad!"
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- It's so important, kids.
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- So his father was a ghost figure for him
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- and that's reflected a little bit
- in this first piece I'm going to do
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- that my dad wrote, for you.
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- Let's have the card.
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- So when you see that card--
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- Not that particular... you know,
- when a card comes up,
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- when a card comes up,
- that's my father talking to you.
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- Okay, and now the card's up.
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- This is my father talking to you
- about his father.
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- If I remain still
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- if I am alone and silent long enough
- to hear the sound of my own blood
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- or breathing or digestion
- above the rustling of leaves
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- and the whir of the refrigerator...
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- my father is likely to turn up.
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- He just arrives,
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- unbidden in the long-running film
- of my thoughts
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- like Hitchcock in his pictures.
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- And he looks for all these 40-plus years
- of disembodiment,
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- much like himself, big and sandy-haired
- with freckles on the backs of his hands,
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- perhaps a bit more diffident in the way
- he holds himself than I remember.
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- Doesn't stay long.
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- As far as I can tell,
- his visits have no message.
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- Yet even though years of therapy have
- led me to make the dark whistling claim
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- that he's finally dead and gone...
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- my father...
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- who died when I was 17...
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- continues to be
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- my principal ghost...
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- a lifelong éminence grise.
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- And only my own end...
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- will finish it.
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- ♪ I've seen the family photos ♪
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- ♪ And the man's a mystery ♪
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- 00:08:40,228 --> 00:08:43,898
- ♪ Died in 1942 at the age of 43 ♪
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- ♪ My grandmother was his widow ♪
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- ♪ And my father was his son ♪
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- ♪ Whoa, I know next to nothing ♪
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- ♪ Of the first Loudon ♪
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- ♪ They say he was an SOB ♪
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- ♪ Who liked to smoke and drink ♪
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- ♪ In the photos, he looks handsome ♪
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- ♪ "Trapped" is what I think ♪
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- ♪ And there's one of him in uniform
- It must be World War One ♪
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- ♪ They say he was an expert sailor ♪
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- ♪ And could handle a shotgun ♪
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- ♪ In a wedding portrait ♪
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- ♪ Posing with his young bride ♪
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- ♪ His right hand hidden by her bouquet ♪
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- ♪ His left hanging at his side ♪
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- ♪ Closed in a kind of half-fist ♪
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- ♪ Unsure what he'd just done ♪
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- ♪ Facing his short future ♪
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- ♪ Like he could hit someone ♪
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- ♪ It was elbows off the table ♪
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- ♪ Before the meal begun ♪
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- ♪ But it's his hands I recognized ♪
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- ♪ He gave them to his son ♪
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- ♪ Whose own hands held and touched me
- Ruffled up my hair ♪
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- ♪ I recognized that half-fist ♪
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- ♪ Oh, I'd know it anywhere ♪
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- ♪ Later on in the late 30s
- He began to go to seed ♪
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- ♪ In the photos, he looks loaded
- The observant eye will heed ♪
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- 00:11:19,637 --> 00:11:21,889
- ♪ Mugging for the camera ♪
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- ♪ Having a little fun ♪
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- 00:11:28,437 --> 00:11:30,898
- ♪ Cigarette in one hand ♪
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- ♪ And a drink in the other one ♪
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- ♪ Yes, I know a little something
- About the first Loudon ♪
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- ♪ My grandmother was his widow ♪
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- ♪ My father was his son ♪
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- ♪ Tell me, what are we afraid of? ♪
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- ♪ Why do we resist? ♪
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- ♪ I spread my hands and flex my fingers ♪
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- ♪ Open and close my fist ♪
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- ♪ I spread my hands and flex my fingers ♪
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- ♪ Open and close my fist ♪
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- At last I am properly dressed.
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- Well, that is on some occasions.
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- I'll be properly dressed
- because any fool knows
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- a man can't wear
- his new English suit every day.
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- But on the good days
- when the suit has been well brushed
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- and its fibers adequately rested
- after a decent period in the closet,
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- I will wear it with pride
- in the confidence that I fit all over.
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- Ah, of course, all this
- has probably happened too late.
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- A man should really have his first
- London tailored suit in his speedy years,
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- sometime in his early James Bond period.
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- He should certainly have more than one.
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- Still, if a single Savile Row suit
- does not make a new man,
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- it has at least made this one feel
- splendidly redecorated.
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- A miracle of weskit and good gray worsted.
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- When I choose it
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- over the less distinguished
- American models on my rack,
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- I can be sure that its $170 elegance
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- covers up a substantial secret.
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- Much of my feeling about the suit
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- undoubtedly comes
- from the experience of buying it.
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- It was the most lingering pleasurable
- purchase I have ever made.
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- I will remember it long
- after the trousers are out at the knees.
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- During the five meetings I had with
- my tailor over a period of two months,
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- the conversation was delightfully
- single-purposed.
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- We talked about my requirements,
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- my measurements,
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- my appearance.
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- We seemed always to be progressing
- toward a triumph
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- that would be totally mine.
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- I selected my tailor
- because he was nice about a button.
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- With a friend, I'd been looking
- at suit materials in several London shops,
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- and we finally wound up
- in a small establishment
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- where the friend
- had bought a suit earlier.
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- [bell rings]
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- He introduced me to the tailor,
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- a short gentleman named Mr. Perry
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- who was dressed in a double breasted
- black weskit and striped trousers.
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- A tape measure was draped around his neck.
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- Mr. Perry was entirely courteous,
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- but as he showed us bolts of cloth...
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- he kept glancing in the direction...
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- of my middle.
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- At first,
- I thought he might be registering
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- some sort of understated astonishment
- at the cut of my American ready-made suit,
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- and then I thought he might be
- wondering about the problem...
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- of dealing with my shape.
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- I was beginning to not like Mr. Perry...
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- when he spoke.
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- "I think you have a bit
- of a problem there, sir," Mr. Perry began.
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- "That is if you don't mind
- my saying so, sir."
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- He approached and delicately touched
- the center button on my coat.
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- "The button, sir.
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- I doubt if it will last out the day.
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- We'll have it tied down
- properly for you in a moment."
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- 00:15:43,651 --> 00:15:48,113
- Ah. I felt relieved,
- ridiculously grateful,
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- 00:15:48,197 --> 00:15:51,784
- and decided that a man
- so discerning about buttons
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- would have to be marvelous about suits.
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- We selected the material rather quickly
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- when I kept returning to a swatch
- of light colored tweed, said I liked it.
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- Mr. Perry said...
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- "Well, it's very nice.
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- But if I may say so, sir,
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- I believe you'd look a bit massive in it."
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- Appalled at the thought of being
- any more massive than necessary,
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- I selected a darkish gray
- with a very faint stripe.
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- 00:16:25,609 --> 00:16:30,572
- "Now, that's a cloth that suits you, sir,"
- Mr. Perry said firmly.
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- 00:16:30,656 --> 00:16:32,825
- "It's not flashy, it's not pretentious.
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- It makes up smart,
- we should get a good result."
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- The matter was settled.
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- Until the measuring session that followed,
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- 00:16:44,586 --> 00:16:47,965
- I'd never realized
- how many crucial dimensions I have.
- 228
- 00:16:49,508 --> 00:16:51,969
- From the nape of the neck
- to the armpit, 11 inches.
- 229
- 00:16:52,052 --> 00:16:55,180
- From the center of the back
- to the elbow, 22 inches.
- 230
- 00:16:55,264 --> 00:16:58,225
- From the inside of the leg,
- known in London as the fork,
- 231
- 00:16:58,308 --> 00:17:02,354
- to the seam of the shoe,
- 32 and 3/4 inches.
- 232
- 00:17:02,438 --> 00:17:06,442
- The circumference at the trouser seat,
- breathtaking!
- 233
- 00:17:07,985 --> 00:17:10,654
- There are 25 vital measurements,
- 234
- 00:17:10,738 --> 00:17:14,241
- and Mr. Perry took them all,
- calling them out like depth soundings
- 235
- 00:17:14,324 --> 00:17:18,203
- to an assistant,
- who wrote them down on a large pad.
- 236
- 00:17:18,287 --> 00:17:21,707
- These were necessary
- to cut the pattern, Mr. Perry advised me,
- 237
- 00:17:21,790 --> 00:17:23,292
- and they would then be placed...
- 238
- 00:17:24,293 --> 00:17:25,627
- in the company files.
- 239
- 00:17:27,129 --> 00:17:31,800
- How agreeable to reflect
- that this catalog of specifics
- 240
- 00:17:31,884 --> 00:17:33,385
- would be kept in a safe place.
- 241
- 00:17:35,054 --> 00:17:40,267
- Weeks elapsed before I returned to London
- and Mr. Perry.
- 242
- 00:17:40,517 --> 00:17:42,269
- [bell rings]
- 243
- 00:17:49,443 --> 00:17:51,570
- Looking at my new suit
- for the first time...
- 244
- 00:17:52,738 --> 00:17:56,825
- I felt much the same horror I'd felt
- at the first sight of my eldest son.
- 245
- 00:18:00,913 --> 00:18:03,582
- He'd looked very raw to me
- through the nursery window
- 246
- 00:18:03,665 --> 00:18:04,958
- and so did the suit.
- 247
- 00:18:05,584 --> 00:18:07,711
- The jacket scarred with basting thread,
- 248
- 00:18:07,795 --> 00:18:09,546
- the pockets missing or sewn shut.
- 249
- 00:18:09,630 --> 00:18:12,299
- Mr. Perry did not reassure me entirely
- 250
- 00:18:12,382 --> 00:18:15,552
- when he found some fault
- with the shoulder of the jacket,
- 251
- 00:18:15,636 --> 00:18:17,888
- simply clipped some threads
- 252
- 00:18:17,971 --> 00:18:20,641
- and removed one complete sleeve.
- 253
- 00:18:23,727 --> 00:18:28,273
- In the wreckage, we agreed
- and disagreed, politely, about details.
- 254
- 00:18:28,357 --> 00:18:33,904
- Mr. Perry persuaded me that the jacket
- should have more shape at the waist
- 255
- 00:18:35,239 --> 00:18:37,533
- so the suit would not be like
- an American suit.
- 256
- 00:18:38,992 --> 00:18:41,995
- "Reasonably tidy,
- but lacking in character."
- 257
- 00:18:43,622 --> 00:18:48,168
- I persuaded him that the trousers
- should be fitted to accommodate a belt
- 258
- 00:18:49,044 --> 00:18:50,587
- and not suspenders.
- 259
- 00:18:51,588 --> 00:18:54,550
- Oh, Mr. Perry did not
- really like that at all.
- 260
- 00:18:55,759 --> 00:19:01,098
- But he cheered up considerably
- when we settled on the weskit.
- 261
- 00:19:01,515 --> 00:19:02,558
- It would depart somewhat
- 262
- 00:19:02,641 --> 00:19:05,102
- from the straight conservatism
- of the rest of the suit
- 263
- 00:19:05,769 --> 00:19:10,190
- and have little lapels... of its own.
- 264
- 00:19:10,941 --> 00:19:13,735
- "The step collar vest
- is coming into fashion, sir,"
- 265
- 00:19:13,819 --> 00:19:15,195
- Mr. Perry said approvingly.
- 266
- 00:19:15,279 --> 00:19:19,575
- "I think we're quite right to just
- go ahead and take the chance."
- 267
- 00:19:21,368 --> 00:19:23,996
- Flushed with risk-taking...
- 268
- 00:19:25,455 --> 00:19:27,833
- I proposed two side vents in the jacket.
- 269
- 00:19:28,792 --> 00:19:29,710
- Ah!
- 270
- 00:19:30,544 --> 00:19:33,088
- But Mr. Perry coolly checked me.
- 271
- 00:19:38,177 --> 00:19:39,887
- [bell rings]
- 272
- 00:19:40,804 --> 00:19:42,806
- At the next session,
- the suit was almost finished
- 273
- 00:19:42,890 --> 00:19:45,684
- and Mr. Perry offered some guidance
- for the future.
- 274
- 00:19:46,476 --> 00:19:50,063
- "I suggest you wear it in regular rotation
- with your other suits, sir.
- 275
- 00:19:50,147 --> 00:19:51,607
- Once a week would be about right.
- 276
- 00:19:52,149 --> 00:19:54,693
- If you give it fair rest and treatment
- between times,
- 277
- 00:19:54,776 --> 00:19:56,862
- it should last five years or more.
- 278
- 00:19:57,654 --> 00:20:01,366
- Brush it regularly,
- sponge it a bit if need be,
- 279
- 00:20:01,450 --> 00:20:03,035
- but don't have it dry-cleaned
- 280
- 00:20:03,744 --> 00:20:05,746
- unless there's been
- some sort of an accident."
- 281
- 00:20:06,622 --> 00:20:10,209
- I tried not to think of the accidents
- that regularly befall my suits.
- 282
- 00:20:11,543 --> 00:20:14,504
- "And let me remind you, sir,"
- he finished,
- 283
- 00:20:15,047 --> 00:20:17,591
- "look after it for moths."
- 284
- 00:20:34,107 --> 00:20:35,734
- [bell rings]
- 285
- 00:20:38,070 --> 00:20:41,406
- The next meeting was our last,
- and much as I wanted the finished suit,
- 286
- 00:20:41,490 --> 00:20:43,700
- I was reluctant to stop buying it.
- 287
- 00:20:49,331 --> 00:20:53,252
- Mr. Perry held each trouser leg
- clear of the floor
- 288
- 00:20:54,253 --> 00:20:57,506
- as I put on the pants.
- 289
- 00:21:01,551 --> 00:21:02,386
- Ah.
- 290
- 00:21:08,517 --> 00:21:10,143
- [inhales deeply]
- 291
- 00:21:25,951 --> 00:21:27,953
- [groaning]
- 292
- 00:21:36,086 --> 00:21:39,214
- The lapels on the weskit...
- 293
- 00:21:40,048 --> 00:21:41,508
- magnificent.
- 294
- 00:21:46,096 --> 00:21:47,264
- The jacket...
- 295
- 00:21:54,896 --> 00:21:58,692
- Ah! The jacket fit perfectly
- across the shoulders!
- 296
- 00:21:59,234 --> 00:22:03,905
- I gazed appreciatively at myself
- in mirrored quadruplicate.
- 297
- 00:22:04,823 --> 00:22:06,408
- Mr. Perry smiled slightly.
- 298
- 00:22:07,993 --> 00:22:10,454
- "I don't think we'll find
- the belt bothers at all, sir.
- 299
- 00:22:11,371 --> 00:22:13,332
- You're well turned out."
- 300
- 00:22:14,583 --> 00:22:17,919
- When I paid Mr. Perry, I asked him
- if there'd been any...
- 301
- 00:22:18,628 --> 00:22:22,424
- special problems
- in making the suit for me.
- 302
- 00:22:24,134 --> 00:22:25,886
- "Oh, no, sir," he began.
- 303
- 00:22:26,178 --> 00:22:29,389
- "Some might say tailoring
- is the art of disguising the man,
- 304
- 00:22:29,639 --> 00:22:31,308
- but it's only if a man has
- a bad appearance
- 305
- 00:22:31,391 --> 00:22:32,642
- that there are any problems.
- 306
- 00:22:34,770 --> 00:22:36,021
- If he has a good figure...
- 307
- 00:22:37,773 --> 00:22:39,107
- we come up trumps."
- 308
- 00:22:40,859 --> 00:22:42,694
- I felt he hadn't quite answered
- my question.
- 309
- 00:22:44,821 --> 00:22:45,906
- And I repeated it.
- 310
- 00:22:47,866 --> 00:22:51,036
- "Well, the only thing,
- I don't know if I should mention it..."
- 311
- 00:22:51,119 --> 00:22:52,037
- I urged him on.
- 312
- 00:22:53,080 --> 00:22:54,956
- "Well, sir, you have rather a long body,
- 313
- 00:22:55,040 --> 00:22:58,335
- and that's the thing
- we had to try to minimize.
- 314
- 00:22:59,669 --> 00:23:02,089
- We had to lengthen your legs, so to speak,
- 315
- 00:23:03,131 --> 00:23:04,800
- and shorten your body.
- 316
- 00:23:05,675 --> 00:23:08,220
- Nothing serious, really,
- and it worked out quite well."
- 317
- 00:23:08,303 --> 00:23:12,599
- Now this was the first time I'd heard
- of this particular defect in my structure.
- 318
- 00:23:14,142 --> 00:23:15,727
- I took another look in the mirrors.
- 319
- 00:23:17,229 --> 00:23:18,271
- Mr. Perry was right.
- 320
- 00:23:19,147 --> 00:23:22,901
- It was impossible to tell now
- where my short legs ended
- 321
- 00:23:22,984 --> 00:23:24,486
- and my long body began!
- 322
- 00:23:26,446 --> 00:23:30,283
- In a post-operative glow
- at his sartorial surgery,
- 323
- 00:23:30,367 --> 00:23:33,495
- I said goodbye to Mr. Perry
- and set off down the street,
- 324
- 00:23:34,079 --> 00:23:40,585
- trying to make my strides long enough
- to keep the secret of my suit.
- 325
- 00:23:43,213 --> 00:23:44,840
- I gotta tell you, folks,
- 326
- 00:23:44,923 --> 00:23:47,467
- this is the actual suit.
- 327
- 00:23:49,219 --> 00:23:51,012
- [applause]
- 328
- 00:23:52,431 --> 00:23:54,766
- Let's give it up for the actual suit!
- 329
- 00:23:58,061 --> 00:23:59,563
- 1965.
- 330
- 00:24:03,567 --> 00:24:06,778
- ♪ Between the forest and the ocean
- Lies a lonely strand ♪
- 331
- 00:24:09,281 --> 00:24:10,740
- ♪ The ocean is your mother ♪
- 332
- 00:24:11,867 --> 00:24:14,119
- ♪ The forest fatherland ♪
- 333
- 00:24:14,202 --> 00:24:18,457
- ♪ You are stranded on that empty beach
- Not knowing where to go ♪
- 334
- 00:24:20,041 --> 00:24:23,670
- ♪ Out to sea or else inland
- Your whole life, you don't know ♪
- 335
- 00:24:25,338 --> 00:24:27,591
- ♪ In between the earth and sky ♪
- 336
- 00:24:27,674 --> 00:24:29,468
- ♪ There is an atmosphere ♪
- 337
- 00:24:29,551 --> 00:24:32,429
- ♪ Feet on the ground, your head up high
- But you are stuck ♪
- 338
- 00:24:33,847 --> 00:24:34,973
- ♪ Right here ♪
- 339
- 00:24:36,349 --> 00:24:38,602
- ♪ You're in between your whole life long ♪
- 340
- 00:24:38,685 --> 00:24:42,230
- ♪ What happens when you die? ♪
- 341
- 00:24:43,190 --> 00:24:47,319
- ♪ Down below us, Mother Earth
- Your father dwells on high ♪
- 342
- 00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:52,491
- ♪ Honor thy father and thy mother ♪
- 343
- 00:24:52,574 --> 00:24:54,034
- ♪ Though they're not the same ♪
- 344
- 00:24:54,117 --> 00:24:55,994
- ♪ And one pits you against the other ♪
- 345
- 00:24:58,914 --> 00:25:00,749
- ♪ It's the cruelest game ♪
- 346
- 00:25:02,167 --> 00:25:08,632
- ♪ You are stuck and you are stranded
- You must live until you die ♪
- 347
- 00:25:09,716 --> 00:25:13,762
- ♪ At home in forest and in ocean
- Worship earth and sky ♪
- 348
- 00:25:14,221 --> 00:25:16,765
- ♪ At home in forest and in ocean ♪
- 349
- 00:25:16,848 --> 00:25:22,187
- ♪ Worship earth and sky ♪
- 350
- 00:25:39,704 --> 00:25:41,414
- ♪ I knew your mother ♪
- 351
- 00:25:41,498 --> 00:25:42,791
- ♪ Let me be clear ♪
- 352
- 00:25:43,917 --> 00:25:46,002
- ♪ We were lovers before you got here ♪
- 353
- 00:25:48,046 --> 00:25:50,966
- ♪ So don't forget that I knew her when ♪
- 354
- 00:25:51,633 --> 00:25:55,720
- ♪ Love was the means
- And you were the end ♪
- 355
- 00:26:03,937 --> 00:26:08,316
- ♪ I still remember somebody
- Who was amazing ♪
- 356
- 00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:11,236
- ♪ And crazy and someone like you ♪
- 357
- 00:26:11,319 --> 00:26:12,946
- ♪ I fell for your mother ♪
- 358
- 00:26:13,863 --> 00:26:16,866
- ♪ Love made me a fool
- We were into each other ♪
- 359
- 00:26:17,993 --> 00:26:19,661
- ♪ Till it came off the spool ♪
- 360
- 00:26:27,919 --> 00:26:31,256
- ♪ Folks choose their parents
- Some Buddhists say ♪
- 361
- 00:26:31,881 --> 00:26:35,176
- ♪ Maybe you picked us
- And we were your way ♪
- 362
- 00:26:35,260 --> 00:26:39,097
- ♪ In the biblical sense, I knew your mom ♪
- 363
- 00:26:39,681 --> 00:26:44,894
- ♪ Und it wasn't all sturm
- Und it wasn't all drang ♪
- 364
- 00:26:45,687 --> 00:26:48,189
- ♪ There was some calm ♪
- 365
- 00:27:07,709 --> 00:27:10,795
- ♪ Having a father
- is the most dangerous game ♪
- 366
- 00:27:10,879 --> 00:27:13,048
- ♪ And when Dad takes a powder ♪
- 367
- 00:27:14,090 --> 00:27:15,550
- ♪ It's always a shame ♪
- 368
- 00:27:15,925 --> 00:27:18,803
- ♪ I knew your mother
- And your mother knew me ♪
- 369
- 00:27:18,887 --> 00:27:20,639
- ♪ And as long as it lasted ♪
- 370
- 00:27:21,556 --> 00:27:23,058
- ♪ Was how long it could be ♪
- 371
- 00:27:31,274 --> 00:27:34,444
- ♪ Today is your birthday
- And if truth be told ♪
- 372
- 00:27:35,654 --> 00:27:37,155
- ♪ It has to be said now ♪
- 373
- 00:27:38,031 --> 00:27:39,449
- ♪ We're both a bit older ♪
- 374
- 00:27:40,367 --> 00:27:43,912
- ♪ Yeah, happy birthday
- But I want to be clear ♪
- 375
- 00:27:43,995 --> 00:27:45,747
- ♪ I loved your mother ♪
- 376
- 00:27:46,581 --> 00:27:47,832
- ♪ That's why you're here ♪
- 377
- 00:27:56,424 --> 00:27:59,135
- ♪ I knew your mother
- Let me be clear ♪
- 378
- 00:27:59,928 --> 00:28:02,389
- ♪ We two were lovers before you got here ♪
- 379
- 00:28:04,516 --> 00:28:07,644
- ♪ So don't forget that I knew her when ♪
- 380
- 00:28:08,019 --> 00:28:11,856
- ♪ Love was the means
- And you were the end ♪
- 381
- 00:28:15,193 --> 00:28:19,322
- ♪ Love was the means
- And you were the end ♪
- 382
- 00:28:21,950 --> 00:28:24,077
- ♪ I knew your mother ♪
- 383
- 00:28:47,225 --> 00:28:49,811
- A few years ago, I saw a collection
- of old home movies
- 384
- 00:28:49,894 --> 00:28:52,522
- that my father had made in the mid-1930s.
- 385
- 00:28:54,149 --> 00:28:57,068
- Since he held the camera,
- he never appeared in the films,
- 386
- 00:28:57,819 --> 00:29:00,155
- although his long afternoon shadow
- 387
- 00:29:00,238 --> 00:29:02,574
- occasionally fell across
- the scenes he shot.
- 388
- 00:29:04,826 --> 00:29:05,869
- But his presence,
- 389
- 00:29:06,745 --> 00:29:09,706
- the way he thought
- about some things and how he felt...
- 390
- 00:29:11,374 --> 00:29:13,209
- seemed extraordinarily evident.
- 391
- 00:29:14,669 --> 00:29:16,588
- To make his movie
- during one bitter winter,
- 392
- 00:29:16,671 --> 00:29:20,175
- he'd walked out on the frozen bay
- near our house
- 393
- 00:29:20,508 --> 00:29:24,012
- and shot a long piece of film
- looking back toward the land.
- 394
- 00:29:25,597 --> 00:29:29,267
- What obviously interested him
- were the shapes the camera lingered on.
- 395
- 00:29:30,685 --> 00:29:32,479
- Great heaves of broken ice
- 396
- 00:29:32,562 --> 00:29:37,525
- and pilings of docks wrenched
- into jagged angles against the sky.
- 397
- 00:29:38,651 --> 00:29:41,821
- Watching, I was astonished
- at his selections.
- 398
- 00:29:41,946 --> 00:29:44,574
- I always thought of him
- as a completely direct man
- 399
- 00:29:45,325 --> 00:29:48,703
- with no interest at all
- in abstractions of any kind.
- 400
- 00:29:49,412 --> 00:29:50,955
- But here he was on film,
- 401
- 00:29:51,664 --> 00:29:55,001
- working hard with the camera,
- trying to find the right framing
- 402
- 00:29:55,960 --> 00:29:57,879
- for the stark forms he saw.
- 403
- 00:29:59,756 --> 00:30:02,717
- Now, this was a large insight
- into my father's being
- 404
- 00:30:02,842 --> 00:30:04,219
- that I'd missed completely.
- 405
- 00:30:06,888 --> 00:30:08,890
- The film showed me more
- than that about him.
- 406
- 00:30:09,682 --> 00:30:11,851
- In another section,
- he was photographing me
- 407
- 00:30:11,935 --> 00:30:13,561
- as I skated near him.
- 408
- 00:30:13,645 --> 00:30:17,774
- First, I watched the movie
- with the fascination one usually feels
- 409
- 00:30:17,857 --> 00:30:19,442
- when he looks at pictures of himself,
- 410
- 00:30:20,235 --> 00:30:22,904
- especially pictures of a self
- in child's packaging.
- 411
- 00:30:24,531 --> 00:30:27,992
- Delighted with my own gay
- awkwardness on ice...
- 412
- 00:30:29,118 --> 00:30:31,788
- I suddenly had the sense
- that the camera
- 413
- 00:30:31,871 --> 00:30:36,835
- was projecting a clear quality... of love.
- 414
- 00:30:37,919 --> 00:30:40,296
- The child fell, the camera lurched
- 415
- 00:30:40,755 --> 00:30:42,465
- as its holder moved in to help,
- 416
- 00:30:43,132 --> 00:30:45,718
- then steadied as the boy rose smiling.
- 417
- 00:30:46,052 --> 00:30:48,596
- The camera zoomed in for a close-up,
- 418
- 00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:50,557
- then drew back and held
- 419
- 00:30:50,765 --> 00:30:56,771
- as the child bent-ankled
- in one crude circle... after another.
- 420
- 00:30:59,816 --> 00:31:00,859
- Decades later,
- 421
- 00:31:01,651 --> 00:31:06,322
- the photographer's tenderness
- quite overwhelmed his subject.
- 422
- 00:31:09,117 --> 00:31:10,243
- Even if we're late...
- 423
- 00:31:11,327 --> 00:31:13,538
- we can still reach out for fathers...
- 424
- 00:31:14,789 --> 00:31:18,835
- and find good moments for ourselves
- in what they left behind.
- 425
- 00:31:28,428 --> 00:31:30,597
- [Loudon over PA]
- I drove down to Baltimore recently
- 426
- 00:31:30,680 --> 00:31:32,348
- and seeing an exit for Middletown,
- 427
- 00:31:32,432 --> 00:31:36,436
- I pulled or perhaps
- was pulled off Interstate 95.
- 428
- 00:31:36,853 --> 00:31:41,024
- Driving the rental car through
- the still sleepy little Delaware town,
- 429
- 00:31:41,107 --> 00:31:45,778
- I was amazed to see the old movie theater
- and the barber shop were still standing,
- 430
- 00:31:46,112 --> 00:31:47,655
- much less in operation.
- 431
- 00:31:48,740 --> 00:31:52,160
- Now I nose the Caprice
- towards St. Andrews.
- 432
- 00:31:52,869 --> 00:31:58,166
- My father had sent me away to the then
- all-boys boarding school in 1961.
- 433
- 00:31:58,917 --> 00:32:03,755
- It was his alma mater, his own father
- had exiled him there in 1938.
- 434
- 00:32:04,589 --> 00:32:07,675
- It hadn't been a happy experience
- for either of us,
- 435
- 00:32:07,759 --> 00:32:11,262
- and I have managed to stay away
- from the place for decades.
- 436
- 00:32:11,638 --> 00:32:12,680
- But suddenly,
- 437
- 00:32:13,556 --> 00:32:14,557
- I'm here again.
- 438
- 00:32:16,559 --> 00:32:20,063
- Aside from the new science building
- and the even newer field house,
- 439
- 00:32:20,146 --> 00:32:23,608
- neither of which were built
- thanks to any contribution from me,
- 440
- 00:32:24,359 --> 00:32:27,070
- the campus looks as it did 50 years ago.
- 441
- 00:32:27,987 --> 00:32:32,283
- I park, get out of the car,
- and walk into the main building.
- 442
- 00:32:32,367 --> 00:32:36,162
- I feel slightly furtive, like a man
- slipping back into a room
- 443
- 00:32:36,245 --> 00:32:39,666
- to retrieve a wristwatch
- he's left on a bedside table,
- 444
- 00:32:39,749 --> 00:32:43,920
- not sure if the woman in the bed
- is sleeping or pretending.
- 445
- 00:32:44,879 --> 00:32:47,382
- This feels like running away in reverse.
- 446
- 00:32:48,216 --> 00:32:52,303
- It's summer, so aside from a custodian
- or two, the place is empty.
- 447
- 00:32:53,429 --> 00:32:58,101
- I climb some stairs heading to what
- was once the third form bathroom.
- 448
- 00:32:58,726 --> 00:32:59,769
- It's still there.
- 449
- 00:33:00,603 --> 00:33:02,563
- Pushing open the heavy swinging door,
- 450
- 00:33:02,730 --> 00:33:05,483
- I belly up to a familiar-looking urinal.
- 451
- 00:33:05,566 --> 00:33:08,486
- I pee, marking this old territory.
- 452
- 00:33:09,445 --> 00:33:11,489
- In 1961, after lights,
- 453
- 00:33:11,572 --> 00:33:13,908
- I sat cross-legged and bathrobed
- 454
- 00:33:13,992 --> 00:33:17,078
- on the black and white
- tiled floor of this can,
- 455
- 00:33:17,161 --> 00:33:20,748
- and while finishing a paper
- or cramming for some exam,
- 456
- 00:33:20,832 --> 00:33:23,793
- suddenly would look up,
- startled and amazed
- 457
- 00:33:23,876 --> 00:33:27,463
- by the loud cutting blare
- of the night train's horn.
- 458
- 00:33:28,715 --> 00:33:32,969
- It was a sound expressing everything
- that was beyond the school,
- 459
- 00:33:33,052 --> 00:33:36,639
- the whole empty world
- that was waiting for me.
- 460
- 00:33:37,473 --> 00:33:39,726
- Now I'm in the basement,
- which to this day,
- 461
- 00:33:39,809 --> 00:33:41,728
- still houses the tuck shop,
- 462
- 00:33:41,811 --> 00:33:44,063
- school store, and school bank.
- 463
- 00:33:45,565 --> 00:33:49,152
- I'm searching the darkly stained
- pine wood paneling
- 464
- 00:33:49,235 --> 00:33:52,780
- for somewhere among those
- hundreds of crudely carved,
- 465
- 00:33:52,989 --> 00:33:56,367
- scratched and branded
- sets of initials and dates,
- 466
- 00:33:56,451 --> 00:34:00,455
- there should be LSW3 '65
- 467
- 00:34:00,538 --> 00:34:03,750
- or LSW Junior '42.
- 468
- 00:34:03,833 --> 00:34:05,585
- But I can't find us.
- 469
- 00:34:05,668 --> 00:34:07,420
- Maybe we were never here.
- 470
- 00:34:08,087 --> 00:34:09,630
- I'm in the auditorium now,
- 471
- 00:34:09,714 --> 00:34:12,550
- remembering Saturday nights
- a half-century ago.
- 472
- 00:34:13,092 --> 00:34:14,260
- Watching the weekly movie,
- 473
- 00:34:14,343 --> 00:34:18,473
- I was Wainwright then,
- always insisting on sitting alone,
- 474
- 00:34:18,681 --> 00:34:20,975
- away from my chatty goofball friends,
- 475
- 00:34:21,184 --> 00:34:24,771
- so as to concentrate on the flick,
- hunkered down in the dark,
- 476
- 00:34:24,854 --> 00:34:27,315
- watching Forbidden Games,
- 477
- 00:34:27,648 --> 00:34:29,192
- Odd Man Out,
- 478
- 00:34:29,275 --> 00:34:30,860
- Mr. Hulot's Holiday,
- 479
- 00:34:31,444 --> 00:34:34,864
- and so appropriate
- for a boys boarding school,
- 480
- 00:34:35,323 --> 00:34:37,116
- The Great Escape.
- 481
- 00:34:38,910 --> 00:34:41,579
- Now I'm standing inside the old gym,
- 482
- 00:34:41,662 --> 00:34:44,373
- scanning the thick, ugly plaster walls.
- 483
- 00:34:45,083 --> 00:34:48,377
- The school's team pictures hang there
- in honor and remembrance.
- 484
- 00:34:48,961 --> 00:34:53,716
- I find my varsity football team picture.
- I'm number 22,
- 485
- 00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:56,469
- left half-back, bad skin.
- 486
- 00:34:57,678 --> 00:35:00,515
- Then 30 feet away,
- there's a picture of my father,
- 487
- 00:35:00,598 --> 00:35:03,309
- standing on the gym steps in 1942
- 488
- 00:35:03,392 --> 00:35:06,062
- with his varsity baseball team.
- 489
- 00:35:07,105 --> 00:35:09,482
- He and I, father and son
- 490
- 00:35:09,565 --> 00:35:13,152
- are connected
- by our same sad expressions.
- 491
- 00:35:13,736 --> 00:35:17,490
- We're glum young men, unhappy Loudons.
- 492
- 00:35:19,909 --> 00:35:23,371
- I go outside and stand in the center
- of the football field,
- 493
- 00:35:23,454 --> 00:35:24,872
- recalling the horrific sight
- 494
- 00:35:24,956 --> 00:35:27,500
- of Andy McNair's knee
- being driven the wrong way
- 495
- 00:35:27,583 --> 00:35:31,587
- by the vicious clip he received
- in the 1964 Tatnall game.
- 496
- 00:35:33,464 --> 00:35:36,217
- Then I experienced the memory
- of my father
- 497
- 00:35:36,300 --> 00:35:38,886
- seated in the stands watching me play.
- 498
- 00:35:39,303 --> 00:35:41,472
- Now he's up and cheering.
- 499
- 00:35:41,556 --> 00:35:42,974
- I've got the ball.
- 500
- 00:35:43,391 --> 00:35:47,270
- Then I imagine him
- on that same field in 1940
- 501
- 00:35:47,353 --> 00:35:50,648
- or maybe '41,
- the next-to-no shoulder pads,
- 502
- 00:35:50,731 --> 00:35:53,943
- shod and mud-caked high-top cleats,
- 503
- 00:35:54,026 --> 00:35:56,487
- wearing an ancient face-guardless helmet
- 504
- 00:35:57,071 --> 00:36:00,992
- searching those same stands
- for his own father.
- 505
- 00:36:12,795 --> 00:36:14,088
- Hey, you want to do a sing-along?
- 506
- 00:36:14,672 --> 00:36:15,798
- -[all] Yeah.
- -Yeah?
- 507
- 00:36:16,591 --> 00:36:19,260
- You don't sound like
- you're very enthusiastic.
- 508
- 00:36:19,635 --> 00:36:20,928
- [cheering]
- 509
- 00:36:21,012 --> 00:36:24,473
- I'll tell you, if you don't sing along
- on this, we're doing "Kumbaya."
- 510
- 00:36:26,475 --> 00:36:27,435
- So, uh...
- 511
- 00:36:28,436 --> 00:36:29,562
- you decide.
- 512
- 00:36:32,273 --> 00:36:34,692
- You know, this show is very, um--
- 513
- 00:36:36,402 --> 00:36:38,779
- There's a lot of father stuff
- in this show.
- 514
- 00:36:40,698 --> 00:36:42,867
- Some mother stuff
- is coming up, don't worry.
- 515
- 00:36:43,743 --> 00:36:45,745
- Don't worry, you moms out there.
- 516
- 00:36:47,288 --> 00:36:49,165
- We're gonna do this,
- this is the sing-along.
- 517
- 00:36:49,248 --> 00:36:51,751
- I'm gonna teach you
- the sing-along part, your part.
- 518
- 00:36:52,043 --> 00:36:54,795
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 519
- 00:36:56,339 --> 00:36:58,549
- [all] ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 520
- 00:36:58,716 --> 00:37:01,594
- That's good.
- The moms are good, the dads...
- 521
- 00:37:02,511 --> 00:37:05,973
- The dads, like so many dads, suck!
- 522
- 00:37:08,392 --> 00:37:10,228
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 523
- 00:37:10,311 --> 00:37:11,312
- Let me hear you.
- 524
- 00:37:11,395 --> 00:37:12,563
- [all] ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 525
- 00:37:12,647 --> 00:37:14,857
- Now we've got some bottom on that thing.
- 526
- 00:37:14,941 --> 00:37:16,984
- All right, so I'm gonna start the song.
- 527
- 00:37:17,985 --> 00:37:19,987
- The sing-along thing is kind of...
- 528
- 00:37:21,072 --> 00:37:22,156
- You'll know. You'll know.
- 529
- 00:37:31,457 --> 00:37:33,584
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 530
- 00:37:33,668 --> 00:37:35,086
- ♪ It isn't so bad ♪
- 531
- 00:37:36,254 --> 00:37:38,547
- ♪ Except that you gotta feed 'em ♪
- 532
- 00:37:41,926 --> 00:37:44,428
- ♪ You gotta shoe 'em and clothe them ♪
- 533
- 00:37:44,512 --> 00:37:46,931
- ♪ And try not to loathe them ♪
- 534
- 00:37:48,516 --> 00:37:50,184
- ♪ Bug 'em and hug 'em and heed 'em ♪
- 535
- 00:37:54,188 --> 00:37:56,065
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 536
- 00:37:56,148 --> 00:37:58,192
- ♪ Can sure make you mad ♪
- 537
- 00:37:58,276 --> 00:38:01,320
- ♪ Man, it sure can drive you crazy! ♪
- 538
- 00:38:04,824 --> 00:38:06,325
- ♪ It's as hard as it looks ♪
- 539
- 00:38:07,034 --> 00:38:09,370
- ♪ You gotta read them dumb books ♪
- 540
- 00:38:10,204 --> 00:38:13,958
- ♪ And you end up despising Walt Disney ♪
- 541
- 00:38:16,836 --> 00:38:18,921
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 542
- 00:38:19,005 --> 00:38:20,965
- ♪ It starts to get radical ♪
- 543
- 00:38:21,549 --> 00:38:24,510
- ♪ When they turn into teenagers! ♪
- 544
- 00:38:27,054 --> 00:38:29,515
- ♪ You gotta tighten the screws ♪
- 545
- 00:38:29,598 --> 00:38:31,851
- ♪ Enforce the curfews ♪
- 546
- 00:38:32,268 --> 00:38:35,062
- ♪ Confiscate weapons and pagers ♪
- 547
- 00:38:36,063 --> 00:38:37,565
- Remember pagers?
- 548
- 00:38:40,651 --> 00:38:42,987
- ♪ But a daughter or son ♪
- 549
- 00:38:43,070 --> 00:38:45,364
- ♪ Can be sort of fun ♪
- 550
- 00:38:45,448 --> 00:38:48,367
- ♪ Just as long as they don't defy you ♪
- 551
- 00:38:49,035 --> 00:38:50,995
- ♪ They'll treat you like a king ♪
- 552
- 00:38:51,078 --> 00:38:53,247
- ♪ They'll believe anything ♪
- 553
- 00:38:54,123 --> 00:38:57,543
- ♪ They're easy to frighten and ♪
- 554
- 00:38:57,626 --> 00:39:00,588
- ♪ Lie to ♪
- 555
- 00:39:00,671 --> 00:39:02,465
- Just like we rehearsed it...
- 556
- 00:39:02,548 --> 00:39:04,759
- [all] ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 557
- 00:39:04,842 --> 00:39:07,136
- Come on now, you can do
- better than that, come on!
- 558
- 00:39:07,219 --> 00:39:09,055
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 559
- 00:39:09,722 --> 00:39:10,973
- Little bit louder!
- 560
- 00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:13,976
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 561
- 00:39:14,060 --> 00:39:16,187
- That's pathetic. One more.
- 562
- 00:39:16,270 --> 00:39:18,314
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 563
- 00:39:20,816 --> 00:39:22,610
- ♪ Being a dad can make you feel glad ♪
- 564
- 00:39:24,320 --> 00:39:27,740
- ♪ When you get paper weights
- And aftershave lotion ♪
- 565
- 00:39:30,826 --> 00:39:32,536
- ♪ Yeah, it feels pretty great ♪
- 566
- 00:39:33,621 --> 00:39:35,081
- ♪ When they graduate ♪
- 567
- 00:39:36,415 --> 00:39:38,584
- ♪ That's when you're choked with emotion ♪
- 568
- 00:39:40,294 --> 00:39:44,173
- ♪ But being a dad takes more than a tad ♪
- 569
- 00:39:44,256 --> 00:39:48,052
- ♪ Of good luck and divine intervention ♪
- 570
- 00:39:50,805 --> 00:39:53,391
- ♪ You need airtight alibis ♪
- 571
- 00:39:53,891 --> 00:39:55,434
- ♪ Foolproof disguises ♪
- 572
- 00:39:55,518 --> 00:39:59,438
- ♪ Desperation's the father of invention ♪
- 573
- 00:40:01,690 --> 00:40:03,567
- ♪ So sometimes you take off ♪
- 574
- 00:40:04,527 --> 00:40:06,529
- ♪ For a few rounds of golf ♪
- 575
- 00:40:06,612 --> 00:40:09,740
- ♪ And you stay away
- for half of their lifetimes ♪
- 576
- 00:40:11,033 --> 00:40:12,284
- ♪ The result of it all ♪
- 577
- 00:40:12,368 --> 00:40:15,913
- ♪ Is you're captured and hauled off ♪
- 578
- 00:40:15,996 --> 00:40:18,666
- ♪ Before a tribunal for ♪
- 579
- 00:40:19,417 --> 00:40:22,128
- ♪ Dad crimes ♪
- 580
- 00:40:22,503 --> 00:40:24,088
- Two, three, four...
- 581
- 00:40:24,171 --> 00:40:26,674
- [all] ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 582
- 00:40:26,757 --> 00:40:27,758
- Come on, moms!
- 583
- 00:40:28,634 --> 00:40:30,636
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 584
- 00:40:30,719 --> 00:40:32,680
- Pretend I'm Pete Seeger.
- 585
- 00:40:33,264 --> 00:40:35,182
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 586
- 00:40:35,266 --> 00:40:37,309
- Same sex couples.
- 587
- 00:40:37,852 --> 00:40:39,854
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 588
- 00:40:44,316 --> 00:40:46,694
- ♪ Being a dad can make you feel sad ♪
- 589
- 00:40:49,029 --> 00:40:51,615
- ♪ Like you're the insignificant other ♪
- 590
- 00:40:55,327 --> 00:40:57,455
- ♪ Yeah, right from the start ♪
- 591
- 00:40:58,122 --> 00:40:59,623
- ♪ They break your heart ♪
- 592
- 00:41:00,332 --> 00:41:03,794
- ♪ In the end, every kid wants his mother ♪
- 593
- 00:41:05,796 --> 00:41:08,299
- Big finish, everybody goes like this,
- we go like...
- 594
- 00:41:08,591 --> 00:41:12,303
- ♪ Being a dad ♪
- 595
- 00:41:31,405 --> 00:41:34,825
- So in January of 1942...
- 596
- 00:41:36,660 --> 00:41:39,788
- Loudon the first, my grandfather, dies.
- 597
- 00:41:41,499 --> 00:41:46,337
- And that spring of the same year,
- 598
- 00:41:47,838 --> 00:41:51,258
- my dad, Loudon Junior,
- graduates from St. Andrews.
- 599
- 00:41:52,134 --> 00:41:54,637
- And then, in the summer of 1942,
- 600
- 00:41:54,720 --> 00:41:56,263
- at the age of 17,
- 601
- 00:41:57,056 --> 00:41:59,433
- he enlists in the Marine Corps.
- 602
- 00:42:01,101 --> 00:42:03,187
- And he writes some letters...
- 603
- 00:42:05,397 --> 00:42:10,069
- to his recently widowed mother...
- 604
- 00:42:12,112 --> 00:42:15,783
- a couple of which mention Martha Taylor...
- 605
- 00:42:17,993 --> 00:42:20,412
- who, in 1946, would become my mother.
- 606
- 00:42:26,460 --> 00:42:28,087
- July 1942.
- 607
- 00:42:29,547 --> 00:42:33,801
- "Dear Mother, I just got your letter
- saying you almost burst into tears
- 608
- 00:42:34,134 --> 00:42:36,887
- when you saw a Marine private
- on 42nd Street.
- 609
- 00:42:38,681 --> 00:42:40,474
- If I could only give you
- the strength, Mother.
- 610
- 00:42:40,975 --> 00:42:42,977
- You showed your real guts when Daddy went
- 611
- 00:42:43,060 --> 00:42:46,272
- by making a great effort to carry on
- with what he had done
- 612
- 00:42:46,355 --> 00:42:50,568
- because you felt that you had to make
- a life and a home for you and me,
- 613
- 00:42:50,818 --> 00:42:53,195
- a new home in place of the old one
- 614
- 00:42:53,279 --> 00:42:55,948
- that suddenly disintegrated
- with the departure
- 615
- 00:42:56,031 --> 00:43:00,286
- of my best friend and father and your man,
- 616
- 00:43:00,536 --> 00:43:03,080
- the one we both loved above all else.
- 617
- 00:43:04,582 --> 00:43:06,584
- You have done a splendid job, Mom.
- 618
- 00:43:07,376 --> 00:43:10,421
- I realize now what a torture
- your life must have been
- 619
- 00:43:10,504 --> 00:43:12,631
- since that awful day in January.
- 620
- 00:43:12,715 --> 00:43:16,468
- Never turn your face to the wall,
- never despair for me, Mother.
- 621
- 00:43:17,052 --> 00:43:20,055
- Wherever I am,
- my heart is always with you,
- 622
- 00:43:20,139 --> 00:43:22,349
- my thoughts are always with you.
- 623
- 00:43:22,433 --> 00:43:27,771
- Let the fact that I love and worship you
- for your splendid courage and patience
- 624
- 00:43:28,522 --> 00:43:32,192
- be a comfort to you
- whenever you feel my absence.
- 625
- 00:43:32,860 --> 00:43:35,279
- Remember that like Big Louds...
- 626
- 00:43:36,447 --> 00:43:37,740
- I am always with you.
- 627
- 00:43:38,741 --> 00:43:39,992
- Goodnight, Mommy.
- 628
- 00:43:41,118 --> 00:43:42,119
- Louds."
- 629
- 00:43:44,330 --> 00:43:45,998
- September 1942.
- 630
- 00:43:46,081 --> 00:43:48,917
- "Toots, your picture arrived today
- 631
- 00:43:49,001 --> 00:43:51,086
- and I am terribly pleased with it.
- 632
- 00:43:52,963 --> 00:43:54,673
- It really is swell.
- 633
- 00:43:54,757 --> 00:43:59,219
- You can be sure it's been put in the most
- prominent position beside my bunk.
- 634
- 00:43:59,553 --> 00:44:05,225
- There is no doubt in my mind as to who
- has the prettiest mother in the place.
- 635
- 00:44:06,101 --> 00:44:09,188
- You're really younger looking
- than most of the guys' girls.
- 636
- 00:44:10,856 --> 00:44:11,857
- No, I'm not kidding.
- 637
- 00:44:12,858 --> 00:44:16,153
- I like the Marine Corps,
- I have a million and one good pals.
- 638
- 00:44:16,236 --> 00:44:18,739
- I like California and I'm quite happy,
- 639
- 00:44:18,822 --> 00:44:21,742
- but I'm so damn mad at this setup I'm in
- 640
- 00:44:21,825 --> 00:44:23,911
- that I feel like getting plastered
- or something.
- 641
- 00:44:23,994 --> 00:44:26,288
- I mean, whoever said, 'War is hell,'
- 642
- 00:44:26,372 --> 00:44:29,875
- either wasn't using the full extent
- of his vocabulary
- 643
- 00:44:30,459 --> 00:44:34,046
- or had never fought the war
- from the sunny shores of California.
- 644
- 00:44:35,047 --> 00:44:37,007
- It is, as Dad would have said,
- 645
- 00:44:37,091 --> 00:44:40,344
- a great big pain in the pardonnez-moi ass.
- 646
- 00:44:41,845 --> 00:44:44,848
- Ah, nuts to me,
- I'm griping too much, and I'm sorry."
- 647
- 00:44:46,183 --> 00:44:47,893
- October 1942.
- 648
- 00:44:50,020 --> 00:44:50,854
- "Mother...
- 649
- 00:44:51,855 --> 00:44:56,944
- I'm now listening to "Melancholy Baby"
- coming in loud and clear over the radio.
- 650
- 00:44:58,445 --> 00:45:01,073
- Remember those nights
- driving back from Easthampton
- 651
- 00:45:01,156 --> 00:45:03,283
- when we'd sing all the way home?
- 652
- 00:45:03,367 --> 00:45:06,870
- Or coming back from a game
- at Princeton with Dad giving out
- 653
- 00:45:06,954 --> 00:45:10,666
- with his special octave-jumping tenor?
- 654
- 00:45:13,210 --> 00:45:14,378
- Them were the days.
- 655
- 00:45:15,337 --> 00:45:16,171
- Good night,
- 656
- 00:45:16,839 --> 00:45:18,632
- and lots of love, Louds."
- 657
- 00:45:19,842 --> 00:45:22,845
- 1943. "I'm in San Diego now, Mom.
- 658
- 00:45:22,928 --> 00:45:24,888
- It's a dull sailor-crammed town.
- 659
- 00:45:24,972 --> 00:45:28,517
- I can't get a drop to drink because
- I'm not 21 and they won't serve me.
- 660
- 00:45:29,059 --> 00:45:31,645
- I'm gonna write
- to the new governor, Earl Warren,
- 661
- 00:45:32,104 --> 00:45:36,608
- and I'm gonna tell him I don't like
- the liquor laws in his lousy state
- 662
- 00:45:36,900 --> 00:45:39,403
- and that if he doesn't have them
- fixed immediately
- 663
- 00:45:39,486 --> 00:45:42,448
- so that all men in uniform can imbibe,
- 664
- 00:45:42,531 --> 00:45:43,866
- I'll depart.
- 665
- 00:45:45,242 --> 00:45:48,787
- If Errol Flynn being accused
- of the seduction
- 666
- 00:45:48,871 --> 00:45:51,707
- and statutory rape of two minor girls
- 667
- 00:45:51,790 --> 00:45:55,669
- is an example of the purity
- of glorious California,
- 668
- 00:45:56,044 --> 00:45:57,546
- then why can't I have a beer?
- 669
- 00:46:01,759 --> 00:46:02,634
- To be truthful,
- 670
- 00:46:03,552 --> 00:46:07,181
- I long for a little younger
- female companionship.
- 671
- 00:46:08,348 --> 00:46:11,727
- Although you realize, Mom, there's nothing
- I'd rather do than see you.
- 672
- 00:46:14,021 --> 00:46:15,022
- Love, Loudee."
- 673
- 00:46:20,778 --> 00:46:22,529
- July, 1945.
- 674
- 00:46:25,574 --> 00:46:29,369
- "I'm thinking very seriously of bringing
- Martha home with me next weekend.
- 675
- 00:46:31,121 --> 00:46:35,375
- Might both get a three-day pass. We could
- go out to Cedarhurst and swim, etc.
- 676
- 00:46:37,836 --> 00:46:40,881
- I'm thinking very seriously
- of getting married.
- 677
- 00:46:41,673 --> 00:46:44,802
- So I hope you like her
- and will not start thinking of ways
- 678
- 00:46:44,885 --> 00:46:46,428
- to make me forget about it.
- 679
- 00:46:48,639 --> 00:46:50,724
- I didn't mean that exactly the way
- that it sounded,
- 680
- 00:46:50,808 --> 00:46:52,684
- but I do feel that you probably think
- 681
- 00:46:52,768 --> 00:46:56,313
- of the objectionable sides
- of the relationship before anything else.
- 682
- 00:46:57,314 --> 00:46:59,858
- I love her a great deal, and I feel...
- 683
- 00:47:00,901 --> 00:47:02,861
- pretty certain that it's a good thing.
- 684
- 00:47:04,112 --> 00:47:06,281
- She completely understands my situation.
- 685
- 00:47:07,324 --> 00:47:10,202
- Don't worry about it, Mother.
- Love, Louds."
- 686
- 00:47:11,203 --> 00:47:12,913
- October 1945.
- 687
- 00:47:12,996 --> 00:47:16,416
- "Mom, Martha is down at Camp Lejeune
- getting discharged
- 688
- 00:47:16,500 --> 00:47:18,252
- and won't be home until Saturday.
- 689
- 00:47:22,130 --> 00:47:25,259
- I miss her like hell, I don't know what
- to do with myself when she's not here.
- 690
- 00:47:26,635 --> 00:47:30,973
- The way I feel about her
- almost seems to be too far inside me
- 691
- 00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:33,684
- for any appropriate expression.
- 692
- 00:47:36,228 --> 00:47:38,146
- I never thought I could be this lonely.
- 693
- 00:47:40,983 --> 00:47:42,276
- She's a sweetheart.
- 694
- 00:47:43,569 --> 00:47:44,736
- And I love her."
- 695
- 00:48:00,669 --> 00:48:04,756
- ♪ Mother liked her white wine
- When she was alive ♪
- 696
- 00:48:05,090 --> 00:48:08,677
- ♪ She was desperate to live
- But her limit was five ♪
- 697
- 00:48:09,636 --> 00:48:11,096
- ♪ Carefully, I'd kiss her ♪
- 698
- 00:48:11,930 --> 00:48:13,265
- ♪ Send her off to bed ♪
- 699
- 00:48:14,057 --> 00:48:17,269
- ♪ We always stuck to white wine
- We stayed away from red ♪
- 700
- 00:48:19,813 --> 00:48:22,983
- ♪ Always stick to white wine,
- Stay away from... ♪
- 701
- 00:48:23,066 --> 00:48:27,154
- ♪ Mother liked her white wine
- She'd have a glass or two ♪
- 702
- 00:48:27,738 --> 00:48:31,700
- ♪ Almost every single night
- After her day was through ♪
- 703
- 00:48:32,492 --> 00:48:35,162
- ♪ Sancerre, chardonnay, Chablis ♪
- 704
- 00:48:35,245 --> 00:48:36,747
- ♪ Pinot grigio ♪
- 705
- 00:48:37,873 --> 00:48:40,751
- ♪ Just to take the edge off
- Just to get the glow ♪
- 706
- 00:48:42,878 --> 00:48:46,048
- ♪ You've got to take the edge off
- If you want to get... ♪
- 707
- 00:48:54,848 --> 00:48:58,727
- ♪ Mother liked her white wine
- She'd have a glass or three ♪
- 708
- 00:48:59,603 --> 00:49:03,565
- ♪ We'd sit out on the screen porch
- White winos, Mom and me ♪
- 709
- 00:49:04,816 --> 00:49:07,069
- ♪ We'd talk about her childhood ♪
- 710
- 00:49:07,152 --> 00:49:09,655
- ♪ And recap my career ♪
- 711
- 00:49:09,738 --> 00:49:11,281
- ♪ When we got to my father ♪
- 712
- 00:49:11,365 --> 00:49:13,283
- ♪ That's when I'd switch to beer ♪
- 713
- 00:49:15,661 --> 00:49:18,580
- ♪ When we got to the old man
- I'd always switch... ♪
- 714
- 00:49:19,289 --> 00:49:21,583
- ♪ Mother liked her white wine ♪
- 715
- 00:49:21,667 --> 00:49:23,001
- ♪ She'd have a glass or four ♪
- 716
- 00:49:23,085 --> 00:49:25,879
- ♪ Each empty bottle a dead soldier ♪
- 717
- 00:49:25,963 --> 00:49:27,464
- ♪ The marriage was the war ♪
- 718
- 00:49:28,423 --> 00:49:31,843
- ♪ When we blurred the edges
- When we drank a lot ♪
- 719
- 00:49:32,761 --> 00:49:36,056
- ♪ That's when I got nervous
- When the glow got hot ♪
- 720
- 00:49:38,392 --> 00:49:42,062
- ♪ I always get nervous
- When the glow gets... ♪
- 721
- 00:49:54,324 --> 00:49:58,078
- ♪ I still like my white wine
- And I'll have a glass or two ♪
- 722
- 00:49:59,037 --> 00:50:02,499
- ♪ When I'm down, I'll drink some whiskey
- It's something I shouldn't do ♪
- 723
- 00:50:03,792 --> 00:50:07,838
- ♪ Every now and then
- I'll take a drop of red ♪
- 724
- 00:50:08,422 --> 00:50:09,965
- ♪ When I'm with a woman ♪
- 725
- 00:50:10,048 --> 00:50:11,675
- ♪ That I want to take to bed ♪
- 726
- 00:50:13,844 --> 00:50:16,722
- ♪ When I'm with a woman
- That I want to take... ♪
- 727
- 00:50:16,805 --> 00:50:20,851
- ♪ Mother liked her white wine
- And when she was alive ♪
- 728
- 00:50:20,934 --> 00:50:23,270
- ♪ She was desperate to live ♪
- 729
- 00:50:23,353 --> 00:50:24,896
- ♪ But her limit was five ♪
- 730
- 00:50:25,355 --> 00:50:26,898
- ♪ Carefully, I'd kiss her ♪
- 731
- 00:50:27,649 --> 00:50:29,026
- ♪ Send her off to bed ♪
- 732
- 00:50:29,818 --> 00:50:32,154
- ♪ Thank God we stuck to white wine ♪
- 733
- 00:50:32,237 --> 00:50:34,281
- ♪ And we stayed away from... ♪
- 734
- 00:50:34,364 --> 00:50:39,828
- ♪ Mother liked her white wine ♪
- 735
- 00:51:04,686 --> 00:51:05,854
- [sighs]
- 736
- 00:51:14,112 --> 00:51:16,907
- Well, it's always seemed
- like a zero holiday to me.
- 737
- 00:51:19,367 --> 00:51:23,455
- Another commercially pumped up occasion
- to sell greeting cards or neckties.
- 738
- 00:51:24,247 --> 00:51:26,958
- Long distance phone calls,
- 739
- 00:51:27,042 --> 00:51:30,212
- 41 million on Father's Day.
- 740
- 00:51:31,463 --> 00:51:33,465
- More on Mother's Day.
- 741
- 00:51:36,176 --> 00:51:38,470
- Aloud, I profess to find it
- beneath my notice,
- 742
- 00:51:38,553 --> 00:51:42,182
- but as it rolls around each June,
- I find myself wondering
- 743
- 00:51:42,265 --> 00:51:43,934
- if I'm gonna hear
- from each of the kids,
- 744
- 00:51:44,810 --> 00:51:46,478
- and I get ready to sulk...
- 745
- 00:51:47,771 --> 00:51:50,482
- if someone doesn't phone
- or write or show up.
- 746
- 00:51:51,441 --> 00:51:55,153
- I call the roll in my head
- and tick off tender memories of each.
- 747
- 00:51:56,822 --> 00:52:00,283
- Looking back, I suppose
- one of the problems I had with fatherhood
- 748
- 00:52:00,367 --> 00:52:04,246
- was that I attached a kind of divinity
- to the role.
- 749
- 00:52:05,455 --> 00:52:09,084
- Not that I consider myself all-knowing,
- but I did have this notion
- 750
- 00:52:09,501 --> 00:52:11,128
- that a really good father...
- 751
- 00:52:11,837 --> 00:52:14,464
- would have the answers
- to just about everything
- 752
- 00:52:15,507 --> 00:52:18,093
- and the power
- to make all things work out.
- 753
- 00:52:19,678 --> 00:52:23,390
- I think it's likely my own father,
- who died a relatively young man,
- 754
- 00:52:23,473 --> 00:52:26,226
- suffered from the same delusion.
- 755
- 00:52:26,309 --> 00:52:29,688
- Even when he seemed most confident
- and implacable,
- 756
- 00:52:31,898 --> 00:52:33,441
- I would bet he was full of doubt,
- 757
- 00:52:34,317 --> 00:52:38,280
- that his controlling family style
- was just a cover-up
- 758
- 00:52:39,030 --> 00:52:42,075
- for the fear
- he didn't have much power at all.
- 759
- 00:52:45,036 --> 00:52:46,913
- Maybe my experience is unusual,
- 760
- 00:52:46,997 --> 00:52:50,458
- but I can't recall having given
- a single serious thought
- 761
- 00:52:50,542 --> 00:52:54,421
- to what it would be like to be a father
- until I was married
- 762
- 00:52:55,213 --> 00:52:57,674
- and my first son was on the way.
- 763
- 00:52:58,925 --> 00:53:02,429
- All my dreams up to then had revolved
- around escaping boyhood
- 764
- 00:53:02,512 --> 00:53:06,391
- and its strictures
- or around sex or around...
- 765
- 00:53:07,475 --> 00:53:09,352
- learning everything
- about everything
- 766
- 00:53:09,436 --> 00:53:12,272
- or being recognized, even acclaimed,
- 767
- 00:53:13,273 --> 00:53:16,693
- as a full-fledged person
- with limitless future.
- 768
- 00:53:18,987 --> 00:53:20,530
- When that first son was born,
- 769
- 00:53:21,781 --> 00:53:25,911
- I spent all night in the waiting room
- with another expectant father.
- 770
- 00:53:28,788 --> 00:53:29,998
- He was about 40.
- 771
- 00:53:31,458 --> 00:53:34,794
- Almost twice my age then, so was his wife.
- 772
- 00:53:34,878 --> 00:53:36,546
- They'd been married for many years.
- 773
- 00:53:37,172 --> 00:53:38,965
- This would be their first too.
- 774
- 00:53:40,842 --> 00:53:43,762
- He and I talked
- and drank coffee until dawn
- 775
- 00:53:43,845 --> 00:53:47,974
- while our wives labored unseen
- down the hall.
- 776
- 00:53:49,100 --> 00:53:51,811
- He told me how carefully
- they had planned for this child,
- 777
- 00:53:52,187 --> 00:53:55,023
- how many earlier disappointments
- they'd had.
- 778
- 00:53:57,859 --> 00:54:00,612
- Their experience
- was so astonishingly different
- 779
- 00:54:00,695 --> 00:54:02,697
- and so much more complex than my own,
- 780
- 00:54:02,781 --> 00:54:07,619
- in which a child seemed to come
- almost spontaneously out of marriage.
- 781
- 00:54:09,329 --> 00:54:13,041
- These people really wanted their baby.
- 782
- 00:54:16,044 --> 00:54:17,170
- We did too, but...
- 783
- 00:54:18,880 --> 00:54:20,882
- that was a whole other order of things.
- 784
- 00:54:22,968 --> 00:54:26,930
- Then as we talked on, their doctor
- came out of the delivery room
- 785
- 00:54:27,013 --> 00:54:29,849
- and told my new friend
- that his wife was all right.
- 786
- 00:54:33,144 --> 00:54:37,565
- After the most awful pause,
- he added that the baby, a boy,
- 787
- 00:54:38,233 --> 00:54:39,442
- hadn't made it.
- 788
- 00:54:44,239 --> 00:54:45,365
- Until right then...
- 789
- 00:54:47,784 --> 00:54:50,662
- when that calm and kind man...
- 790
- 00:54:51,913 --> 00:54:56,584
- so ready for fatherhood
- and so cruelly deprived of it,
- 791
- 00:54:57,294 --> 00:55:01,548
- put his arm around me and told me
- he was sure our baby would be okay...
- 792
- 00:55:06,428 --> 00:55:10,098
- I hadn't realized how close
- all life is to sorrow.
- 793
- 00:55:23,570 --> 00:55:27,073
- ♪ We're wondering when you will arrive ♪
- 794
- 00:55:28,241 --> 00:55:29,993
- ♪ We're wondering what you'll be ♪
- 795
- 00:55:31,494 --> 00:55:33,788
- ♪ We're wondering if you'll be a her ♪
- 796
- 00:55:36,082 --> 00:55:38,209
- ♪ Or if you'll be a he ♪
- 797
- 00:55:39,794 --> 00:55:42,255
- ♪ Maybe you'll arrive today ♪
- 798
- 00:55:43,882 --> 00:55:46,259
- ♪ Perhaps tomorrow night ♪
- 799
- 00:55:47,469 --> 00:55:50,180
- ♪ We're hoping you won't hurt too much ♪
- 800
- 00:55:52,140 --> 00:55:54,726
- ♪ And that you'll be all right ♪
- 801
- 00:55:55,852 --> 00:55:58,480
- ♪ Life has a few unpleasantries ♪
- 802
- 00:55:58,563 --> 00:56:01,566
- ♪ We may as well confess ♪
- 803
- 00:56:04,069 --> 00:56:05,862
- ♪ We suppose you'll cry a lot ♪
- 804
- 00:56:07,739 --> 00:56:09,324
- ♪ And that you'll be a mess ♪
- 805
- 00:56:11,493 --> 00:56:14,037
- ♪ There is one thing
- You should note well ♪
- 806
- 00:56:14,120 --> 00:56:16,790
- ♪ Of this, there is no doubt ♪
- 807
- 00:56:17,916 --> 00:56:20,251
- ♪ You cannot get inside again ♪
- 808
- 00:56:22,253 --> 00:56:24,631
- ♪ Once you have come out ♪
- 809
- 00:56:26,383 --> 00:56:28,510
- ♪ Even though there's trouble ♪
- 810
- 00:56:29,427 --> 00:56:30,762
- ♪ Even though there's fuss ♪
- 811
- 00:56:32,764 --> 00:56:35,141
- ♪ We really think you'll like it here ♪
- 812
- 00:56:36,726 --> 00:56:41,314
- ♪ We hope that you like us ♪
- 813
- 00:56:56,037 --> 00:57:00,250
- Now the name of that song
- is "Dilated to Meet You."
- 814
- 00:57:05,255 --> 00:57:06,172
- Or...
- 815
- 00:57:07,132 --> 00:57:08,425
- "At Your Cervix."
- 816
- 00:57:10,552 --> 00:57:11,845
- And, uh...
- 817
- 00:57:11,928 --> 00:57:16,391
- I wrote it probably about 1973...
- 818
- 00:57:17,517 --> 00:57:23,106
- when we were waiting on Rufus
- to make his grand entrance.
- 819
- 00:57:23,189 --> 00:57:26,192
- [applause]
- 820
- 00:57:29,821 --> 00:57:31,906
- When we told, um...
- 821
- 00:57:33,533 --> 00:57:37,328
- my grandmother
- that her first great-grandchild
- 822
- 00:57:37,662 --> 00:57:41,249
- was not going to be called
- Loudon Wainwright IV,
- 823
- 00:57:42,167 --> 00:57:43,751
- but Rufus...
- 824
- 00:57:45,670 --> 00:57:46,671
- she said...
- 825
- 00:57:47,464 --> 00:57:48,506
- "Rufus...
- 826
- 00:57:49,507 --> 00:57:50,800
- Rufus?
- 827
- 00:57:50,884 --> 00:57:52,469
- That's a dog's name!"
- 828
- 00:57:59,100 --> 00:58:00,310
- Yeah, she was right.
- 829
- 00:58:05,565 --> 00:58:07,025
- Let me just tune again.
- 830
- 00:58:16,868 --> 00:58:18,870
- [tuning]
- 831
- 00:58:21,831 --> 00:58:22,790
- You can't tell.
- 832
- 00:58:26,002 --> 00:58:28,963
- It's those guitar techs at home
- that I'm worried about.
- 833
- 00:58:39,474 --> 00:58:40,308
- Eh.
- 834
- 00:58:41,601 --> 00:58:46,105
- Okay, so "Dilated to Meet You"
- was written in 1974,
- 835
- 00:58:46,189 --> 00:58:47,857
- '73, I think I said.
- 836
- 00:58:48,650 --> 00:58:50,652
- 18 years later, this one popped out.
- 837
- 00:59:00,620 --> 00:59:02,705
- ♪ When I was your age
- I was just like you ♪
- 838
- 00:59:02,789 --> 00:59:04,666
- ♪ Just look at me now
- I'm sure you do ♪
- 839
- 00:59:06,042 --> 00:59:08,586
- ♪ But your grandfather was just as bad ♪
- 840
- 00:59:08,670 --> 00:59:10,964
- ♪ You should have heard him
- Trash his dad ♪
- 841
- 00:59:11,881 --> 00:59:14,300
- ♪ Life's no picnic, that's a given ♪
- 842
- 00:59:14,884 --> 00:59:17,595
- ♪ My mom's mom died
- When my mom was seven ♪
- 843
- 00:59:18,054 --> 00:59:20,431
- ♪ My mom's father was a tragic guy ♪
- 844
- 00:59:20,515 --> 00:59:23,518
- ♪ He was so distant, nobody knows why ♪
- 845
- 00:59:27,230 --> 00:59:29,816
- ♪ Now, your mother's family ♪
- 846
- 00:59:30,483 --> 00:59:32,110
- ♪ You know them ♪
- 847
- 00:59:35,738 --> 00:59:37,282
- ♪ Each and every one a gem ♪
- 848
- 00:59:38,241 --> 00:59:39,701
- ♪ Each and every one a gem ♪
- 849
- 00:59:41,119 --> 00:59:43,955
- ♪ When I was your age
- I was a mess on a bad day ♪
- 850
- 00:59:44,038 --> 00:59:45,248
- ♪ I still am, I guess ♪
- 851
- 00:59:46,457 --> 00:59:48,501
- ♪ I think I know
- What you're going through ♪
- 852
- 00:59:49,002 --> 00:59:50,962
- ♪ Everything changes, but nothing is new ♪
- 853
- 00:59:51,796 --> 00:59:54,549
- ♪ I know that I'm miserable
- Can't you see? ♪
- 854
- 00:59:55,383 --> 00:59:57,302
- ♪ I just want you to be just like me ♪
- 855
- 00:59:59,971 --> 01:00:01,931
- ♪ Boys grow up to be grown men ♪
- 856
- 01:00:02,015 --> 01:00:05,143
- ♪ And then men change
- Back into boys again ♪
- 857
- 01:00:08,938 --> 01:00:11,941
- ♪ You are starting up
- And I'm winding down ♪
- 858
- 01:00:16,738 --> 01:00:19,991
- ♪ Ain't it big enough
- for us both in this town? ♪
- 859
- 01:00:20,074 --> 01:00:22,368
- ♪ Say it's big enough for us both ♪
- 860
- 01:00:37,467 --> 01:00:40,261
- ♪ When I was your age
- I thought I hated my dad ♪
- 861
- 01:00:40,345 --> 01:00:42,847
- ♪ That the feeling was a mutual one
- That we had ♪
- 862
- 01:00:42,930 --> 01:00:45,642
- ♪ We fought each other day and night ♪
- 863
- 01:00:45,725 --> 01:00:48,061
- ♪ I was always wrong,
- He was always right ♪
- 864
- 01:00:49,896 --> 01:00:51,022
- ♪ But he had the power ♪
- 865
- 01:00:51,689 --> 01:00:53,232
- ♪ He needed to win ♪
- 866
- 01:00:53,524 --> 01:00:56,235
- ♪ His life half over,
- Mine about to begin ♪
- 867
- 01:00:56,819 --> 01:00:59,405
- ♪ I'm not sure about that Oedipal stuff ♪
- 868
- 01:00:59,489 --> 01:01:00,823
- ♪ But when we were together ♪
- 869
- 01:01:01,824 --> 01:01:02,909
- ♪ It was always rough ♪
- 870
- 01:01:07,830 --> 01:01:10,833
- ♪ Hate is a strong word
- I want to backtrack ♪
- 871
- 01:01:15,421 --> 01:01:17,882
- ♪ The bigger the front
- The bigger the back ♪
- 872
- 01:01:17,965 --> 01:01:20,093
- ♪ The bigger the front
- The bigger the back ♪
- 873
- 01:01:21,135 --> 01:01:23,221
- ♪ Now you and me or me and you ♪
- 874
- 01:01:23,304 --> 01:01:26,140
- ♪ It's a different ballgame
- No, not brand new ♪
- 875
- 01:01:26,224 --> 01:01:28,976
- ♪ I don't know what
- All this fighting is for ♪
- 876
- 01:01:29,060 --> 01:01:31,521
- ♪ We're having us
- a teenage/middle-age war ♪
- 877
- 01:01:31,604 --> 01:01:32,855
- ♪ I don't want to die ♪
- 878
- 01:01:33,731 --> 01:01:34,732
- ♪ You want to live ♪
- 879
- 01:01:35,400 --> 01:01:37,777
- ♪ Takes a little bit of take
- And a whole lot of give ♪
- 880
- 01:01:38,486 --> 01:01:41,364
- ♪ Never really ends, though
- Each race is run ♪
- 881
- 01:01:41,447 --> 01:01:44,826
- ♪ This thing between a father and a son ♪
- 882
- 01:01:50,248 --> 01:01:51,541
- ♪ Maybe it's power ♪
- 883
- 01:01:52,583 --> 01:01:53,793
- ♪ Push and shove ♪
- 884
- 01:01:56,421 --> 01:01:58,840
- ♪ Maybe it's hate, probably it's love ♪
- 885
- 01:01:59,215 --> 01:02:01,509
- ♪ Maybe it's hate, probably it's love ♪
- 886
- 01:02:33,458 --> 01:02:36,544
- Right in the middle of a long New Year's
- weekend full of bright weather
- 887
- 01:02:36,627 --> 01:02:41,174
- on lovely snow and a numbing succession
- of televised quarterbacks...
- 888
- 01:02:43,342 --> 01:02:44,552
- our dog died.
- 889
- 01:02:46,554 --> 01:02:50,767
- Or to put it absolutely straight, after
- a family agreement rare in its unanimity,
- 890
- 01:02:51,350 --> 01:02:53,728
- we had his life stopped...
- 891
- 01:02:54,937 --> 01:02:57,899
- by a veterinarian who agreed
- it was the right thing to do
- 892
- 01:02:57,982 --> 01:03:01,694
- for such a painfully
- and fatally ill animal.
- 893
- 01:03:03,696 --> 01:03:06,783
- His name was John Henry.
- 894
- 01:03:09,869 --> 01:03:11,662
- I don't know why we called him that.
- 895
- 01:03:12,914 --> 01:03:14,957
- I don't think I've ever been
- more sharply aware
- 896
- 01:03:15,041 --> 01:03:18,795
- of the fine line between here and gone
- 897
- 01:03:18,878 --> 01:03:23,049
- than I was near the end when
- I held him close on the vet's table.
- 898
- 01:03:24,050 --> 01:03:27,720
- The kind doctor,
- her eyes floating in tears
- 899
- 01:03:28,930 --> 01:03:30,681
- because she knew him and us,
- 900
- 01:03:32,975 --> 01:03:35,269
- pumped something bluish into his leg.
- 901
- 01:03:36,646 --> 01:03:40,566
- And with a calm, open-eyed patience
- 902
- 01:03:40,650 --> 01:03:43,611
- that characterized so much of his style,
- 903
- 01:03:43,694 --> 01:03:45,696
- he waited that briefest moment
- 904
- 01:03:45,780 --> 01:03:47,490
- until it struck his center...
- 905
- 01:03:48,908 --> 01:03:50,117
- and killed him.
- 906
- 01:03:53,120 --> 01:03:55,081
- Couple of polite gasps...
- 907
- 01:03:56,040 --> 01:03:56,916
- and it was over.
- 908
- 01:03:59,335 --> 01:04:02,171
- Slightly undone by my sentiment,
- 909
- 01:04:02,255 --> 01:04:06,175
- and for some wild reason,
- remembering not Lassie,
- 910
- 01:04:06,342 --> 01:04:08,094
- but Love Story
- 911
- 01:04:10,096 --> 01:04:14,976
- and the astounding
- communicative success of Erich Segal,
- 912
- 01:04:17,436 --> 01:04:21,899
- I will now risk a version
- of his opening question.
- 913
- 01:04:23,734 --> 01:04:29,282
- What can you say about
- an 11 and a half year old dog that died?
- 914
- 01:04:32,451 --> 01:04:35,288
- That he was at least as beautiful
- as Ali MacGraw.
- 915
- 01:04:37,456 --> 01:04:38,541
- He was dumber...
- 916
- 01:04:40,501 --> 01:04:41,961
- a messier eater.
- 917
- 01:04:43,504 --> 01:04:46,841
- That he ran shining
- and marvelously fast through fields
- 918
- 01:04:46,924 --> 01:04:49,010
- and rolled snorting in snow
- 919
- 01:04:49,093 --> 01:04:53,681
- and floated a burnt auburn blur
- over stone walls,
- 920
- 01:04:53,764 --> 01:04:56,100
- that he didn't much mind Mozart and Bach,
- 921
- 01:04:56,183 --> 01:05:00,187
- but that violin solos
- and harmonicas made him howl.
- 922
- 01:05:00,730 --> 01:05:04,400
- That he could destroy six glasses
- 923
- 01:05:05,067 --> 01:05:07,528
- with one sweep of his tail.
- 924
- 01:05:09,238 --> 01:05:14,076
- But when I asked him how he ranked me
- among the people he liked,
- 925
- 01:05:14,160 --> 01:05:16,579
- he would thump his tail
- against the floor and grin,
- 926
- 01:05:17,330 --> 01:05:20,082
- occasionally punctuating that
- with a noise...
- 927
- 01:05:21,000 --> 01:05:22,460
- that became a smell.
- 928
- 01:05:26,130 --> 01:05:29,008
- Well, he was half-Irish Setter
- and half-golden retriever.
- 929
- 01:05:29,091 --> 01:05:31,344
- His manners were predictably imperfect.
- 930
- 01:05:32,428 --> 01:05:37,433
- There was a totally non-human quality
- about his loving.
- 931
- 01:05:37,516 --> 01:05:43,189
- Virtually everyone was a suitable target
- for his affection.
- 932
- 01:05:43,940 --> 01:05:48,361
- And unlike your one-man brute
- who will slobber over his master's hand
- 933
- 01:05:48,444 --> 01:05:51,697
- and then dismember the neighbor's child...
- 934
- 01:05:52,698 --> 01:05:54,325
- he menaced nothing,
- 935
- 01:05:54,408 --> 01:05:57,286
- including the rabbits he chased
- and never got
- 936
- 01:05:58,454 --> 01:06:01,624
- and the skunks who always got him.
- 937
- 01:06:02,875 --> 01:06:05,294
- Not that he was indiscriminating.
- He was not a tramp.
- 938
- 01:06:06,045 --> 01:06:07,588
- He did not follow strangers.
- 939
- 01:06:07,672 --> 01:06:09,799
- He was a wide-ranging country dog,
- 940
- 01:06:09,882 --> 01:06:13,135
- but his daily investigations most always
- brought him home at night.
- 941
- 01:06:13,219 --> 01:06:14,971
- He liked to sleep on rugs...
- 942
- 01:06:16,180 --> 01:06:19,100
- usually where it was convenient
- to stumble over him.
- 943
- 01:06:20,184 --> 01:06:22,061
- He liked to ride in cars.
- 944
- 01:06:24,480 --> 01:06:28,943
- Best... he liked to be invited on walks.
- 945
- 01:06:29,986 --> 01:06:32,238
- And he worked like a roving scout,
- 946
- 01:06:33,030 --> 01:06:36,659
- around the walker,
- in front, behind, alongside,
- 947
- 01:06:36,742 --> 01:06:39,370
- often at a dead run a good distance away.
- 948
- 01:06:39,453 --> 01:06:41,080
- And when he rested in winter
- 949
- 01:06:41,956 --> 01:06:45,376
- during one of these wonderful
- dashes in all directions,
- 950
- 01:06:45,459 --> 01:06:51,090
- he would break ice in a stream
- to cool his belly and his tongue.
- 951
- 01:06:56,303 --> 01:06:59,098
- Although he was forced to live
- with a succession...
- 952
- 01:07:00,349 --> 01:07:01,684
- of cats...
- 953
- 01:07:04,311 --> 01:07:06,147
- I don't think he liked them at all.
- 954
- 01:07:06,897 --> 01:07:10,443
- Yet in most moods but joy,
- he was a model of understatement,
- 955
- 01:07:10,526 --> 01:07:16,991
- the weary and wary tolerance
- he displayed at the cats' rude spitting
- 956
- 01:07:17,074 --> 01:07:19,535
- or at their hit-and-run assaults
- from ambush
- 957
- 01:07:19,618 --> 01:07:24,123
- from beneath a chair was the closest
- he ever came to expressing real distaste.
- 958
- 01:07:24,582 --> 01:07:28,544
- Obviously, our knowledge about his
- relationships with other dogs is limited.
- 959
- 01:07:28,627 --> 01:07:31,338
- He probably had wet down bark or bush
- 960
- 01:07:31,422 --> 01:07:34,884
- with every dog
- within a radius of three miles,
- 961
- 01:07:34,967 --> 01:07:36,886
- but he didn't seem
- to care much for groups,
- 962
- 01:07:37,762 --> 01:07:41,182
- preferring instead to run alone
- or with just one other at a time.
- 963
- 01:07:41,766 --> 01:07:43,893
- He was alert, forward,
- 964
- 01:07:44,477 --> 01:07:45,728
- but never aggressive.
- 965
- 01:07:47,021 --> 01:07:49,732
- Though his hair bristled splendidly,
- 966
- 01:07:49,815 --> 01:07:52,735
- and he growled well when challenged,
- 967
- 01:07:53,194 --> 01:07:56,197
- he had a distinct aptitude
- for avoiding fights
- 968
- 01:07:56,280 --> 01:07:58,115
- and could walk away from one
- 969
- 01:07:58,199 --> 01:08:02,536
- with a casualness that implied
- it wouldn't be worth his trouble.
- 970
- 01:08:09,585 --> 01:08:11,587
- In his later years, he was treated roughly
- 971
- 01:08:11,670 --> 01:08:14,006
- by a much younger
- and stronger dog down the road,
- 972
- 01:08:14,090 --> 01:08:17,093
- but he accepted this indignity
- in a way that wasn't cowardly,
- 973
- 01:08:17,176 --> 01:08:19,845
- as if it were in
- the normal order of things
- 974
- 01:08:20,429 --> 01:08:23,808
- that the puppy
- he had earlier taught to play...
- 975
- 01:08:25,142 --> 01:08:27,228
- was now bouncing him around quite badly.
- 976
- 01:08:30,022 --> 01:08:33,859
- Even when he was very feeble and old...
- 977
- 01:08:35,361 --> 01:08:38,489
- he always trotted out
- to defend his home station.
- 978
- 01:08:46,747 --> 01:08:49,041
- I hope he had a full and happy sex life.
- 979
- 01:08:50,793 --> 01:08:53,170
- But I only know of one affair.
- 980
- 01:08:53,254 --> 01:08:56,006
- It was arranged
- and he fathered a litter from it.
- 981
- 01:08:56,090 --> 01:08:58,050
- His partner in this matter
- was a female dog
- 982
- 01:08:58,134 --> 01:08:59,760
- from a household of good friends.
- 983
- 01:08:59,844 --> 01:09:01,512
- She too was sweet and easygoing,
- 984
- 01:09:01,595 --> 01:09:05,599
- and she looked more or less as if she came
- from a similarly mixed background.
- 985
- 01:09:06,892 --> 01:09:08,769
- We tell a story about this match.
- 986
- 01:09:10,020 --> 01:09:13,649
- I'm no longer sure if it's entirely true,
- but the story goes...
- 987
- 01:09:13,732 --> 01:09:16,152
- oblivious to approaching delight,
- 988
- 01:09:16,235 --> 01:09:18,696
- he was taken by car to the vets
- 989
- 01:09:19,363 --> 01:09:21,490
- for one supervised meeting.
- 990
- 01:09:21,574 --> 01:09:24,618
- The vet said afterwards he felt sure
- everything had gone well,
- 991
- 01:09:24,702 --> 01:09:28,956
- but perhaps for insurance, the two should
- be brought together again the next day.
- 992
- 01:09:29,415 --> 01:09:33,335
- So the next day, our dog was put
- in the car, driven to his appointment,
- 993
- 01:09:33,419 --> 01:09:35,379
- which was once more declared a success.
- 994
- 01:09:35,880 --> 01:09:38,883
- The affair was pronounced
- consummated and closed,
- 995
- 01:09:38,966 --> 01:09:41,218
- the dog came home.
- 996
- 01:09:41,635 --> 01:09:44,346
- The following morning,
- he was found ready in the car...
- 997
- 01:09:49,894 --> 01:09:52,188
- presumably awaiting another trip...
- 998
- 01:09:53,480 --> 01:09:54,607
- and another meeting.
- 999
- 01:09:56,942 --> 01:09:59,778
- Unlike Segal's doomed creature,
- this one wasn't perfect.
- 1000
- 01:09:59,862 --> 01:10:02,698
- Now and then, his taste in food
- would turn to garbage
- 1001
- 01:10:02,781 --> 01:10:06,869
- and he upset many cans
- in search of the ripest morsels.
- 1002
- 01:10:06,952 --> 01:10:09,246
- He dug holes in lawns.
- 1003
- 01:10:09,330 --> 01:10:12,291
- He liked to sprawl on young plants.
- 1004
- 01:10:12,374 --> 01:10:15,544
- He was a discoverer of mud!
- 1005
- 01:10:18,047 --> 01:10:20,966
- When he found something often invisible,
- 1006
- 01:10:21,383 --> 01:10:24,762
- and even non-existent, to bark at...
- 1007
- 01:10:25,971 --> 01:10:29,266
- he barked hard
- and utterly ignored commands
- 1008
- 01:10:29,350 --> 01:10:30,434
- to stop it!
- 1009
- 01:10:31,518 --> 01:10:32,895
- Come the hell home!
- 1010
- 01:10:34,563 --> 01:10:37,066
- I am proud of one area
- of his ignorance.
- 1011
- 01:10:39,109 --> 01:10:41,320
- He knew no tricks at all.
- 1012
- 01:10:44,156 --> 01:10:46,533
- Unless you count
- a sort of half-baked paw shake
- 1013
- 01:10:48,619 --> 01:10:50,496
- he employed, as a last effort,
- 1014
- 01:10:51,455 --> 01:10:57,586
- in his perpetual and undiscouraged search
- for affection.
- 1015
- 01:11:03,884 --> 01:11:06,762
- In his last days,
- he had great difficulty getting up.
- 1016
- 01:11:06,845 --> 01:11:09,723
- He tottered weakly on three legs
- and was dreadfully thin.
- 1017
- 01:11:10,683 --> 01:11:14,770
- The pain, even muffled with pills,
- was leaving him stupid with exhaustion
- 1018
- 01:11:16,689 --> 01:11:20,067
- and it became clear past all reluctance
- that what he needed most...
- 1019
- 01:11:21,652 --> 01:11:23,195
- was a push out of life.
- 1020
- 01:11:24,321 --> 01:11:28,993
- Briefly, I had the conventional
- and outlandish thought of doing it myself.
- 1021
- 01:11:30,703 --> 01:11:32,162
- So did one of my sons...
- 1022
- 01:11:34,039 --> 01:11:36,417
- who likely loved the dog the most.
- 1023
- 01:11:38,377 --> 01:11:43,966
- Then with her potion that hit
- with such shocking and merciful speed...
- 1024
- 01:11:45,301 --> 01:11:47,386
- the doctor ended our nonsense.
- 1025
- 01:11:50,431 --> 01:11:54,560
- That night,
- I dreamed that my son kept calling him.
- 1026
- 01:11:57,271 --> 01:11:59,440
- The boy had a way of calling that dog.
- 1027
- 01:12:01,066 --> 01:12:02,067
- I woke.
- 1028
- 01:12:03,652 --> 01:12:06,071
- Life gets to be
- a series of dogs, I thought,
- 1029
- 01:12:06,155 --> 01:12:08,324
- and I ticked off those I could remember.
- 1030
- 01:12:08,407 --> 01:12:10,326
- Ghosts in the house suddenly.
- 1031
- 01:12:11,827 --> 01:12:13,203
- Old dogs...
- 1032
- 01:12:15,914 --> 01:12:18,917
- When I slept and woke again,
- it was cold, half-light.
- 1033
- 01:12:19,710 --> 01:12:23,672
- I was almost sure I heard the dog's
- toenails against the hall floor...
- 1034
- 01:12:24,548 --> 01:12:26,842
- and his single, discrete bark
- 1035
- 01:12:27,509 --> 01:12:28,552
- to go outside.
- 1036
- 01:12:33,265 --> 01:12:35,142
- I won't live with a lot more dogs.
- 1037
- 01:12:42,900 --> 01:12:45,027
- And I won't live
- with another dog like him.
- 1038
- 01:12:58,499 --> 01:13:02,169
- ♪ When a man has a dog in the city ♪
- 1039
- 01:13:03,379 --> 01:13:05,297
- ♪ A man needs to walk in the park ♪
- 1040
- 01:13:07,007 --> 01:13:08,926
- ♪ Take a little stroll by the riverside ♪
- 1041
- 01:13:09,009 --> 01:13:12,346
- ♪ Smoke a cigarette there in the dark
- Living in the city ♪
- 1042
- 01:13:15,808 --> 01:13:17,601
- ♪ Living with a dog ♪
- 1043
- 01:13:20,729 --> 01:13:25,692
- ♪ And a man has to carry him a plastic bag
- On his person at all times ♪
- 1044
- 01:13:27,945 --> 01:13:30,197
- ♪ When a dog dumps on the sidewalk ♪
- 1045
- 01:13:30,280 --> 01:13:32,991
- ♪ Walking away is a crime
- Living in the city ♪
- 1046
- 01:13:36,745 --> 01:13:38,455
- ♪ Walking with a dog ♪
- 1047
- 01:13:41,959 --> 01:13:44,253
- ♪ A man likes living in the city ♪
- 1048
- 01:13:44,336 --> 01:13:46,713
- ♪ City, city ♪
- 1049
- 01:13:47,423 --> 01:13:49,591
- ♪ But a man has to find some work ♪
- 1050
- 01:13:51,009 --> 01:13:53,011
- ♪ Walking with a dog is a kind of a job ♪
- 1051
- 01:13:53,095 --> 01:13:55,931
- ♪ Make you feel like a fool and a jerk
- Living in the city ♪
- 1052
- 01:13:59,601 --> 01:14:01,311
- ♪ Working like a dog ♪
- 1053
- 01:14:02,396 --> 01:14:03,313
- Work out, Loudo!
- 1054
- 01:14:18,203 --> 01:14:20,372
- ♪ A dog likes living in the city ♪
- 1055
- 01:14:20,456 --> 01:14:22,916
- ♪ City, city ♪
- 1056
- 01:14:23,667 --> 01:14:25,669
- ♪ In a city
- There's a lot of other mutts ♪
- 1057
- 01:14:27,296 --> 01:14:29,298
- ♪ Checking in front, checking in back ♪
- 1058
- 01:14:29,381 --> 01:14:32,551
- ♪ No ifs, no ands, just butts
- Living in the city ♪
- 1059
- 01:14:35,012 --> 01:14:36,930
- ♪ Dog checking out a dog ♪
- 1060
- 01:14:40,684 --> 01:14:42,644
- ♪ It's a pretty good way to meet a woman ♪
- 1061
- 01:14:43,770 --> 01:14:46,356
- ♪ If a woman is walking her dog
- Just say ♪
- 1062
- 01:14:46,440 --> 01:14:48,233
- ♪ "What's her name? How old is she?" ♪
- 1063
- 01:14:49,610 --> 01:14:52,571
- ♪ It's easy, like rolling off a log
- Checking out a woman ♪
- 1064
- 01:14:55,240 --> 01:14:57,409
- ♪ Man acting like a dog ♪
- 1065
- 01:15:01,121 --> 01:15:03,624
- ♪ But when a man
- Has a fight with a woman ♪
- 1066
- 01:15:03,707 --> 01:15:05,542
- ♪ A man needs to go for a walk ♪
- 1067
- 01:15:07,211 --> 01:15:08,879
- ♪ Walking with a dog is easy ♪
- 1068
- 01:15:09,713 --> 01:15:11,048
- ♪ He listens, he don't talk ♪
- 1069
- 01:15:16,970 --> 01:15:18,055
- ♪ Talking to a dog ♪
- 1070
- 01:15:19,515 --> 01:15:21,683
- Talk to me, Loudo!
- 1071
- 01:15:35,656 --> 01:15:37,741
- ♪ Walking with a dog
- In the winter in the wind ♪
- 1072
- 01:15:37,824 --> 01:15:40,202
- ♪ And the rain and the snow is a drag ♪
- 1073
- 01:15:41,328 --> 01:15:43,080
- ♪ It's hard as hell
- To keep a cigarette lit ♪
- 1074
- 01:15:43,163 --> 01:15:45,207
- ♪ And get the shit in a plastic bag ♪
- 1075
- 01:15:48,377 --> 01:15:50,254
- ♪ Living in the city ♪
- 1076
- 01:15:53,257 --> 01:15:55,092
- ♪ Walking with a dog ♪
- 1077
- 01:15:55,801 --> 01:15:58,220
- ♪ When a man has a dog in the city ♪
- 1078
- 01:15:58,303 --> 01:16:00,430
- ♪ City, city ♪
- 1079
- 01:16:00,514 --> 01:16:02,057
- ♪ City ♪
- 1080
- 01:16:02,766 --> 01:16:04,560
- ♪ A man needs a walk in the park ♪
- 1081
- 01:16:06,186 --> 01:16:08,188
- ♪ Take a little stroll by the riverside ♪
- 1082
- 01:16:08,272 --> 01:16:11,608
- ♪ Smoke a cigarette there in the dark
- Living in the city ♪
- 1083
- 01:16:14,111 --> 01:16:16,154
- ♪ Man living with a dog ♪
- 1084
- 01:16:39,386 --> 01:16:42,973
- So in 1985, my father was diagnosed
- with colon cancer.
- 1085
- 01:16:44,683 --> 01:16:47,603
- And after a three-year battle...
- 1086
- 01:16:48,812 --> 01:16:49,896
- it got him.
- 1087
- 01:16:51,732 --> 01:16:54,776
- He died in December of 1988,
- 1088
- 01:16:54,860 --> 01:16:59,656
- which, interestingly enough,
- was also the same month and year
- 1089
- 01:16:59,740 --> 01:17:03,201
- that his last column
- in Life magazine appeared.
- 1090
- 01:17:08,540 --> 01:17:12,085
- Maps are just excuses
- for the journeys they set us on.
- 1091
- 01:17:13,211 --> 01:17:15,255
- I remember one glorious summer in Maine.
- 1092
- 01:17:15,339 --> 01:17:17,382
- I used to wake up
- at three or four in the morning,
- 1093
- 01:17:17,466 --> 01:17:19,968
- have coffee, make a couple
- of sandwiches for me and my wife,
- 1094
- 01:17:20,594 --> 01:17:21,803
- just set off.
- 1095
- 01:17:23,347 --> 01:17:24,556
- There was no great plan.
- 1096
- 01:17:24,640 --> 01:17:27,768
- I had it roughly in mind
- to follow every little road
- 1097
- 01:17:27,851 --> 01:17:30,604
- leading down to the sea from Deer Isle,
- 1098
- 01:17:30,687 --> 01:17:34,441
- a couple of hundred miles to Campobello,
- where Maine turns into Canada.
- 1099
- 01:17:36,401 --> 01:17:39,404
- Map in hand, I would cover
- that huge piece of terrain.
- 1100
- 01:17:40,530 --> 01:17:42,115
- It was even better than I hoped.
- 1101
- 01:17:42,199 --> 01:17:44,701
- We saw scores of little communities
- 1102
- 01:17:44,785 --> 01:17:47,371
- we might just have sped past otherwise.
- 1103
- 01:17:49,206 --> 01:17:53,001
- East Machias, Jonesport, Beals Island...
- 1104
- 01:17:54,211 --> 01:17:58,632
- and each somehow
- developed its own character
- 1105
- 01:17:58,715 --> 01:18:00,717
- as we approached in this way.
- 1106
- 01:18:03,095 --> 01:18:05,722
- One amazing morning,
- we drove down a little dirt road
- 1107
- 01:18:05,806 --> 01:18:09,267
- until the fog was so thick,
- we simply couldn't go any further.
- 1108
- 01:18:09,559 --> 01:18:12,688
- We sat silent for perhaps half an hour
- 1109
- 01:18:13,105 --> 01:18:14,856
- in that gray dampness.
- 1110
- 01:18:15,982 --> 01:18:17,192
- Then suddenly...
- 1111
- 01:18:18,151 --> 01:18:19,486
- the fog lifted...
- 1112
- 01:18:20,445 --> 01:18:24,783
- and we found ourselves
- in the shining little port of Cutler.
- 1113
- 01:18:26,743 --> 01:18:31,707
- We could never have seen it
- under such exquisite circumstances.
- 1114
- 01:18:31,790 --> 01:18:35,460
- To appreciate it the way we did,
- we had to fail first
- 1115
- 01:18:36,211 --> 01:18:37,546
- to see it in the fog.
- 1116
- 01:18:42,008 --> 01:18:44,886
- My connection with maps
- is a little distant these days.
- 1117
- 01:18:46,638 --> 01:18:49,266
- As much as I'd like to plan
- for some good coastal trips...
- 1118
- 01:18:50,475 --> 01:18:51,852
- I'm not really up for them.
- 1119
- 01:18:53,228 --> 01:18:56,398
- The possibility of other trips
- more engulfing intrudes...
- 1120
- 01:18:57,190 --> 01:19:01,945
- and I am unsettled
- by possible... destinations.
- 1121
- 01:19:03,655 --> 01:19:05,949
- As much as I'd like to think
- I'm ready for anything,
- 1122
- 01:19:06,032 --> 01:19:08,618
- I'm not really ready
- to accept all possibilities.
- 1123
- 01:19:10,662 --> 01:19:14,499
- I'm not ready to see
- where all the roads come to an end.
- 1124
- 01:19:16,960 --> 01:19:20,547
- But the old trips still give pleasure.
- 1125
- 01:19:21,631 --> 01:19:26,303
- I feel joy
- at the bright sunshine in Cutler.
- 1126
- 01:19:28,889 --> 01:19:29,931
- And I know it...
- 1127
- 01:19:31,975 --> 01:19:34,436
- as well as if I saw it this morning.
- 1128
- 01:20:02,172 --> 01:20:03,632
- ♪ I've slumped in your chair ♪
- 1129
- 01:20:04,424 --> 01:20:06,510
- ♪ Tossed and turned in your bed ♪
- 1130
- 01:20:08,845 --> 01:20:11,765
- ♪ Lurked in your lair
- I have lived in your head ♪
- 1131
- 01:20:14,476 --> 01:20:17,938
- ♪ Where others were closer
- No one is nearer ♪
- 1132
- 01:20:18,021 --> 01:20:21,733
- ♪ As I glimpse you and me in ♪
- 1133
- 01:20:22,526 --> 01:20:27,030
- ♪ The hallway mirror, I... ♪
- 1134
- 01:20:30,408 --> 01:20:32,118
- ♪ I... ♪
- 1135
- 01:20:36,706 --> 01:20:38,416
- ♪ I've grabbed from the plate ♪
- 1136
- 01:20:38,834 --> 01:20:40,961
- ♪ I've stabbed with a knife ♪
- 1137
- 01:20:42,921 --> 01:20:46,633
- ♪ On day one, my first date
- I slept with your wife ♪
- 1138
- 01:20:48,218 --> 01:20:50,470
- ♪ My common-law stepmom ♪
- 1139
- 01:20:51,012 --> 01:20:53,265
- ♪ I desire and fear her ♪
- 1140
- 01:20:53,348 --> 01:20:56,810
- ♪ I compare you to me in ♪
- 1141
- 01:20:57,394 --> 01:21:01,898
- ♪ The full-length mirror, I... ♪
- 1142
- 01:21:05,360 --> 01:21:07,028
- ♪ I... ♪
- 1143
- 01:21:10,782 --> 01:21:13,535
- ♪ Sharing hair, forehead lines ♪
- 1144
- 01:21:14,244 --> 01:21:16,329
- ♪ Scowling, worrying, thinking ♪
- 1145
- 01:21:17,664 --> 01:21:22,127
- ♪ With a penchant for fine wines
- A disposal toward drinking ♪
- 1146
- 01:21:24,129 --> 01:21:25,422
- ♪ You had 'em, I got 'em ♪
- 1147
- 01:21:26,506 --> 01:21:29,050
- ♪ I move my face nearer ♪
- 1148
- 01:21:29,134 --> 01:21:31,469
- ♪ Broken blood vessels ♪
- 1149
- 01:21:31,553 --> 01:21:37,350
- ♪ In the bathroom mirror, I... ♪
- 1150
- 01:21:40,478 --> 01:21:42,063
- ♪ I... ♪
- 1151
- 01:21:46,610 --> 01:21:50,572
- ♪ And your doormen all know me
- It's not bizarre ♪
- 1152
- 01:21:53,158 --> 01:21:57,287
- ♪ It shouldn't throw me
- To go move your car ♪
- 1153
- 01:21:58,038 --> 01:21:59,998
- ♪ But the ghost of your father ♪
- 1154
- 01:22:01,833 --> 01:22:03,376
- ♪ He couldn't be clearer ♪
- 1155
- 01:22:03,460 --> 01:22:06,546
- ♪ He's there where he haunted you ♪
- 1156
- 01:22:07,672 --> 01:22:13,011
- ♪ The rearview mirror, I... ♪
- 1157
- 01:22:16,139 --> 01:22:17,891
- ♪ I... ♪
- 1158
- 01:22:42,374 --> 01:22:45,335
- Well, on the basis of the way
- things are with my children,
- 1159
- 01:22:45,418 --> 01:22:47,921
- I doubt that the length
- of the acquaintance
- 1160
- 01:22:48,004 --> 01:22:51,841
- necessarily makes it easier
- for loved ones to know you better...
- 1161
- 01:22:53,969 --> 01:22:55,470
- or for you to know them.
- 1162
- 01:22:56,429 --> 01:23:00,934
- The past... keeps getting in the way.
- 1163
- 01:23:02,978 --> 01:23:04,896
- My children are all grown now,
- 1164
- 01:23:04,980 --> 01:23:07,399
- deep into the complications
- of their adult lives,
- 1165
- 01:23:07,941 --> 01:23:12,112
- but where I'm concerned, I'd bet
- the ghostly parent of earlier Christmases
- 1166
- 01:23:12,195 --> 01:23:15,824
- keeps popping up for them
- when my number is punched.
- 1167
- 01:23:16,366 --> 01:23:20,704
- The old record complete
- with stored outrage and disappointment
- 1168
- 01:23:20,787 --> 01:23:22,872
- comes up on the computer screen
- 1169
- 01:23:22,956 --> 01:23:28,461
- and a natural reserve, a caution,
- built up for years, takes over.
- 1170
- 01:23:30,880 --> 01:23:31,881
- Why shouldn't it?
- 1171
- 01:23:32,674 --> 01:23:34,592
- We share a big chunk of the past
- 1172
- 01:23:35,468 --> 01:23:37,262
- and there were awful bumps.
- 1173
- 01:23:38,930 --> 01:23:41,683
- I've gotten used to the fact
- that they have their own versions
- 1174
- 01:23:41,766 --> 01:23:42,892
- of how things were.
- 1175
- 01:23:44,269 --> 01:23:45,228
- They're entitled,
- 1176
- 01:23:46,021 --> 01:23:48,189
- even if I recall some things differently.
- 1177
- 01:23:50,025 --> 01:23:52,944
- No, it's not that I want
- to set the record straight.
- 1178
- 01:23:54,195 --> 01:23:55,822
- That could make matters worse.
- 1179
- 01:23:57,532 --> 01:23:59,242
- But change is possible.
- 1180
- 01:24:00,827 --> 01:24:03,621
- And I'd like to begin work on some sort
- 1181
- 01:24:03,705 --> 01:24:07,834
- of updated realigned model
- for our connection.
- 1182
- 01:24:09,002 --> 01:24:13,173
- Something that will reflect
- not so much what we all were...
- 1183
- 01:24:14,466 --> 01:24:15,800
- or think we were...
- 1184
- 01:24:18,845 --> 01:24:20,388
- but what we have become.
- 1185
- 01:24:42,494 --> 01:24:45,622
- ♪ Here's another song in C ♪
- 1186
- 01:24:47,832 --> 01:24:50,960
- ♪ When I play piano, it's my key ♪
- 1187
- 01:24:53,797 --> 01:24:55,924
- ♪ If I was playing my guitar ♪
- 1188
- 01:24:58,551 --> 01:25:01,346
- ♪ I'd probably be in G ♪
- 1189
- 01:25:01,429 --> 01:25:02,889
- ♪ The chances are ♪
- 1190
- 01:25:05,016 --> 01:25:08,436
- ♪ Here's another song in C  ♪
- 1191
- 01:25:09,979 --> 01:25:12,023
- ♪ With my favorite protagonist ♪
- 1192
- 01:25:13,316 --> 01:25:14,192
- ♪ Me ♪
- 1193
- 01:25:15,318 --> 01:25:17,904
- ♪ Of my little world, I'll tell and show ♪
- 1194
- 01:25:20,448 --> 01:25:22,450
- ♪ I'll sing all about it ♪
- 1195
- 01:25:22,534 --> 01:25:24,619
- ♪ So you'll know ♪
- 1196
- 01:25:25,912 --> 01:25:29,541
- ♪ When the people in it break my heart ♪
- 1197
- 01:25:31,292 --> 01:25:34,838
- ♪ Except to sing in C to you ♪
- 1198
- 01:25:36,714 --> 01:25:40,885
- ♪ And there's not a thing I can do ♪
- 1199
- 01:25:42,679 --> 01:25:46,182
- ♪ Except to sing in C to you ♪
- 1200
- 01:25:47,642 --> 01:25:50,687
- ♪ Oh, there used to be a family ♪
- 1201
- 01:25:53,022 --> 01:25:57,068
- ♪ Brother, sisters, father,
- Mother and me ♪
- 1202
- 01:25:58,945 --> 01:26:01,114
- ♪ We were living in a little home ♪
- 1203
- 01:26:03,950 --> 01:26:08,163
- ♪ We were fending off the great unknown ♪
- 1204
- 01:26:09,747 --> 01:26:12,792
- ♪ But the great unknown, it got inside ♪
- 1205
- 01:26:15,128 --> 01:26:18,464
- ♪ And what had been whole
- It did divide ♪
- 1206
- 01:26:20,758 --> 01:26:23,511
- ♪ In the end, the father had to leave ♪
- 1207
- 01:26:26,472 --> 01:26:27,974
- ♪ When he did ♪
- 1208
- 01:26:28,057 --> 01:26:29,976
- ♪ The mother had to grieve ♪
- 1209
- 01:26:32,270 --> 01:26:35,732
- ♪ That's the time real troubles start ♪
- 1210
- 01:26:37,483 --> 01:26:40,862
- ♪ It's when a world can fall apart ♪
- 1211
- 01:26:42,655 --> 01:26:46,784
- ♪ And there's not a thing I can do ♪
- 1212
- 01:26:48,620 --> 01:26:51,122
- ♪ Except to sing in C ♪
- 1213
- 01:26:51,206 --> 01:26:52,415
- ♪ To you ♪
- 1214
- 01:26:55,793 --> 01:26:58,922
- [continues playing]
- 1215
- 01:27:30,828 --> 01:27:34,290
- ♪ I grew up and had a family ♪
- 1216
- 01:27:37,210 --> 01:27:39,587
- ♪ But it broke apart so easily ♪
- 1217
- 01:27:42,548 --> 01:27:45,134
- ♪ All that started 40 years ago ♪
- 1218
- 01:27:47,845 --> 01:27:51,766
- ♪ Why it's never ended, I don't know ♪
- 1219
- 01:27:53,434 --> 01:27:55,979
- ♪ I could blame it on the great unknown ♪
- 1220
- 01:27:58,106 --> 01:28:01,943
- ♪ Or as a kid when I was told and shown ♪
- 1221
- 01:28:04,070 --> 01:28:05,655
- ♪ But I blame myself ♪
- 1222
- 01:28:06,572 --> 01:28:07,782
- ♪ And I blame her ♪
- 1223
- 01:28:09,742 --> 01:28:12,495
- ♪ The cruel and foolish people ♪
- 1224
- 01:28:13,121 --> 01:28:14,372
- ♪ That we were ♪
- 1225
- 01:28:16,124 --> 01:28:20,086
- ♪ And the children that we had are grown ♪
- 1226
- 01:28:21,921 --> 01:28:25,842
- ♪ They're out fending off
- The great unknown ♪
- 1227
- 01:28:30,179 --> 01:28:32,807
- ♪ And I've noticed they're a bit like me ♪
- 1228
- 01:28:42,150 --> 01:28:46,154
- ♪ With a tendency to sing in C ♪
- 1229
- 01:28:47,697 --> 01:28:51,159
- ♪ So by now it's clear to hear and know ♪
- 1230
- 01:28:53,453 --> 01:28:56,456
- ♪ I don't play a lot of piano ♪
- 1231
- 01:28:58,833 --> 01:29:01,044
- ♪ But sometimes a fella has to sit ♪
- 1232
- 01:29:04,130 --> 01:29:07,550
- ♪ Just to sing about the heavy shit ♪
- 1233
- 01:29:09,761 --> 01:29:13,097
- ♪ And the great unknown's a hurricane ♪
- 1234
- 01:29:14,349 --> 01:29:18,478
- ♪ With howling winds
- And floods, and driving rain ♪
- 1235
- 01:29:20,271 --> 01:29:22,190
- ♪ You might make it through, huh ♪
- 1236
- 01:29:22,482 --> 01:29:23,649
- ♪ But you don't know ♪
- 1237
- 01:29:25,234 --> 01:29:29,447
- ♪ If right behind it, there's a tornado ♪
- 1238
- 01:29:31,199 --> 01:29:34,577
- ♪ And if families didn't break apart ♪
- 1239
- 01:29:36,329 --> 01:29:39,916
- ♪ I suppose there'd be no need for art ♪
- 1240
- 01:29:41,709 --> 01:29:45,963
- ♪ Oh, but you and I know they do ♪
- 1241
- 01:29:47,965 --> 01:29:51,844
- ♪ So I sing in C to you ♪
- 1242
- 01:30:06,317 --> 01:30:07,860
- Thank you very much.
- 1243
- 01:30:07,944 --> 01:30:09,862
- [cheering]
- 1244
- 01:30:10,279 --> 01:30:11,823
- Thanks for coming.
- 1245
- 01:30:18,204 --> 01:30:19,163
- Thank you.
- 1246
- 01:30:32,844 --> 01:30:34,429
- Thank you very much! Thank you.
- 1247
- 01:30:34,512 --> 01:30:36,764
- Thanks for coming out. Thank you.
- 1248
- 01:30:37,390 --> 01:30:38,474
- Thank you.
- 1249
- 01:30:48,693 --> 01:30:50,695
- [instrumental music playing]
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