ME:
      Dear Holly,

      It's come to my attention that our friendship has meet a few bumps in the road as of recently. These past few weeks have been stressful on both of our parts; I'm sure there are things you want to say to me, just as I have some to say to you. I feel the need to write this letter because some things just need to be said. In a growing relationship between two friends I feel it's only right that you know what I am feeling.

      Quite often when we speak, you'll use sarcasm in a condensing tone toward me, and I've repetitively tried to brush it off. Plenty of times I've confronted you about the situation, but it always seemed to end in an argument that is never resolved. It's important to me, being your best friend, because I only want the best possible relationship with you. These motiveless arguments do not result in a gain on either of our parts. I suppose the reason we even argue is to just feel superior; this isn't the way we should be acting. I hate having this mental battle with you, as if one of us is trying to always prove themselves best. The sarcasm I'm refering include statements such as, “Thanks best friend, I love you too” and “I love how you don't even reply”. Please understand that under no circumstance would I purposely ignore you like that – afterall – you are my best friend. The thing is, even though it may take me more than a couple of minutes to respond, I am not ignoring you; it doesn't mean I don't value our friendship! It may mean that I am checking something on a different site, or I am answering the door. I am not always tending my FaceBook chat or have my phone in hand. Quite often I may actually be thinking of a reply, or the best way to word a response to you.

      I also dislike how you change your persona depending on the group of people you're with... When we are hanging out with older people who don't attend our school, you tend to degrade me in front of them, and try to act much more mature than you usually do. I don't like to be around you when you make fun of me around others. Although you may find it funny to call me “stupid” or a “gay fag” understand that I do not. There is a fine line between joking with friends and insulting them; when you are on the border, be sure to take the safe route. You say you're only kidding with me, but your tone indicates elsewise. I only have this feeling that underneath your playfulness is a blob of serious anger and resentment towards me. And I don't know why!! I always have this shadow hanging over me, making me feel like everything you say is a lie. I've been your friend for a long time, and my gut instincts concerning you tend to be correct... I want to be able to talk to you without feeling as though you're lying to me. Or even have to consider the possibly that you are lying to me... I just want us both to be honest, all the time. I hate the doubt within our friendship. This even applies to minor things; when I send you something and you honestly are offended by it or dislike it, please feel free to say so. As your friend I only want to know the truth. I simply will not bring it up again, and I hope that you may do the same for me. If I say something offends me, I'd like you not to press the issue and instead respect my wishes and drop the topic.

      I also dislike your drive to always have the last word in a conversation. We are not competition! I'd also like you to realize you're not perfect (nor am I). We both start arguments, it's not always my fault or always yours. You aren't always the one ending them either, so I don't appreciate it when you characterize yourself as the “better friend”. You aren't the one always starting them, but you aren't the one always ending them. There is a balance between us and we shouldn't be labeling each other as the cause or the catalyse. But the focus of this is not to make our arguments less threatening, it's to minimize them. We have known each other long enough to adapt to each others habits. If we wanted to, we could probably complete each other's sentences (which proven, we can).

      The last thing I'm going to mention is more of a personal cause.. When I entrust personal information to you I expect you to keep it between you and I. I do not share your secrets with my other friends and I expect you to do the same for me. Although I do publicise my religion when asked, and I am most certain that one of your friends Ashley did not aqquire that knowledge without you. This also applies to a personal secret; you know the one. That is very personal information, I do not appreciate you speaking of it to ANYONE without my personal consent. I may not be ashamed but I don't want it to be public information.

      I truly hope you take this letter serious and completely analyze it. And realize that this is not an attack on you, and I don't want to be your enemy. I want to be your best friend again! I miss you and I miss the way we used to be, like when you were visiting your Dad in North Carolina. Those are the memories I treasure the most, and I wish to create more like them. I miss you.. just please talk to me, I want to sort this out. Please don't just brush this letter off; take the time to respond and give me your honest opinion. I really appreciate it.

      Girl we bes frans, right? xD
      Kerri McCornhead
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HER REPLY:


      I really don't know how to reply to this...

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MY REPLY:


      If you don't respond, nothing will change. So I suppose nothing will be done

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HER REPLY:


      I just.. I'm speechless. I really don't know what to say, but I'll try.

      I do often use sarcasm, for a few reasons: it's part of my personality and it's rubbed off on me from my mom, like a lot. I can't help it, I do it to everyone, and it's just a habit that I can't shake. Sorry you feel that way, but it's just in my personality.

      I don't try to change my "persona"? at all. I can act immature, but truth is, I'm very mature. I call you stupid, and you call ME stupid as well, because that's what friends do. I call you gay fag because that's just a joke between us, nothing personal at all. I have nothing against homo's, you know that, I hope. I like to act mature because I get nervous sometimes when we hang out with older people, idk just because.

      To be honest, I was raised to have the last word because when I was younger my mom and I would get into fights and we would constantly go on and on with the last word and that's just how I am. It's habits from when I was younger. I realize we're not in a competition, but you do it too, so that's just being a hypocrite. You fight for the last word as well. You always blame starting the fights on me, which I don't. You tell me to drop it... But can't you? Like seriously, I usually do, although you occasionally have. I don't characterize as a better friend, I don't know where you got that from. But you often leave me waiting all day to make plans with you.

      I did not share your personal information with anyone, whatsoever. I just told Ashley your religion, that's it. Its not a private subject, at all really. We were just wondering, so I asked. I didn't tell ANYONE anything, I said your religion, that's it. It's really not that big. You may think it is, but it's just a religion. It's on your facebook profile, if it really was that big, you wouldn't have it there.

      Girl I don't know what we are anymore...


      My turn:
      There's a few things I know about that I don't think you know I know and I've been waiting to address you at the proper time. You're going to get mad at me, but it's something I'm mad at you for, which is another reason I haven't been talking to you as much, or making plans with you at all.

      I don't appreciate AT ALL how you took a screenshot that one night of my makeup, when I experimented with eyeliner. "That pissed me off so much." Or something similar to that, that was just rude. I don't do that to you. And then one of my statuses you screenshotted and sent to Giuliana and you laugh about it. It's not funny at all, I don't do that kind of stuff to you.
      -Oh, btw, is there something WRONG with me having a tumblr? Because according to your messages with Giuliana, THERE IS.
      -If you wanna talk shit, say it to my face at least.

      I have more to say, but this little bit is what I really need to say right now.


      Wait, to add on, I always thought you were talking shit about me behind my back... And I proved myself to be right.

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MY REPLY:

      The replies to these are all in paragraph order from which you've said them. Please read them thourougly

      You can't use your mom as crutch, Holly. Many people have come from abusive families but they control themself; they don't turn out violent. Achohalic familes, some with bads habbits. And if that really IS your personality, then all I wanted to let you know is that I don't like it.

      Do you not know the definition of persona? I'm not going to argue with you about whether or not your mature. I think it's fine when you say it in a manner I can tell you're kidding. But it pushes it a bit too far when you do it behind my back, then who is even there to enjoy it? It makes mes feel as if you actually mean it. Like there is some truth under every joke. I am in no way saying you're discriminating against others at all, I'm talking about me.

      Again with the crutch point I made, when you commit a crime and you're in court, you can't blame it on your mother for raising you badly. What I'm coming from is that you said you were always the one ending the fights. And I was always the one starting them. You kept asking me why I couldn't end it once in a while, and that's what I was refering to. I also dislike how you use the word "hypocrite". Very often you'll use it and much against me; when you're not even using the term correctly. A hypocrite, by definition, is one who claims to have certain beliefs that the public approves of, but privately has different. I'm not saying I'm not doing it. I'm saying it's w r o n g.

      I am not talking about my religion in anyway, I'm talking about the fact that I lost my virginity. That was the secret I was talking about.

      Oka

      I knew about you being aware of all of those things, afterall I gave you my FaceBook password. It didn't hide it. But, you don't understand, which is the whole problem.

      I wasn't talking shit about you. I wouldn't say "oh blahblah blah she's so ugly she's a bitch", but I most often would rant to Giuliana. I would tell her about the things you did that bugged me, it is just a way to release anger. Since I already confronted you about what I was upset about and you refused to tend to it, I instead got rid of stress by talking to my other friend. All Giuliana does is try to make me happy when we hit bumps in the road, which is often, and through this, I get over it and everyone's relationship continues.

      That picture I took of you I sent to Giuliana, note Giuliana only. It was one of the things that I just couldn't get over. You would always insult me about wearing moccasins and wearing the makeup I wore. And then you would go ahead and say "oh, I think I'm going to get a pair" or just follow it yourself. That's the perfect example of hipocrisy. You see, moccasins aren't as common as Vans or Converse, and most people don't wear there eye makeup in that way. I'm not saying I started it in anyway, I'm just making an observation that since not everyone did it, you would insult me about it. I would wear them around and you'd just keep at it. And then, not regreting what you said at all, you would do exactly what your words opposed. I never told anyone else but Giuliana. Well, and you. I had already told you about it. So in no way was I "talking shit". It is not rude for me to say that, it in was own private message with someone else and I was blowing off steam. That is the RIGHT way to let out anger. What is not acceptable is actually being rude to the person's face. Or telling the world and your problems with your one friend. Finding a suitable way to release anger for someone you love is just to tell another. Someone who understands you deeply. It's only how things work. The way Giuliana and I talk, it is funny. She makes the world funny when I'm sad or angry, and that is what is aimed for. Not to mention, I did confront you about those things, except perhaps what's said below.

      I don't know why you would assume something I said wasn't true. I was talking that way to Giuliana, so it probably had some meaning behind it. I didn't like the way you treated your Tumblr, but I am in no position to tell you to get rid of it or stop using it. That's why I didn't say a word to you, it's all about what makes the PERSON happy.

      No, as shown above. ^^^

      I'm sorry if I got a bit more attacking, but after reading your message I lost all hope for a kind, civilized conversation about the issue.