its better to be safe than with someone that will hurt you
Katie 12:48 am
(12:48:47 AM):     well he was just bitching and whining about anything like usual but yeah, you know what i mean haha
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:49 am
(12:49:01 AM):     He gets so fucking upset over Maggie
(12:49:06 AM):     And I try to be patient with him
(12:49:10 AM):     Because what he is feeling is real
(12:49:13 AM):     However, unjustified
(12:49:23 AM):     That girl flirted with him for maybe one month
(12:49:32 AM):     And he acts like she led him on for a fucking year
(12:49:39 AM):     When he didn't even talk to her for a bit of that time
(12:49:45 AM):     He just overplays it sometimes
(12:49:57 AM):     And I think it's at a point where he believes the shit that he says
(12:50:03 AM):     I have been talking to Maggie a lot lately
(12:50:08 AM):     And she has told me the other side of things
(12:50:16 AM):     And Mike was wrong on A LOT of accounts
(12:50:22 AM):     But wouldn't admit where he fucked it up
(12:50:31 AM):     So she made it clear that she didn't want to date him
(12:50:37 AM):     And he thought it was a test
(12:50:42 AM):     And it kept going and going and going
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:50 am
(12:50:47 AM):     And now they practically hate each other
(12:50:49 AM):     It's ridiculous
Katie 12:51 am
(12:51:30 AM):     yeah. its a high school thing i think, but it hurts him i guess. he'll move on with time
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:51 am
(12:51:54 AM):     I hope so
(12:52:01 AM):     Another six months of this bullshit will drive me up the wall
Katie 12:52 am
(12:52:13 AM):     haha
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:52 am
(12:52:19 AM):     He goes ON AND ON about how "she broke my heart" and "fucking bitch should burn"
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:52 am
(12:52:53 AM):     Sometimes I want to just shake him, "MIKE! You NEVER dated her. You NEVER said you loved eachother. ALL OF YOUR FEELINGS ARE BASED ON YOU HAVING A CRUSH!"
(12:53:00 AM):     He doesn't know the pain of having his heart broken
(12:53:10 AM):     I sound insensitive
Katie 12:53 am
(12:53:16 AM):     ugh.. i wish none of us ever had to know that.
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:53 am
(12:53:20 AM):     ^
(12:53:21 AM):     Agree
(12:53:26 AM):     I mean
(12:53:27 AM):     My ex
(12:53:33 AM):     We were dating 2 and a half years
(12:53:40 AM):     We talked about getting MARRIED
(12:53:43 AM):     What we would name our kids
(12:53:50 AM):     And we didn't talk about it like, "IF we get married"
(12:54:00 AM):     "WHEN we get married" was the way those conversations went
(12:54:15 AM):     So it sucked so much more, being ready to spend the rest of your life with someone
(12:54:19 AM):     Only for it to crash down
Katie 12:54 am
(12:54:55 AM):     ive never done that with a guy actually. its too unrealistic for my realistic self. me and brendan talked about stuff similar to it this past weekend though. first time like ever haha
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:56 am
(12:56:42 AM):     Huh
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 12:56 am
(12:56:55 AM):     To be 100% honest with you
(12:56:58 AM):     I am worried for you
(12:57:56 AM):     Guys KNOW what girls like to hear, especially when things aren't going so well. I don't think Brendan lies to you, but I think that he might subconsciously tell you what you want to hear sometimes, if only to keep you from giving up on him, you know?
Katie 12:58 am
(12:58:37 AM):     i dont wanna hear that shit, honestly
(12:58:45 AM):     i love you, yes. i love that.
Katie 12:59 am
(12:59:06 AM):     but i dont wanna hear about marriage and kids, fuck, i dont even want kids
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 1:00 am
(1:00:04 AM):     Yeah
Katie 1:00 am
(1:00:28 AM):     i think a lot of things for the two of us got put back in perspective this past weekend. he came to school and spent the weekend here. it was j ust the two of us no interruptions or complications and it was the best weekend ive ever had. since thne hes been calling me/txting me all the time and he said i love you
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 1:01 am
(1:01:57 AM):     Hm
(1:02:01 AM):     That's nice
Katie 1:02 am
(1:02:26 AM):     yepyep. oh well. iom not trying to overanalyze him right now. i need to keep up with school and job shit for now. boys are of little importance =]
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 1:04 am
(1:04:30 AM):     :-\
(1:04:36 AM):     That's unfortunate
Katie 1:05 am
(1:05:03 AM):     haha well brendan is and will always be, but my problem is that i overthink and i dig myself into ruts. im sick of ruts and im happy now and want to stay that way.
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 1:05 am
(1:05:34 AM):     Forgive me if I sound rude
(1:05:53 AM):     But what you describe sounds like "I don't want to think about it, because I might realize I am not happy"
(1:06:08 AM):     Wouldn't you rather be honest with yourself?
Katie 1:06 am
(1:06:55 AM):     i am honest with myself, and i am happy. i know im happy because for a good year i was completely miserable and i know the difference. thats all
canada_is_burning@yahoo.com 1:07 am
(1:07:51 AM):     /me raises hands
(1:07:54 AM):     Whatever you say
(1:07:56 AM):     I am not judging
Katie 1:11 am
(1:11:23 AM):     yeah i know im gunna go take a shower. ttyl. see ya friday maybeee