I don't even know what I did. I told her I felt like an ass to you because I stared at her boobs and joked about sexual stuff and that we needed to stop because you were my priority, and you were who I loved. She blamed me. Saying I was always the one who started this shit. No. I purposely stood back and let her run the show that day, it succeeded. My friends were there and watched what happened.. I explained to you on the bus what happened, expecting you to be proud or feel better. You stared at your phone the whole bus ride. I thought that Zach was having issues with a girl or something, so I let it be. We didn't hold hands or anything.

She says I've called her numerous different things. Like what? Retarded? Sure. I called her that. I confess, but I called her that while we were still friends. Last week. She decided to flip it on me this week. Saying I completely meant it. It was a joke. She even knew that. She laughed.

I started towards your class today at lunch, watched you walk pass me with her and felt my core crumble. I knew she would try and tell you stuff that wasn't true. I let it be. Hoped to talk to you after lunch, but she grabbed you again. I had no idea what I'm supposed to do. I kept quiet and watched, scared whether I should approach you or not.. Not knowing what you would say. I worried all 6-7 that you would break up with me. Michael was comforting me and telling me that you wouldn't. I planned on talking to you on the bus.. but you sat by Zach. So I waited until you were going to be alone. While that.. I heard a lot of your conversations. Including the one about you wanting me to break up with you..

I will always love you. Even if you don't love me back. I am so sorry.
If it's about the kiss, I just don't have the balls. I have no back bone when it comes to that. When I attempt.. I fail.. I wanted to try again, but I thought about what you said.. Where you wanted it to just happen.. not be planned. So I didn't plan. I waited for the right moment.

I hate that you hate me. I just want to know why you do.