R11:CO1 05.txt (!)

夢を見ていた。%K%P
I had a dream.

時間の感覚を失った私にとって、その夢は永遠のようでもあり刹那のようでもあった。%K%P
To me, who had lost all sense of time, the dream felt like it lasted forever... or was it just for a moment?

光はなかった。%K%P
There was no light.

何も見えない。%K%P
I couldn't see anything.

規則的に繰り返される鼓動の音だけが心地良く耳に届いていた。%K%P
I could only hear a pleasant, steady pulse.

まるで羊水を漂う胎児のように……。%K%P
Like an unborn child floating in the amniotic fluid....

安らかな温もりに包まれていた……。%K%P
Wrapped up in a calming and safe warmth....

何もかもを許されたような気がした。%K%P
It felt as if all my sins had been forgiven.

不安や恐怖は羊水の中へと溶け出し跡形もなく消え去ってしまった。%K%P
All the anxiety and horror within me melted and slowly diffused into the amniotic fluid, disappearing without a trace.

私は流れに身を任せ、温もりに酔い痴れ、恍惚感に我を忘れた。%K%P
I let my body go with the flow as I drowned in the ever-present warmth, and lost myself in ecstasy.

ここでは私だけが唯一絶対の存在であり全能の存在であると思った。%K%P
Here, it felt like I was the only, absolute, and all-powerful existence.

私は世界の中心にいた。%K%P
I was at the center of the universe.

もう何も考えたくない。%K%P
I didn't want to think about anything else anymore.

このままずっとここにいたかった。%K%P
I just wanted to stay like this forever.

たとえ夢でもかまわない。%K%P
I didn't care if it was just a dream.

忌まわしい現実よりも穏やかな夢幻の方がましだ。%K%P
Even if it was just a tranquil illusion, it was one which I preferred to that horrible reality.

けれど夢は夢……。%K%P
But a dream will never be more than a dream....

いつかは目覚めなければならない。%K%P
...which one must eventually awake from.

その瞬間は何の前触れもなく暴力的に訪れた。%K%P
And without any warning, that moment of awakening came violently.