Yoake, Mae

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1: I liked Koizumi.
2: He was someone that always had this fishy smile on his face, a yes-man that never said “no” no matter what to whatever ridiculous requests were made by the Agency or the so-called god-like existence known as Haruhi Suzumiya, and the only other member of the SOS Brigade that shared my gender.
That was the man I fell in love with, Itsuki Koizumi.
3: That’s right, we were both men.
4: As I was thrown around left and right by the god known as Haruhi Suzumiya, I fell in love with my compassionate yet curt classmate.
He was a fellow comrade of the SOS Brigade that always played games with me even if he might have complained about it.
5: He was a boy, just like me.
6: I thought about giving up numerous times.
I thought he’d never have an interest in the same sex, and I knew that he might even hate me for something like that. He was also the key to the god.
7: But I still had trouble giving up.
It sounds ridiculous but I eventually couldn’t help but post a comment about my feelings towards him on a gay dating site under the username “i”.
8: Responding to that comment was someone named “K”.

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1: We were both in situations where we were unable to confess to our crushes, and we had many similarities in really insignificant ways like just the little things that happened to us every day.
2: After sending messages to each other every night, at some point, we promised to meet each other to take our crushes’ places.
3: thump
4: thump
5: thump
6: It might not be a pleasant way to put it, but our relationship would only be physical. We were going to give up on our crushes and instead look to each other as what you would call “friends with benefits.”
6: step
7: step
8: step
9: I’ll be able to give up on him like this.
I’ll probably fall in love with “K” instead of him.
With that in mind, I headed towards our meeting place at the park on Friday night.
It was the park the SOS Brigade often met up at.

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1: And that’s where he showed up.
2: How...?
3: My head grew blank. We had talked on the phone once, and even though we both felt that our voices and way of talking were similar to our crushes, I never would have thought that it would have actually been him.
4: He probably had no idea that I’d show up, either.
5: ...Koizumi... Why... are you here...?
6: The person I liked was at our meeting place.
7: Is a miracle like this even possible?

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1: K-kun...?
2: Urgh...
3: ...I’m i.
4: Huh?
5: Uwah! What the heck... No... this isn’t what... Damn it...
6: Wait...!
7: step
8: step
9: step
10: step
11: step
12: step
13: Hey! Koizumi...!


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1: Excuse me, could we make a quick stop at the drug store just up ahead?
2: Of course.
3: ...Koizumi...
4: I’ll be right back. Just hold on.

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1: Sorry for the wait. You can drive.
2: squeak

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1: click // click
2: thud
3: click
4: ...
5: Mm...
6: Mm
7: Mmm...
8: ...Sorry, I just couldn’t help myself anymore.
9: Haah...
10: Haah...
11: ...It’s fine.

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1: I-I’m super into the mood too, damn it. Listen up, Koizumi. We’re gonna go at it until the both of us are completely satisfied! Got any problems with that?
2: ...No, not particularly.
3: All right!
4: You’re making such a pathetic face. You’re ruining that pretty boy look that you’ve got going for you.

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1: Here. // Hooray.
2: Mph
3: Mm
4: Mm
5: ...You want to keep standing?
6: S- // Sure.
7: Y-You don’t gotta mention every damn thing!
8: It’s a little hard.
9: Eek!
10: ...Could it be that you took a bath before coming here?
11: Wha! // ...Ah...!

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1: Uu... // Ah...
2: Idiot...!
3: Why the hell are you even licking inside the skin?! Damn it, I...
4: This is so insulting... Ahh, I’m gonna die from how embarrassing this is...!
5: Ko...izumi... Not... there...!
6: Hah...
7: Hah...!
8: It’s fine.
9: Hyah!
10: Mmm
11: Uuu... // Ah...!
12: This is more insulting than even just getting laughed at!
13: ...the hell do you mean by “fine”...?! Uwah...!
14: Ah!
15: No...! // Ah...!
16: Ah... // Koizumi... I’m gonna...!
17: Get off... // I’m really about to...!

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1: ...Kuh! // Uuu...
2: Uu!
3: Mm!
4: Mm...
5: gulp
6: Hah...
7: Haah
8: That was fast...
9: This guy actually went and swallowed it...
10: Haah
11: You’re hard too, aren’t you? Take off your pants.
12: Lift up your ass.
13: Oh... okay.
14: Holy shit...
15: I had imagined it to be fully peeled off, but damn...
16: Mm...
17: It’s bigger than mine, too...
18: ...Hah!


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1: Um... you really don’t have to do this for me...
2: I want to do it.
3: Uu... This is definitely a new taste...
4: ...
5: Ih hina haysh hood...
6: I wanted to do everything Koizumi did to me right back at him.
7: It’s probably to be expected, but I didn’t really have any experience with this sort of thing. I couldn’t think of any way of pleasuring him other than just doing everything he did to me.
8: Haah
9: Mm
10: Hah
11: He’s working so hard for me...
12: Hah
13: Fwah
14: Certainly his skills might be lacking, but I appreciate the effort...
15: Mm!
16: Mmm?!
17: Oh my, I’m sorry... Are you all right...?

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1: ...Damn it... It went down my windpipe...
2: ...Sorry...
3: Haah
4: Don’t apologize, idiot! It’s not like you did anything wrong!
5: Your eyes are wet.
6: Shut up.
7: It kind of feels like we’re doing something wrong, though...
8: Like hell we are! We’re free to love whoever we want. Hooray for democracy.
9: I was getting so damn emotional over Koizumi actually ejaculating from me touching him.
10: But it can’t be helped.
11: Mm!
12: ...You’re right.
13: It can’t be helped, so stop making that troubled, lonely face already, Koizumi.

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1: Is that...
2: what you bought from the drug store?
3: Yes. I never would have guessed that you were K-kun, so I didn’t bring anything with me thinking we’d just go to a love hotel.
4: But since it was you, I wanted to bring you to my house.
5: ...
6: You understand, right? Look at how much my heart’s beating. I know this is wrong, but I can’t help but be so happy.
7: I...
8: Geez, just shut up already.
9: Whoa...!
10: My heart’s beating just as much, see? I’m the same as you... Don’t you get it? Just accept this already!

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1: ...!
2: Hah...
3: Uu!
3: Uuu...
4: Haah
5: Haah
6: Haah
7: ...
8: Ko...izumi...
9: That’s... enough... Put it in...
10: Haah
11: Haah
12: Just a little more...
13: Just put it in already! I can’t go on anymore!
14: Haah
15: Haah
16: Haah
17: ......!

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1: Kuh!
2: Ah!
3: Ah! // Ah! // Ah!
4: Ah!
5: Hah...ah...!
6: Mmm...!
7: ...It’s all the way inside. Does it hurt?
8: Haah
9: Hah...
10: ...
11: It... doesn’t... just hurt... So hurry up...
12: I can’t... stay like this...!
13: Mm!
14: Nnah
15: Haah
16: ...Ah! Ah!
17: Mm... Fuh...
18: ...Ah... Gah...!
19: Ahm...

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1: I’m having sex with Koizumi right now... And it wasn’t that long ago when I thought this could never happen...
2: Ah... // Ah...
3: Holy shit... // What the hell is this...
4: Koizumi...
5: Haah...
6: ...!
7: Damn it... I’m so happy...
8: ...Koizumi!
9: ...Mgh
10: Kuh...
11: So tight...
12: That’s... // Wah!
13: ...
14: ... // Kuh...
15: Hah...
16: Hah
17: Haah...
18: Hah...
19: Haah
20: ...Koizumi...?
21: Haah
22: Haah
23: Hah...

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1: Koizumi!
2: ...Huh?
4: Where are you going?!
5: I was going to get some water... // ...!
6: Mm
7: ...Wha...
8: Hah...
9: You can still // keep going, can’t you?
10: Um...
11: I need to put a condom on...
12: Why the hell do you need to put one of those on every single time? I don’t wanna wait even another second, and I’m not gonna!
13: ...Guh... Uu...

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1: Ah, damn it... My head’s not working right... This is so annoying...
2: ...Kuh...
3: ...Hah
4: Hah...
5: It's so cute how he's trying so hard...
6: Nom
7: Try to relax.
8: kiss ♥
9: Wah!
10: ...Mm
11: Uu
12: Wait, stop, idiot...!
13: suck
14: Ah...! What the hell do you think you’re doing...?!
15: Ah...
16: Hey, don’t suck on my nipples!
17: Ah! // If you... keep teasing me like that...
18: Fwah
19: Ahhh!

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1: Hah...
2: Haah...
3: Hah
4: Ah...
5: Haah
6: Haah
7: Geez... you just do whatever you damn want, huh?
8: Sorry, I was enjoying myself too much...
9: so I couldn’t help it...
10: Didn’t I tell you not to apologize?!
11: Right... Hehehe...

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1: He’s sleeping...
2: His face really is pretty. It’s almost like it’s manufactured.
3: It’s hard to believe he’s actually a guy...
4: His face and body are so white, too.

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1: I’m thirsty...
2: Ah... // Where are you...
3: Oh, did I wake you up? Sorry, I’m just gonna get some water.
4: There’s some mineral water in the fridge.
5: Here. // You’re thirsty too, right?
6: Thank you. My throat’s really dry right now.
7: Mm...

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1: gulp
2: ...Sometimes you can get really bold when the time calls for it. // You honestly surprised me.
3: Don’t // underestimate me.
4: Aha.

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1: Uuu...
2: ...
3: Haah
4: Hah...
5: Haah
6: Ko... // izumi...
7: Haah
8: Haah
9: Haah
10: Koizumi...
11: Koizumi...
12: ...You really are bold.
13: I would have never expected this // from the usual you...
14: kiss
15: Ah... Uuu!
16: This guy... I’ll get you back for this!

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1: Haah
2: Mm!
3: Uwah...
4: Hyah
5: Ah! Ah! // No...!
6: Koi...
7: Haah!
8: Haah...
9: (below 8) Mmm... // So heavy...
10: (bottom left of 8) Auu!
11: (bottom left of 10) You’re hitting... // my bone...!
12: grind x4
13: Kuh... Fuuh...!
14: twitch
15: What can we do to understand each other better? How can we get closer? I want more than this...

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1: More...
2: ...Koizumi...
3: Haah
4: Haah
5: Haah
6: There’s nothing to be ashamed of anymore after coming this far.
7: Koizumi...?
8: Haah
9: Koizumi...
10: I’ll open up everything in my body and soul to you, so I want you to show me everything as well. This is all I can do.
11: Haah
12: ...Wha...
13: twitch
14: Kuh!
15: Mm... // Uuu... Mmm...
16: I want to know Koizumi. I want to learn more about him. I want to know everything about his past.

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1: What are you thinking right now, Koizumi? Is my existence just a burden on you? Even if that were to be the case...
2: Koizumi, // I love you.
3: Hah...!
4: Hah
5: I don’t know what will happen to us from here on out.
6: ...I love you, too.
7: I don’t know when exactly I fell in love with you.
I just know it started after I realized you were the only male comrade I had in that bizarre group we belonged to.
8: If Haruhi Suzumiya were to learn of our relationship, she might just end up destroying the world at that very moment, regardless of whether or not she’d wish for that.
9: The school we attend, our cocky classmates, the roads and hills we crossed every day,
10: that room of ours, everything.
11: It’s more than just that now.

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1: But it can’t be helped. Humans can’t just control their emotions so easily. I’m too happy about my relationship with Koizumi to care about what was going to happen to the world.
2: I know it’ll end.
3: If Haruhi found out, I’d get on all fours and cry and beg until she accepted our relationship.
4: I can’t help it, this is the first real love I’ve ever experienced, after all.
5: I’m someone that’s risking my life to protect the world and he’s the key to her status as a god. This relationship might be ridiculous in of itself,
6: but more than that, it’s just simply unforgivable.
7: But I’m just so happy right now.
8: Stop making that face. ...Do you regret this?
9: ...No... But... I don’t know what’s going to happen to us from now on...

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1: It’s too late to regret anything, Koizumi. Listen up. I’m so free of any regret whatsoever that I actually feel pretty good about it! What do you think of that, huh?
2: Aha.
3: ...What are you, Raoh or something?
4: Pfft!
5: But I have a responsibility to protect the world...
6: Y’know, Koizumi. You might be talking big right now, but we’re still just kids, remember?
7: We’re not even completely fleshed out as people yet. If you ask me, we should be free to live out our youth as we like while we still have the chance.
8: C’mon.
9: flick
10: Ow!

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1: He really just clicked my forehead...
2: Anyway, my point is that a kid like you shouldn’t be worrying about stuff like that.
3: Ah...
4: Mmm...
5: ...You’re more mature than I thought.
6: Huh?
7: Well, I definitely did get one step closer to becoming a man from what we just did...
8: Do you mind if I sleep a little?
9: When Koizumi closed his eyes, his face no longer had that aloof mature feel to it, but rather gave off a childish and vulnerable impression.
For the first time since I met Koizumi, I realized that he wasn’t a perfect being but rather a kid just like me.

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1: It might sound strange, but I felt so relieved that I got even more hopelessly emotional than before.
2: Mm... // So warm...
3: grip
4: Damn it... This bastard’s doing this on purpose... This is so not fair.
5: Guh...
6: Maybe if he just opened up to me, I wouldn’t have needed this physical connection.
7: But I don’t have any regrets.
8: I wanted to do this with Koizumi, that’s the absolute truth.
9: I wanted him to open up to me even just a little bit, but I still wanted his body as well.
10: ...I might honestly actually be a pretty shallow guy...

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1: I want to believe that Koizumi and I are the same.
2: Mm... // Huh?
3: It’s morning...?

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1: I woke up first again? Was he really exhausted or something?
2: Owowowow... Damn my waist is sore...
3: Oh, shit...!
4: We’d get reported if the curtains weren’t completely closed, huh...
5: ...Oh? Is it morning...?
6: Sorry for waking you up again. The sun just rose.
7: It’s pretty, huh?
8: It really is...
9: Aren’t you still naked?
10: Oh.
11: It’s fine. You can be naked in front of me. I prefer it that way.
12: ...Hey, now.

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1: I couldn’t find a way to describe the impression that the morning sky left me with.
2: Koizumi...?
3: When I saw that sky beautifully changing colors, I was reminded of the time I first entered that closed dimension. When that vividly colored sky that poked out from the crack in the grey sky almost blinded my eyes.
4: That event that happened three years ago.
5: Koizumi?
6: For some reason, those memories crossed my mind.

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1: I don’t have any regrets, either.
2: Mm.
3: Um... hey, what are we doing for food? I’m pretty hungry right now.
4: Oh... You probably already guessed this, but there isn’t anything to eat in this house. Should we go to a family restaurant?
5: ...No... Let’s get something from the convenience store and eat here.
6: Also...
7: D-Do you mind if I stay over here today too?
8: You can stay for as long as you’d like <3 In fact, I’d want you to stay here forever.
9: Ah, damn it, this is annoying...!
10: What the hell are we doing, two naked men flirting with each other like this first thing in the morning...

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1: ...I’ll probably be heading back tomorrow night, though.
2: That’s too bad. // But that means you’ll be staying here until tomorrow night, right?
3: Yeah. Then let’s go to the supermarket. I’ll buy some ingredients and make you my bomb-ass fried rice.
4: Really? I’d love that. But...
5: Sorry, could we sleep for a little longer? It’s been a while since I’ve been able to sleep so well.
6: Your eyes are pretty puffy too right now.
7: Please? <3
8: Oh...
9: Cut it out man, seriously. They’re not puffy cuz I’m sleepy, it’s ‘cause... I mean, it’s all ‘cause you...
10: Nfuh
11: We’ll get to know each other better one day.
12: Ah!
13: kiss
14: Stay with me forever.
15: After all that’s happened, I’ve surprisingly learned a few things about the mysterious transfer student esper known as Itsuki Koizumi.
16: You actually are pretty heartless, huh.
17: Fufu.

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1: He slept for longer than I expected.
He looked mature but he was a kid just like me.
2: He was surprisingly timid, and rather negative(although that’s understandable, considering his circumstances).
3: The next time he wakes it, it’ll probably be out of hunger.
4: He’s almost like a puppy that got tired out from playing too much.
5: I don’t want to admit it, but he appealed to my big brother personality perfectly. It’s honestly almost annoying. I want to believe that he was just doing it without thinking, but...
6: Considering the type of guy Koizumi is, he was probably doing it on purpose...
7: I learned something about myself as well.
8: I always wanted to be on the same level as Koizumi. That’s why I was relieved when I saw he was a kid just like me.

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1: I didn’t know I had such an inferiority complex until last night.
2: He’s handsome whether he’s sleeping, awake, or half-awake. I guess his looks are just one thing I could never hope to match... Damn it...
3: Uu...
4: Mmm...
5: ...Well, whatever.
6: Good night, Koizumi.
7: I even felt happy about
8: learning that I had such dark emotions inside me.

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Thank you so much for taking a look at this book. Hi, I’m Fuji Mako.
This takes place right after the manga Meeting Place that I published in October.

I included somewhat of a summary at the beginning but in Meeting Place, Kyon and Koizumi experience feeling towards each other but neither one decides on confessing to each other.
Koizumi left a comment under the username “i” on a same-sex dating site talking about his feelings he couldn’t share to anyone.
Kyon replied to it under the username of “K”.
Ever since then, they spent an hour exchanging messages every night chatting about random things.
After some time, they realized that they resembled each other’s crushes, and decided to meet up.
Never expecting that the person they would be meeting would be in fact their crush, Koizumi and Kyon gave up on their love and headed to the meeting place for the sake of becoming friends with benefits.
But when they saw who was really there... that’s where the story picks up from.

I always found Kyon’s big brother side to be really cute, and I thought he’d be even cuter complaining and being all frustrated.
I thought it’d be cute if Koizumi was the type that surprisingly loves to get spoiled and be lazy, and I thought he’d be even cuter if he was the type to not hold back when being the top.
I spend my days thinking about all kinds of dumb stuff like this.

I drew Koizumi with some slight armpit hair, but I actually find it really hot when beautiful people have body hair, so I draw it often. Hair is just... hot.
I thought it’d also be cute if Kyon had perfectly smooth skin all the way to even 11th grade...
Those are the even more dumb things I think about every day.

Thanks for reading this far! I hope you found to be at least somewhat to your liking.

The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya / Yoake, Mae / 07.12.30 / Zerohaku / Fuji Mako