xKARMAx: In my mind its all messed up, since the last big convo we had about all your night time activities, your location his hid with the oh I didn’t know it was hid I just put it to creating you should be able to see it still. Now you just wait to go in a room when you know I wont be signing in.. sure seems like a lot of this coming to a head now. You were in a club every single night when I logged on, then hidden, now your no where or its still hidden.. just seems fkn odd to me. Guess it really is Jennas secret night life. Enjoy it..
xKRAVEx: My location has NEVER been turned off, it's always been on, I don't have a secret life on here or off of here, you know everything. My choice to go into a room, or not go into a room is just that a choice. When I'm in a room you know it, when I'm not you know that tool. When you ask what I am doing and I say "playing in the shop" that's exactly what I am doing "playing in the shop". I find it very odd that since you have been back, you have been trying your damnedest to make me out something I'm not, nor have I ever been. If I wanted to leave you, I wouldn't have waited for you. I haven't ever, nor do I ever plan on "stringing you along", And for your information, I don't go into a room because sometimes I am just not in the mood for to be around other and I just want to be alone and do my thing which is play in the shop, or collect badges, or simply do nothing. I don't need to hide from you.
xKARMAx: here we go again since i have been back..
xKRAVEx: oh and before our last big convo, I was already using Create mode, and I even told you why. And on the client it doesn't show me offline, and I even apologized to you when I did realize that on the app it doesn't show me online, BECAUSE I didn't know it did that.
xKARMAx: and yes your location has been hiddinen the last few weeks as your say your in creating mode to hide from Rae,
xKRAVEx: No it is NOT hidden
xKRAVEx: I have not been anywhere
xKARMAx: yeah we should get mad at me for it all
xKRAVEx: I was in create mode that's all
xKARMAx: yep its all me and all since i have been back
xKRAVEx: mad?
xKRAVEx: i'm not mad?
xKARMAx: your right my bad again
xKARMAx: to its not hidden
xKARMAx: to me you are hidden
xKARMAx: so its my fault
xKARMAx: get mad at me for it
xKARMAx: watever
xKRAVEx: how am I hidden if I am not in a room
xKRAVEx: my location is on if i go into a room
xKARMAx: fk it, its all me
xKRAVEx: if i'm in the shop then i'm sorry it doesnt show
xKARMAx: fk it all
xKARMAx: how long have i been back
xKARMAx: tell me
xKARMAx: how long
xKARMAx: you dont even know
xKRAVEx: right about 3 months
xKARMAx: but lets say ever since you have been back i have been trying to make you out to something
xKARMAx: good to know how you really feel
xKARMAx: anything else since i have been back
xKRAVEx: how I feel?
xKARMAx: wow make me feel like i have been treating you bad the whole time
xKARMAx: good to knopw
xKARMAx: good to know i treat you so bad
xKARMAx: thats awesome to know now
xKARMAx: why havnt you said something the whole time
xKARMAx: save it till now just how bad of a guy i am
xKARMAx: and how bad i treat you
xKARMAx: well maybe somebody else is treating you better then
xKRAVEx: you've "jokingly" made me out to having something for Arch... then you've assumed there must be something for Daniel... I never said you treated me badly, not in a single way have I ever thought that about you
xKARMAx: EVER SINCE YOU HAVE BEEN BACK YOU HAVE TRIED TO MAKE ME OUT TO SOMETHING IM NOT
xKARMAx: how is that not treating you bad
xKARMAx: and ARCH and Daniel was only a couple weeks ago
xKARMAx: not the entire time i have been back
xKARMAx: but good to know you have felt this way the whole time i have been back
xKARMAx: ever since you been back
xKARMAx: wow,
xKARMAx: fkn wow
xKRAVEx: There is nobody else, and if you are done being that someone that cares about me and that someone I love and care about... I don't deserve this.
xKRAVEx: I NEVER SAID YOU WERE TREATING ME BAD
xKARMAx: yes you did
xKARMAx: ever since i have been back
xKRAVEx: "BAD" that word never came out of my mouth
xKARMAx: i have tried to make you out to something your not
xKARMAx: thats treating you bad
xKARMAx: weither you say the word or not
xKARMAx: it is
xKRAVEx: no that's twisting my word... so just stop
xKARMAx: and i had no idea you have felt this way this whole time
xKARMAx: thought we were happy, thought i was treating you right
xKARMAx: guess not
xKRAVEx: I am happy
xKRAVEx: just bc I don't dwell on stuff like I use to doesn't mean I'm not happy
xKRAVEx: maybe you aren't happy
xKARMAx: you have felt this way the entire time i have been back
xKARMAx: and not once have said anything
xKRAVEx: telling you how something makes me feel, doesn't mean you are treating me bad.
xKARMAx: and yet, its got to be more than the Arch and Daniel convos cuz they were only a few weeks ago
xKARMAx: so wat has it been the entire time i have been back
xKRAVEx: those two incidents did happen since you've been back, they were wat i was referring to, had it been anything else i would have said so.
xKARMAx: you said the entire time since i have been back
xKARMAx: those two isidents did not happen when i first came back
xKARMAx: so something else must have
xKRAVEx: i said "since you've been back"
xKRAVEx: not the entire time
xKARMAx: yes, since i have been back
xKRAVEx: ok then, that doesn't mean the entire time
xKARMAx: hmm
xKARMAx: ok,
xKARMAx: . I find it very odd that since you have been back, you have been trying your damnedest to make me out something I'm not,
xKARMAx: since you have been back
xKRAVEx: yes since
xKARMAx: that does mean the entire time
xKRAVEx: not entire
xKARMAx: since you have been back
xKARMAx: not the last few weeks
xKARMAx: nope... since you have been back
xKARMAx: so wat has it been since i have been back
xKARMAx: since is putting a time stamp on something
xKARMAx: like, since highscholl
xKARMAx: since i got my hair cut
xKARMAx: since i stubbed my toe
xKARMAx: since you have been back
xKARMAx: that does say the entire time
xKRAVEx: as i said... had there been more i would have said so...
xKARMAx: well i am sorry for making you feel that way since i have been back
xKARMAx: ood to know
xKARMAx: good*
xKARMAx: now i know how i make you feel
xKARMAx: or have made you feel since i have been back
xKARMAx: and since i have been back guess i dont do enough
xKRAVEx: wow.. never in the last 8 years have i ever said or implied that you don't do enough.. never
xKARMAx: no just since i have been back
xKARMAx: thast all
xKRAVEx: you are the one that felt that way about yourself, and i always told you that you do more than enough
xKARMAx: no biggie
xKRAVEx: i dont need i dont want i dont seek... attention, love, or anything else from anyone except you... you have always given me what i need, and want... i dont know what else to say, or do to prove this to you...
xKARMAx: except since i have been back...
xKRAVEx: except never...
xKRAVEx: ive never gone out looking for attention from anyone else, because i don't need it, because i have a MAN that does everything for me, and gives me everything I need, want, and seek
xKARMAx: so lets make me feel bad about all i have done since i have been back
xKARMAx: seems legit way to do me
xKARMAx: i deserve it
xKARMAx: i mean since i have been back i have just done ya wrong
xKRAVEx: i never said you did me wrong.
xKRAVEx: i never said you treated me bad.
xKARMAx: no just trying to make you out to something your not
xKARMAx: ever since i came back
xKARMAx: or my bad
xKRAVEx: but i dont hide from you, i dont tell you i am doing something else when im not, you ask where i am, i tell you... you ask wat i'm doing, i tell you...
xKARMAx: since i have been back
xKARMAx: i wont be asking
xKARMAx: wont be looking
xKARMAx: its gotta be so hard to deal with since i have been back
xKARMAx: so lets go back to how it was before i was back
xKRAVEx: to deal with?
xKRAVEx: i'm not having a problem dealing with anything
xKARMAx: not wat you said
xKRAVEx: if i dont want to go somewhere, i'm not going... no big deal
xKRAVEx: if dont need to hide, bc i have nothing to hide.
xKARMAx: since i have been back it must be so hard on you how i make you out to something your not
xKARMAx: i wonder how it was before i was back
xKARMAx: just wondering so i know how to act
xKRAVEx: the same as it is now, if i wanted to go out i did... if i wanted to be alone, i was alone... if i wanted to play in the shop, i played in the shop...
xKARMAx: and how to treat ya
xKARMAx: ok,
xKARMAx: good to know
xKARMAx: no differnce if i am here or not here then
xKARMAx: dont let me keep ya from doing anything
xKARMAx: ill just pop out
xKRAVEx: and you know what, i didn't hide from you then either bc every single day, every single minute, i hoped you would log on, and i wanted you to know where i was, so you could come to me
xKRAVEx: pop out?
xKARMAx: yeah pop out, i mean it dont matter if i am here or not it makes no differnce
xKARMAx: ill let it be like it is at night for ya but not have to deal with how i am since i have been back
xKRAVEx: how so dustin? i enjoy every day with you, laughing and being silly, and whatever else we do... what i meant by it being the same, was wat i do or dont do at night... so how exactly is there not a difference... i don't understand what you mean at all
xKARMAx: except the part how since i have been back i have constantly tried to make you out to something your not
xKARMAx: i make it so hard for you
xKARMAx: gotta be so ruff
xKRAVEx: i've never said that
xKARMAx: ya did
xKRAVEx: no, i did not
xKARMAx: so making you out to besomething your not since i have been back is a good thing
xKARMAx: its a good way to be treated
xKARMAx: no your recalling wat you said
xKARMAx: wat is yopu want
xKARMAx: is it good
xKARMAx: is it bad
xKARMAx: wat is it
xKARMAx: ok good talk
xKARMAx: brb
xKARMAx: maybe
xKRAVEx: mmk
xKARMAx: yeah mmk cause it makes no diffrence either way
xKARMAx: i got it
xKARMAx: but brb
xKRAVEx: that's how you answered me earlier, and also when i said wb baby, you didn't ty me.
xKARMAx: bk
xKRAVEx: wb baby
xKARMAx: ty,
xKARMAx: oh i mean ty baby
xKARMAx: i am glad to know now how it has been since i have been back

xKRAVEx: I don't know, and I don't understand where all of this is coming from. I go from not telling you how I feel and not talking when I should, to telling you how I feel, and talking when I should. So I don't have things eating at me all the time, and every time I do talk we end up in an all day slience or argument, so I can't figure out which I should do. I don't hide from, I don't do things I shouldn't do, You are my first and only priority in everything I do, my days are happy and amazing because of you and they always have been, my nights not a minute passes that I don't miss you, and think about you. I count down the time till I can go to sleep, and wake up with you in the morning. The night that you spend the night with me, I hope that you don't crash so I can sleep all night with you. You do more for me than anyone has ever done for me. You love me like nobody else has loved me. You give me more than I deserve, and I don't take it for gradnted, and I don't take you, or us for granted. I have never looked for attention from another man or woman, because I am happy with everything you and I have, and share. Dustin you have been my world for so long, I have loved you since the night we met, and talked and laughed for hours on end, and when it came time for you to sleep, I didn't want our night to end, i love you with all I have to give

xKARMAx: except for since i have been back you mean
xKARMAx: lets make sure thats clear
xKARMAx: cuase since i have been back all i have done is try and make you out to something your not
xKARMAx: right,
xKARMAx: i mean there is that
xKARMAx: not talking
xKARMAx: ill just go
xKRAVEx: whyy
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