You Are

>You are...
>...not Anon...
>You're you.
>Well, at least as far you know.
>...
>......
>"Hey, you still there?"
>You quickly slip the headphones onto your head and unmute yourself.
"Yeah I'm here, just thinking about stuff."
>"Like about what?"
>You're about to say it.
>Everything about how you feel.
>How everything you loved was taken from you in an instant.
>You're mute from the feeling in your chest.
>You grip onto the ragged couch below you with passion.
>It was never even really special to anyone, but now that you're the only one sitting on it, it means so much more.
>The worn cushion beneath you is slowly soaked by bitter tears of fond memories.
>You wish that you could just forget about it.
>About everything that you did.
>But mostly about the things you didn't do.
>You feel like dying.
>Everything hurts.
>You curl into a pathetic ball.
>You need to leave.
>But...you cant just leave her alone.
>You look to your phone, your headphones still plugged into it.
>You pick it up, shaking uncontrollably all the while.
>Wiping your nose and clearing your thoughts for a moment, you speak.
"Nothing important... Hey I think I'm gonna go..."
>"Alrighty. That's fine. In that case, goodnight, I love you, and I can't wait to see you tomorrow."
"Yeah, goodnight."
>"Byyyeeeee"
"Bye..."
>You tap the red button hanging up the call.
>Even now, you were to selfish to even muster up a decent goodbye.
>You didn't even say "I love you too"...
>You're disgusting.
>You have nothing, and you don't deserve anything.
>...
>"Is that really how you see yourself?"
>You slowly look up, unphased by a sudden voice in your presence.
>Before you is a man.
>He's dressed very formally.
>White, long-sleeve, button-up shirt; dark-brown dress pants; a chocolate-brown vest; and a set a small, round-rim glasses.
>His hair is silver-white and beautifully straight.
>The only peculiar thing about him is the horns sprouting out of his head.
>You couldn't care less about what animals they're from.
>You just answer his question.
"Yeah."
>"Really? Well in that case I have some news for you."
>You hear a loud snap as the air in the room starts to move in an uncanny fashion.
>Before you is a swirling vortex of all kinds of colors.
>"I think you do deserve something. A second chance of sorts."
>He gestures to the portal as if inviting you into his house.
>"All you need to do is step through and you can forget everything here and now. You'll never have to look back or think about this world again."
>A second chance...
>You can have your wish...
>But...
>Is that what you want?
>You clench the cushion beneath you and close your eyes.
>You can feel them next to you.
>There's so much you would tell them if you could.
>Tears once again fill your eyes.
>Is that what they would want?
>It hurts that you can't go back and do what you should have done...
>It hurts because you're a fucking idiot...
>...
>......
>"Well, what are you waiting for?"
"I can't..."
>His face fills with indignation.
>"Excuse me?"
"I can't go. I can't forget. I don't want to forget. If I went now then I'd only be more selfish and horrible than I already am. I've made every bad decision up until this point. I'm not about to repeat everything over again..."
>...
"I can't..."
>"I see."
>An eerie calm washes over him.
>...
>"Are you sure? If you don't accept my offer now, I'll never be back for you."
>Are you sure?
>...
"I am."
>"..."
>"Alright then. In that case, I bid you...... adieu..."
>With a snap and a flash of light, the man is gone, along with the portal.
>...
>Are you sure?
>You look to your phone, headphones still attached and over your ears.
>You open it up and tap on her name.
>It rings for only a moment before she picks up.
>"Hey, what is it? I thought you were going for the night."
"Yeah, well..."
>You grip the couch beneath you and close your eyes.
"...I think I just got some more time."
>Are you sure?
"Also, I just wanted to tell you that I love you too."
>"Aw you're sweet. In that case, let's get back into it."
>You don't deserve it, but they do...
>...
>Are you sure?
>...
>Yes...
>You are...