I've lost a tangent, do you have it? Part 1

I've lost a tangent, do you have it? Part 1

>Tired… So very, very tired.
>Why though? The question stumps you for a time.
>You just woke up.
>That makes sense.
>Remedies include specific teas you don’t have, exercise, cold shower and coffee.
>Out of those, only coffee seems a viable option.
>You drag yourself out of bed and furthermore out of the dark bedroom
>The apartment still needs to be cleaned. You’ve been meaning to do a full cleanup for weeks
>Even made a checklist. Fuck, you made several.
>Hung them up at convenient places around the apartment to be easily spotted and remembered.
>You still keep forgetting, or maybe you’re putting it off. You never quite seem to recall.
>That’s your lot in life.
>Reality Deficiency Syndrome they called it.
>You seem to remember they invented it for you.
>Rare case apparently. Possibly singular. You might be wrong.
>In practicality this means you are slow on the uptake. Very slow.
>Also means you can’t be trusted with your own safety. Well, mostly.
>You can do simple tasks easily enough. Responsibility in any form is a no-no.
>Other people just aren’t really there for you. Intense focus is required to even realize they are there.
>This apparently is bad.
>Fast moving objects also fails to register.
>Also, apparently bad. Cars are easy enough to see. When they are parked. Not so much in motion.
>Cause and effect: Can’t detect fast moving object at metric ton weight or more. Might wander into the streets.
>Result: Death. Not acceptable.
>You have long since decided that the written messages left to you by Psychologists are to be heeded at all costs.
>They seem to know what aspects of the world you can’t handle.
>That’s good.
>You are not totally helpless. This is a source of pride for you. From texts you have learned people, that includes you.
>Needs to be a positive influence on the structure of society as a whole.
>In practical terms. You need to be able to work. Which you can.
>You can’t really see people. That’s true. However you can read just fine. And a major way for you to interact with the world as a whole is through just this medium.
>This they learned early on. If they need you to do something, they will text your phone.
>Annoying peeping sounds usually breaks your chain of thought.
>That’s good.
>Because you can get stuck there for long times.
>It also means you can be given commands and act on them accordingly.
>You are sort of like a robot.
>Input command.
>Action follows.
>A very forgetful, distracted robot.
>Bad analogy.
>Try something else?
>What were you thinking about again?
>Work.
>You create and moderate websites for a living.
>Though you don’t know what part of that makes you live.
>How does one make a living anyway?
>One can make living beings by procreation.
>That you know.
>What is a living? Is it a metaphor? A physical object?
>That makes no sense.
>Coffee’s done.
>That’s good
>Motherfucker that’s hot.
>That’s bad
>A scalded mouth takes days to stop hurting.
>You can’t remember not having a scaled mouth.
>You do seem to remember doing this mistake every morning.
>Should probably make a note to yourself warning of the danger.
>Oh… Look at that, you got three post-it’s on the coffee machine saying that.
>Should probably make one more. Just to be safe.
>The ones who makes sure you get through life just fine were nice enough to get you an apartment outside of the city.
>The apartment is small, but cozy. It’s right next door to a store, and it’s on the first floor.
>No stairs for you.
>That’s good… You think.
>Might have been a reason you should avoid stairs. You can’t seem to remember though.
>Maybe it was elevators you were supposed to avoid?
>You get income on a weekly basis.
>That’s good.
>You don’t remember your current amount of money at any given time so having a steady weekly period of income means you don’t have to plan too far ahead.
>You are good at planning ahead. That’s never the issue. The issue is recalling said plans.
>That’s sort of where you fall off.
>Making notes to remember doesn’t help. You forget where you hung them. Or if you saved them on your computer. You forget where on the computer it’s saved.
>Coffee’s gone cold… That’s odd. You seem to remember it scalding you.
>Has it been long?
>Probably has. Cause and effect. Cold coffee equals time has passed.
>Or someone is in the apartment and has put ice cubes in your coffee.
>You don’t think there’s anyone in the apartment.
>That usually coincides with a text message.
>Of course, you might have gotten one of those and forgotten about it.
>It would still result in the world starting to shake uncontrollably.