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- FEB 29 - 12:07AM
- muce: What's the matter?
- rwoodard238: to be honest i wanna die
- FEB 29 - 12:08AM
- muce: Ok, I mean, that's a big statement
- muce: I have felt the same way, often
- muce: Is there a reason, or is it more general than that?
- rwoodard238: there is a reason
- rwoodard238: but i cant say it in public
- FEB 29 - 12:09AM
- muce: Ok
- muce: Wll, have you been feeling like that a long time?
- rwoodard238: is 4 years a long time?
- FEB 29 - 12:11AM
- muce: Well, it's subjective, but yes I would say so
- muce: Have you ever tried getting help?
- rwoodard238: yep it doesnt work they just mask it with medicine instead of actually help
- muce: From family, or friends, or a doctor? Or has that never crossed your mind?
- FEB 29 - 12:12AM
- rwoodard238: all 3
- muce: So why are you still here?
- rwoodard238: i dont know
- muce: Well, try and think
- FEB 29 - 12:13AM
- muce: What has kept you here, and focus on that in the short term
- rwoodard238: like alive?
- muce: Getting help for depression is a long process, and you have to be persistent, which is really ******* hard when you're epressed
- muce: Yes, alive
- FEB 29 - 12:14AM
- rwoodard238: im not sure what keeps me alive
- FEB 29 - 12:18AM
- muce: It's worth thinking about
- FEB 29 - 12:19AM
- muce: How old are you, if you don't mind me asking?
- rwoodard238: im 15
- FEB 29 - 12:21AM
- muce: Ok
- muce: Well I really don't want to patronise you, and I'm gona try really hard not to, because when people used to say shit like this to me when I was 15, I felt really patronised
- FEB 29 - 12:22AM
- muce: I've suffered from suicidal depression from about the age of 13, maybe even younger, before I was 20, I tried to kill myself twice
- rwoodard238: oh...
- muce: I abused every drug under the sun, I spent literally years in bed doing drugs and self harming
- FEB 29 - 12:23AM
- rwoodard238: ...
- muce: But
- rwoodard238: this is what i hate about trying to get help
- rwoodard238: people always try to turn it about themselves
- muce: I'm only 23, I have a girlfriend I love, I have a job I like
- muce: I haven't self harmed or wanted to in a long time
- muce: I'm not trying to make i about me
- FEB 29 - 12:24AM
- rwoodard238: i ask for help then people try to one up me and make my depression worse
- muce: I'm trying to use myself as an example that, no matter how terrible and hopeless you feel, it can get better, and it can get better
- muce: I'm not trying to one up you dude, I;m sorry it seems like that
- FEB 29 - 12:25AM
- muce: How you feel is the worst ******* thing in the world, and is a totally valid and fair way of seeing the world
- muce: And I'm really genuinely sorry you are in so much pain
- rwoodard238: ...
- FEB 29 - 12:26AM
- muce: But I know it can get better, and things that seem impossible now can be your reality
- rwoodard238: so me actually being who i want can become real?
- FEB 29 - 12:27AM
- muce: Yes
- muce: It really can
- rwoodard238: i feel..happy
- FEB 29 - 12:28AM
- cooliscooldudes: yeah
- cooliscooldudes: your perception of life
- cooliscooldudes: perception
- cooliscooldudes: perceptions aren't reliable always
- cooliscooldudes: so anything could be possible
- FEB 29 - 12:37AM
- muce: yes
- muce: I have to go now
- muce: stay safe bud
- rwoodard238: okay bye bye
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