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- Okay, now are you ready?
- Yeah.

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Okay. We're gonna go...
you gotta hold on tight.

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Squeeze, squeeze. You ready?

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You're the one who should be
in front of the camera.

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What are you doing, hiding back there?

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There she is, ladies and gentlemen,
the most beautiful woman in the world.

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Just like out of a fairytale.

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Wave to Daddy.

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Wave to Daddy.

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- Hi, Daddy.
- Throw Daddy a kiss.

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Get off me.

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Get the fuck off me, Dad.
I just wanna sleep.

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Shut up! Get up!

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Help! Somebody help!

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Hi.

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- Pick up the phone!
- I can't find it.

17
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I got some news you're gonna want to hear.

18
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Oh, yeah? What?

19
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Penguin loved the proposal.

20
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- Shut the fuck up!
- We've got a deal.

21
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Are you serious?

22
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- That's awesome!
- Yeah. They're wiring the money today,

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and I got you twice what you asked me for.

24
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What? You're the best!

25
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Yeah, I'm a miracle worker.

26
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Holy shit! That's great.

27
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So wha... What now?

28
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So now you write it.

29
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All they need is a 20-page
excerpt every month

30
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and other than that, you're a free man...

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Oh, and they wanna have
a party in a few weeks...

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black tie, canapes, et cetera, et cetera.

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Whoa! What?

34
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Go buy yourself a nice suit.

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- All right!
- Okay, hon. Talk later.

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Wait for it, wait for it.

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- First bucket, baby! First bucket!
- Here we go.

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That's one, that's one, that's one!

39
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Bam! Yeah! Yes, motherfucker!

40
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I will ruin you! Your kids
will weep at your funeral!

41
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Break that streak! Pound it!

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No, no, no! No!

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- No, no, no! Come on, man!
- That's what I'm talking about!

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That's my money. Give me that money!

45
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You pay up, bitch. Gimme that money!

46
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You are such a bitch.

47
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Really? What is this, down payment?

48
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Hey, you missed everything.

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I know, I know.
I had to go to the courthouse.

50
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Yo, come on. What are you doing?

51
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- It's over, right?
- No, we're watching the recap.

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- I gotta watch this real quick.
- I wanna see...

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No body, no weapon.

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Next week, Hans Reiser goes on trial
for the murder of his wife.

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Big questions arise... did he kill her,

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or did she simply leave her family
to escape a bad marriage?

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It's a haunting story,

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as the investigation of Nina Reiser
continues.

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The direct physical evidence
against Hans is limited,

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but police have built a detailed
circumstantial case.

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Police have confirmed they believed
Hans Reiser acted alone.

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- According to some, Nina...
- What is this?

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It's Hans. He made
the Linux operating system...

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big nerd celebrity.

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I'm profiling the case for Wired.

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Hans says he lives for his kids.

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In divorce court, a critical ruling...

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Hans lost legal custody
of his precious children.

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His life was falling apart.

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I don't know where Nina is.

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All I know is that the woman
that I love is gone

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and her children keep asking me
when she's coming back

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and I don't know what to tell them.

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I'm just a husband and a father.

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I'm a victim in all this.

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No one took Nina, no one hurt her.

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She just left.

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Nina left her family.

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And with that, the last man known to have
seen Nina alive heads back to his cell.

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- Hey, can you get me in?
- To the trial?

81
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- Yeah.
- Why?

82
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...the question: Where is Nina?

83
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Sure.

84
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Hey, Stephen, it's Jen.

85
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I know you know those pages
are due at Penguin next week.

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I hope it's going well. Give me a call.

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Hey, man, it's Josh.
I got you the Reiser interview.

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You're welcome. Call me.

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Who are you?

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I'm Stephen Elliott.

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Uh, look, I'm not talking to reporters.

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I'm not a reporter.

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I just want to write a book.

94
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Well, it's... it's kind of hard
to trust your kind of people.

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Writers, they have a way
of spinning things

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the way they want to.

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Yeah, I know.
I have a lot of ex-girlfriends

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that have accused me of the same thing.

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Well, what do you want to know?

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Anything. I just...

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I just want to hear your story, that's it.

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I'm not interested.

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There's something there.
He's sitting on something,

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just waiting for a big reveal.

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Like maybe he killed his wife.

106
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Yeah, maybe, but why is the question.

107
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Hey, is anybody dead out there?

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I want to pitch a book to Jen.
A true crime thing.

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- Yeah.
- My In Cold Blood.

110
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Yeah. Better. But probably better.

111
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What the hell is that?

112
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Flip it.

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That's my team, from down below.

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- Sniff it.
- You gave me your team?

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- Yeah.
- Yum.

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- You got any blueberry sauce?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Put it where it goes, though.

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Yeah, yeah.

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The key is to put a little bit of butter
in the balls like so.

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Then you put a nice sloppy
helping on there,

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and then let the blood flow
right to the other part.

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A little wet, and look at that.

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Looks like shit.

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All right! Hot cakes are ready!

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Get your asses in here for some cakes!

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- Hey!
- We cut my hair.

127
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Whoa! Check out this haircut.

128
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God damn it!

129
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Oh-oh! Wow!

130
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He's got it! That is just...

131
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What do you... What do you think of it?

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- You like it?
- I think it's awesome.

133
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- I think it's pretty awesome.
- I think it's awesome

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that you feel awesome
for the last day of school,

135
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but I gotta tell you, man,
that looks terrible.

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Hey, you know what, though?
Maybe you should put a shirt on.

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Looking like a deranged
little ragamuffin with no shirt on.

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This is not the kind of parent
who disappears without warning.

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This is not a mother
who abandons her children.

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Nina Reiser was president of her
school's Parent-Teacher Association.

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She chaperoned field trips.
She did the class laundry.

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Nina's children were her entire world.

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She would have never,
ever left them willingly.

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And she most certainly wouldn't have
left them with her estranged husband

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of whom she was afraid.

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The police were called to the Reiser house

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three times during the months
leading up to the separation.

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Hans appeared twice in Family Court

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for refusing to pay for
his children's medical expenses.

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The last time he appeared in court,

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his request to have the children
for Labor Day weekend was denied.

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12 hours later, Nina Reiser disappeared
from the face of the Earth.

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When he was arrested,
he was carrying $9,000 in cash,

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two books about unsolved homicides

155
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and a three-page letter.

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The letter begins:

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"I've been telling you about Nina
and nobody listens.

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I may be a danger
to the worldview of some,

159
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but I am no danger to my children."

160
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Hey!

161
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You forgot your notebook.

162
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- This is where you say thank you.
- Thank you.

163
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How much did you read?

164
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Nah, just a little.

165
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I had to find your name.

166
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I want to see if I should be embarrassed.

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I wrote, "Hans Reiser trial.
Get transcript of letter thing."

168
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With search terms like that,
should be a breeze.

169
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Let me see what you wrote.

170
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Whoa!

171
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This is thorough.

172
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I feel really inadequate,

173
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Miss Lana Edmond.

174
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I write for the Times.
Are you covering the trial?

175
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Not sure yet.

176
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Do you want to get a drink?

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- Like right now or in general?
- Right now.

178
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I have to take a raincheck.

179
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I have to do something for work.

180
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All right. I totally understand.
It's a really big decision.

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You have to think about it a lot.

182
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So you'll have plenty of time
to do that on our way there.

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No fucking way! Is this your bike?

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Yeah.

185
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I'm driving.

186
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That's Hans' mother's house.

187
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They're right, you know.
The body is buried here.

188
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There's no way
he buried the body that close.

189
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Oh, yeah? Where would you dump a body?

190
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Hudson Canyon.

191
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Okay. It's weird you had
an answer for that, but...

192
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It's in New Jersey, off the coast.

193
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It's this underwater canyon.

194
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It's starts in the basin and goes out
in the ocean, like 400 miles.

195
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It's as big as the Grand Canyon,
but nobody knows about it,

196
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so people just abandon
things there all the time.

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I once dropped
an engagement ring in there.

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Sorry.

199
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I don't know why I just said that.

200
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Jesus Christ!

201
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Um, so what are you doing tonight?

202
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I don't know. What do you have in mind?

203
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"I never went back.

204
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I couldn't stand to see her that way.

205
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Three months later, she was dead.

206
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My father told me in the front seat
of his convertible

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after finding me in a park.

208
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He was already living with his new wife
and her children,

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somewhere in the suburbs.
He wouldn't tell me which one.

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I lived on the streets
until an overdose put me in the hospital

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and I became a ward of the state.

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The day my father was found
guilty of abuse and neglect,

213
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I sat beside him in court.

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Right before my statement,
he pulled me close,

215
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so it would look like he was hugging me,

216
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and then he whispered in my ear,

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'You know it's all your fault, right?

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You killed your mother.'

219
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That's what I could never explain
to the lawyers and caseworkers.

220
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It wasn't about the handcuffs
or the beatings

221
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or his shaving my head. That was nothing.

222
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It was the constant suggestion
that I was doing something wrong,

223
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that I was inherently poisonous

224
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and to blame for the series of abuses
and abandonment

225
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that marked my adolescence.

226
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He made that suggestion
in countless, subtle

227
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and more obvious ways
all the years he was alive."

228
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This is bullshit.

229
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"In the end, his passing
brought me no satisfaction, no closure.

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The day he died..."

231
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Jesus Christ, how can
you people listen to this crap?

232
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Oh my God, it's a ghost!

233
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Boo!

234
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My son, ladies and gentlemen.

235
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The poor, abused orphan. The underdog.

236
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How convenient for you to have
a dead monster for a father!

237
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How utterly pitiable!

238
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I should be getting royalties
for this shit.

239
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My son, the storyteller...
what a fucking joke!

240
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You deserve to be played,
falling for this nonsense.

241
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My son was never homeless.
He was never in group homes.

242
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He was a drug addict fuck-up

243
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who wants to seem interesting and dramatic

244
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and take your money, is what he wants.

245
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- All right, Neil, you gotta go.
- Oh, Roger, how are you doing?

246
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- You gotta go.
- Get your fucking hands off of me!

247
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- You gotta go. Now.
- I gotta go?

248
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You're a fucking coward. Always have been.

249
00:19:54,884 --> 00:19:59,904
You people are all fools...
listening to this bullshit.

250
00:20:09,964 --> 00:20:11,204
Um...

251
00:20:29,084 --> 00:20:32,424
You know, I haven't seen him
in seven years.

252
00:20:32,524 --> 00:20:34,264
The one thing we can agree on, though,

253
00:20:34,364 --> 00:20:36,093
is that we're just dead to each other.

254
00:20:36,244 --> 00:20:37,734
You don't have to explain to me.

255
00:20:41,404 --> 00:20:44,453
Well, unfortunately, I don't think
everyone else will feel that way.

256
00:20:47,124 --> 00:20:48,535
But thank you.

257
00:20:51,724 --> 00:20:54,250
I tried to kill my stepfather once...

258
00:20:56,484 --> 00:20:59,135
...when I was 16.

259
00:20:59,244 --> 00:21:02,784
I worked in a pharmacy,
and I did the research.

260
00:21:02,884 --> 00:21:04,584
I figured out what kind of pill
I would need

261
00:21:04,684 --> 00:21:08,264
and how much it would take
to kill a man, the whole thing, right?

262
00:21:08,364 --> 00:21:11,384
I put a few pills in my pocket
every day before I left work,

263
00:21:11,484 --> 00:21:13,824
saved up enough, ground them up

264
00:21:13,924 --> 00:21:15,744
and put them in his fancy bottle of scotch

265
00:21:15,844 --> 00:21:17,972
that he wouldn't let anyone else touch.

266
00:21:20,804 --> 00:21:22,824
So you killed him.

267
00:21:22,924 --> 00:21:24,608
Nope.

268
00:21:25,644 --> 00:21:27,824
Not even close.

269
00:21:27,924 --> 00:21:29,344
Nothing happened.

270
00:21:29,444 --> 00:21:32,784
It just went right through his system.

271
00:21:32,884 --> 00:21:34,295
He was that fat.

272
00:21:36,724 --> 00:21:38,294
I guess I shouldn't laugh, it's not funny.

273
00:21:41,924 --> 00:21:44,325
You'll get to funny one day.

274
00:21:45,324 --> 00:21:47,053
It just takes time.

275
00:22:34,604 --> 00:22:37,144
So what were you like in high school?

276
00:22:37,244 --> 00:22:40,304
Me? I was a bad ass.

277
00:22:40,404 --> 00:22:41,664
- A bad ass?
- Oh, yeah.

278
00:22:41,764 --> 00:22:43,144
I had a punk band and everything.

279
00:22:43,244 --> 00:22:44,464
What were you called?

280
00:22:44,564 --> 00:22:45,904
We were called the Lys Dexics.

281
00:22:46,004 --> 00:22:48,144
- What?
- Think about it.

282
00:22:48,244 --> 00:22:49,984
Oh, like dyslexic.

283
00:22:50,084 --> 00:22:53,531
I played bass, which is ridiculous

284
00:22:53,644 --> 00:22:56,624
because I can't even hear
bass notes. But whatever.

285
00:22:56,724 --> 00:22:58,864
There's only like four of them, so.

286
00:22:58,964 --> 00:23:02,207
And then we had this whole bit where I
sprayed hairspray into Mattie's lighter.

287
00:23:02,404 --> 00:23:04,784
It was very cool.

288
00:23:04,884 --> 00:23:06,824
I wish I could have seen you then.

289
00:23:06,924 --> 00:23:10,610
A little delinquent, yeah?

290
00:23:14,564 --> 00:23:15,975
So why'd you break up?

291
00:23:16,084 --> 00:23:18,246
- The band?
- Mm-hmm.

292
00:23:18,404 --> 00:23:20,904
I guess I ultimately figured out

293
00:23:21,004 --> 00:23:25,824
it was less fun to have bad sex
in the back of a van sober.

294
00:23:25,924 --> 00:23:27,744
What kind of sober?

295
00:23:27,844 --> 00:23:30,051
Not wanting to be my stepfather kind.

296
00:23:35,404 --> 00:23:38,806
Do you mind if I ask what he did to you?

297
00:23:40,884 --> 00:23:43,384
It's in the past.

298
00:23:43,484 --> 00:23:45,664
I'm not looking over my shoulder.

299
00:23:45,764 --> 00:23:49,424
I know, but what happens
to us makes us who we are.

300
00:23:49,524 --> 00:23:52,744
No. Fuck that!

301
00:23:52,844 --> 00:23:54,944
That has nothing to do with who I am.

302
00:23:55,044 --> 00:23:58,544
He has nothing to do with who I became.

303
00:23:58,644 --> 00:24:00,328
That doesn't mean you need to bury it.

304
00:24:02,444 --> 00:24:04,173
I'm not burying anything.

305
00:24:07,204 --> 00:24:09,252
I've just got some souvenirs.

306
00:24:11,804 --> 00:24:13,329
I think you're perfect.

307
00:24:15,204 --> 00:24:17,104
I wouldn't want you any other way.

308
00:24:54,844 --> 00:24:56,084
Hey!

309
00:24:57,204 --> 00:24:59,824
Jesus! Where the hell have you been?

310
00:24:59,924 --> 00:25:01,784
Oh... Uh, I just...

311
00:25:01,884 --> 00:25:04,888
I needed a little time,
that's all. Come in.

312
00:25:09,124 --> 00:25:10,944
What are you doing?

313
00:25:11,044 --> 00:25:13,264
Oh, it's this thing Roger turned me on to.

314
00:25:13,364 --> 00:25:14,824
You heat it up to 209 degrees.

315
00:25:14,924 --> 00:25:18,133
No, I mean, what in the actual
fuck are we gonna do?

316
00:25:19,644 --> 00:25:21,184
I don't know.

317
00:25:21,284 --> 00:25:27,166
Uh, I never really had a plan
for when life shits the bed like this.

318
00:25:29,404 --> 00:25:32,647
Do you have any sense
of how many phone calls

319
00:25:32,764 --> 00:25:35,893
and hysterical emails I've gotten?

320
00:25:36,964 --> 00:25:39,934
As a matter of fact, I do.
I changed my number.

321
00:25:41,164 --> 00:25:42,814
Thanks for letting me know.

322
00:25:43,804 --> 00:25:45,104
So here's where we are.

323
00:25:45,204 --> 00:25:49,224
Random House is backing out
of the short story collection.

324
00:25:50,424 --> 00:25:53,744
Columbia wants to buy you out
of your teaching contract.

325
00:25:53,844 --> 00:25:55,864
- Fuck them.
- Essentially,

326
00:25:55,964 --> 00:25:59,207
everyone is on the verge of suing us.

327
00:26:00,244 --> 00:26:02,451
The Penguin thing... that's over, too?

328
00:26:02,564 --> 00:26:04,744
Not yet.

329
00:26:04,844 --> 00:26:07,624
I have managed to talk them down,

330
00:26:07,724 --> 00:26:09,344
but you have gotta work with me here.

331
00:26:09,444 --> 00:26:12,344
Okay. All right. Just tell me how.

332
00:26:12,444 --> 00:26:14,970
Okay. First of all,
you gotta tell me the truth.

333
00:26:16,324 --> 00:26:19,664
- Fine. Easy.
- Everything.

334
00:26:19,764 --> 00:26:23,584
Look, yeah, my dad isn't dead, obviously.

335
00:26:23,684 --> 00:26:25,344
But that's it.

336
00:26:25,444 --> 00:26:28,664
So why does Neil say that
you never lived in a group home?

337
00:26:28,764 --> 00:26:31,104
Why does he say you were never homeless?

338
00:26:31,204 --> 00:26:32,984
Why? Because... I don't...

339
00:26:33,084 --> 00:26:35,086
My dad's crazy, that's why!

340
00:26:36,284 --> 00:26:38,184
I don't know! I've been trying
to figure it out my whole life.

341
00:26:38,284 --> 00:26:40,093
He just... He doesn't want me to be happy.

342
00:26:40,204 --> 00:26:42,490
Do you have proof?

343
00:26:44,084 --> 00:26:46,334
- What kind of proof?
- I don't know. Records.

344
00:26:47,804 --> 00:26:49,944
- I mean, not on me.
- Find some.

345
00:26:50,044 --> 00:26:54,224
Quick. I believe you,
but you've gotta cover your ass.

346
00:26:54,324 --> 00:26:55,544
Okay.

347
00:26:55,644 --> 00:26:59,205
Next, you've got to write a...

348
00:27:00,004 --> 00:27:02,325
press release statement like, now.

349
00:27:05,964 --> 00:27:11,414
Next, Penguin has got to
have some pages ASAP.

350
00:27:13,724 --> 00:27:16,489
Unless you start producing,
this all goes away.

351
00:27:54,324 --> 00:27:56,406
Kill yourself, you fucking asshole!

352
00:28:25,044 --> 00:28:27,104
- Whad'ya got?
- I already paid for that.

353
00:28:27,204 --> 00:28:28,444
Don't be stupid.

354
00:28:53,884 --> 00:28:56,046
Say what do you want from me.

355
00:28:58,564 --> 00:29:01,024
I don't know.

356
00:29:01,124 --> 00:29:03,775
I know exactly what you like, don't I?

357
00:29:14,484 --> 00:29:16,824
Hi, Cori.

358
00:29:16,924 --> 00:29:19,344
Cori, do you remember
drawing that picture?

359
00:29:19,444 --> 00:29:20,944
Yes.

360
00:29:21,044 --> 00:29:22,384
Why did you draw it?

361
00:29:22,484 --> 00:29:24,824
I drew it to show what happened.

362
00:29:24,924 --> 00:29:27,464
Hans went away for a long time,

363
00:29:27,564 --> 00:29:30,647
and when he came back,
he had this very big bag.

364
00:29:30,764 --> 00:29:34,024
Inside the bag there were
so many rolls of tape, like a ball,

365
00:29:34,124 --> 00:29:36,184
and Hans took it to his car.

366
00:29:36,284 --> 00:29:39,544
Now, in your picture,

367
00:29:39,644 --> 00:29:42,224
the bag is zipped up.

368
00:29:42,324 --> 00:29:44,504
Could you actually see what was in the bag

369
00:29:44,604 --> 00:29:47,608
or were you just kind of imagining
what might be in there?

370
00:29:49,124 --> 00:29:51,384
Imagining.

371
00:29:51,484 --> 00:29:53,304
And who asked you to draw it?

372
00:29:53,404 --> 00:29:54,864
The psychologist.

373
00:29:54,964 --> 00:29:58,944
Now, did you remember the part about
your Dad carrying the bag

374
00:29:59,044 --> 00:30:01,809
before the psychologist talked to you?

375
00:30:02,924 --> 00:30:04,864
I'm not sure.

376
00:30:04,964 --> 00:30:07,695
Do you have trouble with keeping things
straight sometimes, Cori?

377
00:30:07,804 --> 00:30:10,464
Do you get a little, you know,
confused, sometimes?

378
00:30:10,564 --> 00:30:14,024
I don't want to do this anymore.
Can I stop now?

379
00:30:14,124 --> 00:30:16,013
Okay. Thank you, pal.

380
00:30:18,804 --> 00:30:21,944
Did Cori always call his parents
by their first names?

381
00:30:22,044 --> 00:30:24,464
No, I don't think so, actually.

382
00:30:24,564 --> 00:30:27,464
It seemed at the earlier custody trial
statements he would say "my mom,"

383
00:30:27,564 --> 00:30:30,886
but I don't know when he started
calling Hans "Hans."

384
00:30:32,844 --> 00:30:35,144
Do you think we could get
the Family Court documents?

385
00:30:35,244 --> 00:30:38,464
Some of them. Anything public record.

386
00:30:38,564 --> 00:30:39,975
Can I see it?

387
00:30:41,164 --> 00:30:45,784
All right. So this is the first one,
where Cori is calling his mother "Nina,"

388
00:30:45,884 --> 00:30:47,304
and Hans was already called "Hans."

389
00:30:47,404 --> 00:30:48,624
Hmmm.

390
00:30:48,724 --> 00:30:51,384
This was three months
before she disappeared.

391
00:30:51,484 --> 00:30:53,584
Mm-hmm.

392
00:30:53,684 --> 00:30:55,864
Hey, can you get documents
from other states,

393
00:30:55,964 --> 00:30:57,693
not just New York?

394
00:30:57,844 --> 00:31:00,584
Uh, yeah. Wha... what are you thinking?

395
00:31:00,684 --> 00:31:02,904
Illinois.

396
00:31:03,004 --> 00:31:05,104
Yeah, sure. Why?

397
00:31:05,204 --> 00:31:08,424
'Cause I grew up in Chicago.

398
00:31:08,524 --> 00:31:10,889
What are you looking for?

399
00:31:12,784 --> 00:31:16,344
How about the hearing where my father
was convicted of neglect and abuse

400
00:31:16,444 --> 00:31:18,685
and I was made a ward of the state?

401
00:31:21,884 --> 00:31:23,344
What are you gonna do with it?

402
00:31:23,444 --> 00:31:25,208
I don't know. All my book
deals went to shit,

403
00:31:25,324 --> 00:31:27,064
and my editor says
they're gonna stay that way

404
00:31:27,164 --> 00:31:30,344
until I come up with some proof
that all that stuff actually happened.

405
00:31:30,444 --> 00:31:33,653
And I have to publish it
in an important publication.

406
00:31:34,724 --> 00:31:38,064
Like say The Times?

407
00:31:38,164 --> 00:31:40,224
I wouldn't ask you to do that.

408
00:31:40,324 --> 00:31:43,771
Yeah, kind of just did, but that's okay.

409
00:31:43,924 --> 00:31:45,335
I'd love to help.

410
00:31:49,404 --> 00:31:51,133
Does this look like
what you're looking for?

411
00:31:52,284 --> 00:31:54,064
Yeah.

412
00:31:54,164 --> 00:31:56,544
Now the only problem is I can't write it.

413
00:31:56,644 --> 00:31:59,264
Of course you can.
Write whatever you want.

414
00:31:59,364 --> 00:32:01,366
No, I just can't write. I mean...

415
00:32:02,924 --> 00:32:06,485
It just happens.
Last time it lasted six months.

416
00:32:07,484 --> 00:32:09,984
And then what?

417
00:32:10,084 --> 00:32:11,734
Then I started taking Adderall.

418
00:32:13,204 --> 00:32:15,810
Okay. It's printing.

419
00:32:28,124 --> 00:32:31,544
What if we published this as is?

420
00:32:31,644 --> 00:32:33,904
Mm? Print it full page,

421
00:32:34,004 --> 00:32:37,531
complete with your
handwritten annotations.

422
00:32:37,644 --> 00:32:40,024
That's something people would notice

423
00:32:40,124 --> 00:32:42,984
and you wouldn't have to write anything.

424
00:32:43,084 --> 00:32:45,224
I think that you're brilliant.

425
00:32:45,324 --> 00:32:46,904
I know.

426
00:33:10,324 --> 00:33:12,565
There's a term for what you are right now.

427
00:33:14,084 --> 00:33:15,574
- Cunt-struck.
- Fuck you.

428
00:33:15,684 --> 00:33:17,784
- Cunt-struck.
- That's not a word.

429
00:33:17,884 --> 00:33:19,488
Yeah, it is.

430
00:33:19,604 --> 00:33:22,144
It's an old word, old-timey word.

431
00:33:22,244 --> 00:33:23,530
It's like cuntwinked.

432
00:33:25,204 --> 00:33:29,984
Or the more politically
correct version, hoodwinked.

433
00:33:30,084 --> 00:33:33,304
- Come on, you don't know this? Huh?
- No.

434
00:33:33,404 --> 00:33:35,504
What's the male version?

435
00:33:35,604 --> 00:33:37,891
- Cock hobbled.
- Shut the fuck up!

436
00:33:38,004 --> 00:33:40,132
Come on. You gonna match
with me and you don't know that?

437
00:33:50,564 --> 00:33:54,774
Hey. I put this on so I'd remember
to give it to you.

438
00:33:57,724 --> 00:33:59,374
Remember this?

439
00:34:00,924 --> 00:34:02,449
Yeah.

440
00:34:02,564 --> 00:34:04,344
Yeah. I was going through this old box

441
00:34:04,444 --> 00:34:06,890
and thought I'd give it back to you.

442
00:34:07,044 --> 00:34:08,933
- Yeah?
- Yeah.

443
00:34:09,044 --> 00:34:11,775
You sure you're ready
to part ways with that?

444
00:34:13,044 --> 00:34:14,504
- Thought it'd make you happy.
- Yeah, it did.

445
00:34:14,604 --> 00:34:16,049
You could give it to Jax.

446
00:34:16,604 --> 00:34:18,304
It belonged to my grandmother.

447
00:34:18,404 --> 00:34:20,532
Yeah, I remember.

448
00:34:23,084 --> 00:34:25,264
You gave it to me
the night after I overdosed.

449
00:34:25,364 --> 00:34:28,184
Remember you said it would protect me?

450
00:34:28,284 --> 00:34:29,524
I sure don't.

451
00:34:31,404 --> 00:34:32,624
It meant a lot to me at the time.

452
00:34:32,724 --> 00:34:34,726
Yeah? That's interesting.

453
00:34:35,084 --> 00:34:37,064
'Cause I didn't give it to you, Stephen.

454
00:34:37,164 --> 00:34:38,424
- What?
- It got stolen

455
00:34:38,524 --> 00:34:40,464
from my jacket at a party.

456
00:34:40,564 --> 00:34:42,584
What are you talking about?
I was in the hospital at Northwestern.

457
00:34:42,684 --> 00:34:43,924
You snuck in to visit me.

458
00:34:44,084 --> 00:34:46,928
Ha, doesn't matter. Forget it.

459
00:34:47,084 --> 00:34:49,024
It matters to me.

460
00:34:53,844 --> 00:34:56,344
Look, you were pissed off at me
'cause I made that shitty joke

461
00:34:56,444 --> 00:34:58,224
about your mom in the wheelchair
peeing herself, yeah?

462
00:34:58,324 --> 00:35:00,584
- Yeah, I remember.
- Yeah, and the chain broke,

463
00:35:00,684 --> 00:35:03,424
and I had it in my jacket pocket
and then it went missing at the party.

464
00:35:03,524 --> 00:35:05,925
This is not how I remember it.

465
00:35:06,124 --> 00:35:07,424
I believe that's not how you remember,

466
00:35:07,524 --> 00:35:09,970
because you have a convenient way
of remembering things.

467
00:35:11,924 --> 00:35:13,653
- What? We're done?
- Yeah, we're done.

468
00:35:19,204 --> 00:35:21,224
Roger!

469
00:35:41,404 --> 00:35:44,726
Why don't you just tell me
what you're looking for, what you like?

470
00:35:46,924 --> 00:35:49,404
Because I don't want to scare you away.

471
00:35:50,724 --> 00:35:53,304
Do I seem easily scared to you?

472
00:35:53,404 --> 00:35:54,644
No.

473
00:35:56,244 --> 00:35:59,009
You're the last person
I want to show my flaws to.

474
00:36:00,604 --> 00:36:02,424
You're showing them to somebody.

475
00:36:02,524 --> 00:36:05,864
I know you're not getting
these marks on your own.

476
00:36:07,519 --> 00:36:08,944
No, I'm not.

477
00:36:09,044 --> 00:36:12,446
I just don't want to wonder
who else you're with.

478
00:36:13,444 --> 00:36:15,526
Give me a chance.

479
00:36:23,404 --> 00:36:24,735
Tie this wrist.

480
00:36:34,484 --> 00:36:36,293
Now tie it to the bed.

481
00:36:41,084 --> 00:36:42,670
Now tie this one.

482
00:36:44,084 --> 00:36:46,007
Tie it really tight.

483
00:36:50,204 --> 00:36:51,365
Like that?

484
00:36:52,604 --> 00:36:53,844
Yeah.

485
00:36:55,084 --> 00:36:56,495
Take one nail.

486
00:36:58,204 --> 00:36:59,410
Run it down.

487
00:37:01,204 --> 00:37:02,615
Slower.

488
00:37:03,604 --> 00:37:04,844
Slow.

489
00:37:06,524 --> 00:37:07,764
Harder.

490
00:37:09,324 --> 00:37:10,928
Harder.

491
00:37:12,044 --> 00:37:14,729
- Like that?
- Yeah.

492
00:37:16,324 --> 00:37:17,689
Kiss me.

493
00:37:19,124 --> 00:37:22,094
Well, fine, but I like the Hans idea.

494
00:37:22,244 --> 00:37:24,744
Look, I think they have
the right to voice a concern.

495
00:37:24,844 --> 00:37:27,184
This doesn't even resemble the book
they're paying you to write.

496
00:37:27,284 --> 00:37:30,784
Okay, no? Fine.
I get that, but it's a better idea.

497
00:37:30,884 --> 00:37:35,504
Yeah, I'm not really sure
that I can sell this, Steve.

498
00:37:35,604 --> 00:37:37,984
Look, Norman Mailer, Truman Capote.

499
00:37:38,084 --> 00:37:40,304
They were both at the top of their games

500
00:37:40,404 --> 00:37:43,424
and then they got
massive writer's block, right?

501
00:37:43,524 --> 00:37:45,024
- And then?
- Yes, and they fell into addiction.

502
00:37:45,124 --> 00:37:48,765
Exactly. And what happens? A murder trial.

503
00:37:48,924 --> 00:37:52,264
Truman Capote writes his masterpiece,
changes American literature.

504
00:37:52,364 --> 00:37:54,704
Norman Mailer wins
the freaking Pulitzer Prize.

505
00:37:54,804 --> 00:37:57,904
Oh, so Hans Reiser
is gonna win you a Pulitzer now?

506
00:37:58,004 --> 00:38:02,224
No, I'm just... He's interesting,
that's all. It's what I want to write.

507
00:38:02,324 --> 00:38:05,984
Alright. Fine, fine, fine. As long as
you're actually writing something.

508
00:38:06,084 --> 00:38:08,166
I don't know. I guess we'll figure it out.

509
00:38:08,284 --> 00:38:10,984
You're gonna have to get me some pages
if you want me to pitch this change,

510
00:38:11,084 --> 00:38:13,224
- actual pages.
- Um, cool. You got it.

511
00:38:13,324 --> 00:38:14,824
Yes, I promise. I promise. I promise.

512
00:38:14,924 --> 00:38:16,304
- I promise.
- Okay.

513
00:38:16,404 --> 00:38:17,894
Okay. Bye.

514
00:38:19,084 --> 00:38:20,504
I made breakfast.

515
00:38:20,604 --> 00:38:23,335
- I see that.
- Eggs Benedict.

516
00:38:26,324 --> 00:38:28,406
- What's wrong?
- Nothing.

517
00:38:29,804 --> 00:38:34,454
It's just, um...
This was taped to my front door.

518
00:38:37,124 --> 00:38:38,774
Motherfucker!

519
00:38:59,324 --> 00:39:00,544
You stay away from her.

520
00:39:00,644 --> 00:39:03,664
If you ever hurt them, I swear to God
I'm gonna fucking kill you.

521
00:39:03,764 --> 00:39:06,893
Oh, come on. You're so dramatic!

522
00:39:07,004 --> 00:39:08,624
- Come on.
- No.

523
00:39:08,724 --> 00:39:12,344
Oh! I see how it is, Tough Guy.

524
00:39:12,444 --> 00:39:17,484
All right, you handsome motherfucker.
At least come on in.

525
00:39:18,884 --> 00:39:20,170
Come on!

526
00:39:22,524 --> 00:39:24,864
You want a 7-Up?

527
00:39:24,964 --> 00:39:27,024
Hey, let's get a steak, huh? My treat.

528
00:39:27,124 --> 00:39:29,424
- Where's Cynthia?
- She's in Florida.

529
00:39:29,524 --> 00:39:31,984
You know how much I can't stand
the fucking silverbacks.

530
00:39:32,084 --> 00:39:33,984
So you're just spending her money alone?

531
00:39:34,084 --> 00:39:36,344
Yeah, she sends her love to you, too.

532
00:39:36,444 --> 00:39:39,704
Cynthia, you know,
she had me clean out the attic.

533
00:39:39,804 --> 00:39:42,024
I was visiting your stepsister.

534
00:39:42,124 --> 00:39:44,384
She's going to Yale now,
did you know that?

535
00:39:44,484 --> 00:39:49,615
And I thought I might stop by here
and see if you wanted any of this.

536
00:40:07,724 --> 00:40:10,104
You came all this way to give me a box?

537
00:40:10,204 --> 00:40:11,808
I came to see my son.

538
00:40:13,124 --> 00:40:14,569
Why? You obviously hate me.

539
00:40:14,684 --> 00:40:16,584
Oh, hey, now, come on! Don't say that.

540
00:40:16,684 --> 00:40:19,584
- Why do you say that?
- 'Cause you humiliated me!

541
00:40:19,684 --> 00:40:22,144
Congratulations, I hope you're happy.

542
00:40:22,244 --> 00:40:23,824
I'm not happy.

543
00:40:23,924 --> 00:40:25,504
That didn't make me happy.

544
00:40:25,604 --> 00:40:26,944
Then why would you do that?

545
00:40:27,044 --> 00:40:29,424
You told everyone I was dead.

546
00:40:29,524 --> 00:40:30,744
So did you!

547
00:40:30,844 --> 00:40:35,293
Yeah, well, I mean,
there's storytellers in this family.

548
00:40:35,444 --> 00:40:38,224
I... I've read everything
you've ever written.

549
00:40:38,324 --> 00:40:41,294
I've come all the way across the country
to this fancy party

550
00:40:41,444 --> 00:40:45,290
where they're celebrating my son,
the big-shot literary genius,

551
00:40:45,444 --> 00:40:46,664
because I'm proud of you

552
00:40:46,764 --> 00:40:49,024
and I'm sitting there,
listening to these stories,

553
00:40:49,124 --> 00:40:51,384
and every time, the monster father dies
a horrible death

554
00:40:51,484 --> 00:40:54,744
and those assholes in their party clothes,
they're all happy about it.

555
00:40:54,844 --> 00:40:56,144
How do you think that makes me feel?

556
00:40:56,244 --> 00:40:57,824
You know what? You're not doing this.

557
00:40:57,924 --> 00:41:00,704
You're not turning it around
to make it about you.

558
00:41:00,804 --> 00:41:04,064
I'm not going to feel guilty
for not keeping your secrets.

559
00:41:04,164 --> 00:41:05,744
My secrets? What about yours?

560
00:41:05,844 --> 00:41:07,824
All right, look, here you go.

561
00:41:07,924 --> 00:41:09,904
- What do you got?
- Here's the court hearing

562
00:41:10,004 --> 00:41:14,744
where you were convicted
of seven counts of neglect and abuse.

563
00:41:14,844 --> 00:41:17,464
Here's the police report
for when I was homeless,

564
00:41:17,564 --> 00:41:19,965
'cause you were hiding with
your fucking replacement family!

565
00:41:20,084 --> 00:41:22,664
Hiding? I looked everywhere for you.

566
00:41:22,764 --> 00:41:24,664
You were a strung-out drug addict.

567
00:41:24,764 --> 00:41:26,664
I roamed the streets
trying to save your life.

568
00:41:26,764 --> 00:41:29,144
- Oh, you were gonna save me?
- Yes, save you. I had to restrain you.

569
00:41:29,244 --> 00:41:31,326
You were trying to kill yourself.

570
00:41:32,484 --> 00:41:36,488
You fucking beat the shit out of me,
and I was too little to fight back!

571
00:41:36,604 --> 00:41:38,624
I was grieving. I was doing my best!

572
00:41:38,724 --> 00:41:40,664
You were grieving? As if I wasn't!

573
00:41:40,764 --> 00:41:43,449
- As if I wasn't fucking grieving!
- You pick at the details,

574
00:41:43,564 --> 00:41:45,584
you're missing
the entire context of this thing.

575
00:41:45,684 --> 00:41:47,064
- The context?
- Yeah.

576
00:41:47,164 --> 00:41:48,944
The context is you were
a fucking nightmare!

577
00:41:49,044 --> 00:41:50,464
You were a nightmare!

578
00:41:50,564 --> 00:41:53,464
You made my life a living hell!
You terrorized my family!

579
00:41:53,564 --> 00:41:55,864
I'm your family!

580
00:41:55,964 --> 00:41:58,864
I was your fucking family
and you fucking abandoned me!

581
00:41:58,964 --> 00:42:00,568
That's not true!

582
00:42:05,204 --> 00:42:06,664
You're not going anywhere. Stay there.

583
00:42:06,764 --> 00:42:09,064
Get off of me!

584
00:42:32,564 --> 00:42:33,804
Fucker!

585
00:42:35,444 --> 00:42:36,730
You son of a bitch!

586
00:42:37,444 --> 00:42:40,891
Roger! Get the fuck off me!

587
00:42:44,804 --> 00:42:47,704
I didn't abandon you.

588
00:42:47,804 --> 00:42:50,045
You left home, for God's sake!

589
00:42:53,844 --> 00:42:55,104
You know what? You're right.

590
00:42:55,204 --> 00:42:57,744
You have another family to take care of.

591
00:42:57,844 --> 00:42:59,704
My father is dead. I'm a fucking orphan.

592
00:42:59,804 --> 00:43:01,454
- You don't mean that!
- Yes, I do!

593
00:43:01,564 --> 00:43:04,064
You don't know what
you're saying right now.

594
00:43:04,164 --> 00:43:07,064
You're a pathetic old man and you're
gonna die miserable and alone,

595
00:43:07,164 --> 00:43:08,404
and you fucking deserve it!

596
00:43:08,604 --> 00:43:11,624
Stephen! Stephen!

597
00:43:14,924 --> 00:43:17,424
Stephen, come back here!

598
00:43:43,884 --> 00:43:45,344
All at once or slow?

599
00:43:45,444 --> 00:43:47,128
- Mm?
- Slow.

600
00:43:51,244 --> 00:43:52,904
Fuck!

601
00:43:53,004 --> 00:43:54,244
What did you mean

602
00:43:54,364 --> 00:43:58,494
when you told Dr. Shapiro that Nina
wanted Cori to be sick?

603
00:43:58,644 --> 00:44:01,344
She was... inventing illnesses for Cori,

604
00:44:01,444 --> 00:44:05,424
to make him go through all these
unnecessary medical procedures,

605
00:44:05,524 --> 00:44:08,744
giving him medications
that were making him sick.

606
00:44:08,844 --> 00:44:11,704
She was poisoning my son.

607
00:44:11,804 --> 00:44:16,304
She didn't like him
on some deep, conflicted level.

608
00:44:16,404 --> 00:44:18,532
I know people don't want to hear that.

609
00:44:18,644 --> 00:44:23,684
I mean, they can't believe that a parent
would actually hurt a child.

610
00:44:25,324 --> 00:44:27,984
It happens all the time.

611
00:44:28,084 --> 00:44:29,624
The court system, I mean,

612
00:44:29,724 --> 00:44:33,206
it just makes things
so much worse for the children.

613
00:44:34,524 --> 00:44:36,664
We're taught to believe that the system

614
00:44:36,764 --> 00:44:38,744
will actually help the child,

615
00:44:38,844 --> 00:44:40,944
that it'll do the right thing,

616
00:44:41,044 --> 00:44:44,173
but it doesn't always.

617
00:44:45,684 --> 00:44:47,334
Sometimes it does the opposite.

618
00:44:48,964 --> 00:44:51,570
I was betrayed and abandoned

619
00:44:51,684 --> 00:44:55,304
by the people that I was
supposed to trust blindly.

620
00:44:55,404 --> 00:44:59,045
When I fought back, they called me a liar.

621
00:45:00,324 --> 00:45:03,294
No one tells you what
you're supposed to do then.

622
00:45:07,724 --> 00:45:09,567
When you're all alone,

623
00:45:09,724 --> 00:45:13,264
you have to take matters
into your own hands.

624
00:45:13,364 --> 00:45:17,184
If you understand that,
you understand everything.

625
00:45:17,284 --> 00:45:20,572
I always tried to do the right thing...

626
00:45:22,844 --> 00:45:25,324
Even if it was an impossible decision.

627
00:45:33,244 --> 00:45:34,734
Hey.

628
00:45:42,964 --> 00:45:44,744
You okay?

629
00:45:46,672 --> 00:45:48,143
Yeah.

630
00:45:57,324 --> 00:45:59,904
What is that?

631
00:46:00,004 --> 00:46:03,531
It's Adderall, Klonopin, Vicodin.

632
00:46:07,324 --> 00:46:08,974
Can I have one?

633
00:46:44,524 --> 00:46:47,095
I hate feeling trapped.

634
00:46:48,084 --> 00:46:50,371
I'd never want to trap you.

635
00:46:51,924 --> 00:46:54,575
You can tell me whatever you want.

636
00:46:56,804 --> 00:46:58,647
You know that, right?

637
00:46:58,804 --> 00:47:00,488
I know.

638
00:47:17,364 --> 00:47:18,650
Choke me.

639
00:47:19,924 --> 00:47:21,972
Now?

640
00:47:22,844 --> 00:47:24,209
Yeah.

641
00:47:27,164 --> 00:47:30,532
I don't... I just...

642
00:47:33,204 --> 00:47:36,287
I don't really feel like that now.

643
00:47:37,484 --> 00:47:38,724
Hey.

644
00:47:38,844 --> 00:47:41,609
I don't want you to do anything
that you don't want to do.

645
00:47:43,084 --> 00:47:45,325
Come here. Come back.

646
00:47:51,164 --> 00:47:54,824
I just feel at home with you, so...

647
00:47:54,924 --> 00:47:57,944
I just don't wanna have to pretend, or...

648
00:47:58,044 --> 00:48:00,572
And I don't want you
to have to pretend anything.

649
00:48:17,724 --> 00:48:20,304
- Just like that?
- Yeah, squeeze.

650
00:48:20,404 --> 00:48:21,984
Here?

651
00:48:22,084 --> 00:48:25,008
Harder. Harder.

652
00:48:26,524 --> 00:48:28,184
You can't go harder?

653
00:48:28,284 --> 00:48:30,264
I'm trying.

654
00:48:31,164 --> 00:48:33,246
I mean, look. Come here.

655
00:48:40,364 --> 00:48:41,695
Put your hands there.

656
00:48:45,724 --> 00:48:48,304
- Yeah?
- All right.

657
00:48:48,404 --> 00:48:50,024
- Like that?
- Yeah.

658
00:48:50,124 --> 00:48:54,944
Okay. Now I want you
to press as hard as you can.

659
00:48:55,044 --> 00:48:59,224
It's okay. Just let it out.

660
00:48:59,324 --> 00:49:01,725
Everything he did to you,
I want you to take it out.

661
00:49:02,724 --> 00:49:07,264
Just take it out on me, right now. Do it.

662
00:49:07,364 --> 00:49:08,604
Do it harder.

663
00:49:09,804 --> 00:49:11,984
Harder. Harder.

664
00:49:13,444 --> 00:49:14,461
Harder.

665
00:49:44,764 --> 00:49:48,814
Stephen! Stephen!

666
00:49:49,004 --> 00:49:51,064
Stephen, wake up!

667
00:49:51,164 --> 00:49:52,384
Stephen!

668
00:49:56,324 --> 00:49:58,850
Stephen, please, wake up!

669
00:49:59,004 --> 00:50:00,684
Stephen!

670
00:50:13,284 --> 00:50:14,615
Oh, my God.

671
00:50:22,084 --> 00:50:24,894
- Oh, my God!
- Are you okay?

672
00:50:32,084 --> 00:50:33,495
I love you.

673
00:50:35,444 --> 00:50:38,368
- What'd you say?
- I love you.

674
00:50:44,044 --> 00:50:45,784
What?

675
00:50:45,884 --> 00:50:48,888
- I can't do this.
- It's okay.

676
00:50:49,044 --> 00:50:52,144
I'm not gonna let anything happen to you.

677
00:50:53,244 --> 00:50:56,824
- Stephen, I can't do this!
- It's okay.

678
00:52:30,044 --> 00:52:31,704
Steven.

679
00:52:31,804 --> 00:52:34,864
Please, you have to stop calling me.

680
00:52:34,964 --> 00:52:37,144
I don't wanna talk to you.

681
00:52:37,244 --> 00:52:40,168
I mean it. Bye.

682
00:52:48,764 --> 00:52:52,704
Steve, I just had a meeting
with your publisher,

683
00:52:52,804 --> 00:52:54,104
maybe you remember them.

684
00:52:54,204 --> 00:52:57,184
We waited three hours... for you.

685
00:52:57,284 --> 00:52:59,824
Um, the bottom line is,

686
00:52:59,924 --> 00:53:04,944
Penguin does not want this true crime
bullshit, like I told you,

687
00:53:05,044 --> 00:53:07,384
and they're pulling out
of the original project, too.

688
00:53:07,484 --> 00:53:09,184
- Oh, fuck!
- You have seven days

689
00:53:09,284 --> 00:53:11,664
to return the advance, and there's
nothing else I can do.

690
00:53:11,764 --> 00:53:13,224
- Fuck!
- And you need a new editor

691
00:53:13,324 --> 00:53:16,304
because you no longer have one.

692
00:53:16,404 --> 00:53:18,304
I really hope you're able
to get your shit together.

693
00:53:18,404 --> 00:53:19,849
Fuck you!

694
00:53:22,764 --> 00:53:24,095
Hey, it's Josh, where are you?

695
00:53:24,204 --> 00:53:27,264
I'm trying to save your seat,
but these people are crazy. Call me.

696
00:53:27,364 --> 00:53:29,332
Shit!

697
00:53:35,324 --> 00:53:36,624
Have you reached a verdict?

698
00:53:36,724 --> 00:53:38,249
We have, Your Honor.

699
00:53:38,404 --> 00:53:40,850
The defendant will rise.

700
00:53:42,324 --> 00:53:43,864
Proceed.

701
00:53:43,964 --> 00:53:45,504
We the jury find the defendant

702
00:53:45,604 --> 00:53:48,130
guilty of murder in the first degree.

703
00:53:59,044 --> 00:54:00,624
We, the jury, find the defendant

704
00:54:00,724 --> 00:54:03,464
guilty of murder in the first degree.

705
00:54:03,564 --> 00:54:05,264
On or about December 1st...

706
00:54:05,364 --> 00:54:08,846
- Hey, can I watch this?
- Yeah, sure.

707
00:54:11,124 --> 00:54:15,864
Bailiff, remove Mr. Reiser
from the courtroom, please. Thank you.

708
00:54:15,964 --> 00:54:17,375
Wait, take your hands off me. Wait!

709
00:54:17,484 --> 00:54:21,344
I just wanted to say that I was
the best father that I knew how to be.

710
00:54:21,444 --> 00:54:24,624
I only tried to protect my children!

711
00:54:24,724 --> 00:54:26,224
Take your hands off me!

712
00:54:26,324 --> 00:54:29,544
I wanted to be the best father
that I could be!

713
00:54:29,644 --> 00:54:31,487
Thanks.

714
00:54:36,604 --> 00:54:39,304
Oh, wow! Remember this?

715
00:54:39,404 --> 00:54:40,624
Oh!

716
00:54:40,724 --> 00:54:42,064
- Remember that Mustang?
- Yep.

717
00:54:42,164 --> 00:54:44,974
- Shit, that was an awesome car!
- Yeah.

718
00:54:47,004 --> 00:54:49,904
"Neil Elliott graduated
from the University of Natal.

719
00:54:50,004 --> 00:54:53,784
Served as an airborne meteorologist
with the South African Air Force,

720
00:54:53,884 --> 00:54:56,744
worked as a geologist for two years

721
00:54:56,844 --> 00:54:58,573
before immigrating to the United States."

722
00:55:00,004 --> 00:55:02,291
What the fuck is this?

723
00:55:02,444 --> 00:55:04,664
Guess he wrote a few books
before I was born.

724
00:55:06,404 --> 00:55:09,344
You know what Hans said after the verdict?

725
00:55:09,444 --> 00:55:11,208
After the verdict?

726
00:55:11,324 --> 00:55:14,864
"I tried to be the best father
I knew how to be."

727
00:55:14,964 --> 00:55:17,344
That's exactly what my dad fucking said.

728
00:55:17,444 --> 00:55:19,572
I mean, can you fucking believe that?

729
00:55:19,684 --> 00:55:23,211
I meant to tell you, I saw your dad
the other day at the hospital,

730
00:55:23,324 --> 00:55:24,784
when I was making my rounds.

731
00:55:24,884 --> 00:55:26,744
Why was he at the hospital?

732
00:55:26,844 --> 00:55:28,608
I don't know, but he was.

733
00:55:30,124 --> 00:55:33,104
My dad and Hans are fucking delusional.

734
00:55:33,204 --> 00:55:34,864
"The best father I knew how to be"...

735
00:55:34,964 --> 00:55:38,332
What the fuck, like it was
all my fault? All this?

736
00:55:40,764 --> 00:55:42,624
- What?
- I thought the whole point

737
00:55:42,724 --> 00:55:44,824
of the Hans thing, of the trial,
of all that

738
00:55:44,924 --> 00:55:47,864
was so that you could write
about something different.

739
00:55:47,964 --> 00:55:49,584
So what? Back to me.

740
00:55:49,684 --> 00:55:50,984
You know what he fucking said?

741
00:55:51,084 --> 00:55:54,384
I didn't have the right context.

742
00:55:54,484 --> 00:55:56,964
The right fucking context?

743
00:55:57,084 --> 00:55:59,624
He said I terrorized his new family.

744
00:55:59,724 --> 00:56:02,807
- Terrorized!
- Terrorized is a bad word.

745
00:56:02,924 --> 00:56:04,304
It's not a good word.

746
00:56:04,404 --> 00:56:06,532
Oh, you think there's a better
word that describes it?

747
00:56:09,364 --> 00:56:12,304
No. I'm saying I've been...
I've, I've thought about it.

748
00:56:12,404 --> 00:56:13,984
I don't have a good feeling about it.

749
00:56:14,084 --> 00:56:16,024
I feel like maybe we fucked his kids up.

750
00:56:16,124 --> 00:56:18,744
Are you serious? How?

751
00:56:18,844 --> 00:56:20,664
Because they saw us
so out of control all the time.

752
00:56:20,764 --> 00:56:22,544
- We weren't out of control.
- Yeah, we were.

753
00:56:22,644 --> 00:56:25,932
No, we weren't. Name one time.

754
00:56:26,924 --> 00:56:28,528
Want me to name one time?

755
00:56:30,884 --> 00:56:32,864
How about that... one time?

756
00:56:32,964 --> 00:56:35,664
When you totaled his Mustang
in front of the kids.

757
00:56:35,764 --> 00:56:38,064
Now that had to be terrifying for them.

758
00:56:38,164 --> 00:56:40,144
Are you seriously trying to
make me feel bad about that?

759
00:56:40,244 --> 00:56:41,464
No. All right?

760
00:56:41,564 --> 00:56:44,773
You get the award for the
shittiest father ever, right?

761
00:56:44,884 --> 00:56:47,664
But now you can see him from a whole
new perspective, if you want to,

762
00:56:47,764 --> 00:56:50,344
from an adult perspective,
like a real adult.

763
00:56:50,444 --> 00:56:53,864
A real adult, like Roger?
That would be better?

764
00:56:53,964 --> 00:56:55,295
I didn't say it would be better.

765
00:56:55,404 --> 00:56:56,624
- Oh.
- I didn't say that.

766
00:56:56,724 --> 00:57:00,704
What did you say?
That we both started in the same place

767
00:57:00,804 --> 00:57:03,184
and I ended up here and you ended up...

768
00:57:03,284 --> 00:57:06,144
what, getting everything good?
A wife, kids, all that?

769
00:57:06,244 --> 00:57:07,664
Yeah, hell yeah.

770
00:57:07,764 --> 00:57:09,624
Yeah, I like being a father. I like it.

771
00:57:09,724 --> 00:57:12,584
Well, your dick works. That's great.

772
00:57:12,684 --> 00:57:15,784
Congratulations, man.
You're living the fucking dream.

773
00:57:15,884 --> 00:57:17,664
How about fuck you, Stephen?
How about that?

774
00:57:17,764 --> 00:57:19,664
'Cause every time
you get in some shitty little way,

775
00:57:19,764 --> 00:57:22,290
you just grab me and try to drag me
right through it, so fuck you.

776
00:57:22,444 --> 00:57:25,288
Oh, man. You know what?
You wanted to be a rock star

777
00:57:25,604 --> 00:57:28,335
and now you fucking buy Happy Meals.

778
00:57:28,444 --> 00:57:30,287
I mean, they're gonna name
mountains after you...

779
00:57:30,444 --> 00:57:34,024
fucking Mount I-Played-It-Fucking-Safe.

780
00:57:34,124 --> 00:57:36,384
Look at you.
You're exactly like your fucking father.

781
00:57:36,484 --> 00:57:39,624
Exactly like him! You're sitting here,
you're pouting and whining.

782
00:57:39,724 --> 00:57:42,184
You're fucking spinning out,
and you're destroying your own life,

783
00:57:42,284 --> 00:57:44,013
and it's everybody else's fucking fault.

784
00:57:44,204 --> 00:57:47,464
So fuck you, man, and don't come around
my family anymore either.

785
00:57:47,564 --> 00:57:48,784
I don't want you
coming around them no more.

786
00:57:48,884 --> 00:57:53,484
Oh, seriously?
I don't wanna be around your...

787
00:57:53,584 --> 00:57:55,688
...fucking family.

788
00:58:47,844 --> 00:58:52,771
The charge is knocked down to
Murder II, with chance of parole.

789
00:58:55,124 --> 00:58:56,364
If you produce a body, you have a deal.

790
00:58:56,524 --> 00:59:00,245
Murder II, no chance of parole.

791
00:59:02,244 --> 00:59:06,704
I didn't want to kill Nina, but I did.

792
00:59:06,804 --> 00:59:09,064
She was leaving me for another man.

793
00:59:09,164 --> 00:59:12,213
I was devastated, lost control.

794
00:59:18,165 --> 00:59:20,446
She said...

795
00:59:20,564 --> 00:59:22,646
she had never loved me.

796
00:59:25,564 --> 00:59:31,412
That she only married me to escape Russia.

797
00:59:31,564 --> 00:59:35,728
I took her neck in my hands...

798
00:59:38,404 --> 00:59:42,090
...and I crushed it until
I felt her throat collapse.

799
00:59:43,244 --> 00:59:45,904
That was it.

800
00:59:46,004 --> 00:59:48,184
All the anger, all the hatred.

801
00:59:48,284 --> 00:59:50,810
There was just silence.

802
00:59:55,484 --> 00:59:59,064
Lana, can I talk to you?

803
00:59:59,164 --> 01:00:01,024
Hey.

804
01:00:01,124 --> 01:00:03,604
- I'm sorry. Sorry.
- Don't touch me!

805
01:00:05,284 --> 01:00:06,968
Can I please just... Please?

806
01:00:07,084 --> 01:00:09,344
Talk to Roger
if you need someone to talk to.

807
01:00:09,444 --> 01:00:11,624
Well, he's not answering my calls either.

808
01:00:11,724 --> 01:00:14,144
Please? I feel like I'm about
to go underwater, okay?

809
01:00:14,244 --> 01:00:17,134
Can I just... please talk to you...

810
01:00:18,404 --> 01:00:20,406
Please?

811
01:00:20,604 --> 01:00:24,344
You're the only person that's made me
feel okay about myself

812
01:00:24,444 --> 01:00:27,812
in my entire adult life
and I feel like I know you.

813
01:00:28,804 --> 01:00:32,650
From the first second
I met you, I felt that.

814
01:00:37,004 --> 01:00:39,024
I know it feels that way,

815
01:00:39,124 --> 01:00:42,264
- but maybe that's not a good thing.
- Why?

816
01:00:42,364 --> 01:00:44,935
Because you're gonna
take me down with you.

817
01:00:45,044 --> 01:00:46,864
It's just who you are.

818
01:00:46,964 --> 01:00:49,490
Look, I'm fucked up, okay?

819
01:00:49,644 --> 01:00:50,824
- Come on!
- You knew that!

820
01:00:50,924 --> 01:00:52,584
Is that gonna be your excuse
for the rest of your life?

821
01:00:52,684 --> 01:00:55,584
That you're too broken not
to be completely selfish?

822
01:00:55,684 --> 01:00:56,970
Grow some fucking balls!

823
01:01:01,364 --> 01:01:05,064
At least I'm not pretending
nothing's wrong with me.

824
01:01:06,464 --> 01:01:08,704
Oh, you're pretending plenty.

825
01:01:08,804 --> 01:01:10,374
You just don't see it.

826
01:01:12,684 --> 01:01:14,824
Here's those papers you wanted.

827
01:01:14,924 --> 01:01:17,006
They're pretty enlightening.

828
01:01:31,684 --> 01:01:32,890
Fuck.

829
01:02:14,084 --> 01:02:17,264
There we go. Okay, you ready for a ride?

830
01:02:17,364 --> 01:02:18,604
Hop on my back.

831
01:02:18,724 --> 01:02:21,614
Come on, man.
See if you can stay on. You ready?

832
01:02:21,724 --> 01:02:23,744
You gotta hold on.
Put your legs around me.

833
01:02:23,844 --> 01:02:25,704
- Hold tight. Ready?
- Yeah!

834
01:02:25,804 --> 01:02:27,668
Yeah?

835
01:02:37,044 --> 01:02:39,904
You're the one who should be
in front of the camera.

836
01:02:40,004 --> 01:02:41,768
What are you doing, hiding back there?

837
01:02:43,084 --> 01:02:45,166
There she is, ladies and gentlemen,

838
01:02:45,284 --> 01:02:47,344
the most beautiful woman in the world.

839
01:02:47,444 --> 01:02:50,050
- Just like out of a fairytale.
- Aw, stop.

840
01:02:50,164 --> 01:02:51,529
Do you remember her like that?

841
01:02:53,404 --> 01:02:54,769
Not much.

842
01:02:58,764 --> 01:03:01,384
She really was the most
beautiful woman I ever saw.

843
01:03:01,484 --> 01:03:02,724
Wave to Daddy.

844
01:03:02,844 --> 01:03:06,644
I was your age then,
right before we went to Chicago,

845
01:03:06,804 --> 01:03:09,064
and when she died...

846
01:03:10,564 --> 01:03:13,693
Man, I was so confused,
I couldn't stop screaming.

847
01:03:13,804 --> 01:03:15,169
Yeah, I remember.

848
01:03:21,524 --> 01:03:23,584
You want coffee?

849
01:03:23,684 --> 01:03:26,504
- What?
- Coffee.

850
01:03:26,604 --> 01:03:28,845
No! Wh... what the fuck are you doing?

851
01:03:30,284 --> 01:03:31,864
- Just waiting.
- No.

852
01:03:31,964 --> 01:03:34,184
Dad, you broke into my house.

853
01:03:34,284 --> 01:03:35,934
What the fuck?

854
01:03:36,924 --> 01:03:40,504
Well, I wanted to give you something.

855
01:03:40,604 --> 01:03:43,494
Jesus. I can't... I can't deal
with this right now.

856
01:03:45,884 --> 01:03:48,205
I'm trying to apologize to you...

857
01:03:49,284 --> 01:03:51,304
...before it's too late.

858
01:03:51,404 --> 01:03:53,144
What does that mean?

859
01:03:53,244 --> 01:03:56,784
I had a bunch of tests done.

860
01:03:56,884 --> 01:03:58,064
I'm dying.

861
01:03:58,164 --> 01:03:59,689
Don't fucking lie to me!

862
01:03:59,844 --> 01:04:02,324
Will you just fucking listen to me?

863
01:04:02,444 --> 01:04:04,287
I'm a sick man.

864
01:04:04,404 --> 01:04:07,104
I wanted to come see you,
make amends with my son.

865
01:04:07,204 --> 01:04:08,624
- Amends?
- Yeah.

866
01:04:08,724 --> 01:04:10,135
What amends are you making?

867
01:04:12,144 --> 01:04:15,014
You're such a martyr.
God, you always have been.

868
01:04:15,514 --> 01:04:18,064
What kid is like that?
Think the world owes you something.

869
01:04:18,164 --> 01:04:21,064
- Look, Dad, I'm exhausted.
- You're exhausted?

870
01:04:21,164 --> 01:04:23,024
A lot of people look at your life
and think it would be pretty good.

871
01:04:23,124 --> 01:04:25,264
You know? The New York Times
reviews, pretty girls,

872
01:04:25,364 --> 01:04:27,344
everybody kissing your ass
to be around a hot shit writer.

873
01:04:27,444 --> 01:04:29,464
Well, I can kiss all that good-bye
'cause everything good in my life

874
01:04:29,564 --> 01:04:31,944
just disappeared as soon as you showed up!

875
01:04:32,044 --> 01:04:34,524
You wanna blame me? That's easy.

876
01:04:34,644 --> 01:04:36,904
And what are all the good things
in your life that fell apart?

877
01:04:37,004 --> 01:04:38,224
What do they all have in common?

878
01:04:38,324 --> 01:04:39,824
- Here we go!
- Yeah, you!

879
01:04:39,924 --> 01:04:41,864
I mean, you're a fucking curse.

880
01:04:41,964 --> 01:04:43,184
You're poison.

881
01:04:43,284 --> 01:04:45,491
You know, everything you touch,
you fuck up.

882
01:04:47,364 --> 01:04:49,605
Just get out of my house!

883
01:04:51,924 --> 01:04:53,414
All right.

884
01:04:56,244 --> 01:04:59,224
- Look, I made this for you.
- Get out!

885
01:04:59,324 --> 01:05:01,850
- Just promise me that you'll look at it.
- Get out!

886
01:05:01,964 --> 01:05:03,904
- You just need to see for yourself.
- Get out of my house!

887
01:05:04,004 --> 01:05:06,424
I will get out of your house, but you
just see for yourself, all right?

888
01:05:06,524 --> 01:05:09,334
- You have to hear me out.
- I don't fucking have to look at it!

889
01:05:09,924 --> 01:05:11,574
You fucking hit your father.

890
01:05:14,924 --> 01:05:18,024
- What, you wanna fight me, boy?
- I won't fucking fight an old man!

891
01:05:18,124 --> 01:05:20,365
Who the fuck do you think
you're talking to? I'll ruin you!

892
01:05:21,684 --> 01:05:24,767
Come on. Huh? Come on! Fucking pussy.

893
01:05:24,924 --> 01:05:26,704
Huh? You fucking faggot!

894
01:05:26,804 --> 01:05:30,934
Huh? You waste of a life! Come on, hit me!

895
01:05:31,124 --> 01:05:33,624
You wanna kill me so bad,
hit me! Come on! Hit me!

896
01:05:33,724 --> 01:05:35,424
I deserve it! Come on! Hit me, hit me!

897
01:05:35,524 --> 01:05:38,655
Hit me! Hit me! Come on! Hit me!

898
01:05:41,644 --> 01:05:42,930
Oh, fuck!

899
01:05:45,964 --> 01:05:47,624
- Fuck you!
- Call 911.

900
01:05:47,724 --> 01:05:50,184
Oh, fuck you! I'm not fucking buying it!

901
01:05:56,364 --> 01:05:58,128
Ah, Stephen!

902
01:06:04,804 --> 01:06:06,904
All right, all right,
all right, all right....

903
01:06:07,004 --> 01:06:11,805
I'm a terrible father.
I'm a terrible father...

904
01:06:11,964 --> 01:06:13,625
Okay...

905
01:07:51,484 --> 01:07:53,624
Hi, Stephen.

906
01:07:53,724 --> 01:07:56,104
I... I don't know
if I'm ever gonna, you know,

907
01:07:56,204 --> 01:08:01,184
get a chance to see you again,
and even if I do,

908
01:08:01,284 --> 01:08:05,704
we were never so good
at communicating, so...

909
01:08:05,804 --> 01:08:08,024
Well, there are some things
I wanna tell you, so...

910
01:08:08,124 --> 01:08:10,144
that's why I'm doing this.

911
01:08:10,244 --> 01:08:11,624
You know, that story you tell

912
01:08:11,724 --> 01:08:16,584
about the time I shaved your head
and I restrained you,

913
01:08:16,684 --> 01:08:19,927
was actually two different times.

914
01:08:20,084 --> 01:08:25,304
The first time,
you were squatting at the house.

915
01:08:25,404 --> 01:08:28,664
It had been empty for a year,

916
01:08:28,764 --> 01:08:32,974
and I needed that money so badly.

917
01:08:33,124 --> 01:08:34,904
I finally found a buyer,

918
01:08:35,004 --> 01:08:40,064
and I had to show the house once more
before the deal closed.

919
01:08:40,164 --> 01:08:44,424
I got there, and you trashed the place.

920
01:08:44,524 --> 01:08:47,448
Thousands of dollars in damage,

921
01:08:47,564 --> 01:08:52,664
and I was so angry that
I hit you and I cut your hair.

922
01:08:52,764 --> 01:08:57,464
You know, afterwards you were
crying in the bathtub.

923
01:08:57,564 --> 01:08:59,407
It was really horrible.

924
01:09:05,284 --> 01:09:07,286
The second time...

925
01:09:09,644 --> 01:09:13,384
...I did it to try to stop you
from killing yourself.

926
01:09:13,484 --> 01:09:15,904
You were living on the street

927
01:09:16,004 --> 01:09:18,304
and I came upon you
sitting outside the arcade,

928
01:09:18,404 --> 01:09:20,904
and I asked you what was up, you know,
what your plans were,

929
01:09:21,004 --> 01:09:23,405
and you said, "Well, I guess,
I'll just commit suicide."

930
01:09:27,044 --> 01:09:28,744
I had to go to work,

931
01:09:28,844 --> 01:09:31,224
and I didn't know what the hell to do.

932
01:09:31,324 --> 01:09:34,453
I took you back to the empty house
and then you really got out of control.

933
01:09:36,044 --> 01:09:38,344
You know, you were trying
to cut your wrists open,

934
01:09:38,444 --> 01:09:41,664
so I... I handcuffed you
to this radiator pipe

935
01:09:41,764 --> 01:09:44,664
while I tried to, you know,
reach my own decision

936
01:09:44,764 --> 01:09:49,452
whether to call the cops
or if that would put you in jail.

937
01:09:51,604 --> 01:09:56,504
30 minutes later, I came back to check
on you and you were hanging there,

938
01:09:56,604 --> 01:10:00,344
passed out in a puddle of blood
at your feet,

939
01:10:00,444 --> 01:10:01,784
and I thought you were dead.

940
01:10:01,884 --> 01:10:05,934
It was like a bolt of lightning
hit my heart.

941
01:10:07,804 --> 01:10:13,811
I just couldn't bear the thought
of living knowing what I'd done to you.

942
01:10:17,084 --> 01:10:23,046
Part of me... I don't think
ever came back from that moment.

943
01:10:23,204 --> 01:10:26,944
I took the handcuffs off you and I said,

944
01:10:27,044 --> 01:10:29,411
"You do whatever you wanna do, son."

945
01:10:31,324 --> 01:10:33,930
You didn't want anything to do with me.

946
01:10:34,044 --> 01:10:35,534
I can't blame you for that.

947
01:10:38,244 --> 01:10:42,135
I keep trying to apologize to you,

948
01:10:42,244 --> 01:10:44,645
but it all goes wrong.

949
01:10:45,764 --> 01:10:50,770
Maybe there just isn't a way to make
amends for something like this.

950
01:10:52,564 --> 01:10:56,984
And not that it matters,
but honestly, I...

951
01:10:57,084 --> 01:10:59,451
I only ever tried to do right by you.

952
01:11:04,564 --> 01:11:08,125
I'm a broken man,

953
01:11:08,284 --> 01:11:10,624
and I just...

954
01:11:10,724 --> 01:11:12,726
I hope you won't be like me.

955
01:11:26,254 --> 01:11:27,858
Fuck.

956
01:11:44,164 --> 01:11:45,784
Could you ask me some questions?

957
01:11:45,884 --> 01:11:48,967
I'm not good at making speeches.

958
01:11:50,324 --> 01:11:53,168
Did you think you had
a chance at a better verdict?

959
01:11:53,324 --> 01:11:56,384
Look, I knew I wasn't
gonna get away with it.

960
01:11:56,484 --> 01:11:59,544
I mean, I looked guilty,

961
01:11:59,644 --> 01:12:01,944
I am guilty,

962
01:12:02,044 --> 01:12:07,847
but a father does what he has to do
in order to protect his children.

963
01:12:09,524 --> 01:12:11,824
Okay. Um...

964
01:12:11,924 --> 01:12:13,944
If you knew that you weren't
going for innocence,

965
01:12:14,044 --> 01:12:17,584
then why didn't you just plead guilty
in the beginning and get a deal?

966
01:12:17,684 --> 01:12:20,504
I mean, I heard DuBois
made a deal for seven years

967
01:12:20,604 --> 01:12:22,174
because the DA didn't wanna go to court.

968
01:12:22,324 --> 01:12:23,744
But who would've cared?

969
01:12:23,844 --> 01:12:26,344
I had the most publicized trial in years.

970
01:12:26,444 --> 01:12:30,464
Would you be interested in following the
story of a murderer who took a plea bargain?

971
01:12:30,564 --> 01:12:33,215
But I thought you said
you did it for your children.

972
01:12:33,364 --> 01:12:35,824
I did. Everything I've ever done
was for them.

973
01:12:35,924 --> 01:12:39,895
But you insured that
you would never see them again.

974
01:12:40,004 --> 01:12:41,972
I mean, they're not gonna have a father.
I don't...

975
01:12:43,204 --> 01:12:45,252
I don't know.
I don't know what to tell you.

976
01:12:45,364 --> 01:12:47,824
Validation is a hell of a drug.

977
01:12:50,444 --> 01:12:52,367
What? What's funny?

978
01:12:59,004 --> 01:13:01,405
Just the truth's a motherfucker.

979
01:13:05,724 --> 01:13:08,614
Thanks. I'll see you.

980
01:16:13,564 --> 01:16:15,504
So you wrote all that in two days?

981
01:16:15,604 --> 01:16:18,335
Yeah, I mean, I put it
down on paper in two days, but...

982
01:16:19,324 --> 01:16:21,504
I mean, this is the book that I've...
I've been wanting to write.

983
01:16:21,604 --> 01:16:25,290
I just didn't know that until...
until now.

984
01:16:27,804 --> 01:16:29,904
So let's find you a publisher.

985
01:16:30,004 --> 01:16:33,292
It's not going to be Penguin, but...

986
01:16:33,404 --> 01:16:36,374
I've got a friend at Grey Wolf
I think would be into this idea.

987
01:16:36,684 --> 01:16:41,815
It won't be a big advance,
but something to get us back on track.

988
01:16:43,044 --> 01:16:44,375
Us?

989
01:16:45,884 --> 01:16:47,613
Us.

990
01:16:57,644 --> 01:16:58,930
Hey.

991
01:17:02,204 --> 01:17:03,615
Brought you some coffee.

992
01:17:13,324 --> 01:17:15,292
I'm in no mood, Elliott.

993
01:17:15,404 --> 01:17:17,184
That was your decaf.

994
01:17:17,284 --> 01:17:19,764
You can have my coffee, if you want.

995
01:17:24,924 --> 01:17:27,264
I also brought you some blueberries.

996
01:17:27,364 --> 01:17:30,891
So many gifts and so few actual apologies.

997
01:17:31,004 --> 01:17:32,290
I don't know where to start.

998
01:17:34,204 --> 01:17:35,729
Start with the hydrangeas.

999
01:17:44,364 --> 01:17:46,264
And for the record... no.

1000
01:17:46,364 --> 01:17:49,095
It's not my life's plan
to be watering these things...

1001
01:17:51,084 --> 01:17:54,327
feed them bone meal so they stay blue.

1002
01:17:54,444 --> 01:17:55,855
She loves it, so...

1003
01:17:57,684 --> 01:18:00,904
I'd be doing this if I had the chance.

1004
01:18:01,004 --> 01:18:02,733
I'd be doing all of this.

1005
01:18:07,164 --> 01:18:08,689
Sorry, Roger.

1006
01:18:09,924 --> 01:18:13,184
I'm a pretty shitty person.

1007
01:18:13,284 --> 01:18:14,888
No, you're not.

1008
01:18:15,964 --> 01:18:17,204
But you're my family.

1009
01:18:20,084 --> 01:18:24,224
You... you knew me when I was
the messiest kid out of all of us.

1010
01:18:24,324 --> 01:18:27,864
You never gave me any grief
about that, not once.

1011
01:18:27,964 --> 01:18:30,888
You kept showing up for me, so...

1012
01:18:33,284 --> 01:18:36,891
I'm not gonna walk away
from this over a few words.

1013
01:18:42,004 --> 01:18:43,494
You wanna go for a ride?

1014
01:18:45,924 --> 01:18:47,335
You're all wet.

1015
01:18:50,124 --> 01:18:52,525
Yeah. We can even that up.

1016
01:18:54,724 --> 01:18:57,384
- Bitch. Bitch.
- Sorry, it just slipped.

1017
01:18:57,484 --> 01:18:58,904
- Oh, that slipped?
- Yeah.

1018
01:18:59,004 --> 01:19:00,768
Motherfucker! What are you doing, dude?

1019
01:19:00,884 --> 01:19:02,568
Don't, don't, don't, don't!

1020
01:19:02,884 --> 01:19:04,464
Nina's mother Christina says

1021
01:19:04,564 --> 01:19:07,224
she is relieved the children may come
to some sense of closure...

1022
01:19:07,324 --> 01:19:10,224
- What time is it?
- ...and move forward with their lives.

1023
01:19:10,324 --> 01:19:13,184
We have about an hour.
Your flight's at 6:00.

1024
01:19:13,284 --> 01:19:16,504
We should pull the rental car around.

1025
01:19:16,604 --> 01:19:17,864
I already did.

1026
01:19:17,964 --> 01:19:20,704
- You know you're not driving.
- Oh, great!

1027
01:19:20,804 --> 01:19:22,464
You can kill us both.

1028
01:19:25,964 --> 01:19:28,264
You remember when you taught me to drive?

1029
01:19:28,364 --> 01:19:31,104
I was 14.

1030
01:19:31,204 --> 01:19:34,765
You let me drive out to Warren Park
in the '69 Mustang.

1031
01:19:36,604 --> 01:19:38,984
I loved that car.

1032
01:19:39,084 --> 01:19:42,024
You used to take me out, let me drive.

1033
01:19:42,124 --> 01:19:45,864
I remember feeling so happy and free,

1034
01:19:45,964 --> 01:19:49,184
full of hope and potential.

1035
01:19:49,284 --> 01:19:53,424
I don't know why you always told people
I taught you to drive in the Mustang.

1036
01:19:53,524 --> 01:19:58,784
It was a red 1968
Oldsmobile Delmont convertible,

1037
01:19:58,884 --> 01:20:02,024
in Warren Park, in the parking lot.

1038
01:20:02,124 --> 01:20:06,424
You were belligerent
and you were a terrible driver.

1039
01:20:06,524 --> 01:20:07,935
So we only did it once.

1040
01:20:10,484 --> 01:20:12,424
Wanna go for a drive?
I don't wanna sit here for an hour.

1041
01:20:12,524 --> 01:20:14,264
Nah, we'd just argue.

1042
01:20:14,364 --> 01:20:15,864
Fine. Then we'll just go.

1043
01:20:15,964 --> 01:20:18,784
We'll agree not to talk.
It doesn't matter.

1044
01:20:18,884 --> 01:20:20,224
None of it matters.

1045
01:20:20,324 --> 01:20:24,424
All right. You gotta help me up here.

1046
01:20:24,524 --> 01:20:26,367
Help your old dad get up.