On Tue, Jun 17, 2014, 20:30 Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
I think he is, he's decently fit at least, more than me. I'm fat and ugly and all those things you say, so how can I have more of a chance than him?


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:29 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
that's not saying much... zhongs not physically fit


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:27 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
he does better than me on the fitness exams


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:26 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
zhong's physically fit?


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:19 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
Do you think I have a chance


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:19 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
He's physically fit and stuff, but he doesn't even know her and he doesn't exactly look attractive


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:13 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
do u think zhong has a chance


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:04 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
I want to get into shape for myself (and maybe her too) but I also want to be smart for myself (and definitely her)


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:03 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
I'm serious I've gotten stupider and that's another thing that's scaring me


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:02 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
hahaha XD


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:01 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
HAHAHA funny thing is, same thing happened except I'm stupider


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 8:00 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
not trying to be arrogant or whatever or whatever... but i've changed more than you :P
more confidence, i've lost a ton of weight, i'm decently popular with girls, i'm smarter, i work harder, i show emotion, it's crazy. i dont know who i've become but i like it


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:58 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
Exactly. My old self wouldn't believe who I became


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:53 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
if i talked to myself last year right now, myself last year would ask "who are you?" and then i would be like "I'm you..."


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:52 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
It's so funny, if I talked to myself last year right now, myself last year would tell me to stop completely and go back and seclude yourself and study and crap. I feel like I'm free now.


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:50 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
haha i abandoned my inner asian


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:49 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
My inner Asian unfortunately lives on. It's time for love to kill it


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:48 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
you gotta get over it :P


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:25 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
It's weird...I find it hard complimenting her looks. I think she's pretty/cute it's just so awkward for me and I feel like she wouldn't react well to it


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:25 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
Haha how do you do that?


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:23 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
i flirt too tho


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:23 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
yeah are you kidding me?


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:22 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
Do you do that to Shae?


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:22 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
http://www.wikihow.com/Show-a-Girl-You-Love-Her
method 2



On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:21 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
no, like treat her different, not just physically. dont talk to her like shes a friend, talk to her likeshes someone special



On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:19 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
Wow such advice. Just stand closer to her? Jaime sat next to me and like pressed herself to me, so like that? I'm pretty sure it was friendly before you ask


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:16 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
just get closer to her, treat her differently... that's about it


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:15 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
then check!


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:15 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
I don't know if she even feels anything more than friendship between us


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:15 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
Okay how do I in the first place


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:14 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
it doesn't matter


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:14 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
why not?


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:14 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
I won't but how do I show her I like her when she's always with her friends? I don't want to show them i like her


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:10 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
can i give you a piece of advice? show kara you like her... i fear you're getting friendzoned... but it's hard to say with asian girls


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:07 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
wat do u mean


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:06 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
Yeah I guess, how do you think she acted in SS today?


On Tue, Jun 17, 2014 at 7:05 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
k good ! :D


On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 9:54 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
That's good, right? I guess things with Kara are definitely going better than I thought they would. We're getting closer which is awesome. I just hope I can keep that going over the summer


On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 9:44 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
idk... i know tyler is being friendzoned



On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 9:44 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
its pretty damn good?


On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 9:13 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
How is your situation with Shae as of now?



On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:46 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
yah....


On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:43 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote:
She doesn't like someone right now but she's super secretive so I wouldn't be surprised if she was hiding it


On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:36 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote:
don't have to tell me who it is, just yes or no

On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:35 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: who does daisy like.. do you know?
 On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:34 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: yes jsut the duet
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:34 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: janani
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:32 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: WOOT GO US! We're so good at lying/diverting attention. Also who do you think is ugly? Also answer the question! Just the duet?
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:30 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: we're in the clear. good job!
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:30 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: pointing towards janani, or sidra, no offense to them
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:29 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: ok im saying that i remember being taken back... like i think shes sort of ugly? im not sure
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:27 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: like that it was an indian kid.... hahaha im so good
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:27 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: oh okan indian kid. i told yaniv that i forgot
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:26 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: daisy?
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:26 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: I was talking about Daisy actually
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:25 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: Eh for me you've been like "I'm not friends with you I just know you" to "wow i know you and you know me really well now" over the course of like a few months
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:24 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: like me? o.0
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:24 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: what the fuck. im so good at lying
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:22 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: what you don't know cant hurt you. yaniv and zhong are both battering me
 On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:22 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: duet yesssit will be soo much
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:22 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: Yeah I'm trying
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:21 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: don't tell him that i know... hold it off
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:20 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: hes freaking out over some silly thing
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:20 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: Why is Zhong telling me all this then
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:20 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: i didn't say anything to zhong about that
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:19 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: yaniv knows too
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:19 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: He said you knew who he liked or that you said that she was the same race as me
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:18 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: what did i say? i didn't say anything about anything? On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:17 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: what did i tell him?

On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:16 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: It's a learning experience for him why would you tell him that
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:15 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: No let him do what he wants you stupid
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:15 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: no?
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:15 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: the only way to prove her wrong is too wait for the final byproduct
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:09 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: I'm weak everywhere Kanming. I can't. I'm patient with everyone to a certain degree but I absolutely can't keep my temper from her. She always says I'll become a garbage man, and at a certain point I'm probably going to accept that. Right now I'm trying to prove her wrong. I can't though. These stupid grades don't prove jack shit
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:07 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: if you let her mentally degrade you, then you'll become empty - sometimes, you just gotta shut it out to avoid letting her words fill you
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:03 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: then listen to naughty boy - la la la
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 8:01 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: This is exactly what I want to tell my mom, but she doesn't listen. Her perspective is that I'll become one of those people if I get bad grades. You don't understand how mentally degrading she is
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 7:59 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: except for you don't need what you want... so stop complaining. open your eyes. ok? there are people out there dying, eating wild plants, washing their hair in the stream, shampooing with mud, crying for their parents, both of them dead or gone. and all you care about is a grade/
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 7:54 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: ok? if this is about other people, then shut the fuck up. because it shouldn't be. you got an a, which is good. you shouldn't expect too much - it's dumb mistakes. its like losing something, like your glasses. everyone does it. its just when. you have no say
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 7:53 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: dude take the fucking a
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 7:52 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: That's what makes me feel so much worse. I know I can do better, I don't want to sound arrogant but I know I can. I did worse than Daisy and Kara and that's awesome for them but I know I can do so much better. I hate how Daisy can say she's smarter than me because of some dumbass test in 8th grade. Just to prove to you I can do this math, in RSM (which actually isn't that much harder, but still is harder) I literally got a 140/100. No matter what I do, I make stupid mistakes that don't represent my strengths in school math. I've studied, I've not studied I've gone in with a different mindset but no matter what I freaking do I always make stupid mistakes. I practice the easy stuff over and over again, it doesn't help and it's not satisfying. There's nothing I can do to stop them.
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 7:42 PM, Kanming Xu <kanmingxu@gmail.com> wrote: how is that bad? maybe the mistakes were just careless, you can't blame yourself for that... and the schools tests are so easy, they aren't a realistic representation of what level you are in math, just how many errors you don't make.
On Mon, Jun 16, 2014 at 6:50 PM, Muntasir Shahabuddin <muntasirms@gmail.com> wrote: I know I'm going to sound like a stupid freaking asian but I did bad on the final i got a 96 and i've gotten worse but i've never felt more of a need to physically and mentally beat the crap out of myself