Carmen and Orea talk about Maddox and Romance

* bucolicBunyan [BB] sprouted a connection to twilightRanger [TR]
<bucolicBunyan> Yo!!!
<twilightRanger> Heya:!
<bucolicBunyan> Sup???? :DDD
<twilightRanger> I'm actually so happy right now :!
<twilightRanger> I found my journal :!
<bucolicBunyan> Awesome!!!!! :DDDD
<twilightRanger> Well... Not mine :?
<bucolicBunyan> ???
<twilightRanger> Like it's mine but not MINE :?
<bucolicBunyan> P sure that doesnt make any sense!!!
<twilightRanger> It's like... Future past me's :?
<twilightRanger> In the future I have this journal OK:?
<bucolicBunyan> P sure that doesnt make any fuckin sense either!!!! :OOO
<bucolicBunyan> My head already hurts :////
<twilightRanger> And at some point the whispers on my land allowed me to send it back in time while like encrypting it:?
<twilightRanger> So a doctor in a village in my land has this book:!
<twilightRanger> And I tried to read it, saw it was blank, and so tried harder, and found that I can see slithers of entries :!
<twilightRanger> But they are of things that have not yet happened :!
<twilightRanger> And they are my entries :!
<twilightRanger> So I can like... Use the journal to see what will happen in the future if I concentrate enough :!
<twilightRanger> Now how fucking cool is that :!
<bucolicBunyan> That sounds p baller!!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Still maXe no sense but whatevs!!!
<twilightRanger> Hehe, I'll let you read through it if we meet up :!
<bucolicBunyan> :OOOO
<bucolicBunyan> I have a diary but I would never let anyone read it!!!
<twilightRanger> You probably won't be able to read any future stuff, but you can at least see what u write :!
<bucolicBunyan> Its like soooooo secret
<bucolicBunyan> and probably embarressing......
<twilightRanger> Hehe you can tell me:!
<bucolicBunyan> :OOOOO
<bucolicBunyan> P sure I cant!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Its like
<twilightRanger> I know we haven't really talked much but well... From what I know there are only 9 living humans or trolls :!
<bucolicBunyan> dont say that!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Well figure something out bout that!!!! :OOO
<bucolicBunyan> Those creeps said we could repopulate shit n they had a plan for stuff....
<twilightRanger> Wait you mean...
<bucolicBunyan> I really really really wanna not have this be all thats left so its not gonna be!!!
<twilightRanger> Eww...
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah they p much sounded creepy as all FUCK
<twilightRanger> That's REALLY creepy :!
<bucolicBunyan> But whatevs at least they know some shit I guess
<bucolicBunyan> Idc theyve stopped giving me shit for no reason so im happy!!!
<twilightRanger> Is that good :?
<twilightRanger> Idk :!
<twilightRanger> But yeah we can be best friends :!
<twilightRanger> Actually do you wanna join the team :?
<twilightRanger> Team... Ehr... :?
<twilightRanger> I don't have a name :p
<bucolicBunyan> Team???
<twilightRanger> But Maddox, ember and myself are in it so far :!
<bucolicBunyan> Arent we supposed to be like... all on a team or somethin???
<twilightRanger> It's the team where we agree to be friends and stick together to win whatever this game is :!
<bucolicBunyan> That SO dude said we all had to work together or some shit
<twilightRanger> But like, not just in tiny groups :!
<twilightRanger> I wanna try to find EVERYONE alive :!
<twilightRanger> Unfortunately I only have like... 5 contacts left :?
<bucolicBunyan> Didnt we like already do that with that memo shit????
<twilightRanger> And I believe that 3 of them are dead at least :!
<bucolicBunyan> P sure I know all the peeps doin this shit with us
<twilightRanger> So there are only 9 of us :/
<twilightRanger> Well the memo stuff was good yeah :!
<twilightRanger> But how many people do you know who are playing :?
<twilightRanger> Have you even heard of mirkan or Frederick :?
<twilightRanger> And even if you have you probably aren't friends with them or anything :?
<bucolicBunyan> Yup!!!! :DDDD
<twilightRanger> I wanna fix that :!
<bucolicBunyan> I p much know all the peeps!!!
<twilightRanger> We should all be friends :!
<twilightRanger> Oh that makes this easier then :!
<bucolicBunyan> Lemme fuckin count this geez this is hard
<bucolicBunyan> I think
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah 9
<bucolicBunyan> I know all 9 of us
<twilightRanger> :/
<bucolicBunyan> the peeps that were in the memo
<twilightRanger> Ok well we got that I guess :?
<twilightRanger> So yeah...
<bucolicBunyan> I've known Ember for FOREVER but he keeps forgettin shit...
<twilightRanger> Can we be "best friends" as the humans say :?
<bucolicBunyan> Ive known MaddoX for p much a reeeeeeally long time too!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Hes great
<bucolicBunyan> Adrian is a fuckin douche
<bucolicBunyan> Stay away from him
<twilightRanger> :/
<bucolicBunyan> He lived near me n he harassed me so much!!!!! :((((
<twilightRanger> What's wrong with him :?
<bucolicBunyan> Hes all violent n selfish n paranoid n shit!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> I did some lookin around at shit before all this stuff
<bucolicBunyan> He was one of the peeps that killed my mom!!!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> He wasnt even really sorry bout it!!!
<twilightRanger> So you really hate him then :?
<twilightRanger> Do you wanna like... Beat him:?
<bucolicBunyan> I mean hes kinda cool and understanding sometimes.....
<bucolicBunyan> But hes p much just an asshole so I want him to go away
<twilightRanger> Dawwww
<bucolicBunyan> I only gave him this game cuz I didnt wanna be a murderer like him!!!! :(((((
<twilightRanger> Do you hate-hate him:?
<bucolicBunyan> ???
<bucolicBunyan> Whats that sposed to mean?
<twilightRanger> Oh my god you do don't you :!
<bucolicBunyan> I dont like him
<twilightRanger> Hehehe
<twilightRanger> You totally have a hate crush ;p
<bucolicBunyan> Whys that funny?!?!?!?!
<bucolicBunyan> He fuckin murdered my mom!!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> WHOOOOAA
<bucolicBunyan> FUCK NO
<twilightRanger> Yeah:!
<bucolicBunyan> I DONT CRUSH ON ADRIAN
<twilightRanger> I bet that makes you really angry about him :?
<bucolicBunyan> THATS WAAAAAAAY NEVER GONNA HAPPEN
<twilightRanger> Hehe
<bucolicBunyan> He tried to lay some moves on me a LOOOOOOONG time ago
* twilightRanger giggles uncontrollably
<bucolicBunyan> He was embaressingly horrible and awkward and creepy
<bucolicBunyan> He just wants in my pants or somethin so he doesnt feel like a failure anymore
<bucolicBunyan> But I dont give a flyin FUCK bout him
* twilightRanger can't stop and won't stop giggling
<twilightRanger> SURE YOU DON'T XD
<bucolicBunyan> WHY THE FUCK DO U KEEP SAYING SHIT LIKE THAT????
<bucolicBunyan> STOP!!!!!
<twilightRanger> It sounds like he hates you too XD
<bucolicBunyan> ITS NOT FUNNY!!!!
<twilightRanger> It's cute though :3
<bucolicBunyan> i dont wanna talk about this anymore ur makin me upset
<twilightRanger> Why do you dislike kismissetude though :?
<bucolicBunyan> i was all happy here on my buffalo
<bucolicBunyan> n now ur ruinin it all
<bucolicBunyan> im thinkin bout my mom now
<twilightRanger> Aww i'm sorry :(
<twilightRanger> :(
<twilightRanger> Sorry I guess that was rude of me...
<bucolicBunyan> yeah it p much was
<twilightRanger> Can you forgive me :?
<bucolicBunyan> Whoa
<bucolicBunyan> Uh
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah I guess
<bucolicBunyan> Sure
<twilightRanger> I didn't realise you dislike hate romance so much...
<bucolicBunyan> Im not used to people pologizin like that
<twilightRanger> But I guess it's not for everyone :?
<bucolicBunyan> Romance?
<bucolicBunyan> No romance s cool
<bucolicBunyan> I guess
<twilightRanger> Don't tell me I have to explain this to YOU too:?
<bucolicBunyan> Dont see what thats gotta do with tormenting bout my moms murderer tho....
<bucolicBunyan> Xplain what????
<twilightRanger> Ugh how do you not know :? You are alternian :!
<bucolicBunyan> I dont wanna talk about Adrian it just maXe me sad
<bucolicBunyan> Know bout what????
<bucolicBunyan> Ur bein so confusing!!!
<twilightRanger> I've just explained our romantic capabilities to Maddox and touched on it a bit with ember :!
<bucolicBunyan> U Xplained ur romance to MaddoX?
<bucolicBunyan> oh
<twilightRanger> Yeah like... The 4 quadrants :?
<twilightRanger> Does that ring a bell :?
<bucolicBunyan> nopes
<twilightRanger> Huh...
<twilightRanger> Do you not remember anything about alternia :?
<bucolicBunyan> nopes
<twilightRanger> Wow... :/
<bucolicBunyan> Sometimes I like to think some of my dreams are like Alternia or some shit
<twilightRanger> Ok so... Maybe I can let you see how much better we can be than humans :p
<bucolicBunyan> But Im p sure Im just bein bogus bout stuff again
<twilightRanger> So.. Firstly we are basically the female gender for us is just as strong and fit as males :!
<twilightRanger> So go girl power :p
<bucolicBunyan> Duh
<bucolicBunyan> ;PPPP
<twilightRanger> Secondly.. Ugh... Actually you dont need sex Ed today :!
<twilightRanger> Thirdly we are much better at romance :p
<twilightRanger> So humans can only love someone correct :?
<twilightRanger> That's the only kind of romance they have really :/
<twilightRanger> That have friends, families, and lovers :!
<twilightRanger> Well... We alternians have 4 :!
<bucolicBunyan> ????
<twilightRanger> Ok OK, so.. :/
<bucolicBunyan> P sure ur in the whole not makin any fuckin sense part again
<bucolicBunyan> I can love peeps or I can not love them
<twilightRanger> Have you had much contact with many types of people :?
<twilightRanger> Like, enough to have feelings about them :?
<bucolicBunyan> LOOOOOOL
<twilightRanger> :?
<bucolicBunyan> U think anyone I know aXually wants to have anythin to do with me??????
<twilightRanger> Well, yeah probably :!
<bucolicBunyan> Everyone I know IRL is p much a HUGE dickface
<twilightRanger> That just makes this easier :!
<bucolicBunyan> Only chat peeps like MaddoX, Ember, n u are cool
<twilightRanger> I guess you were never told about your feelings...
<bucolicBunyan> I never even thought romantic shit bout any of those IRL peeps!!!
<bucolicBunyan> They didnt deserve any of that
<twilightRanger> But did you ever like, sometimes look at one of those guys, and like, feel like you wanted to kiss them for no reason, or maybe like, show how much better you are then them:?
<bucolicBunyan> Any of the IRL guys?????
<bucolicBunyan> Fuck no
<twilightRanger> Really :?
<bucolicBunyan> I just wanted to cry or punch them in the face!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Sometimes I did both!!!!! :OOOO
<twilightRanger> Ehr well maybe that was close :?
<bucolicBunyan> I got kicked out of school one day for punching a guy in the face too hard!!!!
<twilightRanger> Are you sure literally NEVER :?
<bucolicBunyan> It was great :)))))
<twilightRanger> YES :!
<bucolicBunyan> Why the FUCK would I ever wanna kiss someone I hated????
<twilightRanger> you really loved hitting him though :?
<bucolicBunyan> Punchin thems great but KISS????
<twilightRanger> Did it feel great :?
<twilightRanger> No ignore kissing for now :!
<twilightRanger> But you just loved showing them who was boss :!
<twilightRanger> Right :?
<bucolicBunyan> Kinda?
<bucolicBunyan> I didnt really show them whos boss
<twilightRanger> Well... Even still :!
<bucolicBunyan> Mostly just felt shitty bout everythin
<twilightRanger> It was great to beat them :!
<twilightRanger> Hmm :/
<twilightRanger> Ok well... Maybe one day you will realise how much you can feel :!
<twilightRanger> So I'll just explain it human style OK :?
<bucolicBunyan> :////
<twilightRanger> So... Imagine 4 suits :!
<bucolicBunyan> What kinds?
<twilightRanger> Hearts, diamonds, spades and clubs :!
<bucolicBunyan> Like tuXs or some shit?
<bucolicBunyan> OH
<twilightRanger> Hearts is easy :!
<bucolicBunyan> Fuck card suits lol
<twilightRanger> That's just... Makeout, etc. You love them, wanna be with them and like... Be together forever kinda stuff :!
<bucolicBunyan> So p much romance
<twilightRanger> There is diamonds which is also kinda easy...
<twilightRanger> So it's like... Best friend, tell them everything, kiss and make up :!
<bucolicBunyan> Whats the diff???
<bucolicBunyan> Theyre p much both u like them n u kiss n shit!!!!
<twilightRanger> Well.. Hearts is like, you want to love them :!
<twilightRanger> Diamonds is just they are really nice to have around :?
<twilightRanger> Idk that's not quite right :p
<twilightRanger> Diamonds is more like how humans say "best friend love" :p
<twilightRanger> You want to be with them because they can make you giggle etc :!
<twilightRanger> Hearts you want to be with them just because you love them :!
<bucolicBunyan> So diamond shit is p much just friends with benefits or somethin?
<twilightRanger> Kinda :!
<bucolicBunyan> Weird
<twilightRanger> Ok so the harder stuff...
<twilightRanger> Spades...
<twilightRanger> So... Ehr.. Without using Adrian as an example...
<bucolicBunyan> Pls dont talk bout him
<twilightRanger> Spades is like... A competition :?
<twilightRanger> Kinda :?
<twilightRanger> You are kinda, rivals with someone :!
<twilightRanger> Kinda like an arch nemesis :!
<bucolicBunyan> Im just gonna like close this convo shit n go back to huggin my bffsy buffalo Myke here if u talk bout Adrian k?
<twilightRanger> You will fight then and challenge them and make them work for you :!
<twilightRanger> You will also feel the need to beat them and be better :!
<twilightRanger> And like, well...
<twilightRanger> You care about them :!
<twilightRanger> You care about being better :!
<twilightRanger> You don't ever want them to feel equal to you etc :!
<bucolicBunyan> How is that romance?????
<bucolicBunyan> That sounds p much just like shittin on someone!!!!
<twilightRanger> You fucking love it though :!
<twilightRanger> How is loving someone romance :?
<twilightRanger> This is the same... But hating :!
<twilightRanger> C'mon you must feel it :!
<twilightRanger> You are alternian and you have had so many of those IRL people :!
<twilightRanger> You must have hated at least one of them :!
<twilightRanger> Idk :/
<twilightRanger> Shall I move on to clubs :?
<twilightRanger> Or do you want to stay on spades :?
<bucolicBunyan> Idt I really get the whole spade shit....
<bucolicBunyan> It p much sounds like ur saying its hatin peeps
<bucolicBunyan> But then just stickin the word romance in it!!!
<twilightRanger> Well it's not just hating :!
<twilightRanger> It's detesting :! Wanting to be better :! Wanting to beat them :!
<twilightRanger> It's that feeling you get when you smack them in the face and feel the pleasure of victory :!
<twilightRanger> I think humans might even be able to feel it a little bit :! But it's an actual thing for us alternians :!
<bucolicBunyan> Hows smackin someone n feelin great about it romantic???
<twilightRanger> The same way smacking on someone feels great and is Romantic :!
<bucolicBunyan> ???????
<bucolicBunyan> Those are like TOTES not the same at all!!!!
<twilightRanger> No :! They aren't :!
<twilightRanger> That's why they are quadrants :!
<twilightRanger> It's not the same feeling :!
<twilightRanger> But it's a thing and can lead to some amazing relationships :!
<twilightRanger> It can and often does lead to makeouts and more just like hearts if you let it :!
<bucolicBunyan> Hating someone is soooooooo shitty tho!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Hows that amazing at all?????
<twilightRanger> Idk maybe you just need to try it :?
<bucolicBunyan> Peeps hatin me just maXe me feel like a shitty pitiful sad failure.....
<bucolicBunyan> Not awesome at all!!!!
<twilightRanger> I'm sure one day you will find black romance and you will find it so exciting and great :!
<twilightRanger> No that's not a good spades relationship :!
<twilightRanger> They don't make you feel worse :!
<twilightRanger> It's all about the competition:!
<twilightRanger> Just like some people just won't work for you in hearts :!
<twilightRanger> Some people just don't challenge you, or are too good for you :!
<twilightRanger> I think you just need to experience it yourself maybe :!
<bucolicBunyan> K whatevs Im just gonna stop hittin my head against Mykes fuzzy back tryin to understand this shit
<twilightRanger> Just... Promise me that you will accept that you are capable of it :?
<bucolicBunyan> Capable of hatin someone so much I wanna kiss them?????
<bucolicBunyan> Fuck no!!!!
<twilightRanger> :/
<bucolicBunyan> I totes getcha that hatin peeps can sometimes feel great
<bucolicBunyan> But kissin thems SOOOOOOO weird!!!!
<twilightRanger> It's like... An entire side to yourself you just aren't going to accept :?
<bucolicBunyan> How can U say thats ME????
<twilightRanger> Because you are alternian :!
<twilightRanger> You are a troll :!
<bucolicBunyan> Maybe Im just a miserable Xcuse for a troll then
<twilightRanger> And its wonderful that you are :!
<bucolicBunyan> S what happens when I forget EVERYTHING
<twilightRanger> No :! Don't say that :!
<bucolicBunyan> !!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Why not????
<twilightRanger> You are a beautiful troll :!
<twilightRanger> You just need to not close your mind to things that seen weird :!
<bucolicBunyan> Im a troll who doesnt remember a fuckin thing bout anything n Im a freaky demented human mutant demon!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> How can I be good at either????
<bucolicBunyan> S like the worst of both!!!!
<twilightRanger> No:! You are great Carmen :!
<bucolicBunyan> Ur p much sayin that trolls got this whole diff romance shit
<twilightRanger> Yeah :!
<twilightRanger> It's not that you can't feel it Carmen :!
<bucolicBunyan> If Im a super weird human mutant that no human will EVER aXually like n I cant even feel the shit that Im sposed to be a good troll......
<bucolicBunyan> How is any of that good????
<twilightRanger> No it's not that you can't :!
<twilightRanger> You won't ever love someone if you don't think you are capable of love :!
<twilightRanger> It's the same thing :!
<twilightRanger> Maybe not today, but one day you might find yourself falling into kismissetude :!
<bucolicBunyan> But I totes think I can love thats not it!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Doesnt matter what the fuX goin on in my head if other peeps cant feel shit towards me
<twilightRanger> You dont think that you can hate love though :!
<twilightRanger> Carmen other people do love you :!
<bucolicBunyan> LOL
<bucolicBunyan> THAT WAS A GOOD ONE OREO
<bucolicBunyan> UR SO FUNNY
<twilightRanger> :(
<bucolicBunyan> IM LAUGHING SO FUCKIN HARD
<twilightRanger> Carmen please:! Calm down :!
<bucolicBunyan> I am calm duuuude
<bucolicBunyan> Just chill
<twilightRanger> You're making me worry :!
<bucolicBunyan> Now ur soundin like MaddoX
<bucolicBunyan> U dont need to worry bout me
<twilightRanger> I do anyway :!
<bucolicBunyan> Great
<twilightRanger> I didn't think that it would be so hard to explain our romance to you... :/
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah
<twilightRanger> Maybe we would change the topic :? Idk :?
<bucolicBunyan> Idk
<bucolicBunyan> Im p much already in this fuckin mood so it doesnt matter
<twilightRanger> ;_;
<twilightRanger> What did you want to talk about when you messaged me :?
<bucolicBunyan> Idr
<twilightRanger> :c
<bucolicBunyan> It probs woulda ended up leadin to this same sorta shit anyways so dont worry bout it
<bucolicBunyan> Maybe Ill remember or somethin
<bucolicBunyan> U just keep goin with ur thing
<twilightRanger> :?
<bucolicBunyan> U only got clubs left
<bucolicBunyan> I think
<twilightRanger> No I don't want to make you more upset ;(
<twilightRanger> I
<twilightRanger> I don't want to lose you as a friend ;!
<bucolicBunyan> Now u know why I dont wanna talk bout my diary
<bucolicBunyan> Its p much jus shit like this
<twilightRanger> :?
<twilightRanger> What do you mean it's stuff like this :?
<twilightRanger> Do you often have people tell you about other romance systems :?
<bucolicBunyan> I used to talk to my mom bout this sorta shit but then she got..... well shot
<bucolicBunyan> Thats when I started writin to my diary instead
<bucolicBunyan> Talking to her bout my day
<bucolicBunyan> Tellin "dear diary" bout the stuff that suX
<bucolicBunyan> Bout the stuff thats cool
<bucolicBunyan> Turns out lotsa stuff ends up bein in the sucky stuff n the shitty romance stuff
<twilightRanger> Well... You can read my journal whenever you want :!
<bucolicBunyan> Not the weird different romance system stuff tho just normal stuff
<twilightRanger> I can't guarantee you will like all of it... But you can read it nonetheless :!
<twilightRanger> Idk if that really helps:?
<twilightRanger> I guess maybe it will make you feel less alone in writing about shitty romance and stuff :?
<bucolicBunyan> U write bout romance???
<bucolicBunyan> How could u have shitty romance stuff???
<twilightRanger> Well not really :/
<twilightRanger> Atm it's mostly just stuff about where stuff is and help for myself :!
<twilightRanger> Because what I write currently is useful to past me :!
<twilightRanger> So I have to trust that future me will help me with current things :!
<twilightRanger> That will probably include romance and stuff :p
<twilightRanger> And there may be stuff which I guess I could write down about :?
<twilightRanger> Idk it's really embarrassing though :p
<twilightRanger> Again I don't think you really want to know :p
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah doesnt really sound embarressing
<bucolicBunyan> or like shitty romance
<twilightRanger> Well that's because I haven't written anything like that in yet :p
<bucolicBunyan> Do u think ur gonna???
<bucolicBunyan> Or that u wanna?
<twilightRanger> Well... Maybe ;p
<twilightRanger> As I said I don't think you would want to know anyway :p
<bucolicBunyan> I wouldnt wanna know???
<twilightRanger> Atm there aren't any actual relationships though just kinda crushes mostly :p
<twilightRanger> Anyway,
<twilightRanger> So anything else you wanna know about :?
<bucolicBunyan> :OOOOOOO
<bucolicBunyan> Welllllll yeah now!!!
<bucolicBunyan> U tried to change the subject p quickly there!!!!
<twilightRanger> Lol :p
<bucolicBunyan> Soooooo????? ;)
<twilightRanger> Ehr...
<bucolicBunyan> Duuuuuude
<bucolicBunyan> If ur not gonna tell me Im gonna guess!!!
<twilightRanger> Well... I used to kinda have a crush on mirkan and he almost certainly had a crush on me :p
<twilightRanger> I don't really care much about him anymore though :p
<twilightRanger> It got kinda boring with how... Irritating he is XD
<bucolicBunyan> Idk Mirkan too much but he seems kinda weird.....
<bucolicBunyan> Im not one to talk tho lol
<twilightRanger> And well the other one is... Well idk you probably won't want to know afterwards...
<bucolicBunyan> :/
<bucolicBunyan> Why do u think I wont wanna know?
<twilightRanger> Alright...
<twilightRanger> If I tell you
<bucolicBunyan> Do u think its gonna make me sad or somethin?
<twilightRanger> Can you promise not to like.. Tell or be different towards me:?
<twilightRanger> Like... Can we definitely still be besties :?
<bucolicBunyan> Idk can I????
<bucolicBunyan> If u think Im probs not gonna be chill with it then somethins up.....
<bucolicBunyan> Idk what ur gonna say tho!!!!
<twilightRanger> Ehr... Well...
<bucolicBunyan> I got a guess.....
<twilightRanger> Oh:?
<bucolicBunyan> But Idk if I wanna guess if u think its gonna screw stuff up
<bucolicBunyan> Why do u think wed like not be friends or some shit???
<bucolicBunyan> Its not me is it???
<twilightRanger> Ok well... If it helps you want to stay friends then I'll tell you is a red crush :p
<twilightRanger> No it's not you :p
<bucolicBunyan> phew
<bucolicBunyan> Why do u think its gonna screw stuff up tho???
<twilightRanger> We can be besties though :?
<twilightRanger> Idk it might be really weird for you :?
<twilightRanger> Uggh whatever I'll just tell you:!
<bucolicBunyan> Ur bein pretty dramatic bout all this but ur not helpin!!!
<twilightRanger> I have a really big crush on Maddox :!
<bucolicBunyan> oh
<twilightRanger> We even cuddled together and slept together on the yellow moon place :!
<bucolicBunyan> oh
<bucolicBunyan> he didnt tell me that
<twilightRanger> I don't know exactly how he feels, but he said he was at the time not thinking about romance when we cuddled :!
<bucolicBunyan> oh
<twilightRanger> But... Idk... ;(
<twilightRanger> I'm sorry this must be super awkward...
<bucolicBunyan> why
<twilightRanger> Because he's like your bff for life :!
<bucolicBunyan> is that what he told you?
<twilightRanger> And idk you might feel something too:? It's odd for an alternian to have someone just as a friend for that long and never have feelings :?
<twilightRanger> Well that's what you said :?
<bucolicBunyan> oh
<twilightRanger> That you have known each other for ages :!
<bucolicBunyan> guess I did say that
<twilightRanger> So idk... I don't want to like.. Potentially get in the way of anything if it's happening :!
<bucolicBunyan> it doesnt really matter what Im feeling I ready told u not to worry bout me cuz it doesnt matter
<twilightRanger> Is something happening :?
<bucolicBunyan> Is somethin happening?
<bucolicBunyan> U tell me
<bucolicBunyan> Ur the one hes always talkin to these days
<twilightRanger> :?
<twilightRanger> He probably talks to you too :!
<twilightRanger> And you have known each other for so long :!
<bucolicBunyan> Not like he talks to you though.....
<twilightRanger> :???
<bucolicBunyan> U just met him n u guys already met up n cuddled n shit!!!
<bucolicBunyan> He just puts up with me
<twilightRanger> That was because he was really depressed :!
<twilightRanger> And he doesnt just put up with you :!
<twilightRanger> He really cares about you :! You are a great friend to him at least :!
<twilightRanger> Ember too :!
<bucolicBunyan> How can u say that?
<twilightRanger> Because they told me :!
<bucolicBunyan> Really?
<twilightRanger> You are a great friend to me too :!
<twilightRanger> Yeah they both said you were a great friend :!
<bucolicBunyan> U sure ur not just sayin that to make me feel better?
<twilightRanger> No :!
<bucolicBunyan> Im not gonna fall for that shit again
<twilightRanger> Well I can't quote exactly :!
<twilightRanger> But they both really appreciate you :!
<bucolicBunyan> okay I guess
<twilightRanger> So... Idk what to say more... :?
<bucolicBunyan> I guess this is just gonna get really fuckin awkward here
<twilightRanger> Oh:?
<bucolicBunyan> cuz Im just gonna keep goin
<bucolicBunyan> I guess some of this shit is in my diary
<twilightRanger> Sure :!
<bucolicBunyan> Probably a lot of times too somewhere
<bucolicBunyan> Im not gonna read it to u but I guess I should say somethin
<bucolicBunyan> Cuz u just said a lot
<twilightRanger> I won't tell anyone I promise :!
<bucolicBunyan> n now I feel shitty for just sittin here being annoying and snoopy
<bucolicBunyan> plus u deserve to know I guess
<bucolicBunyan> Seein what u just said bout maddox
<bucolicBunyan> U asked if somethins happening
<bucolicBunyan> Turns out some of the shitty romance stuff in here is bout MaddoX and Ember.....
<bucolicBunyan> Theyre both super cool!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Theyre p much the only guys I know thatre nice since everyone here is such a shithead and my dad is NUMBER ONE asshole and Adrian is NUMBER TWO asshole
<bucolicBunyan> Ember always forgets me though.....
<bucolicBunyan> It suX so much
<bucolicBunyan> He forgets how cool hes been n he forgets me tellin him hes cool
<twilightRanger> Yeah that must really get hard on you :!
<bucolicBunyan> Hes cool but hes just a friend I guess since I cant really know him more
<bucolicBunyan> so thats shitty
<twilightRanger> ;(
<bucolicBunyan> but MaddoX
<bucolicBunyan> ....
<bucolicBunyan> Idk where Im goin with this.....
<bucolicBunyan> fuck
<twilightRanger> Do you... Feel red for him :?
<bucolicBunyan> Well
<bucolicBunyan> yeah kinda a lot
<bucolicBunyan> but it was kinda always this stupid thing!
<bucolicBunyan> like why would I feel like that?
<twilightRanger> It's not stupid :!
<bucolicBunyan> S not like hes gonna feel the same back or that anythings gonna happen!!!
<bucolicBunyan> He lived on the other side of the world!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Kinda
<bucolicBunyan> or somethin
<bucolicBunyan> REALLY far
<bucolicBunyan> he never said anything about it
<twilightRanger> :/
<bucolicBunyan> All we ever talk about these days is Ember!
<bucolicBunyan> Ember and video games!
<bucolicBunyan> Idk
<twilightRanger> Maybe he's nervous :?
<twilightRanger> We.. Should maybe tell him :?
<bucolicBunyan> I dropped these hints n shit but idk he even cares
<bucolicBunyan> Hes just
<bucolicBunyan> Idk
<twilightRanger> First maybe I should ask to sort this out between us :?
<bucolicBunyan> MaddoX
<bucolicBunyan> Whaddya mean sort out?
<twilightRanger> Because I think you know as well as I do that we can't both be in the same quadrant with him...
<bucolicBunyan> I mean theres p much only one quadthingy for me but whatevs
<twilightRanger> Ehh... I still think that you will find there are more :!
<twilightRanger> But, well... There are ways where we can like... Share him I guess :?
<bucolicBunyan> ?????
<bucolicBunyan> That sounds so creepy duude
<twilightRanger> Well... In a relationship you can have vaccinations :?
<bucolicBunyan> ???
<twilightRanger> That basically means the quadrants change :!
<bucolicBunyan> How do you vaccinate for romance???
<twilightRanger> *vaccilate
<bucolicBunyan> oh
<bucolicBunyan> what does that mean
<twilightRanger> So basically one of us can be hearts with him and the other can be diamonds with him one day
<bucolicBunyan> What???
<twilightRanger> And then we agree that the next day we swap :!
<bucolicBunyan> That sounds so confusing and dumb and not aXually helpful
<bucolicBunyan> Are u like making a MaddoX calendar or some shit???
<twilightRanger> Well... Not really but I guess we could if it would help :?
<bucolicBunyan> Sounds more like a fuckin disaster
<twilightRanger> It's more...
<bucolicBunyan> P sure Maddox would like Xplode if we just marched up to him with a MADDOx LOVE CALENDAR
<bucolicBunyan> dude
<bucolicBunyan> that sounds so creepy typin that
<twilightRanger> It's not like a love calendar :!
<bucolicBunyan> If u said he wasnt thinkin romance why does it matter?
<bucolicBunyan> Ive been trying for years n look where its got me
<bucolicBunyan> U already got to cuddle stage in like a day
<twilightRanger> It's like, he probably wants hearts and diamonds himself :!
<twilightRanger> You want to be in a relationship with him :!
<twilightRanger> And so do I :!
<bucolicBunyan> But Orea
<bucolicBunyan> U said it urself!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Hes p much not into the whole <3 thingy right now....
<bucolicBunyan> Ive been flirtin with him for like a year or some shit n look where Im at!!!
<bucolicBunyan> I know we both wanna be in a relationship with him but Im p sure that whole vacillation shits not gonna work so hot!!!
<twilightRanger> Are you sure :?
<bucolicBunyan> I p much think its real confusing n Idk what MaddoX is gonna think either!!!
<bucolicBunyan> U gotta remember
<twilightRanger> I mean... It would be the natural solution to it :!
<bucolicBunyan> Neither of usve ever heard any of this fuckin shit before!!!
<twilightRanger> But... I guess you are right...
<bucolicBunyan> I know u been living with it forever
<twilightRanger> It would be really hard on maddox :/
<bucolicBunyan> But that like TOTES weird to us
<bucolicBunyan> Maybe in like a buncha years or some shit
<bucolicBunyan> But theres no way in hell u can just say this thing outta nowhere n then Xpect it to work....
<bucolicBunyan> Were both kinda screwed.....
<bucolicBunyan> :((((
<twilightRanger> Well.. Do you have a better solution :?
<twilightRanger> I don't know how humans ever deal with stuff like this :!
<bucolicBunyan> Idk!!!
<bucolicBunyan> I mean
<twilightRanger> Maybe you have a way figured out :?
<bucolicBunyan> This is gonna sound p much awful
<bucolicBunyan> But this is kinda what happens on Earth n shit
<twilightRanger> oh :?
<bucolicBunyan> If someone has a super big crush on someone else but they dont feel it back n stuff, then.... well
<bucolicBunyan> theres some diff stuff that could happen
<twilightRanger> :?
<bucolicBunyan> sometimes u just get friend zoned which is p much a a kind of <> thingyish
<bucolicBunyan> Its usually p awkward at first
<bucolicBunyan> but it worX after u get over it
<bucolicBunyan> Something else that sometimes happens......
<bucolicBunyan> Well it p much suX
<twilightRanger> But what if he is interested in both of us :?
<twilightRanger> What if he doesn't want to 'friend zone' either of us :?
<bucolicBunyan> Sometimes if someone has a REALLY big fuckin crush on someone....
<bucolicBunyan> But they dont feel it back
<bucolicBunyan> Then the person with the crush gets real upset n then the two peeps are p much not really friends anymore
<bucolicBunyan> sometimes they just forget each other and the person is sad
<twilightRanger> That doesn't sound like a solution at all :!
<twilightRanger> I don't think that case really applies much here :! I think Maddox is more conflicted about who he wants :! I mean, you don't cuddle someone to sleep with NO interest in them :! Likewise he almost certainly feels something for you too :! He probably just doesn't want to disappoint either of us but thinks he can't take one without the other, which I
<twilightRanger>  guess is true at least by human standards :?
<bucolicBunyan> Sometimes though that doesnt happen n they keep talkin and stuff
<bucolicBunyan> Sometimes they get upset enough that they just fight all the time!
<twilightRanger> How does that help at all :?!
<bucolicBunyan> Botha them p much suck tho....
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah theyre not solutions!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Im just sayin what happens
<twilightRanger> Are you basically just saying to give up :?!
<bucolicBunyan> Usually the person with the crush just waits some time n gets over them
<bucolicBunyan> Happens p much all the time when u got a crush on someone who doesnt like u back
<bucolicBunyan> I mean
<bucolicBunyan> I dont wanna say we should give up
<twilightRanger> But he probably does like us back :!
<bucolicBunyan> but Im p sure he just liXe us as friends
<bucolicBunyan> He told u
<bucolicBunyan> N hes never said anythin romantic to me ever
<bucolicBunyan> for like fuckin years
<twilightRanger> Because if he tells me that he loves me, then he knows that you will be distraught, and he can't love you :!
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah but
<twilightRanger> And well, I don't know much about human culture but don't some relationships take years to come to fruititon ;?
<bucolicBunyan> Before he ever knew you he p much told me the same things
<bucolicBunyan> Idt it has anythin to do with that
<bucolicBunyan> yeah he doesnt wanna hurt us by tellin one of us things that will make the other one upset
<bucolicBunyan> But he said he just wants to be good friends
<bucolicBunyan> He wouldnt say that if he really wanted a romantic relationship
<twilightRanger> I can't accept just "No" for this :!
<bucolicBunyan> Sayin that is like a killshot on Earth
<twilightRanger> :?
<bucolicBunyan> If you wanna have a relationship with someone u never tell them "I just wanna be friends"
<twilightRanger> Yeah but feelings change :!
<bucolicBunyan> Sometimes
<twilightRanger> and he never told me he "just wanted to be friends" - just that I shouldn't take cuddling to sleep with him as wanting to be romantic with me explicitly:!
<twilightRanger> Which again goes back to not wanting to commit to something as to not disappoint you :!
<twilightRanger> I mean have you ever tried to ask him out or anything :?
<twilightRanger> He might just be really nervous :!
<bucolicBunyan> Uhhhhh no!!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Once u tell someone u dont really wanna to romance stuff its a lot harder to try n do romance stuff!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Im p sure hes just gonna say no so I dont even ask!!!
<bucolicBunyan> Maybe later hell seem more like he might say yes n then Ill ask him!
<twilightRanger> But then why would he actively try to deny feelings, when doing stuff which lets be honest only happen with feelings :!
<bucolicBunyan> Heres the thing
<bucolicBunyan> MaddoX is just a REALLY nice guy
<bucolicBunyan> He doesnt wanna hurt anyones feelings
<bucolicBunyan> He doesnt wanna make peeps sad
<bucolicBunyan> He liXe showin peeps that he cares
<bucolicBunyan> The whole likin to give peeps hugs n shit? He does that to others people too!
<bucolicBunyan> He just liXe bein nice n caring to peeps
<bucolicBunyan> N if u wanna be Xtra nice n caring back hes gonna go along with it cuz he liXe that stuff n he doesnt wanna hurt peeps
<bucolicBunyan> S kinda one of the reasons I like him so much......
<bucolicBunyan> Probs u too
<twilightRanger> But are you just going to accept that and not do anything about it :?!
<twilightRanger> I mean, are you just going to sit and never try to act upon your feelings :?
<bucolicBunyan> I do act!!!
<twilightRanger> Whats the worst that will happen :? If you ask him all he can do is say he wants to just be friends, and then you are back to where you are now :!
<twilightRanger> We need to work on the assumption that he does like both of us :!
<bucolicBunyan> Idt he does THAT romantically tho!!!
<twilightRanger> Because if it turns out he only likes one of us, or likes neither of us then thats easy to deal with :!
<bucolicBunyan> If u ask him for <3 shit hes gonna be like no I want <>
<twilightRanger> you don't know that though :!
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah I dont know for sure but I know him p damn well n thats what I think
<bucolicBunyan> N it maXe me sad
<twilightRanger> But I mean.. I can't take <> anyway :!
<bucolicBunyan> ???
<twilightRanger> This kinda might sound silly... but my <> quadrant is already filled kinda :!
<twilightRanger> It would be like cheating :!
<bucolicBunyan> With who?
<bucolicBunyan> Fred?
<twilightRanger> I mean... he is dead I guess... but I... I just can't just like... replace him :!
<twilightRanger> EW no not fred :!
<bucolicBunyan> O
<bucolicBunyan> Oops
<bucolicBunyan> Im just bein a sacka shit again sorry I didnt know that bout u
<twilightRanger> Its fine... :/
<twilightRanger> You didn't know :!
<twilightRanger> But yeah... I can't just be <> with someone :!
<bucolicBunyan> Idk then!
<bucolicBunyan> Im not smart
<twilightRanger> Thats like... well <> isn't like this at all really, but I guess imagine your like dad died, and then another dad comes in to replace him :!
<bucolicBunyan> Duuuuude
<twilightRanger> You can't be like "Ah fuckit I love my new dad instead actually!" :!
<bucolicBunyan> If my dad died I probs be okay with that
<bucolicBunyan> Hes legit the worst
<twilightRanger> :/
<bucolicBunyan> My mom was the best tho
<twilightRanger> You get my point :!
<bucolicBunyan> It kinda seems like there's only two things then if ur not gonna take no for an answer n that vacillation stuff isnt gonna be a thing
<bucolicBunyan> Either u be <3 with him n then I just go fuck off
<bucolicBunyan> or u be <3< with him n I keep bein friends with him n try for <3 like Ive been doin
<bucolicBunyan> Idk how thatd work tho
<twilightRanger> No there has to be a better way :!
<twilightRanger> Maddox would hate to reject you, and you obviously want to be with him:!
<bucolicBunyan> K then the thingy with u being <3< with him is all thats left if u think that
<bucolicBunyan> <3< still doesnt make too much sense to me but u kinda said its like romance???
<bucolicBunyan> Fuck if I know
<twilightRanger> But I can't just... Hate him:!
<twilightRanger> I don't know...
<twilightRanger> *sigh* i'm sorry...
<bucolicBunyan> Idk then u seem p worked up bout this whole MaddoX only wantin <> shit
<bucolicBunyan> Its okay
<bucolicBunyan> Dont worry bout it
<twilightRanger> No really I am... I've just made this hard for you...
<bucolicBunyan> I mean yeah u p much made everythin like SUPER fuckin confusing n hard n shit
<bucolicBunyan> S not ur fault for likin someone tho
<twilightRanger> Even still, i'm sorry :!
<bucolicBunyan> Love s just hard n confusing sometimes
<bucolicBunyan> Maybe even a lotta the time
<twilightRanger> Maybe you should just have him, and I'll just get out of your way...
<bucolicBunyan> That sounds so ass tho!
<bucolicBunyan> I mean course thats kinda what I want since thats where we were before this fuckin game thing happened
<bucolicBunyan> But Idk
<bucolicBunyan> I mean if ur gonna say that least say its cuz MaddoX isnt super into <3 shit right now
<bucolicBunyan> not cuzza me
<bucolicBunyan> Cuz then that maXe both of us feel shitty n I wanna still be ur friend
<bucolicBunyan> Not with that in the way makin everythin weird
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah Id p much be real happy with that solution but I dont wanna make u do anythin!!!
<twilightRanger> I want to be your friend too:!
<twilightRanger> But I can't just take him from you:!
<twilightRanger> You should just ask him.
<bucolicBunyan> U think?
<twilightRanger> Just ask him if he wants you :!
<bucolicBunyan> Idk....
<twilightRanger> Tell him how you feel :!
<twilightRanger> If he picks you then that just solves this anyway, and you deserve to ask...
<bucolicBunyan> What do I tell him about u tho???
<twilightRanger> Don't, just leave me out of it when you ask :!
<twilightRanger> If he wants you then he will pick you anyway despite me :!
<bucolicBunyan> That sounds so shitty though......
<bucolicBunyan> I mean
<twilightRanger> If he doesn't want you then I can ask him and hope for the best then...
<bucolicBunyan> I guess no matter what happens somethings shitty
<bucolicBunyan> Story of my life right there
<twilightRanger> I'm sorry ;(
<bucolicBunyan> S okay dont worry bout me
<bucolicBunyan> I guess Ill talk to him....
<bucolicBunyan> Leavin this all awkward n open n shit s probs just gonna make things worse....
<twilightRanger> ((Stop here and get torn in?))
<twilightRanger> You know, what if I do develop black feelings for him one day - would you be ok like, with us both being with him since those are opposites :?
<bucolicBunyan> U mean like if somehow u get <3< n SOMEHOW I get <3 for him???
<bucolicBunyan> Idk sounds fine to me
<bucolicBunyan> Hatin someones p different than like <3 shit!!!
<twilightRanger> I... Really can't feel black for him I don't think :! But if I could it would still have like.. Makeouts and shit... But it's different :/
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah Ill say its p different!!!! :OOOO
<twilightRanger> Idk I already told you about it but ugh... Maybe one day it might get solved:?
<bucolicBunyan> Still maXe p much no sense to me but if thats ur cuppa tea then u do whatevs
<bucolicBunyan> Imma just stay away from that <3< shit for now but if that shits what u wanna do then whatevs
<bucolicBunyan> U work that out with whoever
<twilightRanger> Thanks...
<twilightRanger> Now I guess it's just up to you to tell him :!
<twilightRanger> Please... Don't wait very long...
<bucolicBunyan> Ur really hurtin bout this arent u
<twilightRanger> Yeah...
<bucolicBunyan> :(((
<twilightRanger> But that shouldn't stop you:! You deserve him :!
<bucolicBunyan> Me too but I guess Ive kinda gotten used to feelin like this
<bucolicBunyan> Ill talk to him I guess
<twilightRanger> I don't deserve him... I'm just some space alien...
<bucolicBunyan> I always kinda dreamed of talkin bout this shit with him n person but whatevs
<bucolicBunyan> Duuuuuude
<twilightRanger> I might get better... I've been through worse...
<bucolicBunyan> Orea cut that shit out
<twilightRanger> Sorry ;(
<bucolicBunyan> U literally told me the same thing a bit ago
<bucolicBunyan> scroll up
<bucolicBunyan> I was shittin on myself n u said not to
<bucolicBunyan> Were both weird space aliens
<bucolicBunyan> Weve both been through worse
<bucolicBunyan> This suX p much a lot for both of us
<bucolicBunyan> We got this
<bucolicBunyan> Idk whats gonna happen
<bucolicBunyan> But its gonna suck somehow
<bucolicBunyan> We can do this shit though
<bucolicBunyan> S not the end of the fuckin world we literally already did that!!! :OOO
<twilightRanger> Heh... I guess :p
<bucolicBunyan> I guess Ill talk with him n see what he says......
<bucolicBunyan> Im really fuckin nervous!!!!! :(((((
<twilightRanger> Don't be :!
<bucolicBunyan> Its so easier to jus keep goin on this super fuzzy buffalo n not worry bout shit like that!!!
<twilightRanger> He won't think any less of you for it :! And he will only just let you down to bring a friend :!
<bucolicBunyan> I guess.....
<bucolicBunyan> FUCKIN SIGH
<bucolicBunyan> okay
<twilightRanger> And well, I guess if he rejects you then you get to feel good about me getting to try :?
<bucolicBunyan> Yeah I guess
<bucolicBunyan> Fuck this is confusing
<bucolicBunyan> Okay whatevs
<bucolicBunyan> I guess Ill go talk with him them
<twilightRanger> Cya. Have fun :/
<bucolicBunyan> I guess Ill try
<twilightRanger> ==twilightRanger has ceased espering bucolicbunyan ==