The things I never sent

Dear YOU,

Hello. Me again. You probably don't want to talk to me... no, not probably. You really don't want to talk to me. I mean, who am I kidding? I messaged you on Christmas, no reply. I messaged you on New year's eve, still nothing.

You're avoiding me.

And I get that. Because I broke your heart. And in return, you broke mine. You got me. But I'm not mad. I miss you too much to be mad anymore.

But I know you don't miss me.

I'm not saying this to get back together because god knows that's the last thing you want. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't be better, I'm sorry that I wasn't what you deserved.

I'm sorry for all those times I freaked when you didn't reply but that was just me worrying and missing you. I'm sorry we didn't work out but I know that us breaking up was for the better. You said so yourself.

Enough apologizing. I know how much you hate it when I say sorry a lot. So I'll just say thank you. Thank you for our relationship even though we didn't last long. Umm.. we were just built to fall apart, you know? Even from the beginning when we met. But I'm still thankful that we made the most out of that short span of time we were together. Yeah, we fought a lot but at least we both cared for each other. At the end of the day, we still made up. We still loved each other.

Then one day, you just stopped caring. I still don't know why or if I'm the reason you suddenly changed or you found someone better... to be honest, I still ask those questions myself everyday. That doesn't matter though. What matters is you're happy now. It's just that some people are meant to love each other very much, but not stay together.

Funny when it's too late that's when you realize how much you actually love someone. I just want you to know that if you ever need someone, I'm here. If you're feeling lonely or if you're sad, you just give me a call and I'll be there and I'll cheer you up as best as I can.

I hope you find someone better than me. Someone who's gonna love and hold you better than I ever will. And I hope you can find happiness in her.

I love you. Bye.