Sexuality

I am Bisexual.

I honestly can't recall when exactly I finally accepted that I was but it was sometime during 2024, this year was also the year I really started exploring my sexuality and really taking some time to think deeply about it and who I was. After this reflecting and really thinking about it I don't think I can really call myself "straight" anymore, I'm still learning and exploring myself but for now I think Bisexual would be the right term. It very well may change in the future, but for now that feels like the correct way to label it.

For a long time I have definitely felt attraction to some men, and I think I large reason why I've been so hesitant to label myself as Bi or Queer for so long was I didn't feel I was "queer" enough to be queer. Even right now as typing this I still feel weird referring to myself as that, I'm still convinced people will think it's weird for me to call myself that. But I know that's all just me being in my own head. My attraction is still very much so leaned towards woman / femininity, certainly not an even split of attraction to men and woman, and I think it's because of that I felt like I wasn't really Bi enough to call myself Bi if that makes sense. People even joked I was a "Reddit-sexual" and that alone made me want to die lmaooooo (I'm not mad at anybody about that btw its all fun and jokes).

However I realize what's important is to just be who I am, and not hide who I am. So I want to just be a label on it and label myself as Bi for now, it just feels nice to be able to say out loud. I know this doesn't change anything and maybe I don't need to make a whole post about it, but it just makes me happy to say out loud with no hesitancy. I don't mind deleting this if people think its unnecessary to say.

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I also wanted to talk about my relationship with gender, something I've also thought about and considered for a long time. For now I don't think anything will change, I feel comfortable with who I am and my assigned gender. Looking back on it in the past I think my consideration for gender change was simply the result of lacking self love of my own body and feeling shame for what I looked like, I'm happy to say I'm in a much better place mentally now. I still struggle a lot with self love of my own appearance and body, but it's been improving everyday. I like myself and I like who I am right now, my pronouns will remain the same as well as my general appearance and way I display myself.

Thank you to everyone I am close with both in the Melee community and life in general, if it wasn't for all of you I would be in such a worse place mentally and physically. You have all allowed me to really realize myself and who I am, and I am eternally grateful.

Happy Pride,
I love you all so so much.
- Miles

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