Talking to God (2020) EN

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What's your name?

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Um,
Rebecca, what's yours?

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I don't know.

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What are you doing here?

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I have no idea.

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I vaguely remember
asking a question.

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What was the question?

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Daddy, why am I here?

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You want to stay up
all night and play.

10
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No Daddy, I don't mean
why am I here in my bedroom.

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Why am I here in the world.

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What am I here for?

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Rebecca, you're deep.

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Now go to sleep.

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You
mean you don't know?

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Do you?

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Yes, I did ask
questions like that

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when I was a kid. I was deep.

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But don't get me wrong.

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I'm not that deep.

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It really all started

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with how most searches for
meaning start... with pain.

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Lots of pain.

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Everything in my body ached.

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I was wracked with
back pain for years,

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but lately the pain
had gotten worse.

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To top it off, I couldn't
sleep at night anymore

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and I couldn't figure out why.

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I didn't want to take pills.

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You're lonely,

31
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you just need to find the
right guy, someone said.

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You're lonely, you need
to find the right guy.

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Try acupuncture.

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You will feel much better.

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Those herbs are for sleep.

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You take 30 drops
three times a day.

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You will probably go
through a bottle a week.

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How much is each bottle?

39
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Is 85.

40
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Dollars?

41
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Yes, and this one is 90.

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And this.

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Change your bed, they said.

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Is our top of the
line, state of the art,

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pillow top mattress

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with over two and a half
feet of memory foam!

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Two and a half feet?

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I guarantee, you
will never, ever

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want to rise up from this bed.

50
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Amazing.

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With over
two and a half feet

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of memory foam.

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Over two and a half
feet of memory foam.

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Ah. Ow.

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crickets chirping

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Nothing helped.

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I cannot help you.

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Maybe have to learn to be
happy with what you have.

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11th night of insomnia.

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Rebecca, is that you?

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Blair Mushkinski,
spiritual fanatic

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and my best friend's sister
from the third grade.

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In 10 seconds she'll push
some religious book on me.

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Blair, hi, I didn't
know you came here.

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Thank God.

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I'm learning The
Garden of Emuna book.

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Have you read this book?

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It is so amazing.

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What's wrong?

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Nothing.

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You look terrible.

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What's going on?

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If I start talking
I'll start crying.

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Come sit with me, I'm
learning The Garden of Emuna.

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The Garden of what?

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Emuna, you know, like faith.

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It's the Hebrew word for faith.

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And you're learning this why?

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It's my mother.

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She's forcing you.

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Oh, God forbid, no,

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it's just since she's
been reading this book

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she's been kind of nice to me.

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She smiles a lot and
she just seems happy.

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Your mother, really?

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Sorry to say this, but
your mother, happy?

87
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Oh, you know everything
she went through in her life.

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So how do you explain it?

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She read this book, thank God.

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So I thought, if it
could make her happy.

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Look, don't be alone right
now, come sit with me.

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That's
the thing about desperation.

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You're so much more
open to things.

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These are the
principles of faith.

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Number one,
everything good or bad

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comes from God.

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Number two, it's
all for the best

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even if we can't see
why at the moment.

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This is it?

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The magical book
that made your mother happy?

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That's it, it's
all for the best?

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So all the garbage and
suffering we go through

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every single day
is for the best?

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I love you, Blair,

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but it's not for me, I'm sorry.

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Over-simplified
religious propaganda.

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It's all for the best.

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It's
all for the best.

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It's
all for the best.

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12th night of insomnia.

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Ah!

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I can't take it anymore,

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what do you want from me?

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Ah!

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I'll do anything, help me!

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Ahhh!

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OK, God, I've tried
everything else.

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I don't exactly know what
I'm doing here, but OK.

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It's all from You,
it's all for the best.

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Ah!

121
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This
sleeplessness is from You.

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Help me!

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These pains from You,

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all my loneliness and
fears are from You.

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It must be for the best,
it's from You, right?

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Ah!

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I'll just have faith.

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Ah!

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I'll choose
to have faith.

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Help me.

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It's all from You, it's
all for the best.

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If this is what You want
from me right now then

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I accept it.

134
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I accept it.

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I accept it.

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I accept it.

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And I felt calm.

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That night, for the first
time in a long time, I slept.

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Excuse me, do you have
The Garden of Emuna book?

140
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I can't find it anywhere.

141
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Sorry, Geveret,
completely sold out.

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Geveret?

143
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It means
Mrs. in Hebrew.

144
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It's OK, Rebecca,
we'll just use my book.

145
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But I wanted my own copy.

146
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We can order it.

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Look, The Garden of Emuna is
Rebbe Nachman's teachings,

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but you can also
read his stories.

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He had stories?

150
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Oh, yes, they're
very mystical, really esoteric,

151
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so kabbalistic, I barely understand
them, but I love them.

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My favorite is the one with
The Fixer and the King.

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Here.

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You know he was
born in the Ukraine.

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Who is?

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Rebbe Nachman.

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I was there once to
visit his grave site.

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Completely changed my life.

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I know it's all from God
and it's all for the best,

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but if I have to go
on another blind date

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I will shoot myself.

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That doesn't sound like you,

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you're inspiring, not suicidal.

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I've reached a point,
I'm ready to do anything.

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You're still thinking
about liposuction?

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Uman.

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Uman, what is that?

168
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Is that a new
surgical technique?

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No, the Ukraine, where
Rebbe Nachman is buried.

170
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Let's go, what do you say?

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What, are you crazy?

172
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What, is she crazy?

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Look, you got to be careful
about going on these group trips

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to tour these remote areas.

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My Uncle Daryl went to
Uganda on a group trip,

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uch, we never saw him again.

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Rebecca, I am telling you,
people have had real miracles

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after going to Uman.

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Couldn't you use a
miracle right now?

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Couldn't we both?

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Blair, just get it
through your head,

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there's nothing on this
earth that would ever

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make me go to Ukraine.

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Ach. Hmm.

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Ahhhhhhh!

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Oh, no.

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So
there I was in Uman in July,

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over 100 degrees temperature.

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We lost our hotel rooms,

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had to stay in bunk beds
with six to 12 in a room.

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One bathroom for 20 women.

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Needless to say, it was a miracle
we didn't kill each other.

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People from all over
the world travel here

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to the grave site of
Rebbe Nachman of Breslov,

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whose teachings on
faith were the basis

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of the book we'd been learning.

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This was it?

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Rebbe Nachman's grave site?

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No bells, no whistles, just
desperate people praying to God,

200
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but I felt lost.

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I couldn't connect.

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You do realize there are

203
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11 other
women in this room

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besides you?

205
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Did someone move the fan?

206
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Crazy night, huh?

207
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I can be a little sensitive
to noise at night.

208
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It's not exactly
the Waldorf, is it?

209
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No, it's not the Waldorf.

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- But I don't mind it.
- You don't?

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No. Honestly, I'm at
that point in my life

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where a smile means more to me

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than a goose down
feather pillow.

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Rebbe Nachman would go out
into these fields every day

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by himself, for at
least an hour a day

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and speak to God.

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I'd love a goose down
feather pillow right now.

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Baruch Hashem, I spent a
lot of time with your daughter

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when she was in Florida.

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She's a lovely, lovely girl.

221
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She should find a
wonderful boy very soon.

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Thank you so much.

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It's just nice to
be around people.

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For me it depends
on the people.

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You OK to hike in
those flimsy shoes?

226
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They're year old
Manolo Blahniks.

227
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I was gonna throw
them out anyway.

228
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Humph!

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I'm a writer.

230
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I spend a lot of time alone.

231
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What kind of writer are you?

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I write a health / healing
column for Ohm Magazine.

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Have you heard of it?

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Yeah, I think so.

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You've never heard
of it, no one has,

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but it is the biggest
magazine that deals with

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the whole
mind-body-healing issue.

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Well, they were the biggest.

239
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They're downsizing, so they
fired me two weeks ago.

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That's rough.

241
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How have you been
spending your time?

242
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Mostly kvetching.

243
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When I was little,

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my mother would see me walk
into the kitchen in the morning

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and she'd say, "Look
it's the kvetcher".

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"She's up and she's kvetching."

247
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Well they'll have
other names for it,

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depression, anxiety, personality
disorder, yada, yada, yada.

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So why are you here?

250
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Do you have to know why
you're here to be here?

251
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Well, it doesn't hurt.

252
00:14:53,983 --> 00:14:55,986
See that woman over there?

253
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She wants to get pregnant.

254
00:14:57,487 --> 00:15:01,024
Marital problems, money
problems, yada, yada, yada.

255
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And that's Rebetzen Eliana.

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I've heard some interesting
stuff about her.

257
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She knows things about
you, she's very intuitive.

258
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People go to her all the
time with their problems.

259
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Ah! Rebetzen Eliana

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I wonder if I could
ask you a question.

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I'm Brenda, by the
way, from New York.

262
00:15:25,047 --> 00:15:28,984
I heard so much about you

263
00:15:29,017 --> 00:15:33,189
and I had this crazy
dream last night.

264
00:15:33,222 --> 00:15:35,925
Maybe you could tell
me what it means.

265
00:15:37,359 --> 00:15:41,864
I am walking down the aisle
wearing this long white dress.

266
00:15:42,598 --> 00:15:44,067
I got to the chuppah

267
00:15:44,099 --> 00:15:49,105
and who turns around
but Julio Iglesias.

268
00:15:50,506 --> 00:15:53,108
Anyway, in the beginning,

269
00:15:53,142 --> 00:15:55,712
Julio and I were so happy

270
00:15:57,546 --> 00:16:00,651
but then something changed.

271
00:16:02,050 --> 00:16:05,454
These strange women started
showing up at our door.

272
00:16:06,888 --> 00:16:11,627
Well of course, my Yan,
looked a little like Julio

273
00:16:12,494 --> 00:16:14,196
but he never cheated on me.

274
00:16:15,998 --> 00:16:19,236
At least not that I know of.

275
00:16:21,002 --> 00:16:22,538
What do you think?

276
00:17:20,095 --> 00:17:21,430
- Didn't you see the sign?
- What?

277
00:17:21,463 --> 00:17:23,132
You are number 82 aren't you?

278
00:17:23,165 --> 00:17:25,167
Um, yeah.

279
00:17:25,200 --> 00:17:29,471
And you're still
standing there because why?

280
00:17:29,505 --> 00:17:30,774
Why?

281
00:17:30,806 --> 00:17:32,575
Why does everyone have the same

282
00:17:32,607 --> 00:17:34,610
idiotic expression
on their face?

283
00:17:34,643 --> 00:17:36,845
Sometimes it makes
me want to scream.

284
00:17:38,713 --> 00:17:39,948
Do you have any
idea where you are?

285
00:17:39,981 --> 00:17:41,250
You did get the invitation.

286
00:17:41,284 --> 00:17:45,220
Come on, come one, put
a spring in your step,

287
00:17:45,254 --> 00:17:48,091
Miss I Don't Know Why
I'm Here On This Earth,

288
00:17:48,123 --> 00:17:49,692
you're not the only one waiting.

289
00:17:51,126 --> 00:17:53,695
Well, I don't know what
you said or what you did,

290
00:17:53,728 --> 00:17:56,833
but apparently you
got ahead of the line.

291
00:18:02,171 --> 00:18:03,907
Ahead of all these people.

292
00:18:04,841 --> 00:18:06,508
And look how miserable they are.

293
00:18:16,251 --> 00:18:19,655
But at least they're
better than these idiots.

294
00:18:19,689 --> 00:18:22,926
They don't even know
anything's wrong.

295
00:18:35,537 --> 00:18:37,106
I have nothing to say.

296
00:18:50,686 --> 00:18:52,021
- Assist, please.
- What?

297
00:18:52,054 --> 00:18:54,291
I can't do this
without you, Rebecca.

298
00:18:55,991 --> 00:18:57,059
What's wrong with her?

299
00:18:57,994 --> 00:18:59,529
What isn't wrong with her?

300
00:18:59,562 --> 00:19:01,898
- Can it be fixed?
- Maybe.

301
00:19:03,732 --> 00:19:06,602
- If you help.
- How?

302
00:19:06,635 --> 00:19:08,770
- Tell me the truth.
- About what?

303
00:19:08,804 --> 00:19:09,439
Yourself.

304
00:19:09,471 --> 00:19:10,573
What do you want to know?

305
00:19:10,605 --> 00:19:12,575
Why are you here?

306
00:19:12,607 --> 00:19:13,842
You hate computers

307
00:19:13,875 --> 00:19:16,478
but you spend all your
days working on them.

308
00:19:16,511 --> 00:19:18,914
You've dreamt your whole
life of making films

309
00:19:18,948 --> 00:19:20,883
but instead you
color-correct them?

310
00:19:22,218 --> 00:19:24,554
Intellectually, you
believe in a benevolent God

311
00:19:24,586 --> 00:19:29,157
but you've never
really been able to feel it.

312
00:19:29,190 --> 00:19:31,059
And the people closest to you

313
00:19:31,093 --> 00:19:33,596
have no idea who you are inside.

314
00:19:36,298 --> 00:19:40,302
♪ Is it any wonder ♪

315
00:19:40,335 --> 00:19:43,172
♪ You feel alone all the time? ♪

316
00:19:44,539 --> 00:19:46,876
Who are you?

317
00:19:47,977 --> 00:19:49,679
Are you a surgeon
or a psychic?

318
00:19:49,711 --> 00:19:50,513
Come with me.

319
00:19:52,614 --> 00:19:53,450
Eli.

320
00:19:59,622 --> 00:20:01,056
Where are we?

321
00:20:01,090 --> 00:20:02,893
You want to make
films, don't you?

322
00:20:05,460 --> 00:20:06,728
Warner Renquist?

323
00:20:06,761 --> 00:20:07,829
The King of Hollywood?

324
00:20:07,863 --> 00:20:08,765
This is great.

325
00:20:08,797 --> 00:20:10,432
You could introduce me

326
00:20:10,466 --> 00:20:12,068
to the head of Warner
Renquist Studios?

327
00:20:13,568 --> 00:20:15,704
Wait, shouldn't we knock?

328
00:20:16,805 --> 00:20:19,042
Sh, watch.

329
00:20:29,117 --> 00:20:32,287
Stavros says you're
safe from that bean lawsuit

330
00:20:32,321 --> 00:20:36,926
Stavros says we're safe
from that bean lawsuit.

331
00:20:36,959 --> 00:20:38,327
Safe from that bean lawsuit.

332
00:20:38,361 --> 00:20:39,862
Stavros... is an

333
00:20:39,894 --> 00:20:41,998
incompetent fool.

334
00:20:42,030 --> 00:20:43,165
Uch, his breath stinks.

335
00:20:43,199 --> 00:20:44,734
Wait, what is this?

336
00:20:44,767 --> 00:20:46,803
I didn't see anyone talking.

337
00:20:46,835 --> 00:20:49,572
Oh, you're hearing
his inner thoughts.

338
00:20:49,604 --> 00:20:50,873
I can do that?

339
00:20:52,107 --> 00:20:53,375
With me you can.

340
00:20:53,409 --> 00:20:55,011
Do I have
enough in that offshore account

341
00:20:55,044 --> 00:20:57,280
to cover the resort remodel?

342
00:20:57,313 --> 00:21:00,416
Should never have
trusted that accountant.

343
00:21:00,449 --> 00:21:01,383
Dinky.

344
00:21:01,417 --> 00:21:02,619
Dinky.

345
00:21:02,651 --> 00:21:05,354
Hi, my name's Dinky
and I'm stupid.

346
00:21:05,388 --> 00:21:07,457
Sell that stock.

347
00:21:07,489 --> 00:21:08,557
What are you waiting for?

348
00:21:10,125 --> 00:21:14,196
I have to go to that darned
orthopedist for the knee.

349
00:21:18,700 --> 00:21:20,670
He can't sleep either.

350
00:21:20,702 --> 00:21:21,837
Darned knee!

351
00:21:21,871 --> 00:21:23,873
Darned knee!

352
00:21:23,905 --> 00:21:25,974
Darned knee!

353
00:21:30,979 --> 00:21:33,716
Teras, so I
know so much about, you know?

354
00:21:33,748 --> 00:21:35,817
The work
published and performed.

355
00:21:35,851 --> 00:21:38,354
The composer and pianist,
who lives in New York City.

356
00:21:48,497 --> 00:21:50,999
Another cappuccino,
Roberto, pronto.

357
00:21:51,967 --> 00:21:53,703
Honey, it's your fifth.

358
00:21:53,736 --> 00:21:56,072
You have your green
juices, I have my caffeine.

359
00:21:56,104 --> 00:21:57,239
How do you expect me to function

360
00:21:57,273 --> 00:21:58,940
after not sleeping all night?

361
00:22:03,778 --> 00:22:05,314
I can't stand them.

362
00:22:05,346 --> 00:22:06,148
Who?

363
00:22:06,181 --> 00:22:07,083
Happy people.

364
00:22:07,115 --> 00:22:08,383
What, honey?

365
00:22:08,417 --> 00:22:10,586
I said, I have three
islands, seven homes,

366
00:22:10,619 --> 00:22:13,089
thousands of
servants, employees.

367
00:22:13,122 --> 00:22:14,824
I frickin' own half of Hollywood

368
00:22:14,856 --> 00:22:16,325
and yet I'm miserable.

369
00:22:16,357 --> 00:22:17,592
And if I'm miserable
with all this,

370
00:22:17,625 --> 00:22:19,628
then no one has a
right to be happy.

371
00:22:19,661 --> 00:22:21,329
If anybody out there
is happier than I am

372
00:22:21,363 --> 00:22:22,265
I will kill them.

373
00:22:22,297 --> 00:22:23,700
I will freakin' kill them.

374
00:22:24,999 --> 00:22:26,301
No one's allowed to have
less worries than I do.

375
00:22:26,334 --> 00:22:27,703
What are you smiling about?

376
00:22:29,537 --> 00:22:32,541
I had no idea he
was so miserable.

377
00:22:34,642 --> 00:22:35,944
That's it!

378
00:22:35,978 --> 00:22:38,881
Some call him the
King of Sadness.

379
00:22:40,082 --> 00:22:41,084
Where is he going?

380
00:22:47,422 --> 00:22:49,659
No one
has a right to be happy.

381
00:22:51,293 --> 00:22:52,695
If there's somebody out
there who's happier than I am

382
00:22:52,728 --> 00:22:53,763
I will kill them.

383
00:22:53,796 --> 00:22:55,832
I will freakin' kill them.

384
00:23:09,644 --> 00:23:10,846
What's gonna happen to her

385
00:23:10,880 --> 00:23:12,015
when I'm gone?

386
00:23:13,882 --> 00:23:15,050
Is he smiling?

387
00:23:16,951 --> 00:23:18,353
He does seem satisfied.

388
00:23:20,088 --> 00:23:21,757
Who's gonna help me

389
00:23:21,790 --> 00:23:23,692
when I can't walk anymore?

390
00:23:24,660 --> 00:23:26,696
Why is he smiling?

391
00:23:26,728 --> 00:23:28,831
Misery loves company.

392
00:23:28,863 --> 00:23:30,632
I picked Jason up
from soccer practice

393
00:23:30,665 --> 00:23:33,535
after waiting an hour
and he just glares at me.

394
00:23:33,568 --> 00:23:35,403
Two years ago he worshiped
the ground I walked on,

395
00:23:35,437 --> 00:23:37,106
now it's the silent treatment.

396
00:23:37,139 --> 00:23:39,142
Between him and this one
I don't sleep anymore.

397
00:23:39,174 --> 00:23:40,342
Why didn't I have kids

398
00:23:40,375 --> 00:23:42,545
when I had the chance?

399
00:23:42,577 --> 00:23:43,779
COMPLAINING MOTHER
VOICEOVER: I don't know

400
00:23:43,813 --> 00:23:45,281
how much longer
I can keep going.

401
00:23:47,950 --> 00:23:50,219
I'll never get a job.

402
00:23:52,153 --> 00:23:55,190
I hate my job.

403
00:23:55,223 --> 00:23:57,392
I wish I
was doing something I love.

404
00:23:58,294 --> 00:23:59,528
Why can't
I make a living

405
00:23:59,562 --> 00:24:01,430
doing what I love?

406
00:24:01,462 --> 00:24:03,598
Need a
vacation, I'm exhausted.

407
00:24:03,632 --> 00:24:05,200
Just
got back from vacation

408
00:24:05,234 --> 00:24:06,235
and I'm exhausted.

409
00:24:07,736 --> 00:24:09,472
What
am I gonna do with my life?

410
00:24:09,505 --> 00:24:11,040
What
if I end up alone?

411
00:24:12,507 --> 00:24:14,442
He
doesn't call, he doesn't call.

412
00:24:14,476 --> 00:24:15,945
Why doesn't he call?

413
00:24:15,978 --> 00:24:18,214
How could I
get Jenny to go out with me?

414
00:24:30,825 --> 00:24:34,229
It's OK, soon
they'll turn into them.

415
00:24:34,263 --> 00:24:35,998
I don't get it.

416
00:24:36,030 --> 00:24:37,933
How did they?

417
00:24:37,967 --> 00:24:39,768
Turn into that?

418
00:24:39,802 --> 00:24:43,473
Worries, fears,
anxiety, sadness.

419
00:24:59,755 --> 00:25:02,024
Why is he so happy?

420
00:25:54,410 --> 00:25:56,946
He lives
alone in a crumbling shack.

421
00:25:56,978 --> 00:25:58,748
What's he so happy about?

422
00:26:01,216 --> 00:26:03,419
!@*#$!@#!

423
00:26:16,498 --> 00:26:19,735
That's it, I'm goin' in!

424
00:26:39,455 --> 00:26:41,057
Hello.

425
00:26:41,090 --> 00:26:42,491
Hello, sir.

426
00:26:42,524 --> 00:26:44,459
Haven't eaten in three days.

427
00:26:44,492 --> 00:26:46,828
Wondering if you could
spare some food? I...

428
00:26:49,064 --> 00:26:50,032
Is that herb-crusted
beef, with...

429
00:26:51,566 --> 00:26:53,001
scalloped potatoes and...

430
00:26:54,902 --> 00:26:57,172
couscous?

431
00:26:57,206 --> 00:27:02,211
Now that is simply
amazing.

432
00:27:03,612 --> 00:27:05,815
You've got the quite the
nose on yourself, don't you?

433
00:27:05,847 --> 00:27:08,283
Well, you have to
come inside now.

434
00:27:46,220 --> 00:27:48,824
I drink to you, my friend.

435
00:27:48,856 --> 00:27:51,192
May your cupboards
be full of couscous,

436
00:27:51,226 --> 00:27:55,664
your mind clear of
clutter and your heart,

437
00:27:55,697 --> 00:27:58,133
may your heart be
filled with joy.

438
00:28:03,171 --> 00:28:04,640
Thank you, my friend.

439
00:28:06,107 --> 00:28:07,042
Thank you.

440
00:28:18,786 --> 00:28:20,989
Who are you?

441
00:28:34,001 --> 00:28:37,172
So you have a feast
like that every night?

442
00:28:37,206 --> 00:28:39,842
Yeah, yeah, I don't
go a day without it.

443
00:28:39,874 --> 00:28:41,844
How long you been doin' it?

444
00:28:42,744 --> 00:28:44,147
Ever since I can remember.

445
00:28:45,581 --> 00:28:49,151
But how can you afford
all that food every night?

446
00:28:49,183 --> 00:28:50,885
I'm a fixer.

447
00:28:50,919 --> 00:28:52,955
A repairman, you know, I
can't really make anything

448
00:28:52,988 --> 00:28:56,258
but, why, I can fix
just about anything.

449
00:28:57,125 --> 00:28:59,628
So in the morning, I go out

450
00:29:00,696 --> 00:29:03,265
and I fix things.

451
00:29:03,297 --> 00:29:06,768
Once I've made 40 bucks I buy
all the food and drink I need

452
00:29:06,802 --> 00:29:08,938
and I go home.

453
00:29:08,970 --> 00:29:10,472
That's great, that's great.

454
00:29:10,506 --> 00:29:12,440
But tell me, where do you
get all your fixing work?

455
00:29:12,473 --> 00:29:15,343
The studio, you
know, Renquist Studios?

456
00:29:15,376 --> 00:29:17,212
They've known me
since I was a boy.

457
00:29:18,146 --> 00:29:20,548
My father used to work for them.

458
00:29:20,582 --> 00:29:22,818
I'm not on the
books or anything,

459
00:29:22,851 --> 00:29:24,053
but I just help out
when they need it

460
00:29:24,085 --> 00:29:27,355
and they sort of just
pay me on the spot.

461
00:29:27,389 --> 00:29:28,724
- How nice.
- Yeah.

462
00:29:30,057 --> 00:29:32,827
That's right, you heard me.

463
00:29:32,861 --> 00:29:34,964
If I hear of anyone
giving any work

464
00:29:34,997 --> 00:29:38,300
to any bugger who's
not on the payroll,

465
00:29:38,333 --> 00:29:41,769
I will personally grind
their bones into dust

466
00:29:41,803 --> 00:29:43,639
while they're sleeping!

467
00:29:43,671 --> 00:29:44,507
Got me?

468
00:29:50,511 --> 00:29:52,780
Sorry Larry, I don't have
any work for you today.

469
00:29:52,814 --> 00:29:55,584
Oh, that's OK, Bob.

470
00:29:55,616 --> 00:29:57,418
Not a problem at all.

471
00:30:02,990 --> 00:30:05,594
I'm sorry, Larry,
there's nothing.

472
00:30:05,626 --> 00:30:06,728
Are you sure?

473
00:30:06,761 --> 00:30:08,630
There's a broken
wheelbarrow right there.

474
00:30:08,663 --> 00:30:12,033
It's supposed to be broken

475
00:30:12,066 --> 00:30:13,001
for the scene.

476
00:30:15,938 --> 00:30:18,841
Oh, OK it's all right.

477
00:30:20,609 --> 00:30:23,346
It's OK, hey, hey, hey.

478
00:30:26,113 --> 00:30:26,949
I'll see ya'.

479
00:30:32,888 --> 00:30:35,691
I feel terrible,
Larry, I really do.

480
00:30:35,723 --> 00:30:38,827
I just hope your Dad, may God
rest his soul, forgives me,

481
00:30:39,861 --> 00:30:42,164
but we can't hire you anymore.

482
00:30:42,197 --> 00:30:45,633
Oh, Douglas, I've been
fixin' stuff for you guys...

483
00:30:45,667 --> 00:30:47,303
- Since you were six.
- Yeah.

484
00:30:47,335 --> 00:30:48,570
I know it, Larry,

485
00:30:48,603 --> 00:30:51,273
and you're better than
anyone on the payroll.

486
00:30:51,305 --> 00:30:53,875
So then, then, why?

487
00:30:56,911 --> 00:31:00,615
The King said no
more non-payroll hires

488
00:31:00,649 --> 00:31:02,685
for fixing jobs.

489
00:31:05,754 --> 00:31:10,726
Huh.

490
00:31:39,321 --> 00:31:41,557
God,
I know this is from You.

491
00:31:41,590 --> 00:31:44,827
I know
this is for the best.

492
00:32:13,287 --> 00:32:15,356
We're not following him?

493
00:32:15,390 --> 00:32:17,293
I just need to rest a minute.

494
00:32:44,353 --> 00:32:46,656
What just happened?

495
00:32:58,967 --> 00:33:02,470
You need
a hand with that?

496
00:33:02,504 --> 00:33:04,473
Dude, you like read my mind.

497
00:33:04,506 --> 00:33:06,776
Honestly never used
one of these before.

498
00:33:07,976 --> 00:33:10,478
Well, let me take
it off your hands.

499
00:33:10,511 --> 00:33:13,915
I'm sure you've got much more
important things to be doing.

500
00:33:13,949 --> 00:33:15,984
Dude, thanks.

501
00:33:18,386 --> 00:33:20,588
Dude, you like
saved my life, man.

502
00:33:20,622 --> 00:33:24,426
Honestly, this is
worth every peso.

503
00:33:24,459 --> 00:33:27,863
The pleasure's all
mine, dude.

504
00:33:29,765 --> 00:33:33,002
Can't wait to see
a grown man cry.

505
00:33:36,270 --> 00:33:38,473
Mmm, what smells so good?

506
00:33:39,373 --> 00:33:40,608
Eggplant?

507
00:33:42,811 --> 00:33:43,712
What?

508
00:33:48,950 --> 00:33:51,586
Eggplant Parmesan?

509
00:33:54,956 --> 00:33:55,791
Garlic bread?

510
00:33:57,892 --> 00:34:01,196
Caramel apple
crostata for dessert?

511
00:34:01,228 --> 00:34:04,065
Got it, come on in.

512
00:34:18,113 --> 00:34:19,248
Awww.

513
00:34:19,281 --> 00:34:20,116
Ay.

514
00:34:26,922 --> 00:34:28,891
I drink to you, my friend.

515
00:34:30,357 --> 00:34:34,263
May your cupboards always
be full of crostata.

516
00:34:34,296 --> 00:34:36,198
Your mind clear of clutter

517
00:34:36,230 --> 00:34:38,667
and your heart filled with joy.

518
00:34:39,667 --> 00:34:41,169
Come here, my brother.

519
00:34:43,103 --> 00:34:45,540
Thank you, thank you.

520
00:34:46,707 --> 00:34:48,075
I drooled on your sweater.

521
00:34:48,109 --> 00:34:50,078
Oh, no, I'll wash it
out, it's all right.

522
00:34:50,111 --> 00:34:51,413
It's wine but...

523
00:34:52,980 --> 00:34:56,017
It's funny, he never has any
trouble falling asleep here.

524
00:34:58,386 --> 00:35:00,122
Who are you?

525
00:35:01,489 --> 00:35:03,991
So, were you fixing
things on the lot again?

526
00:35:04,024 --> 00:35:06,027
Is that how you got
the money for the food?

527
00:35:06,060 --> 00:35:10,732
No, no, apparently the big
cheese, King of the studio,

528
00:35:12,167 --> 00:35:16,438
he forbade any non-studio
hires for repairs yesterday.

529
00:35:16,471 --> 00:35:21,076
So I couldn't find a job, but
then I bumped into this guy

530
00:35:21,109 --> 00:35:25,380
trying to cut wood for a film
set and I helped him out.

531
00:35:25,413 --> 00:35:26,448
He paid me.

532
00:35:26,480 --> 00:35:28,216
- How wonderful.
- Yeah.

533
00:35:29,518 --> 00:35:33,589
Hey dude, more wood
for choppin'?

534
00:35:33,622 --> 00:35:35,123
Dude, I wish,

535
00:35:35,156 --> 00:35:39,594
but I got in some serious
trouble about manana.

536
00:35:39,627 --> 00:35:42,263
I mean, yesterday.

537
00:35:42,297 --> 00:35:46,001
No more non-studio
hires, sorry dude.

538
00:35:46,033 --> 00:35:47,969
I wish I could use ya'.

539
00:35:48,002 --> 00:35:49,805
Oh, no, it's OK,

540
00:35:49,837 --> 00:35:52,006
I understand.

541
00:35:53,542 --> 00:35:55,710
- I
- know this is from You.

542
00:35:57,478 --> 00:36:01,049
God, I know
that this is for the best.

543
00:36:15,430 --> 00:36:16,665
You don't want to follow him?

544
00:36:16,698 --> 00:36:19,167
Hold on, I'm thirsty.

545
00:36:38,453 --> 00:36:39,988
I don't get it,
what's in there,

546
00:36:40,020 --> 00:36:42,490
an amusement park or somethin'?

547
00:36:59,873 --> 00:37:01,442
Ohh.

548
00:37:02,877 --> 00:37:03,779
Ohhh.

549
00:37:03,812 --> 00:37:06,381
Larchmont, what happened?

550
00:37:06,413 --> 00:37:10,352
Ah, I slipped on
a banana, Larry.

551
00:37:10,384 --> 00:37:13,220
That's a good
one, you slipped on a banana.

552
00:37:13,254 --> 00:37:14,989
I really slipped on a banana.

553
00:37:15,022 --> 00:37:16,524
Oh.

554
00:37:16,558 --> 00:37:18,393
If I don't finish cleaning
these stables by end o' day

555
00:37:18,426 --> 00:37:20,495
they're going to fire me.

556
00:37:20,527 --> 00:37:22,830
They already
grumbling I too old.

557
00:37:22,864 --> 00:37:24,399
And you know what?

558
00:37:24,431 --> 00:37:25,634
They're right.

559
00:37:25,667 --> 00:37:28,536
Larchmont, you
leave this to me.

560
00:38:18,152 --> 00:38:20,288
- Don't you look happy.
- What?

561
00:38:20,321 --> 00:38:22,190
You were smiling and
dancing in your sleep.

562
00:38:22,223 --> 00:38:23,625
- No I wasn't.
- Yes, you were.

563
00:38:23,658 --> 00:38:25,993
You were even singing,
it woke me up.

564
00:38:26,027 --> 00:38:27,529
No.

565
00:38:27,562 --> 00:38:29,464
- You were.
- Oh, yeah.

566
00:38:35,502 --> 00:38:36,738
Ah.

567
00:38:41,308 --> 00:38:42,143
Ah.

568
00:38:50,151 --> 00:38:50,951
Ah.

569
00:38:50,984 --> 00:38:51,953
Hey.

570
00:38:58,192 --> 00:39:00,428
So how's the wood
chopping business?

571
00:39:00,462 --> 00:39:01,897
Well, I wouldn't know.

572
00:39:01,930 --> 00:39:05,933
King of Hollywood outlawed
outsiders from chopping wood.

573
00:39:05,966 --> 00:39:07,501
If I didn't know better,

574
00:39:07,535 --> 00:39:10,238
I would say the King
was out to get me.

575
00:39:14,109 --> 00:39:15,977
That's ridiculous, isn't it?

576
00:39:16,009 --> 00:39:17,845
Of course.

577
00:39:19,413 --> 00:39:21,917
But I bumped into this guy
cleaning out stables on set

578
00:39:21,950 --> 00:39:25,786
and I helped him out and
he was pretty grateful.

579
00:39:25,819 --> 00:39:28,457
Fantastic.

580
00:39:30,591 --> 00:39:32,760
I don't know how
they found out, Larry,

581
00:39:32,794 --> 00:39:34,429
but they found out.

582
00:39:34,462 --> 00:39:38,100
They say if I hire you
again I'm finished.

583
00:39:38,132 --> 00:39:41,002
Or my bones probably
will be ground into dust.

584
00:39:42,636 --> 00:39:46,707
You know, my ex-son-in-law,
don't pay no child support.

585
00:39:46,741 --> 00:39:49,277
I gotta help my
little girl, Larry.

586
00:39:49,310 --> 00:39:51,113
I gotta hold on to this job.

587
00:40:05,393 --> 00:40:08,530
God,
I know this is from You.

588
00:40:08,562 --> 00:40:10,832
I know that this
is for the best.

589
00:40:14,201 --> 00:40:16,036
We're not gonna
follow him, are we?

590
00:40:16,069 --> 00:40:19,341
You're a smarty-pants,
aren't you?

591
00:40:36,623 --> 00:40:37,926
Meketo mi bon bon.

592
00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:41,462
Son of a *#@!

593
00:40:41,495 --> 00:40:42,930
Don't count that.

594
00:40:57,911 --> 00:41:00,314
You
hear me Corporal Sagget?!

595
00:41:01,649 --> 00:41:03,185
Sagget!

596
00:41:03,218 --> 00:41:07,489
We need 200 more
soldiers, Pronto!

597
00:41:07,522 --> 00:41:09,090
But sir,

598
00:41:09,122 --> 00:41:10,858
no one's volunteering.

599
00:41:10,892 --> 00:41:13,127
No buts, Sagget.

600
00:41:13,160 --> 00:41:15,329
Just recruits.

601
00:41:15,363 --> 00:41:16,163
Do

602
00:41:16,196 --> 00:41:16,997
you

603
00:41:17,031 --> 00:41:17,833
hear

604
00:41:17,866 --> 00:41:20,134
meeeeee?!!!!!!!

605
00:41:21,169 --> 00:41:22,103
Yes, sir!

606
00:41:27,341 --> 00:41:31,245
Hand me a three wood
if you would there, um.

607
00:41:31,279 --> 00:41:32,247
Yes, sir.

608
00:41:47,060 --> 00:41:48,162
Excuse me.

609
00:41:49,596 --> 00:41:51,466
I saw the sign?

610
00:41:51,498 --> 00:41:52,567
That's great.

611
00:41:53,701 --> 00:41:55,837
I mean, you did?

612
00:41:55,870 --> 00:41:58,406
Yeah, Larry Fixer.

613
00:41:58,439 --> 00:42:00,174
Most people just
call me the Fixer.

614
00:42:01,743 --> 00:42:05,145
You are still seeking soldiers
for temporary service?

615
00:42:05,178 --> 00:42:06,981
You're looking for
the short-term option.

616
00:42:07,015 --> 00:42:08,616
Yeah, I hope that's doable.

617
00:42:08,649 --> 00:42:10,718
Don't see why not.

618
00:42:10,752 --> 00:42:12,786
Oh, there is just one thing.

619
00:42:12,819 --> 00:42:15,022
I would need to
leave every night.

620
00:42:16,056 --> 00:42:17,892
Sure, we can do that.

621
00:42:19,294 --> 00:42:22,196
Oh, and I would need
to be paid every morning.

622
00:42:22,230 --> 00:42:23,198
Is that possible?

623
00:42:24,399 --> 00:42:25,234
Ahhhhh!

624
00:42:26,801 --> 00:42:29,237
I think we can
work something out.

625
00:43:15,082 --> 00:43:16,550
Hey.

626
00:44:09,569 --> 00:44:11,138
Who are you?

627
00:44:13,241 --> 00:44:14,843
So I guess
work's going OK?

628
00:44:14,875 --> 00:44:16,477
You know, I never
thought I'd say this,

629
00:44:16,511 --> 00:44:19,514
but it seems the work at the
studio is all finished for me.

630
00:44:20,547 --> 00:44:21,950
No one will hire me.

631
00:44:21,982 --> 00:44:23,484
- No.
- Yeah.

632
00:44:23,518 --> 00:44:24,953
What are you gonna do?

633
00:44:24,986 --> 00:44:27,388
It's too bad you can't
make your feasts anymore.

634
00:44:27,422 --> 00:44:29,190
Oh, no, I can still do 'em.

635
00:44:29,223 --> 00:44:32,594
Yeah, I saw this sign
for soldiers for hire

636
00:44:32,627 --> 00:44:35,296
and as soon as I found out they
would pay me every morning,

637
00:44:35,328 --> 00:44:36,364
I signed right up.

638
00:44:37,631 --> 00:44:39,299
What a miracle.

639
00:44:39,332 --> 00:44:41,635
I am so happy for you.

640
00:45:02,924 --> 00:45:03,725
Yes, sir.

641
00:45:04,692 --> 00:45:05,493
No, sir.

642
00:45:06,359 --> 00:45:07,161
Yes, sir.

643
00:45:08,428 --> 00:45:09,229
Understood, sir.

644
00:45:10,297 --> 00:45:11,466
Loud and clear.

645
00:45:12,600 --> 00:45:15,504
Marge, get the Fixer
in here, pronto,

646
00:45:16,703 --> 00:45:21,709
Ah. Hmmm. Ummm. Brrr. Ummm.

647
00:45:24,444 --> 00:45:25,980
Can't pay you today, Fixer.

648
00:45:28,149 --> 00:45:29,350
Oh, but we had an agreement

649
00:45:29,382 --> 00:45:30,618
that you would pay me every day.

650
00:45:30,651 --> 00:45:32,654
True, but the
Captain just called,

651
00:45:32,687 --> 00:45:35,390
the King decreed that
no one gets paid today.

652
00:45:35,422 --> 00:45:36,390
The King, what King?

653
00:45:36,424 --> 00:45:38,692
You know, Renquist.

654
00:45:38,725 --> 00:45:41,628
Oh, Renquist, like
the studio Renquist.

655
00:45:41,661 --> 00:45:44,031
What? You didn't
know? He runs this army.

656
00:45:44,064 --> 00:45:45,232
Oh, no, I didn't know that.

657
00:45:45,265 --> 00:45:47,201
Anyway, you don't
understand, corporal,

658
00:45:47,234 --> 00:45:49,503
I really need that money or
else I can't do my little...

659
00:45:49,536 --> 00:45:50,705
Can't what?

660
00:45:50,738 --> 00:45:52,739
Well like... Oh
it's not important.

661
00:45:52,772 --> 00:45:55,509
Listen, I just really,
really need the money.

662
00:45:55,542 --> 00:45:57,010
Hands are tied, Fixer.

663
00:45:57,044 --> 00:45:58,145
Can't go against the King.

664
00:45:58,178 --> 00:45:59,613
I will pay you
tomorrow for two days,

665
00:45:59,647 --> 00:46:01,049
but today it's impossible.

666
00:46:03,384 --> 00:46:04,386
Sorry.

667
00:46:06,654 --> 00:46:08,156
OK.

668
00:46:08,189 --> 00:46:11,460
I know
this is for the best.

669
00:46:16,497 --> 00:46:17,332
Ah.

670
00:46:46,359 --> 00:46:47,694
Hey! So how's
the new job goin'?

671
00:46:47,727 --> 00:46:49,062
Oh, good now.

672
00:46:49,096 --> 00:46:50,498
It was a little
hairy for a second.

673
00:46:50,531 --> 00:46:52,200
The King, he suspended
all salaries.

674
00:46:52,232 --> 00:46:55,504
I wasn't sure I was gonna get
the money to make a feast.

675
00:46:57,471 --> 00:46:58,806
Well?

676
00:46:58,839 --> 00:47:00,007
Well what?

677
00:47:00,040 --> 00:47:02,309
Well, how did you get
the money, damn you?

678
00:47:02,343 --> 00:47:04,111
I mean,
I'm just curious.

679
00:47:05,645 --> 00:47:06,714
You!

680
00:47:06,747 --> 00:47:08,882
I pawned my gun.

681
00:47:08,915 --> 00:47:09,984
How much for the gun?

682
00:47:11,852 --> 00:47:12,654
Eh,

683
00:47:13,721 --> 00:47:14,822
$40.

684
00:47:14,855 --> 00:47:15,757
Deal.

685
00:47:15,790 --> 00:47:16,958
Yeah, so when I get paid today,

686
00:47:16,991 --> 00:47:19,227
I'll redeem the gun
and put it back.

687
00:47:21,094 --> 00:47:22,163
How much for this?

688
00:47:23,797 --> 00:47:25,100
Two bucks.

689
00:47:27,902 --> 00:47:29,504
No one will know
the difference.

690
00:47:29,536 --> 00:47:32,406
Like I said, I can fix
anything, I tell ya'.

691
00:47:32,439 --> 00:47:34,274
The King will
never know a thing.

692
00:47:34,308 --> 00:47:35,544
That's wonderful.

693
00:47:40,580 --> 00:47:42,550
I have an enemy prisoner.

694
00:47:44,018 --> 00:47:46,754
He killed 20 of our
men in cold blood.

695
00:47:46,786 --> 00:47:48,022
The government wants him dead,

696
00:47:48,055 --> 00:47:49,890
but they don't want
to do it themselves.

697
00:47:49,924 --> 00:47:52,427
Call that Fixer
guy you recruited.

698
00:47:52,460 --> 00:47:53,228
To kill a man?

699
00:47:53,261 --> 00:47:54,295
You have a problem with that?

700
00:47:54,328 --> 00:47:55,029
Yes, sir.

701
00:47:55,062 --> 00:47:56,230
I mean, no, sir.

702
00:47:56,263 --> 00:48:00,300
Anyway, the idiot
pawned his gun.

703
00:48:00,334 --> 00:48:01,803
He's carryin' around a fake.

704
00:48:01,835 --> 00:48:04,038
He has the gall to think
he could get away with it.

705
00:48:04,071 --> 00:48:05,573
Ha!

706
00:48:05,605 --> 00:48:08,276
Let's see him get
himself out of this one.

707
00:48:09,442 --> 00:48:11,511
Roberto!

708
00:48:11,544 --> 00:48:14,781
Get me my cappuccino, pronto.

709
00:48:41,575 --> 00:48:45,413
You summoned me, Mr. Renquist?

710
00:48:45,446 --> 00:48:47,815
Yes, execute that
man over there.

711
00:48:47,848 --> 00:48:49,484
He's a vicious criminal.

712
00:48:49,517 --> 00:48:51,886
A terrible, frightening
monster of a man.

713
00:48:51,919 --> 00:48:55,022
He's a threat to society
and to all of mankind.

714
00:48:57,924 --> 00:49:01,161
Oh, but I've never
killed anyone before.

715
00:49:01,194 --> 00:49:02,529
Well, it's a
perfect time to start.

716
00:49:02,562 --> 00:49:04,097
Please, you have to get
someone else to do it.

717
00:49:04,131 --> 00:49:05,565
I gave you an order, private.

718
00:49:05,598 --> 00:49:07,401
You have a problem
following orders?

719
00:49:09,870 --> 00:49:11,873
Is his case really that clear?

720
00:49:13,341 --> 00:49:15,843
I mean what if his
case is not clear?

721
00:49:15,875 --> 00:49:16,843
What if he didn't do it?

722
00:49:16,877 --> 00:49:18,079
Maybe he didn't do it?

723
00:49:18,111 --> 00:49:19,446
What if he doesn't
deserve to die?

724
00:49:19,480 --> 00:49:22,050
The case
against him is certain.

725
00:49:22,082 --> 00:49:23,250
No doubt whatsoever.

726
00:49:23,283 --> 00:49:24,518
Execute him now.

727
00:49:35,529 --> 00:49:36,831
Ohhhhhh,

728
00:49:36,864 --> 00:49:38,333
_Uwaaaahhhhhhhh!

729
00:49:38,366 --> 00:49:39,567
Ohhhhhhhhhh!

730
00:49:39,600 --> 00:49:43,171
Wuaaaahhhhh!

731
00:49:43,203 --> 00:49:46,707
God almighty, never
in my entire life

732
00:49:46,741 --> 00:49:49,310
have I killed a
person, any person.

733
00:49:49,343 --> 00:49:54,214
If this man is innocent, I
mean really and truly innocent,

734
00:49:54,247 --> 00:49:55,982
I'm beggin' ya' God,

735
00:49:56,015 --> 00:49:59,953
you sweet, sweet God,

736
00:49:59,986 --> 00:50:02,623
let my gun not be a gun.

737
00:50:04,325 --> 00:50:08,763
Let it be a harmless and
completely useless toy.

738
00:50:27,114 --> 00:50:27,749
Thank you.

739
00:50:32,919 --> 00:50:34,088
Come here, Fixer.

740
00:50:36,223 --> 00:50:38,359
Go in peace, Fixer.

741
00:50:38,392 --> 00:50:39,694
Go in peace.

742
00:50:39,727 --> 00:50:42,230
Thank you so much,
thank you so much.

743
00:50:42,263 --> 00:50:44,766
And may I say, you
look so familiar.

744
00:50:45,665 --> 00:50:47,033
Hmmm.

745
00:50:47,067 --> 00:50:48,436
- Cut.
- That's it?

746
00:50:48,468 --> 00:50:49,903
It's late,
you need to sleep.

747
00:50:49,937 --> 00:50:50,772
But I don't get it.

748
00:50:50,805 --> 00:50:51,605
You don't get it?

749
00:50:51,638 --> 00:50:52,439
I don't get it.

750
00:50:52,473 --> 00:50:53,440
You don't get it.

751
00:50:53,473 --> 00:50:54,975
Tell you what,

752
00:50:55,009 --> 00:50:57,745
tomorrow I'll tell you the
other version of the story.

753
00:50:57,777 --> 00:50:59,013
There's
another version?

754
00:51:16,297 --> 00:51:18,833
Rebetzen Eliana,

755
00:51:18,866 --> 00:51:22,402
my dream continued last night.

756
00:51:22,435 --> 00:51:25,705
Julio Iglesias and I

757
00:51:25,739 --> 00:51:27,909
were having a baby.

758
00:51:27,942 --> 00:51:29,043
There I was

759
00:51:29,076 --> 00:51:33,448
giving birth in Yankee Stadium.

760
00:51:33,480 --> 00:51:36,350
Thousands of people watching me.

761
00:51:38,685 --> 00:51:42,155
Yan and I never
had kids, you know,

762
00:51:42,189 --> 00:51:44,257
but I always imagined

763
00:51:44,290 --> 00:51:47,694
that it would be more
painful than that.

764
00:51:48,895 --> 00:51:53,000
But of course, it
was just a dream.

765
00:51:53,933 --> 00:51:57,337
So that's makes no sense.

766
00:51:57,370 --> 00:51:58,638
Brenda, what are you dong?

767
00:51:58,672 --> 00:52:00,174
What do you mean?

768
00:52:00,207 --> 00:52:02,576
Rebetzen Eliana doesn't
speak a word of English.

769
00:52:03,877 --> 00:52:05,680
She only understands
Hebrew and French.

770
00:52:09,183 --> 00:52:10,651
How did you end
up coming here?

771
00:52:10,683 --> 00:52:13,187
Oh, I heard about it
when I was back at home.

772
00:52:13,219 --> 00:52:14,455
I was writing an article

773
00:52:14,488 --> 00:52:16,022
about the power of
prayer in healing.

774
00:52:16,056 --> 00:52:17,692
So you found a connection?

775
00:52:17,725 --> 00:52:21,496
Well, in the end, I figured
that if the soul is healed

776
00:52:21,529 --> 00:52:23,397
and doing what it
needs to be doing,

777
00:52:23,430 --> 00:52:25,600
the body just naturally follows.

778
00:52:25,632 --> 00:52:27,134
How do you heal your soul?

779
00:52:27,167 --> 00:52:28,402
I have no idea.

780
00:52:29,969 --> 00:52:32,105
But they call, Rebbe Nachman
the doctor of the soul.

781
00:52:32,138 --> 00:52:34,374
This is just so strange,
doctors of souls, fixers, kings,

782
00:52:34,408 --> 00:52:36,076
it can't get any
weirder than this.

783
00:52:36,109 --> 00:52:36,977
Ah!

784
00:52:37,944 --> 00:52:40,046
She doesn't look so good.

785
00:52:40,080 --> 00:52:41,616
You think?

786
00:52:41,649 --> 00:52:43,417
You said you had another
version of the story.

787
00:52:43,450 --> 00:52:45,919
Ah, yes.

788
00:52:51,959 --> 00:52:53,560
Wow, who's that?

789
00:52:54,495 --> 00:52:55,529
The King.

790
00:52:55,562 --> 00:52:56,597
The real king.

791
00:52:58,131 --> 00:52:59,666
This is his land.

792
00:53:00,801 --> 00:53:02,536
He does
seem different.

793
00:53:03,837 --> 00:53:06,507
I have everything.

794
00:53:06,540 --> 00:53:08,743
There can be no
one happier than I.

795
00:53:09,944 --> 00:53:12,714
Who can have fewer
worries than I have?

796
00:53:14,348 --> 00:53:17,183
Maybe I'll investigate.

797
00:53:19,919 --> 00:53:22,489
Louis, it's been four years,
the bakery isn't working.

798
00:53:22,522 --> 00:53:24,892
I'm tired of having
nothing to eat.

799
00:53:32,098 --> 00:53:33,500
Who'll take care of me

800
00:53:33,533 --> 00:53:36,069
when I can't walk anymore?

801
00:53:43,910 --> 00:53:45,378
What's gonna happen to her

802
00:53:45,411 --> 00:53:47,881
when I'm gone?

803
00:53:47,915 --> 00:53:50,051
Yeah, but this is just
like the other story.

804
00:53:50,084 --> 00:53:52,853
Yes and no, let's
just fast forward.

805
00:53:55,122 --> 00:53:56,924
How is he happy?

806
00:53:56,957 --> 00:53:59,093
His home is sunk
into the ground.

807
00:53:59,125 --> 00:53:59,960
He has nothing.

808
00:54:01,127 --> 00:54:03,363
He is behaving as if
he has everything.

809
00:54:03,397 --> 00:54:04,699
I must find out.

810
00:54:05,799 --> 00:54:06,901
Yes?

811
00:54:06,933 --> 00:54:08,969
Entree, door's quite open.

812
00:54:09,002 --> 00:54:12,839
Consider my home your home
from floor to ceiling.

813
00:54:12,872 --> 00:54:13,674
Wow,

814
00:54:14,507 --> 00:54:15,643
thanks.

815
00:54:38,131 --> 00:54:40,334
So it
is possible to have nothing

816
00:54:40,366 --> 00:54:42,135
yet be totally happy.

817
00:54:43,569 --> 00:54:46,539
But I wonder, can he keeps
this state of happiness

818
00:54:46,573 --> 00:54:49,310
when things are
not going his way?

819
00:54:53,714 --> 00:54:58,252
Let me see what happens
when I ruin this for him.

820
00:54:58,285 --> 00:55:00,687
The rest of the story
is pretty much the same.

821
00:55:02,689 --> 00:55:04,958
So what's the difference?

822
00:55:04,991 --> 00:55:08,294
So tell me, where did
you get all this stuff?

823
00:55:08,328 --> 00:55:09,363
Well, I'm a fixer.

824
00:55:09,395 --> 00:55:10,864
What do you think?

825
00:55:10,897 --> 00:55:14,701
Well, this king
doesn't seem like a bad king.

826
00:55:14,734 --> 00:55:17,837
If I hire you, I'll be
arrested, by king's orders.

827
00:55:17,870 --> 00:55:21,474
He just wants to see
what The Fixer is made of.

828
00:55:21,507 --> 00:55:24,745
Can he stay happy when
things are not going his way.

829
00:55:24,777 --> 00:55:25,913
Is that it?

830
00:55:25,946 --> 00:55:30,183
No, of all the places
the King could be,

831
00:55:30,216 --> 00:55:32,419
he goes out of his way
to eat with this guy

832
00:55:32,453 --> 00:55:33,320
and stay in his home.

833
00:55:33,352 --> 00:55:34,521
And why him?

834
00:55:34,555 --> 00:55:39,060
Is it because he's
happy no matter what?

835
00:55:39,093 --> 00:55:41,594
Wouldn't you prefer the
company of such a person?

836
00:55:41,627 --> 00:55:44,497
Yeah, but I have to tell ya'

837
00:55:44,531 --> 00:55:46,100
that's a very hard
level to be at,

838
00:55:46,132 --> 00:55:48,902
don't you ever just
wake up in a bad mood,

839
00:55:48,935 --> 00:55:51,238
or sometimes a person
has real problems,

840
00:55:51,270 --> 00:55:52,539
sickness, poverty, pain.

841
00:55:52,573 --> 00:55:54,475
Are we not supposed
to feel anything,

842
00:55:54,507 --> 00:55:55,810
become a society of robots

843
00:55:55,843 --> 00:55:57,478
putting a pretend
smile on our face

844
00:55:57,511 --> 00:55:59,779
while actually screaming inside?

845
00:55:59,812 --> 00:56:02,482
This is the part
of the story you never saw.

846
00:56:02,515 --> 00:56:03,517
Watch again.

847
00:56:05,886 --> 00:56:06,954
We're going in?

848
00:56:07,921 --> 00:56:09,656
We're going in.

849
00:56:09,689 --> 00:56:10,724
We're going in.

850
00:56:11,892 --> 00:56:13,527
What's he doing?

851
00:56:17,797 --> 00:56:21,902
You said sometimes
you just want to scream.

852
00:56:24,270 --> 00:56:25,238
So scream!

853
00:56:25,272 --> 00:56:26,640
Ahhh!

854
00:56:26,672 --> 00:56:27,475
Yell!

855
00:56:27,507 --> 00:56:28,308
Ahhh!

856
00:56:30,009 --> 00:56:32,379
- I can do that?
- Of course.

857
00:56:32,411 --> 00:56:34,647
God, help me!

858
00:56:34,681 --> 00:56:36,117
I don't know what to do.

859
00:56:36,149 --> 00:56:37,317
Ah!

860
00:56:37,350 --> 00:56:38,618
What do You want me to do?

861
00:56:38,652 --> 00:56:39,820
I don't know what to do.

862
00:56:39,852 --> 00:56:41,421
Ah!

863
00:56:41,455 --> 00:56:43,056
I need to make a living.

864
00:56:43,089 --> 00:56:44,725
I can't take it anymore.

865
00:56:44,757 --> 00:56:46,227
Ah!

866
00:56:46,259 --> 00:56:47,962
I'm willing to do anything.

867
00:56:48,828 --> 00:56:50,830
Just help me.

868
00:56:50,864 --> 00:56:54,468
A person's screams
can carry their prayers

869
00:56:54,500 --> 00:56:56,403
to the highest places.

870
00:56:57,870 --> 00:56:59,839
God, I know this is from You.

871
00:56:59,872 --> 00:57:03,042
And I know this is for
the best, just guide me.

872
00:57:03,076 --> 00:57:05,880
A broken heart
is very precious.

873
00:57:05,913 --> 00:57:07,815
Help me trust in only You.

874
00:57:07,848 --> 00:57:09,283
Give me faith.

875
00:57:09,315 --> 00:57:12,752
Talk to God every day.

876
00:57:12,785 --> 00:57:15,054
For at least an hour.

877
00:57:15,087 --> 00:57:18,959
Be yourself with Him,
tell Him everything.

878
00:57:20,893 --> 00:57:22,062
So that's how

879
00:57:22,094 --> 00:57:23,430
he stayed happy
despite everything.

880
00:57:23,462 --> 00:57:25,365
I thought he was
super-human or something.

881
00:57:29,803 --> 00:57:31,705
Rebecca!

882
00:57:31,738 --> 00:57:32,573
Rebecca!

883
00:57:35,741 --> 00:57:37,844
I thought you were...

884
00:57:37,877 --> 00:57:39,712
Didn't I have a pulse?

885
00:57:39,745 --> 00:57:40,714
No.

886
00:57:41,848 --> 00:57:44,184
Sorry, was I supposed
to check for that?

887
00:57:48,654 --> 00:57:50,957
I think so, yeah.

888
00:57:50,991 --> 00:57:53,360
I woulda checked for that.

889
00:57:56,363 --> 00:57:57,931
What happened to you?

890
00:57:57,964 --> 00:57:58,999
Nothing.

891
00:58:01,602 --> 00:58:03,937
So what made you come here?

892
00:58:05,105 --> 00:58:08,642
Forgive me,
super-invasive question.

893
00:58:08,674 --> 00:58:11,411
Of course you're here for
the same reason I'm here,

894
00:58:11,444 --> 00:58:14,381
but you shouldn't
have any problems.

895
00:58:14,413 --> 00:58:17,584
I mean, look at you.

896
00:58:17,618 --> 00:58:19,152
That's what everyone says.

897
00:58:19,185 --> 00:58:20,888
Barbara, we can't figure it out.

898
00:58:20,921 --> 00:58:22,355
You have everything.

899
00:58:22,388 --> 00:58:24,959
Looks, personality, you
dress like a million bucks,

900
00:58:24,991 --> 00:58:26,893
you actually have
a million bucks.

901
00:58:26,926 --> 00:58:28,228
Why are you still single?

902
00:58:28,261 --> 00:58:29,863
Nope, no one ever
says that to me.

903
00:58:29,897 --> 00:58:33,267
Most people tell me I should
smile more and wear makeup.

904
00:58:33,299 --> 00:58:36,603
Someone even
mentioned liposuction.

905
00:58:36,636 --> 00:58:38,004
That was a joke, OK?

906
00:58:38,038 --> 00:58:40,474
Yeah, it was hilarious.

907
00:58:40,506 --> 00:58:41,741
I don't know what to say.

908
00:58:41,774 --> 00:58:43,543
I feel as if I have
to give them a reason

909
00:58:43,576 --> 00:58:45,111
even when I don't know why.

910
00:58:45,145 --> 00:58:46,780
I've been looking
for over seven years.

911
00:58:46,812 --> 00:58:49,015
One day you'll be
ecstatic to be on your own

912
00:58:49,049 --> 00:58:52,085
with no husband
to drag you down.

913
00:58:52,118 --> 00:58:56,890
Tom was more like another child
to me than a real partner.

914
00:58:56,924 --> 00:59:01,062
Brenda, you never
said, why did you come?

915
00:59:02,930 --> 00:59:04,498
I have cancer.

916
00:59:13,506 --> 00:59:17,744
So how do you talk to God?

917
00:59:19,712 --> 00:59:22,415
It can be stream
of consciousness

918
00:59:23,817 --> 00:59:28,689
or if you want structure you
can divide up your conversation

919
00:59:28,721 --> 00:59:30,524
into three parts.

920
00:59:31,457 --> 00:59:32,526
First part,

921
00:59:33,627 --> 00:59:35,630
start with gratitude

922
00:59:36,863 --> 00:59:39,567
for the things that are
working in your life.

923
00:59:40,767 --> 00:59:42,402
For the things
you're happy about.

924
00:59:44,036 --> 00:59:45,872
Second part,

925
00:59:45,906 --> 00:59:48,709
tell God your problems

926
00:59:48,741 --> 00:59:51,312
as if to a close
friend or a therapist.

927
00:59:52,779 --> 00:59:55,516
Tell him everything
in your own words.

928
00:59:55,549 --> 00:59:57,618
Ask questions.

929
00:59:57,651 --> 00:59:59,386
Do you need to change something?

930
00:59:59,419 --> 01:00:01,121
To fix something?

931
01:00:01,154 --> 01:00:04,625
And then, the last part.

932
01:00:04,658 --> 01:00:06,926
Ask for help.

933
01:00:06,960 --> 01:00:09,563
Ask for what you want.

934
01:00:10,730 --> 01:00:13,901
Ask, ask for everything

935
01:00:15,468 --> 01:00:19,272
you need and don't hold back.

936
01:00:21,607 --> 01:00:24,678
An idea, thank God

937
01:00:24,710 --> 01:00:26,446
for giving it to you

938
01:00:27,480 --> 01:00:30,151
as if you already had it

939
01:00:31,551 --> 01:00:34,689
even if you don't have it yet.

940
01:00:35,622 --> 01:00:38,591
Everyone, pick a spot

941
01:00:39,759 --> 01:00:42,495
and spend an hour
talking to God.

942
01:00:48,234 --> 01:00:51,939
And remember, start
with gratitude.

943
01:00:53,939 --> 01:00:56,175
Thank you, God,
for my gorgeous eyes.

944
01:00:56,209 --> 01:00:57,777
Thank you, God,

945
01:01:00,346 --> 01:01:02,783
for my new teeth, implants.

946
01:01:02,815 --> 01:01:04,451
Thank you, God,
that my eyes look good

947
01:01:04,484 --> 01:01:06,520
with almost any
color eye shadow.

948
01:01:06,553 --> 01:01:10,623
That I can now chew hard food.

949
01:01:10,656 --> 01:01:13,727
Thank you, God, for that
amazing five course meal

950
01:01:13,759 --> 01:01:15,395
at the Waldorf on Sunday.

951
01:01:15,428 --> 01:01:16,829
Thank you for my new hip.

952
01:01:16,863 --> 01:01:20,466
Thank you, my son smiled
at me before I left.

953
01:01:20,500 --> 01:01:24,271
Thank you, God,
for my size 26 waist.

954
01:01:24,303 --> 01:01:26,339
I don't need a walker anymore.

955
01:01:26,372 --> 01:01:29,008
Thank you, God, for my
new leopard skin shoes

956
01:01:29,042 --> 01:01:30,944
and matching gold sequin belt.

957
01:01:30,977 --> 01:01:32,946
Thank you for

958
01:01:35,348 --> 01:01:37,451
letting me stay in the hospital

959
01:01:38,919 --> 01:01:42,723
longer, 'til they could
get me home health aide.

960
01:01:42,756 --> 01:01:45,225
Thank you, I didn't
forget my pills.

961
01:01:45,257 --> 01:01:47,727
Oh, and I almost forgot,

962
01:01:47,761 --> 01:01:49,730
thank you for my new Armani bag.

963
01:01:49,763 --> 01:01:53,734
I especially love the golden
clasp with a smiley face.

964
01:01:54,600 --> 01:01:55,602
Hah.

965
01:01:56,870 --> 01:02:00,241
Well, I know there's
more gratitude stuff

966
01:02:01,174 --> 01:02:02,576
but I kinda need to talk.

967
01:02:04,243 --> 01:02:06,046
Despite everything I have, God.

968
01:02:06,078 --> 01:02:07,214
I'm just not happy.

969
01:02:07,247 --> 01:02:08,748
I'm just not happy.

970
01:02:08,781 --> 01:02:10,350
I'm just not happy.

971
01:02:10,382 --> 01:02:11,551
How could I be happy?

972
01:02:11,585 --> 01:02:14,021
I'm like the six
million dollar woman.

973
01:02:14,053 --> 01:02:15,888
Half my body's made of titanium.

974
01:02:15,922 --> 01:02:18,257
My hip, my knee,

975
01:02:18,290 --> 01:02:19,426
my teeth.

976
01:02:19,459 --> 01:02:20,560
How can I be happy?

977
01:02:20,593 --> 01:02:22,161
I'm on six different
medications,

978
01:02:22,194 --> 01:02:24,664
they all have 10
different side effects.

979
01:02:24,698 --> 01:02:26,065
I just got fired.

980
01:02:26,098 --> 01:02:27,167
What's next?

981
01:02:27,200 --> 01:02:29,002
And my son hates me.

982
01:02:29,035 --> 01:02:31,337
How can I be happy?

983
01:02:31,370 --> 01:02:32,905
I can't find a man.

984
01:02:32,939 --> 01:02:34,174
All my friends are married

985
01:02:34,207 --> 01:02:36,877
and let's be real, God,

986
01:02:36,910 --> 01:02:39,846
my friends are great,
but I was the one

987
01:02:39,879 --> 01:02:41,948
who was supposed to
be married first.

988
01:02:41,982 --> 01:02:44,451
I mean, come on,
God, look at me.

989
01:02:44,484 --> 01:02:46,886
I just have a question, God.

990
01:02:46,919 --> 01:02:49,622
A simple question.

991
01:02:49,656 --> 01:02:50,958
What was the point?

992
01:02:50,991 --> 01:02:52,860
I can't find
anyone that I like.

993
01:02:52,893 --> 01:02:57,231
The two marriages,
Alan leaving me,

994
01:02:57,263 --> 01:03:00,267
my parents dying, meeting Yan,

995
01:03:00,299 --> 01:03:02,135
then him dying too.

996
01:03:02,169 --> 01:03:04,471
All the guys that like
me, all they care about is

997
01:03:04,504 --> 01:03:07,207
money, cars and clothes.

998
01:03:07,239 --> 01:03:12,212
They are so superficial, so
arrogant, so full of themselves.

999
01:03:13,113 --> 01:03:15,582
Taking care of everyone.

1000
01:03:15,614 --> 01:03:17,850
Just to watch them die.

1001
01:03:17,884 --> 01:03:19,186
I don't want that.

1002
01:03:20,020 --> 01:03:21,155
I'm not like that.

1003
01:03:21,187 --> 01:03:23,756
My meaningless job.

1004
01:03:25,158 --> 01:03:25,993
Am I?

1005
01:03:27,527 --> 01:03:28,929
Am I like that?

1006
01:03:28,962 --> 01:03:31,065
What am I supposed to say?

1007
01:03:31,964 --> 01:03:33,700
Thank you that I got fired?

1008
01:03:34,768 --> 01:03:36,003
That I'm on speed dial

1009
01:03:36,035 --> 01:03:38,671
with a psychiatrist
and a psychologist?

1010
01:03:38,705 --> 01:03:41,975
I mean, Is it my fault
you've given me so much?

1011
01:03:42,007 --> 01:03:45,078
OK, I know, I know, I'm not
living up to my full potential.

1012
01:03:45,111 --> 01:03:48,015
I know I could be doing
more with myself, but what?

1013
01:03:49,149 --> 01:03:53,053
I mean, right now,
all I do is eat, shop,

1014
01:03:53,085 --> 01:03:57,056
work out and worry
about not being married.

1015
01:03:57,089 --> 01:03:58,524
Maybe if I hadn't gotten fired

1016
01:03:58,558 --> 01:04:00,994
I wouldn't have the time
now to just focus on myself

1017
01:04:01,027 --> 01:04:03,197
instead of just
writing about it.

1018
01:04:03,230 --> 01:04:04,064
Maybe

1019
01:04:06,198 --> 01:04:07,767
I should embrace who I am.

1020
01:04:07,801 --> 01:04:10,971
Still, how do you expect
me to believe in you

1021
01:04:11,004 --> 01:04:13,507
when there's so much chaos
going on in the world?

1022
01:04:13,540 --> 01:04:15,042
Should I embrace who I am?

1023
01:04:16,475 --> 01:04:18,277
Can I embrace who I am?

1024
01:04:18,310 --> 01:04:20,913
In my mind, with my
son and in my work.

1025
01:04:20,946 --> 01:04:23,383
Can I embrace myself
just the way I am?

1026
01:04:33,292 --> 01:04:35,328
If only I could
just feel you with me

1027
01:04:35,361 --> 01:04:37,497
in the midst of all this chaos.

1028
01:04:39,832 --> 01:04:42,602
God, that felt good.

1029
01:04:44,136 --> 01:04:46,673
I can't remember the last time
someone hugged me like that.

1030
01:04:50,977 --> 01:04:55,047
Maybe it's OK to love
clothes and fashion.

1031
01:04:55,080 --> 01:04:58,352
Maybe I should do
something with this.

1032
01:04:58,384 --> 01:04:59,919
What do you think, God?

1033
01:04:59,953 --> 01:05:02,656
I mean, maybe that's the
reason I'm still single.

1034
01:05:02,689 --> 01:05:04,424
What was the point?

1035
01:05:04,457 --> 01:05:09,462
Because now the doctors
are saying it's all over.

1036
01:05:10,864 --> 01:05:14,602
And everything just passed like
some dull and painful dream

1037
01:05:15,335 --> 01:05:17,070
I barely even noticed.

1038
01:05:17,102 --> 01:05:20,106
I'm not ready to go yet.

1039
01:05:20,140 --> 01:05:22,908
This can't be all there is.

1040
01:05:22,942 --> 01:05:25,946
I still haven't
figured out who I am,

1041
01:05:25,978 --> 01:05:29,616
what I'm supposed
to do with my life.

1042
01:05:30,950 --> 01:05:35,756
I know I'm 65, but so what?

1043
01:05:36,855 --> 01:05:39,825
Until I'm in the ground
I'm not giving up.

1044
01:05:39,859 --> 01:05:43,930
So the question is, what
do you want from me?

1045
01:05:43,962 --> 01:05:45,064
Hmm?

1046
01:05:45,098 --> 01:05:48,235
Why am I here, huh?

1047
01:05:48,268 --> 01:05:49,970
Why am I here?

1048
01:05:51,971 --> 01:05:52,873
Why am I here?

1049
01:05:53,973 --> 01:05:56,076
Why am I here?

1050
01:06:01,948 --> 01:06:04,750
I read this beautiful
idea that every

1051
01:06:04,783 --> 01:06:07,320
soul comes into this
earth with a special song

1052
01:06:07,353 --> 01:06:09,323
that only it can sing.

1053
01:06:09,355 --> 01:06:11,591
Can a person live their
whole life and never sing it

1054
01:06:11,623 --> 01:06:15,863
or waste it trying to
sing someone else's song?

1055
01:06:17,129 --> 01:06:21,033
♪ Is it any wonder ♪

1056
01:06:21,067 --> 01:06:24,071
♪ You feel alone all the time? ♪

1057
01:06:24,937 --> 01:06:26,372
The world is full of messages.

1058
01:06:26,406 --> 01:06:29,276
Trim, lean,
abs in just minutes...

1059
01:06:29,308 --> 01:06:30,477
Do
this and you'll be happy.

1060
01:06:30,509 --> 01:06:32,111
Change that and
you'll be a success.

1061
01:06:32,145 --> 01:06:34,047
Lose weight, be perfect.

1062
01:06:34,080 --> 01:06:37,151
Beautiful,
handmade jewelry.

1063
01:06:38,183 --> 01:06:39,785
Accomplish.

1064
01:06:39,819 --> 01:06:41,221
I love you.

1065
01:06:43,056 --> 01:06:44,257
I love you.

1066
01:06:44,290 --> 01:06:46,794
Make a lot of money
and you'll be happy.

1067
01:06:49,129 --> 01:06:50,163
But I'm not.

1068
01:06:50,196 --> 01:06:51,797
Ah!

1069
01:06:51,830 --> 01:06:53,499
Wish I could be happy like that.

1070
01:06:53,533 --> 01:06:54,567
Do you really?

1071
01:06:54,600 --> 01:06:56,303
Of course, who wouldn't?

1072
01:06:56,335 --> 01:06:58,437
- OK.
- Huh?

1073
01:07:04,477 --> 01:07:06,513
I wish I could
be happy like that.

1074
01:07:08,781 --> 01:07:10,783
Just think of the scuff marks.

1075
01:07:17,189 --> 01:07:19,125
I gotta tell ya'
somethin', Fixer.

1076
01:07:19,158 --> 01:07:22,261
You're probably the best friend.

1077
01:07:22,294 --> 01:07:25,498
Actually, you're the only
friend that I have ever had.

1078
01:07:25,531 --> 01:07:28,634
But I just don't understand why.

1079
01:07:28,667 --> 01:07:30,202
Why all this?

1080
01:07:30,236 --> 01:07:33,306
Why do you insist on doing
all of this every night?

1081
01:07:33,339 --> 01:07:35,275
Why is it so important?

1082
01:07:37,109 --> 01:07:38,745
I came here thinking
I'd get an answer,

1083
01:07:38,777 --> 01:07:40,212
but I still don't know.

1084
01:07:40,245 --> 01:07:42,749
Talk to God every day.

1085
01:07:43,783 --> 01:07:46,051
For at least an hour.

1086
01:07:46,085 --> 01:07:48,221
Be yourself with Him.

1087
01:07:48,254 --> 01:07:50,089
Tell Him everything.

1088
01:07:51,790 --> 01:07:54,393
But the rest of the time,

1089
01:07:54,426 --> 01:07:56,962
the other 23 hours of the day,

1090
01:07:56,995 --> 01:08:00,633
a person must enlist
all their strength

1091
01:08:00,667 --> 01:08:03,370
to be joyful at all times.

1092
01:08:03,402 --> 01:08:08,107
It's human nature to be drawn
to depression and sadness

1093
01:08:08,140 --> 01:08:09,843
because of life's daily events.

1094
01:08:09,875 --> 01:08:14,513
Believe me, everyone is
filled with suffering.

1095
01:08:14,547 --> 01:08:16,884
No matter how it
looks on the outside.

1096
01:08:17,884 --> 01:08:20,953
That is why you

1097
01:08:20,987 --> 01:08:22,589
must force yourself

1098
01:08:22,621 --> 01:08:25,959
to be joyous at all times.

1099
01:08:27,594 --> 01:08:29,997
To make yourself happy

1100
01:08:31,363 --> 01:08:32,299
in any way possible.

1101
01:08:35,033 --> 01:08:36,769
Even with silliness

1102
01:08:37,670 --> 01:08:38,806
if necessary.

1103
01:08:40,739 --> 01:08:41,575
Ah!

1104
01:08:43,408 --> 01:08:45,478
How does she look?

1105
01:08:45,511 --> 01:08:47,046
Looks good to me.

1106
01:08:53,952 --> 01:08:55,855
My life is unfolding.

1107
01:08:55,889 --> 01:08:57,457
Whether I'm doing
it right or not,

1108
01:08:57,489 --> 01:08:59,059
I don't want to waste it.

1109
01:08:59,091 --> 01:09:00,960
If I could have faith
that You're with me

1110
01:09:00,993 --> 01:09:03,729
in every decision, even
the seemingly wrong ones,

1111
01:09:03,763 --> 01:09:07,768
then maybe my life would
be a life of meaning.

1112
01:09:08,968 --> 01:09:10,336
She said,

1113
01:09:14,706 --> 01:09:17,576
ask for what you want

1114
01:09:17,609 --> 01:09:18,911
like

1115
01:09:20,145 --> 01:09:21,982
you already have it.

1116
01:09:23,148 --> 01:09:25,117
Thank you, God,

1117
01:09:27,319 --> 01:09:28,589
for healing me.

1118
01:09:36,028 --> 01:09:38,598
Thank you for
sending me my soulmate.

1119
01:09:39,765 --> 01:09:43,603
Thank you for getting
me off all those meds.

1120
01:09:45,071 --> 01:09:47,806
Maybe I'm here to find you,
in,

1121
01:09:47,840 --> 01:09:49,176
in myself,

1122
01:09:50,242 --> 01:09:52,545
in others,

1123
01:09:55,148 --> 01:09:56,984
in everything around me

1124
01:09:58,952 --> 01:10:02,088
then every moment

1125
01:10:02,121 --> 01:10:05,025
would be my life's purpose.

1126
01:10:05,058 --> 01:10:07,861
Every moment would be my song.

1127
01:10:07,894 --> 01:10:09,830
Who are you?

1128
01:10:15,367 --> 01:10:18,437
Every breath, every thought,

1129
01:10:18,470 --> 01:10:21,073
every word,

1130
01:10:21,107 --> 01:10:22,743
every movement,

1131
01:10:24,943 --> 01:10:26,647
is that why I'm here?

1132
01:10:27,947 --> 01:10:30,450
To find you in it?

1133
01:10:31,584 --> 01:10:33,620
Why are we dancing?

1134
01:10:33,653 --> 01:10:36,356
Maybe because
it makes you happy.

1135
01:10:36,389 --> 01:10:40,060
Do you think that maybe
being happy is the thing

1136
01:10:40,093 --> 01:10:43,430
that makes your prayers heard?

1137
01:10:50,536 --> 01:10:54,674
So, do
you know why you're here yet?