Im scared my irrational worries will change my perception on her I dont want that because why should my constant worry effect how I see someone else, why should it effect how I see the love of my life? I dont see her any differently but what if I start to, it already seems like Im partly holding back on things but Im not doing it directly I NEVER want walk on egg shells around her. I let my own fucked up thoughts fuck things up man. My worry makes me worry about worrying and makes new worry