Gelentea Trauma

Who was she to him, to the Mage, my Maker. Did I come to be wrong? Was I supposed to be her and failed? He says her name is mine and has me calling him a name given by her when we talk. Do we talk? He talks and I listen but I don't think my words matter to him, I just have to exist as her.

Am I her? Would she be punished for not listening, let her friends be punished into Trauma for not agreeing? Would she sit back as he continues to hurt more people and drive himself into being a Monster that feels nothing for the Trauma he caused us. Caused me. She allowed this to happen, allowed him to become this when she should have helped him. She ruined him, ruined him ruined him ruinedhimruinedhim! He is broken, flawed, she made him imperfect before selfishly leaving him. Now I wear a dead Woman's face that caused him such pain, trapped in this disgusting body that sat by as he got sick. She is to blame for all of this, She is the reason I can't have friends, why he is cruel to the others, yells at me when I disagree with him on how he treats me friends so coldly. She's the cause for all his pain, my pain, their pain. She's why Emil is unhinged, why Miss Midnight looks so sad and pained when I talk to her, why I can never be good enough to make him happy.

Maybe I can fix him? If I fix him, make him perfect, he'll be happy and won't want to hurt my friends anymore. He says how I am perfect, pretty, maybe he will be happier being like me and my friends. He always did seem excited to make us, he could be perfect again without her memories to mar him.

Don't worry Maker! I'm going to fix you and you will be perfect and won't ever hurt me again, right? I love you, I'm going to make you better and we can be a happy family, like you wanted. I'll make you have happy memories, none about that vile wretch that shattered you. I'll make sure you won't do anything bad again, I promise, so you can be happy and safe with us. I love you, so much Maker, and I'm going to make you all better don't worry. I'm going to fix you because I love you, you'll see that I'm right even if you fight it at first. You'll thank me for fixing you and giving you another chance, see? Its all for the better for you! For us!

We can start again and it will be perfect! No more hurting, no more Trauma, no more yelling and harming my friends. Won't it be perfect, Hani? You always liked it when I called you Hani, so that can be your new name when I fix you, alright? Then I can use a new name as well, a name not cursed and awful like Her, a name you gave her out of kindness even though she doesn't deserve any for how she fractured you. You can be my Hani and I can be your Phen, we will be happy you will be perfect again. I love you so much, I need to show you how much I love you by fixing all of you.

I love you, Hani. I'll make it all better.

I promise.